Category Archives: Grieving

The “Good Doctor”

One of the very few people in my life with whom I’ve shared the detailed experiences of this past year, T has been a dear comrade since we started med school together.  She thrilled me today with a lazy-morning ring, … Continue reading

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Forward Along the Fine Line

I write and talk at length these quiet, cold days of “moving forward.”  A phrase I’ve heard (and employed) all my life, it was probably coined by some stalwart soul many years back, tossed about boldly since it’s minting in … Continue reading

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At Least the Chili’s Good

Crap. Crap crap crap. Crappity crappity CRAP.* So, I’ve had a minor health setback. While chopping some really lovely tomatoes and onions for some killer chili, I experienced some sudden weakness on my right side (read: I fell over in … Continue reading

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Vaulting the Silence: Highlighting the Writings of OncRN

In my web wanderings, trolling blog rolls in a desperate attempt to procrastinate on reviewing urology, I came upon a true gem of a site I should very much like to share here. The blog of one oncRN, the site displays … Continue reading

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A Vicious Screed, or The Angry Gimp

Warning: This is an ugly, angry, reactive post.  Only after much debate did I choose to rip it from the pencil smudged pages of my personal journal and display it here.  The reasons I’ve done so are twofold: 1) To remind the … Continue reading

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Footnote to The Angry Gimp Rant: The Ditties of Shame

Well, perhaps I ought call these, the “Ditties of Strange.”  After all, these individuals likely sport contrastive genetics and experience that led to what I find an odd outlook on life.  As I mentioned in the above post, these are … Continue reading

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Missing: Spontaneity, Capable

M  I  S  S  I  N  G Last Name: Spontaneity First Name: Capable Middle Name: Comfortable Sex: Female DOB: Summer, 20-something years ago Eyes: Wide Complexion: Fair to Middlin’ Scars/Marks/Tattoos: Rather well-placed beauty mark on right cheek Last Seen: Studying … Continue reading

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The Logical Shame, The Righteous Anger

Today, I’m down.  I’m really, really down, and completely irrationally so.  Today, I hurt.  My joints, my muscles, my everything, are in an uproar, and utterly abruptly so.  I’ve just come off an intense migraine, one with no warning aura, … Continue reading

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My Cathedral

There is something about old black and white movies that draws me in, gives me a strange sense of calm and well-being.  Perhaps it is the soft lighting, the rolling wit in the dialogue, maybe the eloquent way in which … Continue reading

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In Memoriam: Remaining Respected and Loved

Her difficult struggle she kept private, shielding family from her tremendous pain, her terrible prognosis, until the course was nearly run.  Small, she said.  Localized, she lied.  Entirely responsive to treatment and in remission, was the story she invented.  Aunt … Continue reading

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