When you lose a person you looked up to. You have many thoughts, but one of the biggest is typically. They didn’t get to see me do X, or they’ll never get to see me do Z. Selfish thoughts I know, but in all honesty. We want the people we look up to, to see […]Read Post ›
… Who am I? The thing about opening up, is people seem to want to do it. & people seem to want to be there for the person that is opening up. However we’re all going through our own shit. & we can all be there for each other but only to a certain extent. […]Read Post ›
“…I swear its you, I swear it’s you that I’ve waited for. I swear it’s you, I swear it’s you that my heart beats for…” I haven’t been here in a very long time. Not that I haven’t been writing, because I’ll always write. I just haven’t published anything. Yesterday for the first time in […]Read Post ›
Am I mad at her? Or am I mad at myself? Are my insecurities the problem? Or are her insecurities the problem? How am I so good at certain parts and terrible at others? What happens now? How is it that I’m forever accused of cheating? I’m not that good looking so let’s get fucking […]Read Post ›
Just to be as clear as possible… I am not angry with what you did, I’m angry with how you went about it. There are certain individuals that may or may not really understand it yet. Jeramie I am not angry about what you did, primarily because there wasn’t some crazy ass unforgettable act. I’m […]Read Post ›
“…So scared of getting older, I’m only good at being young. So I play the numbers game to find a way to say that life has just begun…” I’ve moved 4 times in the past 3 years. It’s not the uncertainty that gets to me, it’s the tireless crave for HOME. I still do not […]Read Post ›
Every day after I step out of my house, I pray to my guardian angels. I thank them for everything they’ve helped me do & accomplish in my life. & the wonderful opportunities they’ve given me. I apologize for any time I’ve disrespected them in the past or haven’t been consistent in my speaking with […]Read Post ›
Dear Amazing Nephew- First off I want to apologize to you. I am deeply sorry for what you have gone through and you’re sill enduring. You were brought into this world when I was just 15 years old. At the time I had a strong relationship with your father and your grandmother. […]Read Post ›
All the things from the past that people love to grow & forget, I remember these things vividly. It really was not that long ago, yet in your mind it “barely happened”. For example my blood brother and I made an oath when we were children. The oath was that when we grow up and […]Read Post ›
I have flashbacks sometimes, very deep and vivid flashbacks from childhood. Today I went to get my Remicade treatment. While I was there a nurse asked me about my name. I was proud to say I legally changed it. I typically only get asked about the process of changing, after I say for personal family […]Read Post ›
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