The Birds Carry Me Over The Mountains

and the silver sky smiles

my heart becomes the wind

my mind is singing

and I am full of green trees

with their branches swaying

and I realise my avian friends

are showing me their magic

and suddenly I turn into

the blue sea and then

the moon shining

and soon I am spread

across the firmament

in a trillion stars.

To Die So Many Times

is really painful

world after world

passing away

the sun sinking

in your heart

making you collapse

again and again

and you realise

that your body

is scraping

the bottom

of the Earth

and the sea

and the sky

and you wonder why

and you cry.

Inside Me Sadness

flows like the sea

and becomes life itself

and I slowly realise

that I am drowning

and I scream

at the dying light

in the sky

O how I have

been abandoned 

what a horror

it is to live

and I lose my mind

and think I am

the darkening waves

the thunder

shaking my heart

the lightning

the breathing

of demons

before I sink

and die.

Madness Took Hold

of me

in the night

years were running by

wounded

the sea said I am with you

but I wasn’t sure

the mountains

were speechless

the darkness was

making a stand

and throwing random

images into my mind

and I was trying

to dodge them

and suddenly

I became a rat

crawling through

the sewers

and then my body

was blood

flowing

and that was

the end of me.

The Day Was Like The Sea

in which

we were swimming

and so happy

we greeted

each other

like brothers

and sisters

and hugged

and happiness

was like water

we were floating

through

delighted

in wonder at

the world

its sudden joy

its warm embrace

and how lucky

we were to

experience this

and our hearts

were so big

we could love

the whole universe

and everyone in it

right back.

Salt Pans

I suddenly remember

from an old NCC camp

while in school

blazing under

the afternoon sun

in Kelve near the sea

and the water was so beautiful

so transparent so pure

and the soft white sand

we walked on

chatting in the evening

and then there was

this thicket of trees

beyond the beach

as far as the eye could see

and it was so mesmerising

in its beauty

I think now

that was paradise

we were strolling through 

watching the sunset

and the place belonged

to the Navy

and we were supposed

to relieve ourselves

in the open

which many of us couldn’t

for seven days

and it was late December

and after a tiring day of

exercise and parades

it was Christmas eve

and I was so drowsy

and often asleep

travelling in this Navy truck

with other Christian cadets

to a church to attend midnight mass

I remember the golden light

from the bulb

in the wooden church

I remember my classmate Floyd

and other nights in the hall

where we slept and how before that

we sang bawdy songs raucously

in our breaking adolescent voices

that rang under the deep blue sky

and its multitude of twinkling stars.

Then The World

was fluorescent

in the night

the city of Bombay

was a sea

and its buildings

were ships

with their windows lit

and in the day

the dish antennas

on the terraces

looked like masts

but the roads were

clogged with traffic

and I felt

I was tied to the Earth

but here in Kumily

there is green mountain

after green mountain

and beyond that

there is only blue sky

where I can fly

my element is air

I am a bird here

I feel like the universe itself

and I am free

and so is my song

and mortality

doesn’t bother me

one day I will fall

to the ground and die

but until then I will fly

and the birds chirp

and the forest sings

O Dominic you are

the king of kings.

I Am Sinking

like a ship

in dark stormy waters

while the world outside

is shining golden

what does it know

of my suffering

O birds who chirp

I always thought

we were friends

but I was wrong

I am here all alone

by myself in the world  

there is no one else

and that is the truth

I realised

but it was too late

my body and my mind broke

and now it is not me

but my ghost

you see

I wander

not knowing where

always lost

and there I am

walking into the wild sea

drowning

in these roaring waves.