Hello thank you for all your questions promise I’ll answer them all tomorrow deadline is 1Am xx

Hey! I’ve been reminded of the side blog today how is evrhone hope you are all well! Maybe it’s time to come back from the hiatus who knows alas I’ll ease in slowly send me some questions and I’ll answer them through the night big love ♡

VA🍂

I’ll actually be replying to emails tonight guys so please stop shouting at me cx

See I’m like you

Without good moods

And my caves my room

Where ill cave too

What’s the last time something BROKE you.For a blog that preaches positivity it’s not something we usually talk about but maybe an important part of healing is acknowledgment of the cause of the pain.There is a great great difference between something that broke you and something that upset you .For instance what broke me was finding out a one and a half year relationship with someone I loved honestly was one sided and mostly a lie.What upset me was realising Colson wouldn’t actually ever want to date me he’s bored in quarentine(big up to the best friend for her initiative in that 💛)so whilst I tried to become less invested in him and come to the realisation that once he goes off to his “next step” I’ll probably never see him again allot of the hurt and the insecurity and the feeling of injustice from the LAST relationship was brought up. What I’m saying is if something upsets you ALLOT it’s usually linked to something else which brings feeling bubbling up to the surface. You might think your over it the pieces broke they won’t come back together.But “you can’t break something that’s already broken but fuck it you can still smash the pieces?” 🌻please protect yourselves look after yourselves and know that any hurt is temporary if anyone wants to talk about well anything viennaautumn72@gmail.com let me know 💛I love you guys

Sunflower girl/vienna autumn 🌻Xxx

Inciting incidents-it’s the point at the start of the movie where something happens to the hero that changes their life.In Harry Potter Hagrid tells Harry he’s a wizard. In a new hope its Princess Leia putting a message for Obi-Wan Kenobi and plans to the Death Star in R2-D2.Basically this event has a BIG effect that fundamentally alters the rest of the storyline. So who’s your inciting incident?What recently had changed the way you think the way you feel?What one thing REALLY stands out to you.To me it was the first time I’ve felt safe and well confident in a while .And it started in someone’s arms in fact when someone picked me up and I could feel his heart beating very very fast before he kissed me.An inciting incident.An incident that in-fact lowered my heart rate to a BEFORE anxiety level which is well,mad.It becomes a problem when I’m not trying to get attached to him because that’s the last thing he wants but I don’t know maybe this inciting incident leads to a happy ending with Colson. IF I ever tell him which I’m not going to any time soon – I’ll let him take the lead in that one(might be a lil weird if I start calling him my inciting incident although I did TRY and mention it when I met him .ANYWAYS I love you guys thanks for all the questions I’ll answer some soon I PROMISE ♡ have an amazing time I’ll see you very very very soon Xxx

there is a broken heart
hidden beneath a burning car
a frightened fucked up star
and empty table by the bar
it said don’t run away
don’t hurt yourself if misbehave
we
we are the lonely ones
we are
we are

We did it guys!! One point two is like amazing you guys are literally the best. Now this post is only gonna be short because I’m actually been a good girlfriend for once (shocking I’m aware) and trying to have a good night with CB (those who are new first of 👋 and secondly CB is the name of my boyfriend mayyyy or may not stand for Connor ball the vamps bassist ,but alas a boy who looks very very much like him ) he’s been super distant lately which sucks cause he’s the only one I know who’s busy and can’t call literally at all through a quarantine but hey we love him 💛Anyways as I was saying it’s only gonna be short so I thought id answer a #QOTD todays gonna be from a subscriber called @slightlyoutoftime6 who says “Hey Vi, I’m really loving the content on CB recently it’s clear how much you love him even through a screen.Do you have anything you two do together that’s special and has kinda become a tradition (like on your nightly FaceTime calls a habit or like a place you always go, a song, something you do together every little day that you both make an effort to do) if so let me know we could all do with a love story as beautiful as yours . Love you both from (a very beautiful country that data protection does not allow me to reveal what she said)” , Well first of THANK YOU 🌻Any continued support means ALLOT and I have to say I adore how invested you guys are in our relationship.Honestly guys we are kinda boring, we aren’t kinda a couple that call every night or go on dates like every week or do big romantic gestures because to be honest we are busy.He’s really ambitious and driven plus superrrrr into his fitness and his dedication is something I really love that about him but it just means we don’t have time to to do you know relationshipy stuff. But just because he doesn’t have time doesn’t mean I can’t do stuff on my own even if I never show him. As allot of you probably know I’ve been dedicating allot of time to him on this blog ,I’ve been writing songs and I’ve actually started a thing where I have a playlist and I add a collection of songs that remind me of him to it . He does have the link but i don’t actually think he’s listened to it I’m guessing he’s forgot tbh. Another thing I’ve been doing which is a kind of weird habit I guess but I always paint my nails his favourite colour and try to incorporate him into my life in little bits like always wearing his hoodie .He is someone who would much rather invest his effort into his family and his schoolwork and his fitness than our relationship which shows how invested in his future he is which u guess is an attractive trait (I’m kinda hoping isn’t because he doesn’t care maybe it’s because he’s secure?) Honestly god knows.I know even tho CB doesn’t do this anymore allot of guys wear there girlfriends scrunchies and write their girls names on their bodies. Also this is something I used to do with my best friend that brought us allot closer have a virtual (friend)date night where you call and snuggle up and watch a film or stargaze.CB also used to make me playlists and pinboards and show me off and post photos of me and that used to make me really happy . Also when you get out of quarantine going on adventures and taking hikes making each other breakfast and food and coffee or even hot chocolate. Also those of you who remember Autumn boy times knew I used to make him like the woven bracelets and I had a promise ring from him . I know allot if these things are material but there’s rings from like Primark that are £1 and I promise they’d mean the world to any girl especially if they were from their significant other 🙂 ♡ So yeah I’m sorry I can’t be much help in the romantic gestures part of a relationship because well the guy I’m dating isn’t that type. I know what your thinking if you’ve been here from the start “but you are” yes and at times I do get annoyed and frustrates that we don’t do that but at the end of the day I still have him 💛he honestly is my favourite person in the world and I trust him and love him more than I have with anyone before ✨So if it means I have to change what makes me happy , like yeah that gets me upset and anxious from time to time and I doubt our relationship ( as my poor LOOK UP group know ) but at the end of the day to say I’m dating him is the biggest achievement and I’m immensely proud to say even a tiny little bit of him is mine . I know I said this post will be short but I think my planned night has gone to pot because he’s busy so I’ll be active most of the night if you wanna send in any questions (Viennaautumn72@gmail.com) as always I love you guys more than anything ever if anyone wants to talk tonight or most of the week drop me an email let’s talk .

Love you guys Sunflower girl 🌻

“I really just want to be warm yellow light that pours over everyone I love”

Remember me? I know right now about 2,000 notifications have been sent to say that a blog from a long time ago ,nearly 2 years now has posted,most of you won’t of clicked on this ,why would you want to read a blog from a girl you used to talk to that long ago?More importantly why would I waste my time starting up an old vent blog from when I was a completely different person? Both totally reasonable questions and a things I debated…allot.The truth is this blog was my home my happy place to know that my ramblings thoughts and outlook on the world gave me a reason to live made my the happiest human on the 🌍 in all serious I’ve missed you .So if you wnat to hear about a new completely honest story about the girl with the yellow converse come abound cause god knows I’ve missed you 💛 I love you all more than you ever know

                                                        Love and love and love                       Sunflower girl 🌻