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Some people really need to get this straight :


1) Its NOT ok to hassle and/or harass someone just because the other person threat you to do so, no matter how fucked up the situation was, or how desperate they made you feel at that time. I don’t care, its NOT ok.

2) Its NOT ok to threat people into doing incredibly stupid things which causes long-term embarrassment and the total lost of dignity and self-respect. Do you even realize what you’re doing?

3) Its NOT ok to discard people’s keepsakes from the past. In life, the people we’ve met shaped us into who we are today. He doesn’t get from immature to decent by accident, it takes a life-long process, so have some respect for his past and the people before you.

4) Its NOT ok to apologize repeatedly then caught doing the same shit afterward. Its uncool and makes you look stupid.

5) Its NOT ok to limit what others can or can not do, simply for your convenience. Stop being so self-centered and ignorant, its irritating. People grew tired and starting to hate your guts.


And last but certainly not least:

Insecurity is a problem you need to deal with ON YOUR OWN. An adult trying to make a relationship work by acting like a brat, throwing tantrums and getting paranoid over insignificant things is disturbing and creepy and sick and shows that they're not suitable for any kind of long-term relationship.


A real relationship is to be with someone who wants to share his life with you by choice, not by force. You want something you can control? Here’s a TV remote, knock yourself out.

In a while, in a word,
Every moment now returns.
For a while, seen or heard,
How each memory softly burns.
Facing you who brings me new tomorrows,
I thank God for yesterdays,
How they led me to this very hour,
How they led me to this place...

Every touch, every smile,
You have given me in care.
Keep in heart, always I'll,
Now be treasuring everywhere.
And if life should come to just one question,
Do I hold this moment true?
No trace of sadness,
Always with gladness...
'I DO...'

Now a song that speaks of now and ever,
Beckons me to someone new,
Unexpected, unexplored, unseen,
Filled with promise coming through.
In a while, in a word,
You and I forever change,
Love so clear, never blurred,
Has me feeling wondrous, strange,
And if life should come to just one question,
Do I face each moment true?
No trace of sadness, always with gladness,
'I DO...'


Never with sadness,
Always with gladness,
I do.

Bare feet tickled by the powdery sand
Pressing footprints along the shore
A vain attempt to leave a testament
That I walked this path before
Will you remember
Will you remember me

came home around 9pm last thursday only to find an empty house. kunci gembok pager ilang (padahal bukan gembok biasa, kuncinya aja ga bisa diduplikat), pintu utama kayu jati jebol didobrak, rumah kuncinya yg dari kuningan udah patah di lantai, pintu garasi kebuka.

my chest hurts.

masuk rumah, semua pintu udah kebuka. kamar acak2an. monitor flat screen yg lebar dan umurnya belom 2 bulan ILANG. CPU-nya juga. 2 jam tangan Ihsan (1 from his dad, 1 from mine) ilang. Hp Esia ilang.

on to the livingroom. Lemari TV abis bersih tinggal kabel2, dekoder cable tv & modem. TV flat screen 32" & DVD compo ilang. DVD compo Nisa di kamar yg skrg jadi gudangpun ilang. Kamar tamu berantakan tapi TVnya masih ada (berat kali).

Dibawah, my microwave oven masih ada. Nintendo DS pun masih ada. kayanya lemari gue ga diacak2 (walopun kamar mandi diberantakin).

Udah lapor polisi, they took the fingerprints n stuff, tapi ga ush ngarep banyak lah, emang polisi sini kaya CSI on AXN? pfftt...... In the mean time pindah dulu sama in-laws (beda blok doang), back n forth ke rumah parents. will be back by the end of the month (sebelom piano dateng).

yep i decided to buy a piano. this house is too lifeless, the quietness is deafening.
so right now the piano is the only thing that motivates me to move back.

LOVE :

track 01 - TANGO EN PARQUE CENTRAL by Dave Grusin
track 04 - PAVANE OP.50 by Gabriel Faure
track 06 - SINCE FIRST I SAW YOUR FACE by Anon
track 07 - OLHA MARIA (AMPARO) by Antonio Carlos Jobim
track 10 - ADAGIO IN G MINOR by Tomaso Albinoni


NOTES :

track 04 - its good. way better than Charl's version.

track 06 - James Taylor sounds like one of those young and handsome and charming Disney Princes (not princess) except that he's actually OLD. You wouldn't know til u googled his profile. Doesn't matter, the singing voice is GOOD.

track 07 - the melody is suicidal and Joshua Bell pushes you over the edge. This is one of those songs that will suck all the happiness in you (much like the Dementors, yes) and leave you feeling depressed but you just cant stop listening to it.




i miss this blog :)

spent half an hour trying to remember my Blogger account n password. Hhhhhh saking lamanya i abandoned this blog.... kangen posting, pengen cerita2 tapi bakal menyita time n space... jadi meanwhile,mau posting foto2 aja. Here are some pics from last night. Infinito sang at Fatahilah, for Batavia Art Festival (or sumtin like that)... We opened the night's celebration, sang four songs, trus melipir ke Museum Keramik buat foto2 deeeeh....

"Its only change, only everything I know.. Even the things that seems still are still changing"

So many changes, its overwhelming.. I'm off to find some peace of mind.


"I will let go if you will let go" ~ben folds