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choose life

September 25, 2008

I will not look at me

So don’t tell me what you don’t see

I’m gonna look at who I am

by the blood of the the Great I AM

Who I am is Who He is

Not who He was Not who I’m not

Don’t tell me what you see

If you can’t see Him in me

Cause Him in me is all there is

I died with Him and I am His

I’m a dead man walking in a place called earth

His life and breath came with new birth

I had to die to be born again

and I’m not gonna stare at crucified sin

I’m setting my eyes up above

HE lives again, I’m filled with His love

Don’t try to get me looking at dead flesh

I’m not focusing on a dead mess

Jesus suffered and that was enough

He died and took with him with all my dead stuff

but that wasn’t the end so I’m not stopping there

He tromped on the devil and broke his snare

the devil aint got nothing on me

Jesus said he’s powerless and I believe

if I choose to focus on all he does

I lose sight of Amazing Love

I start to believe that’s who I am

a deafeated, broken, miserable scam

So I’m gonna keep looking at what is true

Jesus didn’t just die for me and you

He also tromped on the devils head

and then he came back from the dead!

He’s not a story in a History book

He’s not a future promise for us to wait and look

He’s right here, and He’s right now

He says as He is, so am I, Wow!

Stop looking at dead flesh and stories gone by

Stop hoping that someday we’ll see Him in the sky

Waiting to fly away to be free

When freedom is now, can’t you see?

It’s not all gonna change when you’ve done enough

It’s not all gonna change when you’ve finally fixed your stuff

It’s not all gonna change when you live as perfect as a nun

It’s not all gonna change till you recognize the Son

Who He is, not Who He was, 

Him here now with life giving blood

You can’t do what’s already done

Stop paying for your sins, Father sent His Son!

Start cashing in on the check He’s given

Receive His love, and just start living

I’m not just talking about getting saved

I’m talking about dying for the life He gave

How can you walk in New Life alone

if you keep dragging up all your dead bones?

Maybe if you peek at who He says you are

You’ll stop seeing who they say you aren’t. 

Kelly Chorley 

2008

The Restaurant

August 26, 2008
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Their once was a restaurant in a city that had the reputation for being the best restaurant around. What was so special about this restaurant, and different, was that the owners would spend the day and evening sitting with the people that came to eat, and just enjoy their company. That’s why so many people came to this restaurant. The owners sat with the patrons. They weren’t “owners from afar”. They sat at the tables with those eating, and they didn’t spend all of their time talking about their restaurant and their food and how they ran the restaurant. They just let the patrons experience the atmosphere, the delicious food being served, and good fellowship and conversation about life outside of the restaurant. They didn’t focus on the patrons eating. They knew the food was good, well seasoned when needed, sweet when needed, with just the right drink to wash it down. They believed in the culinary talents in their chefs. They knew that true chefs couldn’t be taught a recipe from a book, but rather the recipe was inside of them. And from the inside of them, they know just how many handfuls, pinches, or sloshes to put in everything they created. And they didn’t just cook, they created. They were convinced they had the TOP chefs.

And the wait staff, there was none like it. The person overseeing the wait staff knew well all three parts that the wait staff was involved in…from waiting on the patrons, to interacting with the chefs, and interacting with one another, so had the eye and wisdom to create this 10 lane intersection in the middle of the restaurant where the traffic flowed like a river.

Even the support staff, the hostesses and bussers, was led by nothing but the best. This staff was trained so efficiently by the one overseeing it that they seemed invisible. You didn’t see them clearing away the plates and food, or sweeping up messes, or laying out the tables or re-lighting candles or filling water glasses. It just seemed to always be done. It just seemed to happen without attention ever being drawn to it.

Even the live music that was provided every night…it was almost like they were invisible. They just helped create the atmosphere that made the restaurant so inviting, that made it so easy for people to come and be themselves around the owners.

Everyone knew the owners had gone to great care selecting every single employee for the restaurant, so that their own time could be free to eat with the guests. There was someone appointed over each area that was able to deal with whatever situation arose, and they knew the heart of the owners well. When you were talking to those appointed, you knew you were talking to the owners. They knew the very purpose of the restaurant was to create an atmosphere for people to just be filled, and know they were loved, and be treated like the royalty that the owners believed each and every person was. They each fulfilled their area with that as the end goal.

But then one day, a complaint arose from one of the patrons at the table where the owners were dining. Not just any patron, but a very important dignitary sent from a far country. His steak had so much salt poured on top of it that you couldn’t even put a bite of it in your mouth without it causing an absolute repulsion to the taste buds! The dignitary was offended, to say the least, and caused quite a commotion about it.

Normally if something was not right, the owners would just make sure the head chef was aware so that he could take care of the situation. This day however, at the advice of the dignitary, who said that as owners they should be preparing the meals for important people themselves, they chose to take matters into their own hands. They headed back to the kitchen, and instead of relaying the situation to the head chef , they drew the conclusion that the head chef just wasn’t able to perform his job properly, and that they, the owners, indeed should be preparing these meals for important people themselves. They relegated the chefs to the back of the kitchen, and took over all of the cooking, trying to make up for the bad meal that had been served to the dignitary.

Except the owners were not chefs at all. The food that they were able to create was that of friendship and love, not meat and desserts. As they began cooking, they realized that they couldn’t understand the shorthand of the waitresses, all of the codes they used for each specification, so the owners wife decided that the tickets needed to be changed to be understood by all, not just the chefs. More often than not the food they prepared would have to be returned to the kitchen as it was not prepared to the specifications of the patrons. The owners began to marvel at all of the unhappy patron comments that they were hearing from the kitchen. They were amazed at all of the complaints about their chefs that they had previously been unaware of. They thought it was a good thing they came back there to bring order. They certainly did agree with that dignitary, this kitchen was chaos because they themselves had not been in charge of it. They noticed the Head Chef was so frustrated, and concluded that this certainly must have been the source of the chaos. They decided that he wasn’t as qualified as they once thought to be the head chef, so demoted him for a season of training as just a chef, underneath themselves.

And the owners worked all the harder to bring order.

What they didn’t see though was that the waitresses were getting bombarded by the complaints of the patrons. They began to grow weary of all the complaining, and lost their joy in serving. One by one the wait staff began to quit. While the owners wife stayed in the kitchen cooking and trying to retrain the chefs in between orders, the owner himself decided he had better go out and bring order to the wait staff. Seeing the frustration and chaos and discouragement of the wait staff, the owner concluded that the Team Leader of the wait staff must be going through some personal problems at home or something for his area to have gotten so out of control, and it was only confirmed by the grief and discontent written all over the team leaders face. So the owner decided to lay him off for awhile so he could get his personal life in order. Even suggested counseling and offered to pay for it.

The owner had to do much of the waiting on tables himself, as so many of the wait staff had already quit. The young bussers and hostesses simply could not handle the atmosphere of the restaurant any longer to work here. In wisdom, so that they would not be affected by the chaos and disorderly way this restaurant was being run, their team leaders sent them all away. He told them to go to another restaurant and work there, until order returned once again. He knew they were so young and impressionable that whatever they learned here would stay with them for a very long time. He also saw the potential in each of these kids, they had a servants heart like he had never seen before, and wasn’t about to let that be stolen from them. For that he was fired.

And now the owner and the few wait staff that were left had to not only do the wait job of so many that had quit, but also had to do the bus work and clean up the tables. There simply was no longer a hostess, and no one to do it. People would just have to come in and find their own seats and menus and wait.

The owners wife could no longer keep up in the kitchen either, and decided the menu selection must be changed, pared down to accommodate her exhaustion level. As much as she was trying to train the chefs in the kitchen in between orders, she wasn’t getting much of that accomplished. She was simply too busy. She began instead to send some of them out to get the ingredients she needed and prep them, as the prep people had quit also. She ascertained that this was a good thing for them to do indeed, because it was apparent from the state of this kitchen, the amount of chaos and disorder, that they too needed to be brought down a step and return to prep work, to train under her by serving her. Others she sent out to help bus the tables. Many of the giftings inside of these chefs began to simply die, as they chopped food for prep, or cleaned up after the mess in the dining room, left mostly by the owner and his few wait staff that still served tirelessly with him. They were no longer even using one bit of the talent they had to be a chef. Many of them quit, or were let go because the owner decided that they were just bringing so much gloom to the atmosphere that they needed personal time to get their issues in order.

The patrons could not believe what happened to their beautiful restaurant. It was now such a mess! And the owners they used to come to sit with and find such sweet fellowship with were now so exhausted from the work of trying to bring order back that they had no time to even say hi to patrons. The owner himself was always in such a hurry that he wanted their orders as quickly as possible, and grew wearing of constantly telling them about all of the changes to the menu and what they no longer offered, as they had not yet found the time to reprint the menu. The meals coming out of the kitchen were no longer to the patrons likings at all, as the owners wife decided the only way to keep up with the volume was to serve everyone the same thing. There was no longer even selection available. There was no time to fill salt and pepper shakers any longer, or ketchup bottles, so they would just have to be satisfied with the seasoning and condiments she chose to put on their plates before they were sent out to them.

The owner had to keep going to his wife and bringing back food that had been sent out too quickly that wasn’t cooked completely. Or food that had salt when it should have been pepper, or ketchup when it should have been salt, or even chocolate where ketchup belonged. She simply could not keep up with the physical task any longer and began to get sick. Because of that she allowed a few of the chefs to begin cooking again, under her supervision. They were instructed, however, to stick to the newly pared down menu and offer only those items, even though they were capable of producing so much more.

Although many of the regular patrons had left, and there were very few that remained, there began to be a new trickle of patrons that came in on occasion. That gave the owner new hope that all of the changes that had made were indeed good and beginning to work.

What he didn’t know was that the sweet music that once played, still played in the background. The sound became so sweet that it began to draw people off of the street, inside, just to listen. It seemed to capture them and touch their souls in a place that they were so hungry for.

But the owner began to notice that people were coming in to hear the music, and very few were actually eating the food. He knew that if they didn’t order food, he wouldn’t have the money to keep the restaurant open any longer, and they wouldn’t even be able to hear the music that was drawing them in. To remedy the situation, he decided that the sweet music would only be playing after people ate their dinner.

Some patrons came for dinner and ate what was served even though it had lost it’s flavor and savor. It used to taste good, but after eating the same “house special” night after night after night, they almost preferred not to eat at all. Others showed up and waited outside the restaurant talking with each other or in the bathrooms until the music started.

Eventually there was not enough money to keep the restaurant open any longer, and it had to close down.

All of the employees who had originally been let go and sent home went in much rejection and discontent. At home they tried to to take over any area of oversight they could, to fulfill the deep desire they had inside of themselves to create and lead and reproduce. Taking over other peoples areas in their own homes, to fulfill the purpose inside of them, brought the same chaos from the restaurant right inside of their own homes. Their children began fighting with one another, and some spouses feeling pushed out and rejected by this behavior even left the home.

The band simply took their music out into the streets, and the streets were filled with the sweet music that once filled the restaurant. Multitudes gathered together to listen to the sweet music, and their souls were so filled with the very sweetness of it. The only problem was, they were so hungry. Some were even starving.

Compassion began rising up in the hearts of the chefs and they began to cook and prepare food in their own homes, and bring it out to the multitudes that were gathered around the sweet song that was playing. Those who were once wait staff began to gather together in the crowd and disperse the food to the hungry. Those that had once been hostesses or bussers were so thrilled to see the joy of the restaurant once again, coming back to life out in the streets, they they joined in. They helped people find seats and told them what there was to choose from. There wasn’t yet much selection, as the restaurant owners who had access to the wholesale food weren’t willing to share their wholesalers with the “rebellious chefs” that they were sure were trying to go out and start their own restaurants to the owners demise. However, what little selection their was tasted like heaven! Perfectly prepared according to each chefs talents. And with the chefs working together, they were sure to each prepare something different, so that each course of the meal could be covered.

All were invited to come and eat and drink and none were charged. For the joy of giving, the chefs brought the food and the wait staff and bus staff and hostesses gave of themselves. None were paid, and none were charged. From among the people gathered food was brought to the chefs to prepare, as were the instruments they needed to cook with. From among the people tools for the wait staff and bus staff were brought to help them accomplish their tasks.

One by one the families of those who had left began to return as the sweet music brought healing to their wounds, and they longed more and more for the fellowship of the one’s they had once loved so much.

Eventually, out of hunger and desperation, even the original restaurant owners showed up. They had been at home, poor, naked from poverty, hungry, and blind by anger and judgment against all of those out in the streets that they were sure were starting up their own restaurant just to run them out of business. It was only when they noticed that all that was done in the street was freely given that the blindness began to leave them and they began to see clearly.

As they came, hungry for the fellowship that they themselves once had a passion to give, the patrons began to clothe them and feed them out of compassion and thankfulness for the sweet fellowship they once received from them. That’s what this music did….instead of returning evil for evil, it made them want to give freely to even those who didn’t deserve it.

They began to realize that all that they had given to these people, was now beginning to be given back to them, but so much more than they could ever contain. Where they had come out empty, they now were full, and as they healed and were cared for, they even began once again to fellowship among the people.

What no one ever realized, was that way back in the very beginning a man was hired. Hired by an evil man who also owned a restaurant across town. A restaurant that fed people with food that only caused them to be malnourished and never have their hunger satisfied, with music that caused them to feel worthless and defeated. Then they were given drink that intoxicated them to the point that they didn’t notice their hunger and depression, and only left them with the false joy of intoxication. This evil man’s patronage, however, began to decline as more and more of them were invited to the restaurant across town.

The hired man was sent into the restaurant across town to pose as a great dignitary from a far away country. He was ordered to invite the owner to his table, after he had poured salt all over his meal, before he took his first bite. He was carefully instructed on exactly what to say that could possibly cause doubt to come to the owner about how he was running his establishment, and begin the process of the owner bringing the entire establishment down to the ground at the workings of his very own hands.

What the evil man never realized was that the salt that he used that was meant to destroy the restaurant , was the very salt that caused multitudes to be drawn to the music that sang the sweet song of heaven and changed the people from the inside out, like no meal ever could, and brought the people together like never before in history. The people had now become one. There was nothing they couldn’t accomplish. There wasn’t food, service, or music to be found and compared to it anywhere on the planet. A restaurant without walls was created that poverty could never bring down.

And the evil man’s plan was defeated.
Kelly Chorley
8/25/08

The heart of the Lewis House…My road to Emmaus (Toledo) part 4

July 26, 2008

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So, where was I? Oh yeah, the warehouse full of stuff. Well, after that, George was tired and off to bed. Stacy decided to show me the rest of the house. Yes, there was still more. I hadn’t yet seen the basement. Which, of course, holds amazing stories all of it’s own. Part of which are a couple in their 50’s living down there. I’ll share about them later. The basement is set up with part of it being a game room, I can’t remember exactly what was there, pool table, ping pong table I think. Couple of couches. And the other half is a dining room area, with a kitchen. Well, okay, it’s big, so more like a cafeteria, not dining room. This is where they have dinners every week, and where they have services. As in worship, preaching, ministry. I hesitate to call it a “church service” because our brain slips into religious slumber and we have a picture that goes along with those words. But, WE, people, ARE the church, and when we gather together and worship…well, that IS the church worshiping together. I just have a feeling that the Lewis House is not all about a nice, neat and tidy church service, that’s all. LOL!

The cafe/meeting area looks pretty rough. Hasn’t been remodeled down here yet. I would imagine that most “refined” people (translated:living life for their own purposes) probably wouldn’t sit down here eat on purpose. To me, it was SO beautiful! Because of WHO gathers and eats in this room! Which I will get to…don’t rush me!

Kelly, one of the interns who was showing us around this level, told us that they just had their first wedding there. Wedding and reception in the dingy basement hall. Now, you probably got married in a beautiful church with amazing windows overlooking some incredible scenery, and sweet church bells ringing afterward. But when you understand who the Lewis House is reaching out to…this was a reason for celebration all in it’s own!! I was imagining that the people who were married there probably would have just been standing in a courthouse to get married, had not George married them at the House. I could just imagine the excitement and celebration there the day of the wedding!! So, finally, off to bed. Not like I could sleep, but it was close to 2am, so I figured I had better try.

*The beginning of the Lewis House*

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The next morning, I meet Sarah, Georges wife, in the kitchen for coffee. “Sarah”, I said, “Tell me how all of this started”. I knew I had just opened a door to the most beautiful sunrise in a story I had ever seen, complete with the song of morning birds singing:) Forgive me if I splotch some of the details, and Sarah, feel free to correct me on anything I share. 12 hours is not a lot of time to take in all that I took in that day!! I am so going to have to ask you to tell me this story again, because much of it is already so blurry, except what God burned into my heart.

Sarah tells me that her and George are 26 years old, and have only been married 2 and a half years. Both of them were part of a church in a ministry capacity, as a help to the Minister, I believe. George’s mom decided to look for a place for her frame business, and found what is now the Lewis House, up for sale. She bought it, but for some reason I can’t remember, asked George if he would like to buy it from her. So, he and Sarah did. But it was a MESS. BIG MESS. If I remember right, it wasn’t even livable at the time. They really didn’t have anything quite in mind with this house, but knew that God would use it somehow for ministry. The Lewis House just happened to unfold in front of their path one footstep at a time. I don’t remember the timing, but I believe this gentleman who has a construction company came to them and said that he wanted to help them remodel this house. A nice well-to-do couple, living in their own nice house. And not only was he going to work on the house, but they wanted to live there, in the basement, while they worked. They were also prayer intercessors. That would be the couple living in the basement. And the remodeled parts of that house are absolutely beautiful!!

*Hot chocolate, peanut butter and jelly, and buckets*

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So Sarah is telling me that they still don’t quite know what they are doing with this house, but that they have it in their hearts to reach out to people in inner city Toledo. They started off making a giant water cooler/thermos full of hot chocolate down to the bus stops when it was cold, and handing out cups of hot chocolate to the people waiting there. She said many of the people there are physically or mentally impaired. They would give them hot chocolate and just tell them that Jesus loved them. Then their were times they would make peanut butter and jelly sandwiches, and go to the parks in the middle of the night and give sandwiches to the homeless people, and eat dinner with them there!!

Another outreach they started, and yes, this is outreach, TRUE outreach, was they took buckets down to this park where a group of Goth teens hung out all the time, and just played music on the buckets, like drums, and sang in the park. She said they were not exactly musically inclined, but the kids would come around. And they began to build relationship with them. That’s how they met Naomi. She was a goth kid that they reached with the gospel, and she gave her life to Jesus. Then her mom died. And her dad decided he really didn’t want anything to do with her or her brother, so he left. George and Sarah decided to take her and her brother in. They became the first residents in the Lewis House. And Naomi, she was rockin saved! Quite the fireball! And she just joined right in with the ministry that George and Sarah had begun. As I shared earlier, Naomi’s part of the ministry is the bread ministry. She takes bread to the homes in the inner city that are in need, and just gives them loaves of bread and tells them how much Jesus loves them, or prays for them, or whatever they need. She’s the official Bread Girl now.

*Bring them home*

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Sarah said they did this all summer, meeting with those kids in the park, until it started getting cold out. Then they started praying, “God, what do we do now?” God said “Invite them into your home”. Her reaction…WHAT??? Those kids do lots of illegal stuff down there!! But God did not relent on what He said. George and Sarah decided they would feed them. They would make a spaghetti dinner on Saturday and invite them all to eat, and have hang out time, and worship and ministry. She said at this time, they barely had enough money to buy their own food, but took $20 and bought the stuff for dinner. She said for a long time, somehow, it was never more than $20, no matter how many people came.

So the outreach and purpose of the Lewis House was started with hot chocolate, peanut butter and jelly, and $20 spaghetti dinners; those who were emotionally and mentally impaired, homeless people, and forgotten kids in a park.

*And two became three*

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Naomi and her brother were the first “mission house interns” to live at the Lewis House. Which, let me backtrack. Sarah said that her and George had no intentions of living at the Lewis House. They had their own apartment and were going to keep the house seperate for ministry. Except the cost of living for both places wouldn’t allow that, so they also were living at the Lewis House. So, Naomi and her brother are there. They are having a group over every week for dinner and worship. Somehow, I can’t remember how, George and Sarah met a crack addict named Diane. Diane had been addicted to crack for 45 years, since she was 10 years old!! Diane gave her life to Jesus, and came to the Lewis House everytime there was something going on. God delivered her miraculously from crack addiction, with no withdrawl!! The only problem was, she still lived in a crack house. So everytime she was go back there, there was nothing but trouble and problems. Diane had been giving her government check of some kind over to a couple of guys at the house who would spend it on crack. Every month. Sarah said that one day Diane was at the Lewis House, and these guys came banging on the door. They wanted Diane to sign the check over so they could cash it and get their drug money. Somehow Sarah convinced them to come back the next day, since the bank was closed. I don’t remember if they ever did or not, but that night Sarah decided they couldn’t ever send Diane back to that crack house again. She had already been praying about it for awhile, so that was when she made the final decision that Diane was going to stay with them. She was their third intern. And the one who would bring the love of Jesus to the crack houses.

Over the next few months, somehow word must have gotten out about what they were doing. I don’t know the details, but they began to get stuff donated to the ministry there. Lots of stuff! Such favor! And they also started taking interns into their program. The dorm area of the house was finished, and I believe they have 5 interns now. All there to go into the inner city and rescue the hopeless with God’s love.

*Deliverer*

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Diane, Kelly, Eric, Amanda, Jeana, Me, Naomi, George & Sarah @ The Lewis House

It was a good 2 hours past when Stacy was suppose to pick up her friend at the airport in Detroit. We prayed that God had her on an assignment of her own so she wouldn’t be upset at the wait! (She did know we were late, so all was well) I didn’t want to leave without these people praying for me though. I wanted what they had. I wanted my eyes off of me, off of the “function” of the organization of the church, and onto those who we are called to go into all the world and be God’s love to. I was DESPERATE for that!! They all gathered around and prayed over me. I can’t really remember what any of them said. But I do remember Diane. The former crack addict. I knew she had a word from God to speak over me, and I told her so. So she came over and stood in front of me and began to pray and prophecy over me. I don’t remember at all what she said, but I do remember one thing. Standing in front of me, in a body named Diane, was Jesus, The Deliverer. I recognized Him. I remembered Him. I had met Him before…when I first gave my life to Him. That morning, My Deliverer took my hand and delivered me once again. He walked me out of complacency, out of the four walls of the church, and into the very purpose that I was put on this earth. And I’ve not been the same ever since.

….and I THOUGHT I was just going to Toledo for an awesome prayer and worship service!

As soon as I have time again, I will write and share about my recent trip to Grand Rapids. To a church without walls.

I gave the pop cans away to the homeless guy!!!!!

July 25, 2008

I DID IT I DID IT I DID IT!@!!!!!  This was SOOOO amazing awesome!!  I told the kids to help me load up the recycling, cause it was time to go give away our pop cans.  They said, how do you know someone will be there mom?  I just know it’s time, that’s all.  I just know.
So we go to the grocery store parking lot, and there he is:)  An older man, probably 60’s?  Hard to tell.  No teeth, so skinny, digging through the recycling for pop cans to return for money.  And he had a shopping cart.  Just like in my picture on my previous blog!!
My kids helped me, and we dumped bags and bags full of pop cans into his cart…so many they were falling all over the place!!  I told him, “do you know why I’m giving you all of these?”  He shook his head, he looked flabergasted, he usually gets scolding looks from people.  I said” Because Jesus loves you so much, and He wants you to know that!” And his eyes filled up with tears! And my kids just stood there and watched in amazement!!  I told him that I will look for him, and when I’m ready to bring my popcans back, they are all his, and that he better get a bigger shopping cart!!
Then I found more in my car, and another guy walked up who was collecting his cans too.  So my kids threw some more in his cart!  And then someone I know was talking to me there and I told her what I was doing, so she went and got hers out of her car and gave them to him too!!!
THIS IS SUCH A BLAST!!!

recycling saves souls!!

July 24, 2008

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So, years ago, I used to recycle. I haven’t done it in a long time. I guess I just got busy and it was easier to throw everything away then to take a trip to the recycling center. For some reason lately though, I have had this desire to recycle again. I drink a lot of bottled water, so there are lots of empty water bottles around. Of course, as I shared in one of my previous blogs, our minds have been so conformed to this world that we think recycling bottles is just about saving the earth. Well, isn’t it? Well, how about recycling bottles being about saving souls?!
Okay, I can see your eyes rolling now LOL! How in the world can recycling plastic save souls?? I’ll tell ya how! You knew I would, didn’t you?!
Well, the recycling center is in the parking lot at the grocery store in town. Great big dumpster type bins for all of your paper, glass, tin and plastic. Well, I’ve noticed lately, since I’ve actually been opening my eyes and noticing things around me….that there is always one of four or so different guys down there digging through the recyclables. That’s how they make their living. Searching through all the dumpsters in town for returnable pop cans or bottles that they can take back to the store for a refund. Think that’s gross? How’s that any different than Ruth gleaning the stuff that was dropped behind in Boaz’s field?? It’s not. And Boaz commanded his men to drop her LOTS of stuff on purpose!
So today, God tells me, “every time you bring back your recyclables, take your pop cans and bottles with you, and give them to whichever guy is down there digging through the dumpsters” !!!!!
YES!!!!
They usually bring one or two little grocery bags to collect their treasures. But when I bring my cans back to the store, I’ve usually got about 6 or 7 bags worth! So, I’ll have to bring them extra bags too! Cause I’m not just gonna leave them one or two there on accident. I’m gonna pour it out ON PURPOSE!! All of my pop cans BELONG to them!!! What they go searching for what takes them all day long to collect, God’s gonna dump on them in 2 minutes flat!! Because HE LOVES THEM!!! Just as much as He loves me!!
I’m not doing this because I need to sow a seed. I’m not doing this because we should give to the poor. I’m doing this because HE LOVES THEM!!
Sow seeds. Give to the poor. But above all…..BE LOVE!!!

THIS is so FUN!! I am absolutely loving this journey God has me on:) I haven’t had this much fun since…EVER!!
C’mon….let’s go have some fun with God!!
recycle bottles….save a soul 🙂

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They better get bigger shopping carts….cause I’m coming down the road!!!

A song, a book and a man full of tatoos

May 27, 2008

Wow, I feel like I haven’t written in so long! I just need to write. I need to let the river out! I was meditating on how much my life has changed in the past 2 months. Not much outwardly has changed yet, but inside, I am simply not the same. A friend at church told me that God said He was “catupulting” me. I realized about a week ago that that is exactly what has happened. One day I was one “place” inside, and the next day I was in a completely different place. I feel like I have been turned inside out, upside down and backwards, to say the least. But it’s the best “mess” I have ever been. I want to write about it, because I don’t want to forget where this all started. I never want to forget. It started with a song, went to a book, and then exploded with an outpouring.

The song? “He loves me” by John Mark McMillan. I first heard it when Kim Walker was singing it with the Jesus Culture conference. The words to that song have transformed my life to say the least. “He is jealous for me, His loves like a hurricane, I am a tree, bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy….I realize how beautiful You are and how great Your affections are for me….we are His portion, He is our prize, drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes…He loves me, oh how He loves me!” I feel like I saw love, grace, redemption…HIM, for the first time all over again when I heard this song. It woke up something inside of me that has long been asleep. PASSION!! Such a deep revelation of His love for me was planted so deep inside of my heart, I don’t think it could ever be uprooted!

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The book? Destined to Reign by Joseph Prince. Just as much as that song was LOVE, the breath of love on my heart, this book is GRACE, the breath of grace on my heart. It is just full to the top of the Word of God, a ‘Word feast”! One amazing reminder that it’s not about me, it’s about Him, and His love for mankind, and all that HE did, all that HE gave, all that HE is. That His eye is not on my shortcomings, my lack, my “humanity” and my inability. I am the apple of His eye! His eye is on His daughter, the one that He made clean through the blood of His son. The one that He declared righteous, through redemption. The one that He whispered “restoration” over, by the Resurrection. This book reminded me that I can reap what I sow, or I can reap what GOD has sown…..His Son…the blood of Jesus….resurrection in every area of life! Not because I have great faith, not because I’m a minister, not because I read my Bible or pray so much, but because of HIS LOVE!! Reaping what God has sown….yeah….that’s called forgiveness. What a refreshing release from all of my mistakes, shortcomings and inadequacies I have experienced! How did I forget the joy of when I first believed? When I was first forgiven? I’m wearing that same quirky smile once again. 🙂

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The outpouring? The Florida Outpouring. It’s been going on for 56 days straight, every morning, every night. God pouring out His love, His healing, His forgiveness, His restoration on mankind. Lead by a man that, in appearance, goes against ALL religious expectation! (Kind of like Jesus did when He walked the earth huh?) Wears jeans, t-shirts, some times a suit coat, whatever he feels like. Has tatoos that he got AFTER he became a minister, face and ear and eyebrow piercings. I had seen him before, and heard some of his teachings. I thought he was a bit “out there”, and I’m from the “out there” crowd! That’s a good “label” if you must have one, don’t ya think? The “out there” crowd:) So many people have asked “what” denomination we are. Can’t say non-denominational, because even that carries it’s own “flavor” now. I guess my background is pentecostal/charismatic/word of faith/full gospel. I just believe the Word. Okay, where was I? Oh yeah, outpouring. I don’t care if it’s through a nun or a 5 year old child….God is touching people in a magnitude like I have never before seen or experienced. Do I believe there is something special about Todd Bentley that God will only heal and touch people through him? No. But there is something special. He just believes the Word. He believes it when it says that he can lay hands on the sick and they will recover, or can flow in the gifts of the Spirit and people will be set free, or can cast out demons that torment people and keep them bound by sickness and depression, confusion and unforgiveness.

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So, what has so “captured” me about this outpouring? God’s heart for people to be free. My heart has been captivated, taken captive, captured….and I don’t ever want it back! Passion for people to know His love that SAVES them, FREES them, HEALS them, and DELIVERS them has filled me to overflowing!

But I also realize that if I hadn’t had the life changing experience and revelation of His love and His grace FIRST…I would still be where I was before….where so many still are….feeling inadequate to give or receive such a touch from Father God, and being skeptical of whether or not any of these “manifestations” are even real. Inadequacy and skepticism. He’s delivered me from them both. By His love and grace. He IS love, He IS grace. I have met LOVE, I have met GRACE. And the result…I believe TRUTH….that He delivers His people. That His love is far beyond my understanding. Far beyond.

I like to keep everything in a very nice “understanding” box when it comes to God. I always have to see a purpose in whatever I’m doing, whatever He’s doing, the direction things are moving. Well, He’s taking me beyond understanding. And I’m letting Him.

I decided this past Sunday, when I was schedule to minister, that I would open up the gates and make room for the “KING of GLORY” instead of “King preacher” or “King church service”. He came in. Wow did He come in. And people, including myself, felt the presence, the power, and the love of God in church like we’ve never felt before. I prayed for one lady who had MS…put my hand on her back and commanded a spirit of infirmity to get off of her…..and then saw it go. Can’t say that I’ve ever had that happen before. Then I stood there and cried like a baby, in front of the whole church, because if we just BELIEVE His Word…it works! And the result is people being delivered and set free! A couple of weeks ago I got a word of knowledge about sparks in lungs, no idea at all what it meant. This same lady came up, said her brother in law had been sent home to die because his lungs were so filled with cancer and there was nothing else they could do. Only months to live. I didn’t even pray. I just laid my hands on her and she started inhaling like it was her first breath of oxygen ever. God told us both that that is exactly what her brother in law was doing at that moment. 2 days later he had a full exam, and the cancer is completely gone!! THAT IS GOD’S LOVE!! I don’t even know if that man was a believer! He wasn’t even at church and doesn’t go to church! But God LOVES him!! And touched him!!

I have always stayed very far away from “strange manifestations” that some ministers are so inclined to share about that happens to them when the presence of God is so strong in a service. Including glitter and gems and such things. I just saw no purpose in it. Unless of course we can cash those gems in and pay off our debt LOL! Imagine my face when I looked down at my hands on Sunday when service was over, and saw tiny little crystal “glitter sparkles” all over them, and my arms. And the Worship Leader, and the other 3 ministers, and another leader. What on earth?? No, probably not. Maybe in heaven. Maybe people shine like diamonds up there, who knows. I know I didn’t roll myself in glitter like I used to think other people did who claimed this happened to them. I don’t understand one bit. But I guess I don’t need to anymore either. I really don’t care. I just want people saved, healed, delivered, set free. I want them to know God’s love. That’s all that matters. And if God wants to make me look goofy and eat my own words about sparkly manifestations being fake, well, I guess He’s God, He can do whatever He wants to. I’ve given Him permission. And I have a feeling I’m in for quite a ride.

But I’m not going to forget where it started…..His love….His grace….and a man who just plain believes it’s all about God and not about us.

The knock at the door…a true story about yesterday:)

May 10, 2008

Kelly had been sitting at her computer for most of the day, writing, reading, following the silly string of the lives of her new found on-line friends through the blog world. While she was certainly enjoying her lazy day, her thoughts did wander occasionally to all that she should be doing. The house had not been cleaned for at least two days, she needed to pack as moving day was not far ahead, and for goodness sakes, she was still even in her pj’s!

Still contemplating all that she needed to do, the lure of the meaty conversation that was available to this stay at home mom was stronger than the mundane everyday tasks that lay waiting. But then she heard the back door open. Uh oh. Her husband was home from work an hour early! Thinking quickly, she decided to make light of the state of the house, or rather un-stately appearance of it, before he could even say a word.

“Honey! You’re home early, the maid doesn’t show up until 2:15!” she laughed weakly. Would it work? Judging from the look on his face, he wasn’t seeing the humor in it. You’d think she was laid up on bed rest again like she was during her pregnancies for all that she’d been keeping up on lately. He was working two jobs, and getting a bit impatient about having to fish for clean socks out of a basket every morning.

It wasn’t just the blogs that were taking all of her time up though. There had been a revival going on in Florida for the past month, the likes of nothing they had ever seen before, and their entire family had been glued to the computer screen every night as it was broadcast live around the world. Never in history has there been a healing revival that people could participate in from any place on the planet that had internet access, as it was happening, without ever leaving their home!

She and her husband and kids sat in awe nightly watching blind eyes and deaf ears open, dozens and dozens of crippled people get out of their wheelchairs as their twisted up fingers and feet straightened right before the camera, not to mention the salvations! People were coming forward in droves to give their lives to Jesus! Kelly’s favorite was a big, huge, burly motorcycle guy whom could suddenly move his neck in full range after it being partially paralyzed for years. He was so overwhelmed with being healed he just stood up there and cried like a baby, shaking from the sobs. Another favorite of the entire family was the drug addicts and alcoholics who willingly came forward and asked for prayer for deliverance. One by one over the next week they would come up and share that the desire to drink or do drugs was completely gone! For some it had been decades of abuse. Even teenagers who had been addicted since being children! With no detox effects either! Such love Father God was touching so many people with!

The children were the best though. To see little children who had been sick their entire life come forward and share that they were healed, and to see their smiling faces, was such a joy! Even diabetics who knew they were healed and under doctors supervision and orders, completely stopped taking their insulin! Weeks later they are still alive, well and healed! Yes, this was certainly capturing Kelly’s attention, and her husband and children’s. The kids had been sleeping in the living room every night for a month, just so they wouldn’t miss watching God pour out His love and touch people in such amazing ways. They had all found a new excitement for God, His love, and sharing Him with a hurting world. She also knew deep inside of her heart that people didn’t have to go to Florida for God to touch them, heal them or save them. Yes, many had been so disappointed and discouraged in their own brokenness that hooking up with someone else’s faith for their healing and deliverance seemed like their last hope. Kelly knew though, that this same God lived inside of her, and determined that she could take Him anywhere He wanted to go, and give all that He is to anyone who wanted Him.

None of that however, helped in getting her house clean or the laundry caught up. After her lighthearted comment about the maid not showing up until 2:15, Eric responded with, “And what will you do if the landlords show up at 2:30?” Which was definitely a possibility as they would most certainly be around to begin landscaping their beautiful flower gardens before the house turned back into a weekly vacation rental. “Hide in the bedroom and not answer the door!” she exclaimed with assurance.

Half an hour later, at exactly 2:30, there was a knock at the door. Her eyes grew wide with fear as she began to contemplate her escape route! Her son Dakota then noticed the young lady that lived next door walking to her porch, and then walking away, and then back again. Of course, sitting at the computer still in her pajamas, Kelly freaked out to say the least. “You answer it!” she whispered to her husband. “Nope” was his only answer to her. He had a bit of a smile on his face while he said this. Finally she just got up and went to the door.

“Um, someone at the grocery store told me you would know someone who could help me”, the young lady said looking as if tears were going to spill over at any moment.

“What do you need help with?” Kelly asked, still too focused on her pajamas and messy house to discern what was happening at her own front door.

“My marriage”, said the young lady. “I need someone to help me figure out when it’s okay for me to get a divorce”, and with that the tears could no longer be contained.

Kelly finally got the picture. Goodness, God was sending people right to her front door now! Someone at the grocery store told her neighbor that she knew someone that could help her? Did she even know anyone at the grocery store that knew that much about her? Nonetheless, there was not time to think about that, she had a girl in tears on her front porch.

“Let me change my clothes, and I’ll be right over” Kelly said, and then ran into the house on a cloud feeling like she had just seen a miracle in person herself.

She went to the young lady’s house next door, sat on her couch with her, and listened intently as her 22 year old neighbor, who barely knew her except for a few “hello’s” in passing, poured out her heart and her tears freely.

Throughout the conversation, Kelly learned that this young lady, after two short years, just didn’t feel like she was in love with her husband anymore. She wasn’t really happy with anything in life for that matter. No matter what she does, or who she’s with, it all gets boring after a year or two, and she just can’t seem to find happiness.

Kelly finally looked at her with such compassion and asked, “Do you know who Jesus is?”

“No” she answered. “I mean, I’ve heard His name, but I don’t know anything about God, or Jesus, or anything religious at all. I’ve actually been trying to read a Bible, but I can’t understand it, and there’s no one to explain it to me. I mean, where did God come from? Who made Him?”

Kelly spent the next hour and half walking her through the story of a loving Father who created man for relationship with Him, brought the Law to show man his need for a Savior, and of His Son Jesus who took all of the sin of mankind on His own sinless body, died, and was raised back to life all so we could live free and have a relationship with our Heavenly Father who loves her so very much.

After listening intently for awhile, the young lady spoke through tears once again, “Someone told me that I don’t know how to love anyone else, because I don’t know how to love myself.”

“That’s probably very true”, said Kelly, “and you don’t know how to love yourself because you’ve never met God, who is Love Himself”.

“So what do I do? How do I meet Him? How can He come live inside of me like you said? I don’t understand”.

Kelly opened up the young ladies Bible, which was her husband’s teen Bible from when he was younger, and showed her the verses in Romans 10:9, 10 about salvation. She also showed her the book of John.

“It’s so easy, just like it says, all you have to do is confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, and salvation is yours. Salvation is so much more than just going to heaven after you die. The word actually means deliverance, peace, healing and freedom. It’s like you make a decision to get in the back seat of the car of your life, and invite God to get in the drivers seat. It’s really not about your marriage, it’s about your own heart and your need for a Father who loves you so much. When He is in the drivers seat, He will drive your marriage where it needs to go, and every other area of your life if you will trust Him. He will always make sure you end up at the right destination, no matter what you see along the way. It may not always look the drive is easy, or fun, but His love for you is His motive. His Word will be your road map so that you know your heading in the right direction.”

And then Kelly said something that even surprised herself.

“I don’t want you to do what Romans says just yet though. I want you to read John, and learn about Jesus, Who He is and why He came and died for you. I want you to see His love for yourself, so that when you are done, you will be able to say from your own heart, ‘yes, I want You to be my Lord, and yes, I believe’. I want you to meet the One who loves you so much, and not just pray something you don’t understand simply to fix a hard situation. You can pray and ask Him to be your Lord when you are ready, and I am right next door, you can come knock on my door anytime you need to. I will help you understand what you are reading in the Bible, so you can get to know the One who loves you so very much, and allow Him to fill every empty place inside of your heart, which He will do.”

“Yes, I agree, that’s exactly what I want to do. I want to read about Him first, I want to know Who Jesus is. Thank you for coming over. I’m exhausted now, I think I need to take a nap.”

Kelly smiled and said goodbye. She decided to go home and get her house in order. She knew this was just the beginning. Apparently someone at the grocery store “knew she knew Someone”!

Secrets like that don’t stay secrets for long;)

might get some rocks thrown at me for this one

May 9, 2008

Been blog surfing.  Finding some interesting/scary/interesting blogs.  I read this this morning.  It scares me that if I were brave enough to admit it…..this makes sense to me.  Really scares me.  There is a group of people out in blog land…large group, who used to be part of charismatic spirit filled churches…and are no longer.  Reasons being what she states below. Even reading what I just wrote….”spirit filled churches”, perhaps that’s the problem right there.  We’ve been focusing on making sure our CHURCHES are Spirit filled, instead of us, or our people?!? UGH!

Here’s what I read:
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I’ve decided. I’m going to the next level in God. I’m going to be empowered by an incredible, enthusiastic, visionary leader and take this city for Christ. I’m going to be a vibrant, passionate, charismatic believer who takes excellence seriously. I’m joining a vibrant, contemporary, growing church with a powerful message that impacts the world and has a vision statement that involves loving life, loving people and loving God. I’m getting connected to a small group that will move me into that next level and take me into the unknown, teaching me to drink that living water and walk by faith. I have a vision for this nation, I’m going to see revival sweep across this land.

Apologies to those who just choked on their coffee, but does any of that sound familiar?

These are words that echo in my mind. I used to love them, these broad sweeping christianese terms. They made me feel powerful and excited. They swept me up in emotion. They were often accompanied by music from the keyboard and shouts from the pulpit. They called me to action. Well, for a moment anyway. Then I had coffee.

Unfortunately, after all those years of proclamations, nothing changed. I didn’t change. I got whipped up into a frenzy, but I certainly didn’t impact anybody around me. I most definitely didn’t get to any “next level”. I really wonder what the “next level” is anyway. Is it like a coloured karate belt? A school diploma?

I also wonder what would actually have happened if I did instead of proclaimed. If I visited instead of excelled and gave that cup of water instead of drinking it myself.

I’m sure the lack of action can come down to my own decisions. After all, you can lead a horse to water but you can’t make it drink. It just would have been nice to have an actual water trough in sight, though.
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What an opportunity to hear the “voice of disappointment” in the church today.  I wonder what “we” the church, will do with this knowledge?  Anything?  Or just chalk it up as “their issues”, or “this is how deceived you get when you leave the church”.
This may be the very root to the disappointment I myself have felt often. (Though I have recently had my eyes opened in a major way to ONE who IS, as opposed to the CHURCH that is trying to BE)  Perhaps the very root to disappointment in the church as a whole.  How to be “Jesus” and His light to these ones, when we are still wearing this “ugly” garment called “it’s all about the church”??
What will happen to me when this begins to make more sense to me than what we are currently doing in the church?  Or when God says “okay, these are the one’s I’ve called you to”.  Or when He says “go to them”.  Because they sure are not going to come to a church.  Neither are they going to listen to someone promoting one.  So, what happens when I stop promoting “the church” and promote Jesus instead?  I’d like to hope the answer to that would be thrilling applause, but I also highly doubt that will be the case.
But I do hear the call.
This is exactly the disappointment He yanked me from when I first heard Him whisper His love to me in 1994.  I was a victim of “churchianity”, and “ministryanity” and “notenoughtimeforyoucauseweareintheministryanity” from my parents.
Perhaps this is why I just cannot every find satisfaction in any “niche” I fill in the church.  Even as a minister!
Not that I’m leaving the church.  No way.  I’m just the kind of person to believe that God can do miracles:)  After all…I am one.

Lovesick

April 26, 2008

That’s the only way I know to describe how I’ve been feeling lately.  I’ve been so desperate for God.  So desperate to see/feel/hear/experience/know/be saturated with and in/be completly consumed…Father God’s love.  I’m seeing it!  I’m hearing it!  He is shredding the veils over our own eyes, our own hearts, that have kept us from receiving the fullness of Who He is.  It’s our own veils! He hasn’t withheld a single thing!  The Word says He has freely given us all things!  He gave His very Son!  He’s holding nothing back.  But us…our veils…skepticism, feeling inadequate….that’s the big one.  Haven’t prayed enough, read the Word enough, learned enough, worshiped enough, witnessed enough…..enough enough enough already!!  We will NEVER do enough!  But JESUS DID!!!  He did it all!  So it’s done!  So God’s extravagant love is  rushing at us like a Tsunami…it’s been here all along….but having our eyes fixed on what we haven’t done enough, or what we still need to improve in….has built a dam up.  A dam of our own unbelief.  Unbelief that there’s nothing we need to do except believe….that His love has accomplished it all!

I’ve taken my eyes off of me.  I’ve turned them to Him. The dam has broken, is breaking, is crumbling, is shattered!  The ginormous waves of His extravagant love have overtaken me…over and over and over….taking my breath away, taking the lies, bondages, hang-ups, dissatisfactions, hurts, selfishness…..washing it all away.

I can’t even stand to live where I was before.  Doing what I can to be a ‘better’ Christian.  Focusing on the areas of my life that need strengthening, or fixing, or whatever.  Thinking of ‘programs’ we can do at church to draw people to Him.  Blah.  Rocks in my mouth.  Mundane.  Compared to fixing my eyes on Him and His extravagant love!!  He took ALL of our sin, effects of our sin…poverty, sickness, heartache and heartbreak, shortcomings, inadequacy…..He took it ALL upon Himself on the cross…..and in return gave us RESURRECTION!!  The Spirit of Life!!  So why was I holding onto the former?  Because I was too busy thinking it would all ‘manifest’ when I got the formula right.  When I was holy enough.  Because holiness was all about the choices I made in life.  NO IT’S NOT!!  Holiness is about the choices HE made!!  Choosing to die for us!!  Choosing to exchange ALL of the effects of the curse for AWESOME AMAZING HOLY GHOST FIRE NOTHING LACKING NOTHING BROKEN OOOOZING WITH LOVE RESURRECTION!!!  I am loved by HIM!!  You are loved by Him!  That’s what matters.  Look at HIM!!

I can’t get enough of HIm, His love….it’s like it’s oxygen in the room and I just can’t breath enough in to satisfy me!  I’m watching the Florida Healing Revival and seeing God just RIP and SHRED and DESTROY the veils and dams we have plastered ourselves with!!!  He isn’t tearing open the canopy of Heaven…He already did that when He sent the Holy Spirit to indwell us!  He’s tearing open the grave clothes we’ve wrapped ourselves up in!  His bride….has been the living dead…and He’s unwrapping her and calling her out of that tomb…just like Lazarus!  COME FORTH!!!  and we are crashing head on into the Tsunami of His extravagant LOVE!!!

I’m not just praying over you, I’m prophesying that His grace is shredding your grave clothes and you are about to encounter the extravagant love of God without measure!!  COME FORTH!!!  He’s revealing the fullness of salvation in this earth, to His children….no more Christians in hiding…..FULLNESS is what will be seen!!  Healings, miracles….as the word says….”as He is, so are we in this world”  Yes Lord!!! Yes!!

Going Deep….deeper….

April 15, 2008

Sometimes I hear things inside of me and try to run and run and run. They are so deep, so passionate, so desperate that I feel I could break into a million pieces, or rather the veil of who you think I am would break into a million pieces if I even let a trickle out. I have always ran around and around from one thing to another, one chore to another, one child to another, one responsibility to another, one website to another, one fix to another….just trying to keep it inside. Not that I don’t want you to see who I am, or to see this passion. It’s This passion…that feels it would crack the very sky itself it I even let it peak out. It feels like a volcano…rumbling, roaring, stirring, burning, spurting….hearing and feeling it for miles and months prior to the explosion. It is Him. Very simply, very extrodinarily, very unfathomable, very much attainable, able to contain, too great to explain….Him. His love, Him, He is LOVE…Him….shattering my human frailty that I try to cover myself up with like fig leaves. Just humanness. But not covering so that you don’t ‘know me’. Not covering because of shame, or being ashamed. I’m afraid for the intensity of this passion…not for myself…but those around me. I’ve never seen it before. I’ve never seen what I feel inside of me in anyone before….until now. I am catching glimpses! Hidden Warriors!! I am hearing their heartbeat that sounds like no other I’ve ever heard! It’s a new sound!!
For years He has kept telling me over and over…it’s not time. It’s not your time. It’s not time. Moving through the motions of life But I can’t find satisfaction. Divine discontent. Desperation roars in me like an inferno. For what? and why? why….it seems that everytime I blink I am tasting, smelling, hearing, feeling, touching, breathing, drowning….in more and more of His affection for me. Desperation for what? To be drowning in His passion, to be caught in the middle of the Tsunami that is occuring in the spirit realm when He so much as exhales…and NOT TO JUST SEE IT!! I simply CAN NOT sit by and WATCH HIM around me…I MUST be sinking myself so far deep in His ocean of Grace….nothing else will satisfy the passion inside that is demanding to be satisfied!
When I first gave my life to Him in 1994, my Dad gave me a little paper that was bought with my name on it, and a verse beneath it. I could never shake that verse out of my being. I have felt God’s breath on my neck every time I even think about that verse. So close…but not yet. But now…the verse….the breath has become a hurricane inside of me, roaring, stirring, gathering…and suddenly I hear “it’s time”. Not time for me, but time for Him through me. The verse? 1 Peter 1:5 ….kept by the power of God through faith for salvation, ready to be revealed in the last time.
Salvation….deliverance, peace, health, all provision, freedom from all of the effects of the enemy…on this EARTH as well as eternally. Salvation has been hiding in Christians lives. Our lives haven’t looked much different than unbelievers lives. Same lack, same strife, same sickness, same bondages.

…..kept…for salvation….ready to be revealed in the last time.

It’s not my call to CHANGE a generation. It’s my call to UNVEIL a generation.
God is unveiling His salvation in a generation. You may have looked and thought some people didn’t have enough faith, didn’t read the Bible enough, weren’t close enough to God and far enough away from the world, weren’t ‘walking’ in the Spirit, had forsaken the church. With one breath you say to them ‘we will recieve you as you are, hair, clothes, holes included’, yet with another you forbid your own to even come close to looking like them….’the world’, and teach against it. God says ‘Let them paint their temple purple, green, pink and blue, decorate with ornaments and look crazy to you. I am on the inside, they are pure and they are clean, because it’s not what they do, it’s by the blood of My Son they’ve been redeemed!!’
I hear God say
‘HA! You were too busy looking at them. They were consumed with looking at Me! And Who I Am…PASSION….couldn’t be found in your church services. They couldn’t be satisfied with the form. Their fire is in the freedom. You’ve called for the fire, you’ve asked for the rain. My fire is on this earth. My rain is on this earth. Building…a volcano…a tsunami…a volcano…a tsunami….Go ahead….ask Me for fire, ask Me for rain. Ha! Freedom is coming to you!!’ Are you sure you want what you’ve been asking for? It’s an inferno. It’s drowning. It’s amazing. It’s freedom.

How He loves…by John Mark McMillian

He is jealous for me
His Loves like a hurricane
I am a tree
Bending beneath
the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of the sudden,
I am unaware of these afflictions
eclipsed by glory…
And I realize just how beautiful You are and how
Great Your affections are for me!!!
Oh how He loves us!
Oh how He loves us!
We are His portion and He is our prize
drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean…we’re all sinking
So Heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss
my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets
When I think about the way….
He loves us!!! How He loves us!!


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