Dr K. Lim (MBChB) in the house!!!!

People only see your "so-called-glorious" side, but they don't know much badly you were f**ked behind the scene.

I know I know, it's not an end but a beginning of another stage of my life. Gonna start my life as a slave in Singapore soon. Better utilise my time as a freeman!

Just for an update about what I have achieved so far:

1. Obtained a medical degree, and still alive
2. Went for a solo trip (Pisa, La Spezia, Cinque Terre, Next stops --> Barcelona, Amsterdam, Budapest)
3. Jumped into the Mediterranean Sea from a cliff and swam (well not a real cliff cliff, just sorta)
4. Made friends with strangers in a trip and took selfies with them
5. My LJ is still alive too

Haha kthxbai.

The past one month was the most torturous period in my life, waiting for the result. Have never been so scared about result before, because of the super high failure rate in year 4, which was well known in UoL.

Was so so relieved that I survived this 11-month battle. Longest academic year, most number of specialties, toughest exam papers, most amount of course work, biggest load of mental stress. I sailed through! =D

Time for me to take a short break. I truly need one.

One of my colleagues committed suicide last night. Rumours are spreading and Im not sure which version is the true one.
It felt really shocking, and weird. A person you have been seeing and talking to, even though not close, just gone like that. I had a short chat with her last Friday, and still saw her on Monday. Her room is just few rooms away from mine. (We all are currently staying in this hospital accommodation, away from Leeds town.)

And the boy whom I have been chatting to and playing with, passed away this morning. Heard it was due to cardiac and respiratory arrest. The bed was empty when I went to the ward.

Suddenly felt that life is so unpredictable and fragile.

:(

Not young anymore. I felt like the older I grow, the more I thought. Sometimes perhaps a bit of redundant, a bit too much. But just can't help.

Should stop asking myself what have I achieved, and focused more on what can I do to achieve.

My birthday wish? Hmm, I have been making the same wishes every year, again and again. Want to be different this time.

I wish...

I can be more truthful to myself, hopefully, in near future. That's all.


Happy birthday. :)

分享这首范玮琪的《那些花儿》
是老爸很喜欢的一首歌。

因为自己听歌的习惯，总是以歌曲的旋律为主，没太注意歌词，
一直到之前看了某集的《康熙》才注意到这首歌的歌词有写到。。老去的父母。。。

似乎把父母比喻作那些花儿，在我们的生命中静静地在那开着。
他们总是在那里，守候着，对理想在外的孩子说，他们都很好。
他们总是在那里，守护着，做孩子们坚强的后盾。

他们都老了吧？他们在哪里啊？我们就这样，各自奔天涯。。。

孩子们在外打拼，没注意到岁月的流逝，不知不觉中，爸妈都老了。
幸运的孩子，还有机会还有时间回来孝顺父母；不幸的孩子，也许就没这个机会。

一直以来，心中最大的心愿并不是出人头地、大富大贵或登峰造极，
只希望能从父母眼中看到一丝安慰，做一个让他们引以为傲的孩子。
所以一直担心他们老去，没机会好好孝顺他们。

父母还在身边的孩子，好好把握机会，善待父母，陪伴自己最亲的人。。。

My temporary phone is retarded, indescribably retarded. It literally has no function at all except making phone calls or sending texts. And it gives 6 SHORT buzzes/vibrations when I receive a text/call.

My whole room smells like urine. Ever since the plumber came to repair the toilet flush (which I don't even know when was it done), my room stinks as it someone has peed on the carpet. The pungent smell is sickening, despite me leaving my window opened. (The air is freezing)

My lunch is crappy. Have been eating apples and bananas as I woke up late this morning and has got no time to make sandwiches. The cold weather is not helping at all.

However, I am a happy man!!!

I assisted in a minor surgery in the GP clinic. My first time injecting LA+Adrenaline subcutaneously around the lesions. My first time removing viral warts and seborrheic keratoses (a kind of abnormal skin growth) using a blade on a patient who is AWAKE! My first time using a heat probe to do thermocoagulation (to stop bleeding). And I practically worked together with the GP! Very proud of myself LOL! *heads up*

Finally I met a non-bitchy non-racist female GP in that clinic. She is super duper nice. Normally I need to be thick skin and take the initiative to ask if I can do certain procedures. Today was a totally opposite case. She asked me if I want to do!!!! Of course I said yes. LOL! Patiently, she demonstrated and explained to me what should I do, and all the instructions were given clearly and precisely. Certainly there are still lotsa space of improvement for me, but my confidence level has definitely been boosted today. Venepuncture would just be a piece of cake for me. XD (Oh well I took blood for 5 patients yesterday, the 1st one was an epic fail. XD)

And Dr Adrian inspired me again today. He criticised alot of those management plans (by other GP partners) which could have been done much better, as if he was reading my mind (cos I don't dare to point out). For example, a patient with yellow discoloration of his big toe nail, has been treated with anti-fungal medication for more than a year, without even a nail-clip test done! The drug he has been taking is known to have side effects such as liver toxicity and may cause loss of sense of olfaction. In fact, most of the anti-fungal drugs have side effects and interactions with other drugs. Hence it is really important to confirm the diagnosis before prescribing the drug, and patient should be well-informed about the side effects. Apparently the patient knows
nuts, and he has been taking it for more than a year, and was given a repeat prescription. Until recently when he noticed the discoloration comes back, it seems like the drug is not working anymore, that's why he came back.

The truth is, if a fungal infection is not causing much trouble, it could be left untreated. It is more like a cosmetic problem for girls
who want to present nice and wear nice shoes etc...

If only I could follow Dr AK and Dr Adrian for more sessions.

Time really flies, 3rd week of GP placement is coming to an end, 2 more weeks to go. > <

Have not been eating properly. Woke up this morning, realising that the expired bread that I have been eating has got mould on top... ZzZz... No choice, have to throw away, hence nothing to bring to clinic as lunch. Ended up eating a banana and 2 apples as my lunch. So "healthy" right?

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Just sent my phone for repair after I came back from GP clinic. 2nd time in 2 months. Don't understand why my HTC sense is so problematic. Same problem as last time, where the camera is not functioning properly, green lines appear on the screen and simultaneously, the weather application has faulty too. They replaced a new one immediately for me last time, but now have to send it to repair (cos replaced once already). And they actually lend me a super cheapskate samsung phone temporarily for the time being, which is super cacat. I don't think Im gonna use much, unless I have no choice. Felt really handicapped without my phone now. Darn it, it was only my 2nd month using a smart phone, now I found myself lost (without one). And I just realised I didn't backup my contacts before sending it in. Orz...

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Am supposed to be studying now, but I just feel so tired and lazy. Mood down, energy level low...

Withdrawal symptoms????

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My sis-in-law just gave birth to a baby boy. 2 days before EDD. 

Initially the plan was to have spontaneous vaginal delivery, but her cervix wasn't dilated enough (only 4cm) ever since the show came out,
about 12hours ago. So the dr decided to give her an epidural anaesthesia and proceed with Lower Segment Caesarean Section (LSCS).

NB: Show is a brownish or blood-tinged mucus discharge from cervix thru vagina which indicates the labour could be imminent.

According to my bro, she was totally drained and exhausted after the surgery and was shivering due to the side effect of the anaesthetics. He was very sakit hati.

But I'm really RELIEVED and overjoyed that both the mother and the son are safe and healthy. As she has 2 fibroids in her uterus which were detected only during her pregnancy. I'd say we all are relieved now. :)

Now may we give the little one the deepest and most sincere wish and blessings! Hope you will grow up healthily and must remember that your daddy & mommy love you whole-heartedly yea! :)