I cried till I can hardly open up my eyes now. Hopefully things will turn out better already. I really need to start learning how to communicate well&how to handle my relationships well.

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Lesson learnt: To always tell the truth no matter how tough it can get.

I wish I realized that earlier. Then maybe things would have taken a different turn.

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Sometimes I wish I had more significance in your hearts.

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school has alr started for 2days.surprisingly minus thse small glitches that occured a day before school, everyth has been greeat so far(:thank God that this sem my lecturers are so much better! :D and what's beta is that next week 2 of them wun b in school! so lessons to skip(: boyf's been great. having his block leave and he comes all th way fr semb to nus to acc me for sch/lessons/lunch for a few hours only. sweeet much (L)

tryin to cherish my these few weeks of sch before the real work sets in in week3. by then no more off-days and no more getting out of sch early and no more slacking during breaks and playing toilet paper game on my new love and white lab coats and safety goggles and lots of test tubes and glass apparatus and long hours of standing ): sad much. but that's life in nus which is why i never look forward to it.

sch ended at 4-ish today and dee and i took the BTC1 bus fr nus to island creamery! :DDD enjoyed 1 full tub of NUTELLA  on a rainy and windy day. tasted extra awesomeeee! ((((:
 

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yup. th event/parade that true blood sporeans come tgt is none other than npd itself! (: after pining and bidding for long, i finally managed to head ther to padang after 9years! but. no ndp tickets, no nice goodie bags, no clapper, no spore flag but a definite yes to live performances and of cuz th best part of th whole parade, the awe-inspiring and magnificent fireworks!! :DDD seriously, singing majulah singapura and saying the spore pledge is the best experience ever. the energy and vibe that flows through u makes every word and note sounds beeeautiful and proud that u're a sporean! (:

i didn't manage to get into padang officially through th ticketing way but i got into it somehow. heh. (; dat's th best thing about ur boyf holding quite a big amt of authority in th army and no1 really dares to qn his actions! (: hee. 
 
coincidentally met min at  raffles city which was a super pleasant surprise cuz she kept me occupied at least 30mins while waiting for boyf to send the choir ppl onto their buses safely before meeting me (:

genting/kl here i come! hello shimin! see u in genting! (((:

some ndp parade rehearsal photos (: forbear the bad resolution. i forgot my cam and i used my hp cam! haha.

 

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haven't been updating much. been really really v lazy for idunnowhy. mayb just lost th vibe of updating. anet's bdae went off in a breeze. day spent with them is alw very awesome and funnnehh and alw get home super super superduper late! haha. but th best ppl to do stupid things with u. no inhibitions at all! <3! hopefully anet had a greeeat one.

some photos to show though it happened like last week!

the kangaroo i got for her at sydney! and it became th star of the show! hahaha.


the girls without ahmah neo who is forever disappearing. sometimes i just dunno what to say. i dunno why even aft u've done this ps so many times i stil feel so disappointed with u. but its ok. u'll never ever noe cuz u'll never ever get to read this and th thing is, i doubt u actually really cared.




u see! i told u. THE STAR OF THE SHOW! they just keep snapping shots of kangaroo! (:

our birthday cake for ah yee! (:


sis mum and ahyee!


with the bdae cake in the restaurant!


cousins and ahyee and yee jiong! (:


urs truly sisters mum and daddy! (:

 

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 /edit.

decided to lock the entry after much thought. wanted to lock it early this morn but i was too hooked up watching my tvb drama that i literally forgot and postponed it till now. and it kinda defeats the purpose of me locking the entry as its been almost 24hours and ppl wld have probably read it. anyhoow, i feel more secure locking it.

aunty leo was 1 of those who managed to read it like this morn at 1am before i wanted to lock it in the morning (which i eventually didnt and dragged till now). but i just wanna say, thankyou thankyou thankyou very much. somehow, u'll always appear whenever i just needed someone (: and that I have to thank God for that. i dun have to say much but u always can unds what i'm feeling and gg through. and u alw bring the right words and encouragement that never fail to comfort me (:

definitely one of the best things that i decided to listen to my parents and went to a triple sci class in sec 3 and 4 was that i got to know u and be close to u. (: thankyou aunty leo! u're the best aunty ever!! <3

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ok while waiting for my fren to continually upload photos of sydney in her FB i decided to do a mini update. did an event work at parkway parade. DISNEY MAKEOVER.! wher we had to dress up the little kids with princess and prince tattoos, nail stickers, professional makeup from a makeup artist and then let them choose th princess and prince outfit they wanna wear before taking a professional photo fr an atas photographer. cool right? haha. so i had to dress up like cinderella in maid's costume. did th event for 2days and it was a pretty good eye openeer. even saw how ugly and unreasonable parents cn b. argh seriously, dun they feel embarrassed acting lyk dat infront of their chidren??!! and poor pris gt her phone and 70cents stolen by dunno who. what's more it was hidden. lyk wth -.-

some photos! (:


pris & i! (:


and some of her frens. th 1 in princess dress is prettaye!!


at 1 of the ballroom backdrop! (:

anw, now i'm waiting for news if i'm supposed to b teaching this july for my internship. apparently i screwed myself up by being the BIGGEST BLUR SOTONG in th whole world. all my scholarship frens say the the teaching internship's supposed to b next yr and i seem like th only 1 hu thought is this year!!! so now i have no job and no summer prog. i am so d.e.a.d. now i dunno how to grad in time )))))):

bt anyhow shall wait for th scholarship officer to reply my email b4 i decide if i'm reli so screwed up :/. and recently, i'm such a couch potato. watching this new hk drama which was just released in HK. my dad's like th mose awesome couch potato ever. he's not working and he went to buy a media machine that has access to all the movies and dramas new and old whatever u name it! another reason for my couch potato-ness. but this show's really pretty awesome! :D


its called MYSTERIES OF LOVE! (:go catch it if u guys have th time! total of 25episodes! (:

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ok i realised ther's really too many photos and too many things to upload about sydney. but its simply such a great and memorable place that i'll regret if i dun pen it down and look back at my archives.. i'll just c how far can my persistence and perseverance can last! (:

shall upload in a systematic day manner! 1st time i decided to b orderly! (:

 

alright time for my beauty sleep. nights! (:

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updating becomes less frequent now. i think i'm just plain lazy. or simply i guess thngs around me are just fine. no extra super happy moments nor extra sad moments. and i guess dat's th reason i dun really update. dat's phebe for u. usually i keep and pen down memories dat are extra unforgettable (good or bad). so as u cn expect, life's been doing pretty well for me (: packed my table today and i took 2 hours!! but. amazed at my persistence to pack nevertheless the mess and the dust which made me sneezed away a box of tissues. 2more weeks of rest before i head to teaching internship. i should learn to cherish these moments! 

mondays are days i look forward to cuz is the days my boyf is free! days spent with him now are really minimal. spent the 1st monday with him at east coast park and then lunch at old airport road!! th LOR MEE IS GOOOOD! dinner at sakura with his family after that! (: once a week really not enough. and 2weeks later, i dun even have mondays to spend with him alr :/

sydney was really memorable and blessed. dat's y i decided to do a mini update so ther's sth for me to look back on when i've grown old and fragile. ha. (/edit) i tink i'll leave it for friday. th photos take so long to upload. i need my beauty sleep for early morn wakeup tml!!

and i finally found an event job tomorrow! PRINCESS AND PRINCE EVENT AT PARKWAY PARADE! (: i tnk i'm supposed to dress up little children into princesses and princes! HOW COOL IS THAT! (: albeit is one day and the hours are pretty long. 11.30am-9.30pm.
i'm looking forward to it! (: thank you pris! (:

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hola! touched down spore last night at 2230hrs (: th flight back was reli awesomeee! an airbus as compared to a normal aeroplane is reli v v different. th seats are bigger, u get to stretch more and u feel more comfortable slping on it! (: 6days reli flew in a flash. contrary to taiwan, wished i cld spend more time in sydney! aus is a wonderful place to sightsee and just soak in the aussie atmosphere (: minus the stringent checks in th airports, their ultimately bad airport service attitude, th really expensive food and some racism. 1st day in syd wasn't really good. my mum brought all 10cups of nissin maggie mee and th airport staff just threw all away becase she claimed ther was eggs. they were really strict and dat kinda scare me. they open up ur maggie and look at th ingre and evn attempt to use their knife to cut and smell th food u brought in. temp was 7deg and i was freezing and shivering like a leaf. cam went flat on th 1st day ): and by th 3rd day it was pronounced dead ): thankew for serving us so well for th past 5years, rest in peace cammie. now its time to get a new camm! so as u expect photos are really limited and i hafta wait for kezia to upload hers b4 i cn evn uplaod any! BUT all in all, this trip was fruitful and really nice. i got to see th most beautiful beach in aus with its turquoise water and ultra fine sand and play in th OCEAN in wintertime! (: and of course th picturesque blue mountains which i really wished i cld spend more time there. next time i'm gg back ther for backpacking and trekking! (: thank God weather got warmer in the next few days making th trip there more perfect! (: didn't really bought anyth much with th tight budget and the exp things there. managed to get myself a pretty pair of boots which i find myself really stupid since i wun get a chance to wear a boots till at least a year later :/ owel. its those spur-of-th-moment thing again.

words cant describe how awesome and beautiful th place it is. a picture speak more than a thousand words. so stay tuned to fb then. i'm lazy to upload here! (: but one place i'll definitely head back to and i told myself i'll do backpacking back to sydney and other parts of aust! :D its just WHEN.

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work really zaps alot of time away from ur schedule and i'm glad for once that right now i'm not working yet! ha. God has been really good to bless me with so much time to rest relax and just have random meet-ups (: one thing i'm really glad is that i haven't find holidays a chore and a bore yet! :D i guess my time now has been spent really wisely! if its not meetups, then its tuitions, if its not tuitions then is storybook! surprisingly, aft not reading storybooks for more than a year, i've returned back to the storyland fantasies! thanks to min who intro-ed eve's author, LESLEY PEARSON! seriously she's goood! now i can stay up till like 2-3am in th morning just to read her stories! at least i feel much more intellectual and does not feel that my brain's degrading by the minute! (:

results were out this week and of cuz there were disappointments but of course signs of relief. though my results deteoriated but i'm just glad dat sem is over (:

 

2days ago was spent at maye's hse and i had my haircut at whampoa!! cheap and good! th competition ther is so strong. the cheapest was like friggin $2.80! bt it was too cheap that i didn't had the guts to cut! settled for the 5bucks 1 which maye frequents and it turns out pretty good. besides, my hair will alw look the same even if is an amateur hairstylist or an atas 1! ha.

 

and in 6days time, i'm off to sydney! :D seriously, what can get any better! :DDDD

my wound's healing!! i hope it doesn't leave a scar! abstained from dark soya sauce and u c, looks so tempting to just peel off the scab right! i die oso dun wanna peel! hopefully, all these wil pay and i can get back my beautiful legs!!!!  and thanks to the injury, for th 1st time, i hvn exercised not a single time for friggin 2weeks! my metabolism is dropping like bungee jumping. i just hope i wun start gaining :/

   
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finally after coming back for like 5 days i've decided to do a lil update about taiwan! hahah.. what can i say, taiwan wasn't as great as i imagined and expected to be. th food wasn't to my liking. the night markets were alright.. maybe bcuz the crowd and th polluted air ther kinda just turns me off.. one thing which i neva expect to get back fr taiwan was the mountaineous sceneries and the rivers! :D neva did i expect to see clear crystal blue waters in asia and be SO CLOSE to the pacific ocean!!!! guess that was really a plus point for following a tour grp instead of exploring taiwan on our own..

one thing for sure, taiwan is a super HANDICAPPED UNFRIENDLY placeee! even the coach buses are 2 stories and u have to walk stairs.. seriously i never walk so much stairs in one day before and that was supposed to be an everyday 7-day routine when i was in taiwan!! what's more, I WAS TEMPORARILY DISABLED!! tks to my ntu x-physique race which scarred my precious legs so badly! ))))): waiting for chiam to upload her 1535 photos before i have some solid photos to show! since her camera was even beta than a DSLR!

had alot of first-times in taiwan! FIRST TIME EATING WILD BOAR MEAT. FIRST TIME EATING GOOSE MEAT. FIRST TIME WASTING SO MUCH FOOD THAT IS EQUIVALENT TO MORE THAN WHAT I WASTED FOR MY WHOLE 20YEARS! FIRST TIME BEING INJURED SICK AND HAVING MY PERIOD AT THE SAME FRIGGIN TIME!! and thanks to all these "blessings in disguise". surprisingly I LOST WEIGHT! wow -.-

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DADDY'S IPAD FR US CAME ALRRRRRRR! and its now the coolest gadget at my home!!! the best device to watch movies seriously!! :DDD

TWINAIAI'S BDAE CELEB IN 2DAYS TIME! :DDD

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post exams holidays have been really awesomeee :D th best thing is i owax manage to find something to do (: and dat explains th lack of updates because updating my blog is like one of the last thing of my to-do list! ha (:

met up and caught up with a lot of ppl.. still got many more to go and i'm enjoying every process of it (: got to meet up with my ajchoir love and then of cuz i went out with lowshimin ytd! yay :D got to finally k-ed aft like almost a year with th uni clique and we got so high then our voices turned hoarse! ha. and of cuz spending more quality time with my boyf (: i love th way how life is. (: esp when mugging and studying is like thrown farrrrrrrrrr back away in ur head and that's th least thing u want to b bothered with. th only complaint, I'M RUNNING OUT OF MOOLAH... all the meet ups and gg out have drained my savings like nobody business.. th amt i earned for tuition doesn't seem to b able to cover what i'm spending! i nid to savesavesave! furthurmore, taiwan in 6 DAYS TIME! :D and ther goes another hugeeeeee sum of money gone! hopefully th trip will be really gooood esp since we changed tour and have to travel from one province of taiwan to another which was th last thing i really wanted.. but well, we'll c how things go (:

and i've been exercising reently! (: and no, is not running is skippin! ha. th funny thing is since post exams until now, i've not even ran once which is pretty sad bt i've been so lazy dat i'm unwilling to wake up early to run and avoid th sun and by th time i eva wake up, th sun's alr up and out and NO WAY will i eva go under the sun! ironically, i have a very very big swimming craving tho! TWINAIAI I NEED U! haha.. min doesn't wanna go swimming with me! hahaha (: anyhow, i need to start training a lil for the NTU's X-PHYSQIUE THIS SUNDAY! ther's running mountain biking high element kayaking and navigating and i've done neither of any of these yet. damn.

i dunno why.. i lost the way to actually blog properly.. in th past my blog entries are all so long that evn i find it a chore reading my own entries sometimes, i guess when i grow older, i become LESS naggy! haha.. so ppl wil stop complaining about my long entries at least! heh :D

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and i'm heading back to th same place in 2days time for jo's bdae! lol. u never get enough of singing i guess (:

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th day that i've been waiting for since 123475486478 days ago.. today finally marks th end of my last paper! :DDDD definitely like always, ther's disappointment, ther's surprises.. but i guess i'll leave it up to God.. He knows what i really deserved.. this semester overloaded with 6 modules really not easy to study.. th past week when my exams were one after another brought forth alot of surprises to me.. i was once proud of myself for having so much determination just to make sure i can study as much as i can before i stepped into th exam hall even though i had the initial mindset of S/U-ing the paper since day 1 i selected th module.. with less than 5hours of slp i woke up th next morn and just sat ther from 6.30am all th way to 11am before i left for my exams and tried swallowing whatever info i cld really rmb even skipping my meals.. just praying hard that i'll b able to finish what i started. and of course, God showed me what He can do. i've never tried something that extreme before even when i was studyin that dreadful A's.. i guess under v stressful conditions, u'll b caught in surprise what ur determination and motivation can do for u! (:

had dinner with jingyee, yongping and yuxin aft our last paper today at bukit timah's mad jack before heading to beauty world centre and continued my 2nd meal of supper with boyf at al-ameem with cheese mushroom roti prata and kway teow tulang soup! just imagined th CALORIES! skipped running many times because of my incessant excuses and surprisngly, i still lost weight :D dat's th best part.. i guess its probably cuz i realised how water cld have such great detoxifying effects during th time when i skipped breakfast and i just drank water to stave off th hunger! i de-toxed twice! :D experimented it a few more times in th following days and it worked! (: haha..

and tml's trimming eyebrows and cheesecake grocery time! (: i miss the girls and i cant wait for all th meetups coming soon:D and of course TAIWAN AND SYDNEY! :DDD life cnt get any better than this! (:

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tommorrow's the day i've been waiting for! i've been so sick of all the never ending tests and everything. it sucks to be crying so much this week.. and now when i pinch my nose it hurts like fuck. aftermath of th loose water tap. but this week's really disheartening with everything not going my way esp with the amount of effort i put in.. i'm not expecting alot am i? i realised that i kept blaming everything from clothes to shoes to jackets to the notebook that i wrote my formulas etc in and not willing to admit that it was me myself and i that screwed everything up.. seriously. i dunno what's wrong with me. my brain's stuffed full with air that i keep remembering and interpreting th wrong things. sad to the power of infinity infinity infinity ):

but. on another note minus th school and stuff, boyf has been really free! :D i get to meet him everyday during WEEKDAYS when he's reporting for duty to his new unit.. th best part, his camp is just a few bus stops away from nus and ther's a direct bus :D

and on last sat night was his commisioning ball at shangri-la hotel! did DIY makeup and hair with my sis helping me to curl my hair with min's hair curler which i hvn returned her for thousands of years but proved to b v useful! tho i have to curl my hair every hour or so cuz it just keeps disappearing! thankyou and appreciate my sis for forgoing her time to study and helping me to look pretty (:

but th ball was overall pretty awesommme! ther's cocktail reception and free photoshoots by professionals who will develop the photos for u and i think our photoshoot looks exactly like its part of a wedding photo.. lollolol.. everyone who sees it says so! post it up next time! currently my hp display pic (: and th food's really nice just that everyone is acting so coy and reserved and i feel bad keep on taking 2nd and 3rd helpings but then agn, we shldn't waste food! th saddest thing is they love to clear th food once they served for everyone.. sucha waste! and ther was games which were th best aft being to phs and aj's promm.. kept ppl in high spirits and then ther was a marriage proposal! WOW (: 

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just typed a thousand word essay and i'm proud of my productivity level.. haha.. cld finish this essay in 3hours. though still have lots of editing and summarising to do cause of my lang structure and i exceeded.. like expected. haha.. when do i never not exceed word limits with my long-winded sentences.. ha.. malaysia tomorrow with dee has been cancelled. because of my heavy workload.. i feel very thankful for having such an understanding boyf.. he has block leave this whole week and yet i always have probs squeezing time for him this week thanks to all the tests and term paper deadlines. next week he's back in camp when i'll be more free.. well.. somehow this always happens.. but th best part is that we can always try ways to accomodate each other schedule! (: thank you for your maganimity and understanding love! appreciate it muchmuchmuch! <3!

my lucky sandals, lucky jacket since sec3, lucky attire have failed to make me do well for my org chem test ): i think i probably will fail it pretty badly which is really a big blow. iloveorgchem iloveorgchem ireallyloveorgchem. anw, i don't believe in luck but doing all these things ironically give me more confidence whenever i attempt my exams.. this is th 1st time it failed after so many attempts :/

and i'm glad i voiced out how i felt (: i got all the answers that i needed to remove all my doubts (:

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this week has been a really fulfilling and as usual veryveryvery busy week! met up with the girlfriends and their boyfriends at riders cafe at bukit timah on sat which was like almost a week ago! haha.. which was an awesomee place to hang out at! for that moments, u feel as if u were not in spore.. that really laidback feeling and just sitting there enjoying a very awesome yet pricey breakfast! if only they wld let us look at the horses in the stable then this visit would have been the most perfect ever (: island creamery aft that before meeting up with love (:

and to aunty leo, i dunno what to say, but thank you for being there when i needed a listening ear. dat day u really made me feel better. and i am really appreciative of what u've done.. ♥
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and yesterday was meetup with fionalim! like finally! (: waited almost an hour for her. ok 45mins to be exact since she kept insisting! haha! i was quite amazed at my patience level! haha.. mayb cuz its her and i expected it and i had many things to do while waiting for her. headed to holland v for sushi tei and then daily scoop! (: berry cheez and lychee martini was a pretty good combo (: spent the whole time catching up and whatnot (: thanks for th belated bdae treat and i really appreciated it. and right now, i just hope no matter whatever happens to those people ard us now or even in the future we can still stay like this! u're th last person i ever wanna lose (:

and today i had maye to drive me home! (: come to think of it i feel really fortunate that i have many friends to drive me around here and there (: chiam and her came to my house to take photos of my cute niece and my cousin for chiam's and my sis handwash advert and posterr! spent some time catching up with them which was much love as well (: since the last time i really sat down and talked to them was like 2-3months ago! looking forward for taiwan! :D i hope ahboy and sus can make it then it'll be perfect (:

dee's commisioning parade tomorrow! (: my boy's a 2nd lieutanant (:

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sch's been hectic as usual.. so expected.. hvn really made a proper entry after i turned 20! haha.. it doesn't feels os great to be THAT old.. hvn had much bdae celeb this year cuz of the bzbzbzb schedule and having to sacrifice the celeb for exams.. and i cnt find some proper time to meet up with any of them.. gt my 1st bdae celev from my uni frens which was a reli pleasant and totally unexpected surprise! when i reached ther earlier than expected, they were tryin to shoo me away and i was still thinking why were they doin that.. i tot th bdae cake was meant for my fren to surprise her fren or sth.. and then aft some retardation.. i come to realise it was for me (: thankyouthankyou very much and i totally appreciated it (: and finally, celeb it with boyf tomorrow after so long.. loll..

today was a level results release day.. time reli flies like superman.. its like just awhile ago i was stil suffering from anxiety and jitters and then now is my juniors getting their results.. th saddest thing i felt was that its so weird to try to wish everyone u noe taking results today and not ur own sister.. sometimes i wish she was more approachable and less hostile.. i so wanted to wish her good luck but then, it just cldn't come out of my mouth. owell.. now whatever results she gotten is no longer impt anymor.. th mor impt thing is making th right decision and choose th right course to enter. at this pt aft being through 1 sem in uni its reli v impt to choose sth that u reli enjoy if nt u'll reli drown and die there.. and i hope she'll be more willing to listen more to us and God instead of doing it her own way.

just a short update to make my blog look a lil more alive.. oh and tks to twinaiai, i got to know where to get the eyelash growing thing! i read so many reviews on it and all of them seemed reli positive! preetty egggg-cited to try on and look at the results! :D

while this sem's driving me like coconuts, i'm glad i get to go on a few overseas trips this holiday! :D booked and settled my tickets for SYDNEY alr! omgomg. and then ther's another taiwan trip coming along! how niceee (: and that's 1 thing u cn b thankful about being a moe scholar.. th money they give u can allow u to go on so many trips tho it'll b quite a big burn in my pocket but i believe it'll be totally worth it! (:

off to sleep. ever since i turned 20, my body has been in a pretty bad shape.. been suffering from regular migraines and dizziness and pains in my liver and heart :/ signs of oldness. sigh.