I Need to Reach that Place

where there is silence

in noise

where there is quietness

in chatter

where garbage is paradise

where I am at peace

in the midst of war

how does one live through

so much horror I wonder

and realise

that’s why I’m in such a hurry

to get there

where you attain such serenity

that nothing affects you

and when you die you laugh so loud

that it echoes all over the universe

I need to reach that place to live.

Chores Destroy my Peace of Mind

they are a bother

and though I tell myself

to take it easy

I am rattled

and sad

till unhappiness

sinks into my stomach

and I am no different

from a rat

I am as vulnerable

and I feel my insides

come out of my

peeling red skin

and my neighbours

shriek in horror

when they see me

and run

and I begin to rot

under the sun

and realise that now

nothing can be done.

Last Night the Demon Rose from the Earth

and grabbed my head

and with open eyes

I stared at everything

in horror

the world became such

a different place

so much evil I had to

contend with

from so many

wicked people

things going

to the dregs

and now with half

my skull in its hand

the ogre stands

and I know I will

never really

understand myself

before I die

life will make me

breathless

my body weak

my legs tired

and the end

will be bad

I know.

The Dark Places

The buildings are terrified

they weep all the time

the trees droop in sadness

the Earth is devastated

there is such bitterness

the children screech

till they choke and fall

on the ground

and we are frozen

in shock

wondering

what all this is

such horror

we have never seen

and then we cannot

see anything

in the blackness

we have no sensation

and instantly our breath

our lives are gone.

My Head Flows in Blood

along with

other heads

and my body

is in the street

on a pile of others

the Earth has been

rocked by madness

the trees have

come to fight

the seas roar

in horror under

the sky which is

a mess of fingers

hearts nails

and vomit

and animals

explode in shock

this is insanity

dancing in

the world

stamping it

to pieces

until all life

and everything

is gone.

What Do I Do

if life is killing me

what should I do

what can I do

and I know there

is nothing that

will stop the world

from blowing out

my flame

and I will go

like so many

before me

as simple as that

I tell myself

you are born

to die

and sometimes

you feel the heat

the horror

of existence

burning you alive

and in flames

you scream

wishing this was

a dream

but it is not

you have to live

through it

live through

the pain

the sadism

of the whole

thing

broken

and breathing

fire

wondering

how long

this will last

when all you

want now is

to die fast.

We are all Mad

a neighbour says

to someone

amidst all

the chatter outside

and I think

if there is so much

horror that

we have to face

what do we expect

what do we think

will happen

to the world

and the answer

is anything

anything can

happen

we know

and whether

we are prepared

for the worst

or no

we will go.