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"The eyes are ofttimes more eloquent than the lips, Tara," he replied; "and in yours I have read that which is neither hatred nor contempt for Turan the panthan, and my heart tells me that your lips bore false witness when they cried in anger: 'I hate you


From
The Chessmen of Mars by Burroughs, Edgar Rice

The 3 most important questions

1. When is the most important time in the world?
Now.
2. Who is the most important person in the world?
The person you're with.
3. What is the most important thing in the world?
To care.


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I heard this in a Buddhist talk by Ajahn Brahm. I found it very meaningful.

Thank you Ajahn Brahm. :)

Why?

I'm going to freaking die like how i died in LES today.
Sigh. I'm getting lazier. And lazier. Where has my willpower gone to?
Why am i so freaking lazy and so freaking stupid?
I really am not who i used to be.
I am shitty, fugly, stupid, lazy, lame, evil, insensitive, stupid.
Mayb i said stupid twice, but that was intentional.
Argh. I better do something about myself.
Shit.
I have to work harder. Because I may not be able to board the express train otherwise.

self -hate

Hate
i) my stupidity
ii) laziness
iii) stupidity

The resounding ticks of doom

I hear it ticking,
the quiet ticking of my clock.

Ever so slowly, it draws me closer to my doom.
Ever so gently, it plunges me deeper into this gloom.

I hear it ticking,
the terrible ticking of my watch,

even when asleep,
it ticks away horribly,
like a thorny vine slowly entangling you,
suffocating you to death.

i hear it ticking,
because it never stops.

Friendship

What is friendship in the first place?
Is it something you hold on to when you're feeling lonely? Something to fight for with your life? Or merely something you can just wash your hands off without a second thought?
Everyone has different views and opinions about friendship, probably due to the different priorities in life and different upbringing during childhood. What the fuck happened to platonic relationships between guys and girls man. The fuck. Is every girl out there someone you should fall in love with? Can there be just a friend of the opposite sex just being a good friend? Why do some people get so fucking confused with these lines? Why can't there be friendship that is pure, and everlasting? Why do people screw each other over? And finally, why the fuck am I cursing so much?
Sigh.
As adults, I find that we must at times see for ourselves what is right and what is wrong. That is also a part of growing up. Dealing with this dilemma is a way of growing, emotionally more than any other departments. Think with an unbiased mind, see with your own eyes, and then judge based on your observations. There can be no certain way of saying what you did was right or wrong, but because you made your decision, you have to pay the price.
I guess im not being very Buddhist about this topic. And I really should just try to follow the middle path. Sigh. I do disappoint myself sometimes. Most of the time.
Maybe i just need sleep.
This world is a screwed up place. But still sometimes you find things to be happy about. When good friends come along, i say hold on to them, and treat them like how you would treat yourself. Because it never dies.
Because you allow a good friendship to die if it does.
But you made the decision. Im contradicting myself arent i?
I need sleep.
I need dreams.
And a blanket to hide them.
Nites.

A new saying.

Happiness is like a little bird; you spend your life finding it and trying to catch it, and when you finally give up and stay still, it lands on hand gently...and FUCKING SHITS ON YOU!
hahahahahahahah.  >.<
damn . i just had to say that. sorry. lol. haha.