Blessed

As I sit at home on a Saturday in my pajamas WAY too long, I am writing some letters and listening to Stephanie Nielsen's Conversation on the Mormon Channel. It is inspiring and makes me realize I have so much to be thankful for.

She said this, "And somehow we are completely fine with that because we were made for each other.
We are not too social, not too funny, not too silly, not too special, just us.
Happy to be us, happy to be alive, happy to have four brilliant children,
and so very happy we got married."

What an amazing outlook on life! You can listen here.

Change...Again!

I laugh thinking how this seems to be the theme. Bring it on!

I'm still thinking of blog names. I've thought of Seasons of Love (weird connotations) and Good things come to those who have to wait (too long). I guess this will still have to be a work in progress.

So, now I have graduated putting an end on my library experiment. Too bad. I'll have to think of a new one.

Yesterday, I decided I wanted to go home, but then I realized my whole family would still be at church. This led the the best decision to go to Temple Square, my other home. I needed that! Later that night my dad was asking what we had learned that day. I definitely was laughed at when I told my day learnings that came from a bird (I'm glad they laughed, because I thought I was crazy as well).

I'll recap the story for you. Temple Square was...more than beautiful! You all have to go..TODAY! Anyways, I walked by myself around temple square on the most perfect day, feeling at home from the many hours I have spent there. I took some pictures with my cell phone and decided I really need to start my photography hobby asap. (Can you tell I like side notes?). I sat down by where I used to work at the Lion House Pantry and started to write in my journal.

I was writing and thinking about how I have been complaining way too much and not having patience. I was thinking about life and realizing what I need to change. As I sat the inspiration flowed. I couldn't help but have a huge smile on my face as an old man passed and said hi, as I heard cute children playing, saw the overwhelming beauty all around me, watched the sweet sisters teach people, and felt the Spirit there.

Now for the bird. One of those changes I was wanting to make was having more love for people. As I sat and wrote, two little birdies came right in front of me. My thoughts were turned to sweet Brother Bedette from Newark. He has since my mission passed away, but when we visited him, he would share how this little bird would follow him and be a signal of his wife who had passed away. I then thought how they are now together like these two little birds, and will have the chance to be together...forever.

Another little birdie hopped in front of me, ruffled his feathers, and came even closer to my feet, and just looked up at me. It was so cute! At that very moment I felt this love come over me and that I wanted to be friends with this little bird. Such a funny moment, but it taught me to love. My dad thinks I should ask him to go bowling. haha. I love that my family can tease each other.

I spent precious hours with my family being all together. We laughed at the dinner table talking about, well my mom would be mortified if I said, so I'll leave it at that. I love the walk after dinner, laughing at "America's Funniest Home Videos" together, a walk outside, and sleeping over with the girls. I'm so thankful and decided I was going to change and be more thankful.

Yesterday was heavenly!

Change

I can't believe I am actually starting a blog. Maybe I feel that need to grow up and this is my first step. Maybe I have been bored with my journal. Maybe I just want to talk (It is one of my favorite things). Who know's what really made me decide this, but I am going to have some fun with it. So, here's goes the first entry...

Graduation...it's such a bitter sweet thing. You know what I mean; I don't really have to say much more. I'm excited about it, but at the same time it's a little bitter sweet. I think I have been so used to the life of a student and love it. It's now the season where each day I get asked, "What are you doing after graduation?" and now I say, "have an adventure". I'm sure that's what it will be. I am worried that I'm not worried about it. How ironic?

On Monday my sweet little missionaries (they are like little brothers) that I teach, shared with me the sweetest lesson on their last day of the MTC. They are such a humble and teachable district. I gave them time to ask me questions and then plan a lesson to meet my needs. As I walked in, they began to tell me they prepared a lesson on patience. They all shared ways to help me in my life (dating, helping my little brother, job search, etc) and about half of us shed tears too. So here's to patience!

My new adventure. Well, actually I find it a little sad that spicing up my life entails changing spots where I study in the library, but it has! I laugh every time. Today I was downstairs and this boy (yes, this is the right title) comes to sit at my table. He says the classic, "Do I know you?", and we start talking. Of course he's just home from his mission, the first semester at BYU, and getting ready to apply to the business school. Little does he know that I am not 19 as I may sometimes appear, but 24 sitting across from him looking at jobs when I graduate from the business school. Hah! Onward with the library experiment...

Next adventure. Learning tennis.