Resistance and Defense

                1. Silence in the House
Jing woke before sunrise, as she did every morning. The house was quiet except for the faint ticking of the clock. She sat at the dining table with a cup of green tea and stared at the photograph hanging on the wall.
Her husband’s face looked calm, frozen in time.
Life had not stopped after his death, but something inside Jing had. She had learned to move forward like a machine—running the factory, signing documents, attending meetings—while carrying a silence she never shared with anyone.
Her two children filled the house with ordinary noise. Slant, her fifteen-year-old daughter, spent most of her time reading or scrolling through her phone. Acumen, her twelve-year-old son, preferred movies and games on his laptop.
One evening, as the wheat fields outside the city began turning golden, Slant asked,
“Mom, are we going to the village this summer?”
Jing looked up from the dishes she was washing.
“Yes,” she said quietly. “We will go.”
Acumen smiled. “Then we should start packing soon.”
“There is still time,” Jing replied.
Later that night, after dinner, the children went for a walk. Jing finished cleaning the kitchen and sat by the pool in the backyard. The water moved gently under the moonlight.
For a moment, the world felt peaceful.
But peace never lasted long in her mind.


                     2. The Village
A week later, they drove to the village where Jing had grown up.
The journey was long. Slant spent most of the drive taking pictures of the countryside, while Acumen watched the changing landscape through the car window.
When they arrived, Jing’s parents were waiting outside the old house.
The table inside was filled with dishes, just as it had been during Jing’s childhood. Her mother believed food was the first language of love.
After dinner, while the children explored the yard with their grandfather, Jing sat with her mother in the quiet living room.
Her mother studied her face carefully.
“You work too much,” she said. “But that is not what worries me.”
Jing waited.
“I worry about your loneliness.”
Jing smiled faintly.
“I live with his memories,” she said. “That is enough.”
Her eyes wandered across the wall of photographs—family gatherings, school achievements, childhood memories.
Then she stopped.
A photograph of her younger sister, Aaliya.
Jing had not spoken her name in years.
Her mother noticed.
After a long silence, she said quietly,
“Someone saw Aaliya’s fiancé in the neighboring town. He still lives there.”
Jing felt something tighten inside her chest.
The next morning, she drove there alone.
            

                     3. The Man on the Bench
The town park was almost empty.
Jing walked slowly along the path until she noticed a man sitting on a wooden bench, staring at the ground.
She approached him.
“Are you…?” she began.
He lifted his eyes. For a moment they were empty, as if life had drained out of them.
“I know who you are,” he said softly. “You are Aaliya’s sister.”
Jing sat beside him.
“Tell me what happened,” she said.
He took a long breath.
He told her about their love. About how Aaliya had chosen him despite her family’s anger. About their engagement and their small plans for the future.
Then he told her about the day she died.
“She was bringing flowers,” he said. “She saw me across the road and waved. Then a car struck her before she could cross.”
His voice trembled.
“She died in my arms.”
Jing closed her eyes.
But the story was not over.
He looked down at the grass again.
“That night, after we buried her, I went back to the graveyard. I could not leave her alone.”
His hands began to shake.
“I saw someone digging her grave.”
Jing felt her heartbeat slow.
“It was the man who had once proposed to her. He removed her from the grave… and violated her body.”
The words hung in the air like poison.
“I took her home,” he continued. “I buried her again in my garden. Where I could protect her.”
Jing stood up suddenly.
The sky felt heavier than before.
She walked out of the park without speaking.
             

                  4. A World Without Safety
As Jing drove back, every road felt unfamiliar.
Every passing stranger looked dangerous.
Her thoughts kept returning to one question.
Which place is safe for women?
Which religion?
Which culture?
Which class?
None of them.
Not even the grave.
The world she had believed in seemed to collapse around her.
                         

                          5. The Dream
That night, Jing dreamed of white curtains moving in the wind.
One by one, they began turning red.
Then she saw Aaliya standing in the distance.
Her white dress was covered with soil.
“It hurts,” Aaliya whispered.
Jing ran toward her.
“I’m sorry,” Jing cried. “I couldn’t protect you.”
Aaliya shook her head gently.
“My soul was never touched,” she said. “But the world is not kind to women.”
She stepped closer.
“Protect your children.”
“Teach them to be human before anything else.”
Then she disappeared.
Jing woke with tears running down her face.
              

                6. Resistance and Defense
Life slowly returned to its routine.
The factory still required decisions. The house still needed cleaning. The children still had school.
But Jing had changed.
She began writing every night.
Not stories. Not diaries.
Lessons.
About dignity.
About responsibility.
About humanity.
Gradually, the children began to change too. They started helping with the dishes. They cleaned their own rooms. They walked with their mother in the evenings and asked questions about the world.
One night, Slant asked,
“Mom… what is business?”
Jing thought for a moment.
“Business shapes society,” she said. “It can build a world… or destroy it.”
Slant looked thoughtful.
Jing placed her hand on her daughter’s shoulder.
“I cannot make the world safe,” she said quietly.
“But I can raise children who will never make it more dangerous.”
Later that night, she stood before her husband’s photograph.
“I am afraid,” she whispered.
Then she looked toward her children’s rooms.
“But I am ready.”
Outside, the world remained uncertain.
Inside the house, something stronger was growing.
Humanity.
And that was both her resistance and her defense.

Process of feeling pain…

Something felt, throughout the skin

It was mutual

Of being out in this world.

The yellow eyes- of a four day old,

was a reflection of not being fine.

From observing to the movement –

and repetition – don’t like it.

The heavy bag sore my shoulder

a lot of mind inside it-

hit like a nerve stretched while sneezing.

Tired of making attempts-

So I succeed – what next?

Another attempt!

My circle got small- something changed

I got used to- routine,

but it was inside the skin.

Eyes again got half open,

turned yellow – with memories.

Then,

Everything changed…soul liberates

of being out of the world.

Cinderella lost her glass shoes…

The colour of the gown fades away

Through the Sun’s treat on the streets

Pass-away from flowers-

and the colours on Billboard,

The road ended-up at the Bookshop.

found the idea of a woman in Portia, Beatrice –

Somewhere in Rozalind-

But just as a body in a framework.

This unstability makes me laugh,

and I continued my steps to wander

The dark ended me up in front of the sea,

every layer brings something to my ears-

I cannot understand, but it feels good,

I fell asleep and the sea engulfed me.

I was nothing, mere an idea

But today some steps had been encarved

On the open road-

The road doesn’t suit the glass,

So, Cinderella lost her glass shoes.

A Virgin Man in 2025

 It’s pouring with intensity, on the open road, where commonly people interact to decorate their life’s narration with the touch of various literary devices. I’m a young female writer, sitting in the library trying to alter the most prevailed word, called virgin. As a human being, where two fixed identities work, everywhere, in home, institutions, work, social activities or places, instead of Mother’s womb and Grave. Identity of one being a virgin, and other being a writer, so today, I’m writing on the opposite identity, according to society. Recently, I found some words on a random paper, which was;

‘’My heart shows disturbance…while writing sequence in the story’’.

It was getting cold as it was the winter’s first rain, so I went to the Café, ordered a cappuccino, and my ears heard a tune, holds a melody of a very fresh beginning, which was;

‘’ Our picture in my wallet-

    every time I saw it

    my eyes stop at Her side,

She in white dress and gown

chose the light to imagine Her like the sky-

here, every time I can reveal myself

Like Her Moon.

It creates my imagination every time, to fall like a drop’’.

And I like philosophy want to explore the nature of their meaning, and its role in their existence, like purpose, value and truth. I asked that boy, about the purpose in one word and he just said marriage, which is beautiful. Now here came the beautiful part, do you know the meaning of marriage, a pure relationship. I just tricked them just to confirm that what I realized about his way of seeing around and that girl, and also her selection of words when he was confessing. The boy’s eyes got narrowed and asked me what do you mean, mam. He continued by saying, we’re already engaged, and our proposal was family based. Our families introduced us to each other, and they know every detail about her family background and even mine family background. Then I asked, do you both know each other, understanding family background is something else. Now tell me, as a man what do you think your partner or wife?

He relied, she should be virgin, educated, and beautiful.

Wow! That’s interesting and precise.

Now, I asked the girl, the same question about what do you think about your partner or husband? She replied poetically, with whom I can create my first memory.

‘’Let’s create our first memory

I’ll flip my hair-you stare.

Your continuous eyes on me

Cherry on my cheeks will-

 create blossom on this shore.

The flower in your hand

Will be a personification of spring-

In my hair.

The shyness from your love

Will fall like dew, after the rain.’’

Whom I can write The First Letter, the longest call we will have, and so much other elements. To me it felt innocence but with the touch of reality. In the same moment she added, ‘’a character that Homer once built after Troy, called as Odysseus’’. I was not amazed, as in the race of modes of production definitely involves bourgeoisie and proletariat. And even history always narrate the power holder. She still hadn’t realized what I had, and I left that story, that starts from a spring memory.

Now, the summer is narrating something which is inside us, like unconscious’s unstructured pattern. But it was fun. I reached at a wedding venue, as one of my fellows had invited me on her wedding. A garden full of welcome, not beauty, as the beauty will walk in later- in white gown. We all were enjoying, and after some moments, the groom holds the mike and asks for the attention, and as the bride was on the entrance, he read a piece of poem, which was;

‘’You’re a pause among my every breathe

which stands like a monologue

among every breathe.

Before, a fog was inside

So, I found subjects outside-

With eyes, among nature.

But the day, you became my partner

Fog disappeared, and a self-appeared-

Whose only subject is You.

Before, I talk to the moon,

Now, I understand its silence.

Before, I had colors and beauty

Now you are the only proof of it.

Before, I can recognize every melody and tune

Now you’re the relation in every string of it.’’

I respected the event, but I left holding a white petal in hand. I was staring the petal with sympathy, but later I realized it’s not the petal’s fault, it’s the way it’s used.

It was windy outside, and the leaves decorated the roads, to make the road beautiful- O! this unity, I wonder! Only in You. The time where Art removes it’s veil. A man holding guitar and painful streak of lifeless voice, echoing words like;

‘’The Art, when he lost his ways in her eyes…

The kind of Art, when she listens every word with his voice…

The Art, of creating You as artistic side of my imagination…

The kind of Art, when he only found her as his only sight…

The Art, when she found him in her visionary eyes…

The kind of Art, appeared when both Ends themselves in each other’s arms, tight…

The Art, when she calls him as the sky, where she will fly…

The Art, of giving her the place with an unknown context…

The kind of Art, creates a rainbow in Monsoon, in dried fallen leaves, in the silence of inside stream, and in the appearance of new mean.’’

This makes winter to collapse in the Earth’s arm. To create my world view, like a state, through narrative. I narrate the world, dressing myself into beautiful red, and he came like beautiful snow which covers my deep rooted algorithm into a character. But in a speck of time, the pouring outside shattered my dream. Even dream was even uncomplete.

I chose black, a combination of every color.

                                                 By: YAM ( YOU & ME )

December 2001-2025

It’s my birthday –

announced by the tender light

over my cold lids and white cap,

So, I celebrate with the vibrant

white friend of mine-

holding coffee in my hand,

eyes full of beloved

I whispered to myself-

Happy Birthday!

Time to celebrate your every side,

which is called L for Life.

The Art…

Image

The Art, when he lost his ways in her eyes…
The kind of Art, when she listens every word with his voice…
The Art, of creating You as artistic side of my imagination…
The kind of Art, when he only found her as his only sight…
The Art, when she found him in her visionary eyes…
The kind of Art, appeared when both Ends themselves in each other’s arms, tight…
The Art, when she calls him as the sky, where she will fly…
The Art, of giving her the place with an unknown context…

To my partner…

You’re a pause among my every breathe,
which sounds like a monologue among every breathe
Before-a fog was inside,
So, I found subjects outside –
with eyes, among nature.
But the day, you became my partner –
Fog disappeared, and a self appear-
whose only subject was You.
Before, I talked to the moon,
Now I understand its silence.
Before I had colors and beauty-
Now You are the only proof of it.
Before I can recognize every melody and tune-
with it’s subject and course,
Now you’re the only relation in every melody and tune.

Let’s fall like Autumn 🍁

Human can fall like autumn leaves
In seasons like tears
Mind couldn’t make a clear vision
Sometimes eyes fall for cascade
‘times it falls for motley
‘times it falls for precipitation
‘times it falls for vibrant blossom
‘times it falls for silent green.
Oftentimes it couldn’t understand the eavesdropping
among the litter and the lighters
It couldn’t realize that touch surrounded by personifications
It couldn’t have that scent as a pleasure