Tag Archives: Lose

I am Full of Power

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so I recognise humilty

and respect it

because it has

nobility of character

and I live by its values

its humanity

and this makes me

so strong

I lose all fear

confidence becomes

a sea I swim

making my

illnesses meaningless

and telling me

I am a god

I will live forever.

I Lose and Find Myself

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all the time

wandering places

in my mind

and then I

come back home

but I am not

the same

several times

this morning

I had drifted

long distances

across time

and space

and was standing

in the dawn

in the clearing

darkness

in another location

and now from

my house

here again

I see the light

getting brighter

and brighter

with my old eyes

and my cold fingers

are the only things

I recognise

after all these years.

It’s Taking me Time to Relax

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mania is coiled

like a serpent

in my brain

and I lose my trail

from moment

to moment

life doesn’t help

it is fast asleep

totally indifferent

and here I am

thrown against

walls again

and again

screaming

in bewilderment

bleeding

in pain

and I feel calm

only as I die

because

I become

a bird

and begin

to fly.

O World you are Terrible Today

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you make me want to whip you

I was in such a mess this morning

my brain kept coming out of my ears

and it was such a struggle to push it back in

I am still in pain my eyes cloud over

and blood starts flowing out of them

soon I can’t see anything and run

till I feel dizzy and fall

beginning to lose consciousness

I know my body is there

but it weakens and death

takes my last breath.

So Shitty

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the world can seem

in a moment

like all human rage

and violence

were directed

against you

slowly vapourising

your body

your mind

rags of language 

are of no use

when everyone

looks strangely

at you

as though you

were some

mythical creature

come to existence

to fade away

only you know

the pain

only you know

how it feels

to lose your life

because it is yours

and no one else’s

only you know

these evil people

their network

how they work

trying to kill you

and you die

fighting them

now with your

near invisible fists

throwing punch

after punch

at this

multitudinous

devil.

Life is Making me Lose Sleep

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some strange call

in the middle

of the night

and then I wake up

at 4 am

then I sleep

in the evening

past my bedtime

and wake up

and have dinner

and my medicines

and then it’s

difficult to sleep

and again

my eyes burn

at their corners

and my body

is sluggish

O this world

is nothing

but rubbish.