I don’t know, maybe life isn’t as much about finding the answers. It’s about having the questions and seeking for the answers. And it’s about having faith and hanging on to what you know and believe even when it’s difficult. Still give it your best and don’t slack. I have so many questions, things that I feel like I don’t know and am confused about. What about this, why that, what should I do about blank, how should I go about doing this, etc., etc. I’ve looked for answers, I’ve thought and prayed and wondered. I feel like time has passed and I feel the same about a lot of the questions. Is it a test of patience? Do I need to be more worthy for answers? Although I will strive to exert patience when that’s necessary, patience doesn’t mean sitting around on my douche waiting to get an answer. No, in the mean time I need to do the best with what I’ve got. Who knows? Maybe I will never get an answer to some of these questions in this life? But if that’s so, I need to live in the meantime and act on what I know and act on what I have faith in. I think that’s a huge part of faith – putting your trust in Heavenly Father, keeping His commandments, and then just doing things. Well, do what kinds of things? I don’t know, just things; don’t do nothing. First and foremost I should be living the commandments and principles of the gospel to the best of my ability. Once I am doing that, there are so many little daily choices and things to do in life. Just do it. Just act. Is that what faith is? I don’t have the answers to all my questions – not by a long shot – but just do things in the mean time! Stay close to the Spirit and watch for when those answers will come, whether it be while I am on my knees or while I’m just going about my day (when most answers come), but have faith that they’ll come when you need them to and pray that you’ll recognize them when they come. I believe that God doesn’t speak a language that we don’t understand. If I am doing my best to keep His commandments, I can’t believe that He wouldn’t find a way to get something He needs to into my thick-headed skull.
