I feel like a star withered
an old shoe in the gutter
a coin stuck in the road
an empty letter in a postbox
I feel like dust swept away
a world that is at war
monkeys fighting in the trees
I feel like hiding in a staircase
bullets flying in the night
I am wounded badly
I am the blood flowing
from my mouth
till my breath is gone
another human who dies
the body gathering flies.
had streets
and demons
prowled on it
and I was there too
and I fought
these ogres
till I found
that I was
a ghost
and then
I howled
and ran
down the roads
I ate vehicles
and kicked
buildings
but nothing worked
so now I live
in this gutter
and to myself
I mutter.
of my body
makes me feel
like a bomb
that will explode
while there is this
lash of a sword
across my neck
and my head
rolls on the ground
and the people passing by
kick me to the kerb
and soon I am
in the gutter
the two parts
of me decay
and wither
and as the waste
of this world
pours from above
my skull and my skeleton
shake and rattle
now after life’s battle.
in its demonic claws
and stings my mind
with its poison
and people turn
into burning flesh
buildings fall
and cars are
crushed under them
I run like a rat
into a gutter
until I am hit by fire
and burst into flames.
like a useless
piece of paper
and I am blown about
in the wind
and then someone
kicks me
out the way
and I am
run over
by a car
and fall
in the gutter
and there
in the darkness
I wither
in the dirty water
and drown.
in which I flow
and the smell
of the people
is terrible
how we see
each other
close our eyes
and die
life is now
this dirty water
and our screams
are useless
our hearts beat slow
and then we go
and we ask ourselves
how did we get
into this shit
we see parts
of our bodies
eaten by rats
and we know
how crazy and weak
we were to get here
in the first place
and we curse ourselves
and in this mess
like before
we start fighting
once again
our blood pouring
like rain
and through
all the pain
we will not
give up
we are
that vain.
this morning
my mind was shaking
and then words were
driving me mad
they broke me
and my life
rolled out on the road
and fell into a gutter
and soon I was sinking
in the dirty water
till the Earth
consumed me
and all was over.
Dominic Alapat 