to me everything
was blurry
I couldn’t figure out
anything
except this
big black shadow
and then it growled
and fire came
out of its mouth
and then I saw it
its tongue flowing
with blood
hung from the sky
and before I could react
it lapped me up
and crushed
in the ogre’s teeth
I died as I was swallowed.
it is magical
the trees take me
400 years ago
with their green leaves
swaying
and the golden sunlight
fills me with its warmth
I feel its love
and then life
and everything else
makes sense
the mountains smile
at me
the wind blows me
a thousand kisses
the women here
laugh
and I melt
in their voices.
yet it was actual
my heart was a boat
in the sea
rocking
and the beauty
of the moment
the fear
I lived through
because
life was magic
and this vision
was a reality
and strangely
I was sinking
in joy.
of roses
blooming in gardens
of stars twinkling
in the sky
of love
of the oceans
singing in your ears
silver songs
of your heart
tingling with
every beat
of the moon
your lover
appearing
in the dark vault
of you
holding her
with your hands
and kissing her
in ecstasy
till you melt
with emotion
deeply felt.
next door
and laugh
and the child
is entertained too
how happy
her gurgling is
I think of her
as an angel
visiting
our locality
and the birds
chirp in joy
glad to be here
but yesterday
the little one fell
and she cried
so bitterly
calling
for her father
Babuji Babuji Babuji
on and on and on
it broke
my heart
though once more
today she is
enchanted
and in her voice
I float free
full of glee
and then I fly
up high
there
in the deep blue sky.
while grazing
on the grass here
how peaceful
they look
slow
and beautiful
and this brown one
comes so close
to the property
next to mine
munching
on some plants
and the black
and white one
in the distance
is so lovely
it is so good
to have them here
I think of their milk
them feeding
their calves
and it takes me
to places
so magical
to Virgil’s pastures
to the dreams
in their eyes
and I am so happy
to find this
motherly love.
I tell myself
you will break
your heart
enjoy the moment
the blue sky
the forest
know that
the sun shining
is for you
its blazing
golden light
beaming
into your eyes
this morning
is saying
hey you
I love you.
in my ears
and I become
the absence
of myself
vanished
to my mind
I am the entire
universe
I am so beautiful
if you touch me
you will glow.
you are born with it
misery is like a sibling
breaking your heart
bringing tears
to your eyes
and your mind
is a moon
that disappears
and you are lost
like love
and you feel
this bitter truth
every moment
slowing you
tiring you
down the road
till you are no more.
on my hands and legs
I had become an animal
and there were
microscopic creatures
living on me
and I knew the universe
was evil
its devious ways
breaking my body
and mind
making me a beast
and the heat finally
finished me
the burning sky
blinding me
and with
my white eyes open
I died.
Dominic Alapat 