A War Widow’s Prayer

Inspired by “An Occurrence at Owl Creek Bridge” by Ambrose Bierce

Tomorrow’s Memorial Day when we honor those gave their lives for our country. And rightly so we honor those souls. The last year or so, I’ve been thinking of the families of those who gave their lives for our country. They too should be honored for we owe them so much. 

Lord.

I shot a Yankee today.  I know it ain’t right to kill a man. That’s what the Commandments say. I had no say in the matter. He come snooping around. Wanting to know where Peyton was. I didn’t dare tell him Peyton was off fighting Yankees down at the bridge.

Little Eli, he told the Blue Coat to git. The man was having none of that. He just laughed and laughed like he knew something we didn’t. He knocked my boy out of his way and come at me, looking like he had something dreadful on his mind.

I pulled that pistol Peyton done give me out of my apron. It was hard cocking that gun but I done it. I shot that Yankee in the face and killed him.

My oldest, Noah, was out plowing the field. He heard the shot and come running into the house and seed the dead man, lying on the floor. He rolled the Yankee’s body onto the rug I braided last winter, rolled that red rug up, and tied that rug around the body real tight. Then that boy, only thirteen, threw the bundle onto his shoulders. With that body of his, all tall and muscular like his granddaddy, he toted the bundle out to the back of the house. I stood there on the back porch and watched my boy bury that Yankee and cover the grave so there’s no trace.

He said to me that we got to speak some words over the man. Ain’t right to leave a man in his grave without some words, no matter how mean he was, or how much he’s out to do the bad things this Yankee had on his mind, So that was what we did. We stood over that grave and my boy said them words just like the preacher would’ve. Noah made me so proud, him taking charge and all.

About the time Noah got hisself cleaned up, this Yankee lieutenant come riding into our yard. He was real spit and polish sittin’ on the back of a mighty fine horse. He calls down to me, “Ma’am, we hung your husband. He’s on that wagon there. Where you want him?”

I never cried. I would not cry. I would not wring my hands. I would not grieve. I would not let that Blue Coat of a lieutenant see me weak like he was expecting. I give Mr. Spit-and-Polish directions to the little church down the way. Then me and the boys followed that wagon to the church. Preacher tried to comfort me, and I was comforted best I could be. It was best to get the burying over with, and that’s what we done. We sent Peyton on to You, Lord. I just want You to know that Peyton was a good man. The best man I ever knowed. And I’m wanting You to take good care of him, y’hear. I’ll be much obliged if You do.

There’s just me and my two boys left now. That Blue Coat lieutenant told us to gather our things and git. We couldn’t stay at the house. The Yankees aimed to burn the house and the barn down, and the crops too. He give us no choice but to hitch up our wagon with the mule. So we’re going now.

Oh, Lord, strengthen me for the road ahead in these dark times. Lead this husbandless woman with her two fatherless boys safely through the wilderness and to the promised land of my sister’s house.

I got to go for now. Night will be upon us soon. May light return on the morrow, and may Your grace light all our tomorrows.

Amen.

A Statement of Faith

I hesitated for quite some time before I posted this post. Why? Because I don’t want to preach and disrespect my readers’ choices. After giving it a long hard think, I decided to trust my readers. Only then can I be a true honest Bard.

So here goes. I am a Christian. It’s only recently that I have come to realize that. And I am a writer. I am not a Christian writer. If I were a Christian writer, I would be writing specifically for a Christian audience. Instead, I am a storyteller who writes humor, poetry, and stories for a general audience in the tradition of Shakespeare, Charles Dickens, Graham Greene, and Victor Hugo.

Does that mean I won’t write funny stories and poems in my attempts at humor? Heck, no. Without comedy, the world would be a much sadder place.

If I have heroes in trying to live out my faith, they are Mister Roger and Saint Francis of Assisi.

So here are some things I beleive

  1. I believe that God loves everyone of us. As Father Henri Nouwen put it, we are the beloved of God. And He wants us to love Him back. At least, this is what Jesus taught.
  2.  I believe that I am made in the image of God. (Genesis 1: 26) And so are my fellow human beings. God commands me to love my neighbor. And who is my neighbor? Every human being that walks on this planet.
  3. I believe that I should “Let all you do be done with love.” (1 Corinthians 16:14 New King James Version). Boy, do I fall short of this.
  4. I believe forgiveness is a way of life. Jesus said forgive seventy times seven. Check out the Lord’s Prayer where it says, “Forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us.” And on top of all that, Jesus died on the cross so that I would be forgiven.
  5. I believe gratitude, generosity and kindness go a long way in making a happy human being.
  6. I believe communication is essential. We communicate with God through daily prayer; He communicates with us through a daily reading of Scripture. I am impressed by the Muslims who pray to Allah five times a day. Why can’t I?
  7. I believe it takes a community to make a Christian. And this is why I attend church.
  8. I believe human beings are called to be stewards of this beautiful garden that is planet Earth. So why do we ugly it up?
  9. I believe God loves animals. Why do you think He had Noah save so many of them? And we are going to see our pets in heaven.
  10. John Lennon once sang, “Whatever gets you through the night.” That’s the Holy Spirit for me.
  11. I treasure the Scriptures as the best way to live a life. I also treasure it as a source of inspiration for stories and humor. After all, Noah and David were just folks as imperfect as I am.
  12. I believe death is not the final answer. Christians are Resurrection People.

Evangelism, a story

50 CE at the Sword and Vine Tavern off the Appian Way, two blokes from different legions have a meet-up. It’s a run-down kind of joint. Not too many mates to party up the joint. Only a slave boy to run the owner’s errands and a slave woman in a dress, that looks like it hasn’t been washed in a week, ready to cook if needed, resting in the corner.

One-eyed, red-headed Gus, the owner, puts on his grin, sits them at his best table, and wipes the table clean of the leftover beer. Cause that’s the only good table in the joint. Several broken tables have been stacked against the wall at the back of the room.

“What’s happened to the joint?” Felix asks. “This used to be party central.”

“The Fitth came through,” Gus says. “That’s how I lost the eye.”

“Two beers,” Marius orders, then he turns to his mate. “Been a month of Sōlises, ain’t it.”

“Sure has. Two campaigns and I’m on my way to a third.”

After several beers, the name, Jesus, comes up.

“I hear you’ve taken up with him,” Marius says. “Tell you what. I’ll drink to your Jesus if you’ll drink to my Mars.”

“Oh, but my Jesus is real..”

“And my Mars is real too. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have this tattoo, would I?” Marius shows the god of war tat on his back.

“I’ll arm wrestle you to prove Mars isn’t real.”

“You want me to whoop you the way I always do. Okay. You got a bet. Mars I win, Jesus you win.”

They clear the table and they go to it. First it’s Marius, then it’s Felix, then it’s Marius, and just about the time it looks like Marius is taking all the cookies, Felix has a burst of energy and slams his friend’s arm on the table.

They rub their hands to get the blood flowing again.

“Now, tell me,” Felix asks. “What did this Mars ever do for you?”

“Give me a life. He’s the reason I joined up when my mom kicked me out of the house. What did this Jesus ever do for you?”

“Helped me beat you at a bout of arm wrestling.” Felix’s smile fades into a faraway look. “I don’t know. I think differently now. Instead of wanting to punch folks, I want to…I don’t know. Yeah, I want to get along. I meet a fella on the street I think this could be my new mate.”

“Even the Brits and the Germans?”

“Even the Brits and the Germans. They’re folks too. Just like you and me. I don’t even blame my dad for wailing the tar out of me. I deserved it. He did what he had to do. And I sure miss him. I’d love to get back to Rome and tell him about Jesus, but he’s gone now.”

“Man,” Marius says, “you have changed. Last time I saw you, you were taking on that goon of a gladiator.”

“They are goons, that’s for sure. But yeah, that gladiator did a number on my jaw. Knocked it out of joint. Cost me a month’s pay to get it put back right. Still aches when I eat.” Felix rubs his jaw.

“Tell me about it. My nose has been broken in so many ways I barely have a nose. This thing they give me. It’s called a gargoyle. Wear it for looks. Have to breathe out of my mouth.”

“You know that Jesus was a bloke like us.”

“He was?”

“Yeah. Just a country hick. Kind of fella you could spend a day with and never know how the time passed.”

“I heard he died on a cross. Why would I want to sign up with a bloke like that?”

“Trumped up charges. They did it as a joke. But the joke was on them. He rose from the dead.”

“He what?”

“He rose from the dead.”

“You’re joking me.”

“It’s true. And there were witnesses. His mates saw him. And then others. Over a hundred others.”

“That can’t be.”

“As sure as I’m sitting here, it is.”

Marius eyes his friend and stares.

“You been taking some of that Persian stuff we been hearing about. That’s what happens when you go on one of them eastern campaigns.”

“Ain’t been east of Egypt. And I was always afraid it’d make me wobbly.”

“You don’t believe this p.r., do you?”

“‘Fraid so. Last night I was baptized.”

“You mean you’re one of them they been talking about. I hear they’re too good for a tavern. Why would you sign up for that?”

“I’m here. Drinking a beer with you, ain’t I? Jesus wasn’t too good for a tavern. He liked taverns just fine. It was those hooty-tooty folk he couldn’t put up with.”

“He’s a guy you could have a beer with?”

“Sure ‘nough.”

“Well, I don’t know.”

“Took a lot of convincing for me too.”

“What convinced you?” Marius asked.

“Jesus was a Jew. He knew all the laws, and you know how many laws them Jews got. And he knew everything about being a Jew. There’s this story that got me thinking. Centurion came up to him and says, ‘My daughter is dying.’ Jesus says, ‘Show me the way to your house.’ ‘Master,’ Centurion says, ‘it’s forbidden for you to come into the house of a gentile.’ Jesus went anyway. He healed that gentile’s daughter in the gentile’s house.’ That’s the kind of man Jesus was.

“When I heard that story, I knew this was the guy for me. I never got a story like that about Mars or Venus or Mercury. Jupiter don’t give a hill of beans about us. All them gods do is cause trouble for us.

“You know Odysseus came to the same way of thinking as me. All that slaughter at Troy. What did it lead to? A big dinner party for the gods. And look who benefits from the sacrifices. All those temple folk. Talk about a moneymaking business. They get a cut on everything that’s sold for the temple and its sacrifices.”

“I always wondered about that. When’s the next time you folks getting together?”

“I’m going there now. I just have to do le toilet and take a turn in the bathhouse. Want to tag along?”

“Don’t mind if I do.”

“Hey, Gus, how much we owe you.”

“Don’t worry about it, boys. It’s on the Master’s tab.”

As they leave, Marius says to Felix, “You know any place I can get this Mars tattoo removed?”

Perhaps God

Perhaps God stands outside my window
waiting for me to come out and play.

Perhaps God sits beside me
as I let a story unravel along its serpentine journey.

Perhaps God holds my hand when i’m in bed
with a one-hundred-and-one degree temperature.

Perhaps God meets me at my car
and asks, “Can you give a fella a ride?”

Perhaps God stops me from running a red light,
saying, “You don’t want to do that.”

Perhaps God joins my voice on my drive to work,
singing one nonsensical song after another.

Perhaps God strolls into the office with me,
tips his hat, and wishes all a good afternoon.

Perhaps God…

A New Psalm

God tailors Earth green and blue.
He weaves the tapestries of sunrise and sunset
With threads of red and purple, gold and orange.
He dots the nights with light,
His stars pointillist masterpieces.
He tosses rainbows across the sky.
He whispers, “Oak, raise your branches and hold the heavens up.”

The geese sail north to meet Him in the spring.
Butterflies tickle his upper lip. He laughs.
And the sun shines,
And the rain falls,
And the snow blankets the land in white,
Waiting for childent to build snowmen
And bless their streets with snowy play.

The moon glows, parting the darkness
As God parted the water for Moses to cross the sea.
The Earth spins through space and time,
Singing His praises,
“God is God, and I am His beloved.”