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周而復始

謝謝妳

I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don’t you cry

For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can’t be broken
I will be here
Don’t you cry

‘Cause you’ll be in my heart
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

You’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You’ll be here in my heart, always

Why can’t they understand
the way we feel
They just don’t trust
what they can’t explain
I know we’re different but,
deep inside us
We’re not that different at all

And you’ll be in my heart
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don’t listen to them
‘Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They’ll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you’ve got to hold on
They’ll see in time
I know
We’ll show them together

‘Cause you’ll be in my heart
Yes, you’ll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more

Oh, you’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You’ll be in my heart, always
Always

從前，有一個怪物國。顧名思義，怪物國住的就是一群怪物。他們食量甚大，一天裡面為了醫肚子就不支持了多少東西，很多時候，他們吃飯不只是為了充飢，而是為了滿足自己的慾望。他們，最愛吃人肉，常常去附近的小人過俘虜人類，煎、炸、爆、炒，什麼樣的煮法都有。

還有啊，最好吃的肉，是半肥瘦的，怪物們每當看到聞到都會垂涎三尺。不僅如此，有時候還嫌棄煮好的人肉，不好吃啦，不夠嫩啦等等。唉，可憐的人類，可惡的怪物啊，人家都已經心不甘情不願的線上自己的性命讓你們充飢，還要嫌三嫌四，

難道這還不夠嗎？

幸好，這故事純屬虛構，但是，如果我們真的慘遭這樣的厄運，會如何呢？

I’m a kid who wants to play
with fire. I know fire is fun, and dangerous. I want to play with it, something
in me tells me there might be more fun than danger in it. I know people who got
hurt from playing with fire, and I know people who didn’t, how dumb I am to think
I would be the one in a million people who are immune to it. It’s exciting just
to think how fun it would be, to play with fire.

To take one step further, or
to back off before I get burnt? Tempted, yet confused.

玉今天有點納悶。他期盼多年的重逢，似乎在一連串出乎意外的條件下，慢慢的實現了。玉是媽媽自個兒帶大
的。

當時，玉的爸爸有了外遇。可能就是所謂的『結婚就是愛情的墳墓』吧，爸爸自從娶了玉媽媽之後，本性開始流露出來了。一個星期內，竟然可以在花上一個月的盈
利，全都花在賭博上，想要一步登天。玉媽媽已經苦口婆心的勸導，可惜忠言逆耳。到最後，修理機車的店面給賣出去了，爸爸欠人家一身的債，這邊還清了，那邊 又欠。而且啊，爸爸還需要養兩頭家啊！到最後，爸爸還狠心到想要把住家給賣了。媽媽為了玉，就是不肯讓步，他們離婚了。

玉長大了，可是當年的離婚手續沒有辦好，爸爸不想付贍養費，沒上法庭簽他的大名，結果媽媽和爸爸之間雖說已離婚，但是手續就是差那麼一點點。媽媽為了『正
式』二字，委託律師幫忙處理。玉離開故鄉的前幾個月，十幾年不見的爸爸被召回國，完成數年前的手續。看到爸爸，比照片裏的模樣老了很多，難道從中國大陸飛 回馬來西亞有那麼的累嗎？頭髮全白了，額頭也變得好像字典一樣，好皺。四目交接的那一刻，爸爸無神的雙目，亮了起來，兒子長得好高，聽說不久將要出國留
學，心裡的得意，隨著淚珠溢了出來。
隨後的幾個禮拜，玉除了在法院上見過那陌生的模樣一目之外，又回到平日的生活。直到今天，媽媽接到爸爸的妹妹的一通電話，說爸爸患上了癌症。媽媽怒髮衝
冠，說：“他要見兒子就直接講，不要用這樣的爛招數來騙我們！”，然後用勁的把電話蓋下去。玉知道了這件事，外表看起來是『沒關係』的表情，其實內心深處
很想去見爸爸，但是媽媽已經打電話給醫院去確認了，醫護人員說爸爸沒事，只是普通的老人病。玉今天有點納悶。

*

玉：“媽咪，我剛到高雄，現在正在把行李的東西拿出來！”

媽媽：“哦，安全抵達了啊！那就好，那就好！”

玉：“怎麼啦？語氣悶悶不樂似的。”

媽媽：“玉啊，你爸爸死了。”

玉：“哦，是嗎？什麼原因？”

媽媽：“胃癌。”
玉：“哇，原來他之前沒有騙我們啊！我們真是擺烏龍了。”

媽媽：“是啊。”
玉：“你OK嗎？”
媽媽：“我已經放下啦，I’m
fine。”
玉：“這樣就OK啦。好啦，學長召集我們了，我先下去！你take care 啊！”
媽媽：“OK, OK！你也是。拜拜！

玉：“拜拜！”

玉輕輕地把電話通放回，仰望著夜空說：“爸，對不起，知道你有病，我什麼都沒做。”

Mitch
Albom, the author of The Five People You
Meet in Heaven and For One More Day,
has enlightened me to a whole new insight again in Tuesdays with Morrie. There is only one word to describe the novel
– splendid. The novel encompasses thoughtful dialogues between the author, Mitch and his terminally ill university professor, Morrie Schwartz during those
life-changing Tuesdays, spiced up with some flashbacks of Mitch’s memories.

Morrie,
Mitch’s Sociology teacher, or “coach” was very close with Mitch. They did lots
of things together. Nonetheless, this friendship dimmed after Mitch’s
graduation from Brandeis University for 16 long years. Mitch stepped on the
path of pursuing wealth and fame, forgetting about his promise to keep in touch
with Morrie over time. It was when Morrie, who had then developed ALS (Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis), appeared on Nightline that rekindled the relationship between them. Their
reunion not only inspired Mitch’s life, it would also inspire the lives of
every reader.

For those Tuesdays that Mitch spent in Boston, many
illuminating life lessons were taught by his old professor. These lessons touch
the topics of death, family, and love. Death, is the most dreadful thing in life,
but Morrie was able to embrace death, as if it was his close friend. It was
amazing that death did not pose a threat against Morrie, but instead, it made
him make good use of his remaining days and he used it to finish his last
project with his favorite student, Mitch. Family – the heart of the novel, lies
in every fourteen lessons Morrie had given to Mitch. Family always comes before
everything else in life.  This is the spirit of Morrie. After
undergoing these life lessons with Morrie, I see many positive changes within Mitch. He came from being a pursuer of worldly
things to a comforter of his old professor – he became like his son, giving him
affection and assurance before he left the world.

“Love wins. Love always wins.” Morrie not
only awakened Mitch about the real meaning of life, he had also opened Mitch’s
heart to let love flow in. Love comes in many forms, we only have to welcome it
into our lives. Even letting his brother, Peter live his life was a way of
expressing his love towards him. Although Morrie could not avoid death nor
could he avoid being totally dependent on others, he did not miss enjoying every second of his remaining life. The
news in the papers, mainly of violence and desperation, serves as juxtaposition
to Morrie’s heart-warming lessons.

This
is a beautiful novel. It had a unique attraction that kept me pondering on Morrie’s
aphorisms and dialogues between him and the author. His malady might have physically crippled
him but deep inside he was still the old sanguine professor, full of surprises and innocence. He has shown us that in order to live
life to the fullest, we need only feel good about it, forgive and love.

Dengan kenaifan,
saya mengharapkan bantuan,
namun,
dengan ketidakadilan,
telah kamu meragut harapan itu

Namun,
sekarang jua
aku merindui kehijauanmu,
aku merindui wajahmu,
begitu ayu,
begitu menawan,
aku merindui perbezaan
yang hidup dalam persamaan,
harmoni yang wujud di bawah
kesebelahan.

Suatu hari nanti,
saya akan membalas jasamu.

Suatu hari nanti,
kamu akan menjadi tanah harmoni
tanah wujudnya pelangi.

Walaupun harapanku ini kecil,
namun,
aku tetap menunggu.

Majulah negaraku,
tanah tumpah darahku.