At home with Kodie

For today:

Outside…..blustery, windy, fallish

I am thinking…..about where to go this AM….need to shop for coats for the boys…..maybe Target?

I am thankful for……..my husband’s new job, for freecycle, where people cart off your stuff…..we’re clearing out!

I am going…….to work on a part of that assignment….little at a time

I am reading……..textbooks.  Personality theory, Abnormal Psych, Assessment/Testing

I wonder…… if I can find more old timey Tupperware Jello molds on ebay or locally

I made…….an old timey Jello recipe with pears and cream cheese

I hope Pebbles is OK today after the spaying……she is our new Schnauzer

My favorite things is my new to me sewing machines and some thrifted yarn for scarves.  I love creating.

Sept 21.  This week is my hubbys bday….43 so we are going out on Fri.  Class and papers and tests.  I so enjoy employing my brain.   I am on my porch, the weather is fine, I am doing battle with a flea infestation….we have 5 animals after all…so over the weekend we frontlined and I am hoping to have victory over the constant scratching and licking.   New dog Pebbles is as sweet as can be…..love, love, love my lapdog.

I am making an xmas table runner and another lap quilt.   New sewing machine is grand, got the tophats out and made a stitch dictionary so I can see all that it can do.   Very nice for a mid-century Singer.   I am done with the buying.   7 is enough for anyone.   I may sell one, but which one?   I am going to Leftovers, that place that sells fabric for $7 a bag, but will slow down a bit as my sewing room is overflowing.   I am sewing tho, I am, I am.

Kiddos in school.  Silence is golden.   Stephen likes his new job…. thank you Lord.   Until the phone rings.  I’ll let the answering machine get it.   I got the groceries so it is just the usual home keeping that is needed this week.   I am so grateful for my husband, kids, pets, the house we get to live in, this country, my God.  I feel blessed this AM.

I am sitting in the silence of my house with two pooches to keep me company.   It is cloudy and rainy outside, perfect day for lounging inside.  It is supposed to be in the seventies all week so I will enjoy porch time for my fun reading.

I am reading a book by Dallas Willard called Hearing God.  In it he states that people speed read the Bible to fulfill some sort of duty imposed by the powers that be.  He proposes taking scripture and letting soak in instead of checking off boxes.  I like that idea, praying, thinking, writing it out.  Deut 34 is my place these days.  Sometimes it is Psalms.  We can get off balance for sure by not seeking the whole counsel of God, but what about meditating and pondering and letting the word be written on my heart?

Grad school keeps me busy.  I love sitting in class and thinking for a change.  I am glad I am doing in, tho I have no clue what I am going to use this degree for.

Sewing….got a new machine and I am swearing not to buy another.  This machine really fills the void and now, I have lots of fabric to use up.   I love to sew too.  Creating is good for me.  Silence is so good.

I feel failure with friendships and as a mother sometimes.  Maybe that is why I gravitate toward things I know I can be good at such as sewing and school.  I try, I pray, I fail, I try again.

Ugh, this weekend I was in a bad mood.  Mad and sad.   Got another sewing machine, this needed a trip to KC to get it.  Very cool gears.  Have made 14 lap quilts since late April.  Stephen completed 1st week on the new job.  Thank you Jesus!!!.  Busy with grad assignments and a new dog named Pebbles, a min schnauzer from my MIL.

No picture…of her.   She is so darn cute.   Will post one soon.  We have 2 dogs and three cats, three boys, and *gasp* seven sewing machines…………….use them all except the Pfaff 130.

starts Tuesday, and we will have insurance.  It has been a rough road but things are looking up.  We are going to OK this weekend…..

Done.  Finished.  Going to Captivating was a catalist.  Been frustrated a long time.  Will not forsake God or one another.  We have a homegroup meeting in our house.   I still have a mandatory attendance to Lutheran church, curiously biblical, devoid of the Spirit, although sometimes the hymn lyrics make me cry, such good truth.

God is not mad at me.  I have not failed in some way making this the toughest year in a long time with two layoffs.   I don’t know why.  I have spent a fair amount of 2009 angry at God for this.  I am not angry.  I have a confident expectation that Stephen will get a job soon, more peace than I have felt in a long time.  God is near.  I came in contact with a picture that has helped me immensely.  Not that graven images are to be worshiped, but, let’s face it, sometimes a picture helps.

I want more of God not less.  Not duty, obligation, fear.  Closeness.   Beth Moore this weekend was awesome talking about desire.  What are my desires?  Probably to feel cared for.  At the top of the list.