What a crazy night I had ! Feeling so exhausted.

Finally, it is completely done. ^^

The previous blog post was mentioned about my vexed and unhappiness towards this subject.
Though until now, I still hate this coursework. However ….

I certainly understand that nothing I can do than just move on.
I know the best to shut others mouth is to give the last powerful strike to it.

I spent nearly 10 hours, sitting in front of the notebook. Squeezed my brain juice, doing things as creative as I can. First dealing with the 200 pages proposal, then financial and Marketing analysis, and finally completed the 48 pages launching slides show all alone. Compiling, editing, designing and creating some new ideas, I know I am giving my best for the last strike.

I guess this time, I am playing my role as leader, very well. Things I done today might be out of my members’ expectation though it should be something they expected if they initially, do trust me.

Tonight, I am telling myself something different. Right now, I am thinking, “I have gone till this far and is almost the end. Why don’t just give out my best for the last touch up?”

Though I also understand, last minute strike couldn’t make things perfect, but I guess, I am doing my job perfectly well tonight. People might think it is too late to act, but, I would like to say, this is the only right time for me to act. I didn’t have enough time to deal with this coursework initially. You know why and I guess I been telling the reasons number of time. So, my blog readers should understand what I meant. =)

I am now working in a team.~ And I will try to take over the game possession.
I would like to clarify here, I appreciate my members effort very much though at times, conflicts raise.

Taking over the possession is the only way to prove. Good night. ~

Things have come this far
and thought I have accepted the fact and move on

But I just find myself feeling uneasy to initiate body engine
I know the main reason is that it really brings me lot of vexed and troubles
as well as the conflicts raised

Mood ruin whenever I recall the days I got back-stab
and people don’t trust me

When I place myself in the position
though at the center top
I find myself nobody, being unable to control anything

at the end,

I am just an ordinary follower with instructions to obey,
though people label me as the leader.

Well, I know things could only return to its track after next week.
guess time will mend my broken heart though wouldn’t help much to repair my image in others’ eyes.

So why do I care? Because I been care of them so long.
however the disappointment kills all.

终于把握了喘息的空间
回到家里
给亲爱的老师们打了通电话
到了学校向老师们问候

从美国回来至今
都还没有机会和他们报平安
也跟他们道了歉 希望他们谅解
当然他们肯定明白我~
他们就是无时无刻都那么疼我 关心我

回到了中六学校
找了老师
突然下起雨来 往往雨声总是能够起我的回忆

经过教室 想念以前一大班朋友 快乐疯狂的日子
想起当初一起课后闲聊的时光
一起努力奋斗 一起参与活动的分秒
很快乐~
转眼已经三年了 各自忙各自的
相聚的时间少了 感情变淡了
可是当初的时光 依然有值得让我回忆的事情
现在突然好 怀念~
如今的生活 即时是大学 却和社会没有两样
差不多 都各自为政 又或则我没有找到志同道合的朋友~
也很有可能是我的问题~ ………… ^^

回忆是让人回味的 而 现实总要人低头 我却要硬着头皮抬头挺胸 和它战斗！加油！

终于完了 这个星期终于来到了周末

和朋友吃完午餐 终于到家了

身体好累 好累~

终于可以泄气了~ 哈哈~

还剩一张考卷 和一个PRESENTATION

然后就结束了~ ! Haha 想到都兴奋!

一连几场大战终于来到尾声 所幸我还安然无恙

在这段忙碌的日子里 没有一丝喘息的空间
对你的思念减少了 心不再被牵引着
想必是个好预兆

然而当忙碌接近尾声
才发现 双手依然握紧拳头 没有放下

在这个无声的夜里 细雨寒风中 思念的情绪突然高涨
痛苦的压抑着 不愿再打扰你
身处理智的边缘 徘徊 我问了自己 游戏到了这里是否一切到了尽头?
趁还能够抽身的时候离开 是否才是明智的抉择？
而你不开口说话 是不想让我难过？

这段备战的日子 理智战胜了感性
我知道 如果能够再一次选择
我不会告诉你一切关于我的故事
更不会阅读你那妻美沧桑的文字

你出现在我心墙防卫松懈的时刻 所谓遇对了时机
将我一步一步地牵引 踏入了泥沼 不能自拔

然而当我撇开理智 我还是会愿意继续厚脸皮下去~

感情世界里 剩下的只是迂腐的我 还有那由始至终的 一厢情愿

考场战胜了 回归现实 面对的还是感情的失败
他人眼里的佼佼者
在感情的神秘面纱里头 我却只能是个永远的失败者~

千里寻她千百度 当下我真的希望 那人已在灯火阑珊处

—-  相信我 只不过是  转载文章而已

Finally I survived.

Was mentioning about spending a night, like the past.
Yes, I did it last night.

Off to bed at 11PM last night and I gave myself an early morning call alert, as early as 3am today. I crawled out the bed, struggled with notes, memorized them slides-by-slides. Then I took two hours break and woke up again at 7am. From 7am to 9am, I finished the third round of revision. Fortunately, I managed to take the last hour break on bed before heading to university.

It was so tiring, and I hate life like this. It has been years, I tried to escape from living this way. However, paper just now was so crucial, with limited time to revise and also I just managed to achieve B+ for the midterm exam. So last afternoon was the final chance for me to strike for an A.

Well, on the way home, I felt relief. I recalled the night before this, I couldn’t described how harsh life was. Though, I was enjoying those “study extremely hard, work extremely hard, no play” life few years ago. But I did exchanged them by sacrificing my health. The main reason why I am now, physically, a weak guy.

Lack sleeping hours often brings me disasters like Migraine and stiff neck, paralyzed shoulder. All these enough to cause half top of my body parts suffered, especially the Brain. I knew, they are devastating, affecting my memorizing and analyzing ability.

Yet, with no other choice, I put myself back to the position like the past.

I think my performance just now though not perfectly well, but satisfying. The difficult part of it is that the knowledge and ideas are just too general thus hard to be kept in mind. I hate when the notes emphasized on the advantages and disadvantage of A, B, C and D… To me, who cares about the advantage or disadvantages? I would enjoy answering about the applied question rather than those question with the common answers. For e.g. low cost, high energy efficiency. WTF.

And you know what would happen when the answers are just so general, yet still based on marking scheme? Yes, I got no choice, but to print HIS notes on the answer sheets.

Just for that reason, I struggled last night. Fortunately, is all over.

God, I am glad that you bless me and love me so much. I was telling myself last night, “I am now in complete control of myself, and I will achieve what ever I set my mind to.” Though it tastes bitter last night, but it did exchange with a exhilarating smile this afternoon.

Soon, take a short nap and strive hard for the next paper, food sensory evaluation.

Good luck~

I wish to scream out loud.
On the way back home, I feel like crying.

Isn’t because the paper just now,
past memories flash into mind
make me think.

I just wish to gain back the control of myself. That’s it.
History in the past makes me nervous of looking back.

Should I, just for a night, let myself back to the past?
Struggling with notes in the midnight without sleep?

Tomorrow is so crucial!

Again, silence invades. Crawling out the bed an hour ago, trying to focus on study. This time, mission failed. Fatigue and weakness in the body is dragging me back to bed. Soon, I will sleep dead to the world.

The first paper last afternoon was an awesome one. I was able to fulfill the self promise, stepped out the hall with a smile hang on the face. A confident one. Well, I think most of the coursemates did well in their first paper too. I think that was just a piece of cake as long as we did pay in effort.

Alright, few hours to go, will be facing second paper of the week, followed by another one tonight 8pm. I guess what would happen to my body and soul when I reach home probably around ten half? The reality become even cruel when I realize that the 4th paper will be held on tomorrow 8.30am. OMG, when is the time to prepare for it then? Leave the rest to God, I guess. =)

Again, I am glad for what He has given me in the past, yesterday and today. I will make sure another victory to keep into the pocket, counting the number of winning at the end of the week. Perhaps, with all His blessings, 6 wins in a row.

Good luck. ~ Good night.

The clock is showing 1:28am. Dropping few lines here before I off to bed.

Well, initially it was a tough day. Lying on bed, hug the cloth of pillow and huddled up under a blanket. I was trying to escape from the mood fluctuation in dream. Fortunately, hormone regulated back to its normal state, things were then doing great.

Though yesterday I was thinking the relationship started to deviate from the straight line equation, which Y no longer equal to mx+c. From the observed chat data history, it was telling me, statistically, things were not distributed normally. However, this evening, a few words from you, construct just a sentence for which sufficient enough to sweeten my day. Best of luck in your coming challenge. Remember, you are always remarkable.

Few hours to go, I will have to face the first final exam paper of the week. It’s Advanced Nutrition paper. I think I am preparing it well, perhaps, it will be just a piece of cake, for which I would not need to squeeze the ideal juice out of the brain, but it will drains out like a waterfall. God bless me.

With a relax soul and calm mind, I feel grateful for what God has given me. I will hold all His blessing, enter the hall confidently then step out the door with a great smiles hanging on face. God, please bless me.

All the best!

梦中的你并非完美
但依然让我无法自拔
这一次 已经是第二次
但这一次的情节却让我尝到心痛的感觉

9时29分 梦醒了
起了床刷了牙…日子如常的过….
刚刚又多了一封寄不出的讯息~