though when I raise my arms
for it to take me away
it quickly gets behind me
tapping me on my shoulder
and when I turn around
it’s not there
I have never cried so loudly
in my life
never been so bullied
so traumatized
so cheated
this world is fooling me
I cannot keep
my head raised
it falls onto my chest
there’s saliva flowing
out of my mouth
and so much turbulence
like I am in an aircraft
about to crash
it is so noisy
like mad music
entering my ears
along with jeeps
and bikes
and trumpets
and drums
and they are
dragging me
somewhere
it is like the end
of the universe
there are all
these sirens
and people
keep coming at me
and what am I
to do
but crash onto
the ground
screaming
and they have
tied me
but won’t come
when I call them
what do they want
will they sacrifice me
like an animal
and when I ask them
what they want
they laugh and cry
and I do the same
but I do not die
I’m just being pushed
and pulled
and all I can say is
I am finished
I am finished
I am finished
though I know
I am still alive
I am not dead
they just keep
changing my bed.