
I haven't said much about this, because I don't want anyone to say anything about it. Remarks make it harder. My Fallon Reese is only ten pounds. And this is quite the feat for her. She grew normally for the first two months of her life. And then things changed. She weighed 8lbs. 2 oz. for four months straight. She has since worked her way to 10lbs as of last week. We've been to Primary Children's Hospital and done every test imaginable, put her on the early intervention program where she recieves in-home physical and occupational therapy bi-monthly, been to upper-gi and lower-gi doctors, and we go every two weeks to the doctor for check-ups and weight checks. In addition, we have to keep food journals and power-pack her every bite (ie. a bowl of cereal contains 6 items, (cereal, a fruit or veggie, either sugar, olive oil or karosyrup, vitamins, Polycose, formula, and water.)) She is "normal" in that all of the tests have been negative. She is behind on her gross motor skills, (hence the therapy), but a few months ahead on fine motor skills, and right on track with her verbal skills. She is a happy girl. She is my heart, and I thank my Father in Heaven every day for her presence in our home. She is loved very much and she has a smile that will make your heart melt into pieces. All of that being said, I never knew how much it would ache when your child is diagnosed as a "Failure to Thrive" baby. I never knew how hard it would be to have every single person that is supposed to be "helping" also be the same people questioning you as a parent. I never knew how crazy it would be to hear stories of other mother's in the same situation that "put" their children there. I know my Savior has been holding my hand throughout this entire process. Changing doctors twice, seeing so many specialists, searching for answers. Defending myself. It has been a trial. It continues to be so amidst so many others in our lives.
Fallon, I love you. You are my heart outside of my body. I love your spirit in our home, the joy you bring to my life, the sweet sister you are to your siblings, you are our world. Thank you for choosing us. I love you.
Love,
Mommy