来到曾经到过的地方
我的脑海里只有零散的回忆 
而感觉却统统不一样了

没有再毛骨悚然 心里也没有一阵阵的忧愁
反而 多了一份现实的心情
心里头想着：“今天的社会 免不了….. “

是我踏入了社会 面对如狼似虎的人类 而习惯冷漠
还是我病痛缠身 变得不再好像以前那般容易感动忧伤

今天 我是去了老人院
陪伴外婆去派发红包 行行善
进入了那小小的礼堂 空气弥漫着一股老人院独特的味道
是药膏味 尿酸味 孤独寂寞的味道？
脑海里散过一切片断 原来我曾经来过

看见一位老婆婆
哦！多少年前 我曾经在同样的地方 同样的角落见过她 
多年以后 她没变
而我却长大了 踏实了
当年我是拖着沉重的心情探望这班老人家 脸上当时挂着的是无比僵硬的笑容
今天我的心情没有多大的起伏 离开时 公公婆婆们一句恭喜发财也换来了我微笑的祝福

我的确25了
我的心情不再容易受影响
慢慢的 我好像变成了一个自私的魔鬼
“不关我的事  就别管…” 
说真的 我还挺常说这一番话~

心静如止水 是否不会再起涟漪？
不时有颗小石头被抛向水面 水花四溅如激情又是否能够长久？

犹如雾里探花 终究昙花一现 
还是乖乖把心收起比较妥当

原有的饥渴慢慢的变成了奢求
然后奢求慢慢的演变成了无所谓

单身原来不可怕
单身原来自由自在
如果我是笑着的说这番话 
有谁能看穿内心的愁容
虽然单身不可怕 又有谁会舍弃有伴相随？

大家都说要战胜恐惧 变要面对恐惧
那么害怕单身 不是更应该学会适应它 这样符合逻辑吧？
硬要找个伴撇离单身 是种逃避 其实更加可悲

得不到想要的 我宁愿不要
怎么要象大家那样 得不到就 改变甚至降低要求？ 

农历新年依旧单身的你
是否害怕面对亲友对你发动一连串的问题
你什么时候交女友？
什么时候毕业，工作，拍拖，结婚，生育？
统统的问题就是喜欢在农历新年要你回答 -.-lll
我告诉了妈 ： 要不就我不去三姑六婆家拜年，要不就我会回答他们，“谢谢关心，不过关你屁事！”

我想要有一个家
我的家要有父母和弟弟们幸福一起
然后我有能力买自己喜欢的汽车房子
还有带家人到处旅游
我想要有一份骄人的事业
行内人都认识我 赏识我
我想要有自己的慈善履历表
希望可以通过任何方式帮助有需要的人
希望能够给于处于绝望的人那么一丝生存的希望

到最后
希望有那么一个伴
愿意陪伴我 接受我的一切好与不好
有那么一个伴
关心我却也给于我实现梦想的空间
有那么一个伴
在我面临苦难的时候 陪伴我经历
也希望有那么一个伴
能够让我人生多一份色彩

倘若远方有那么一个你等待和我相聚 请你加快脚步来到我的面前
要不然请你永远不要出现
因为习惯一个人越久 我会越不懂得两个人应该怎么相处

当然
如果没有福气拥有这个伴

我想我一个人也可以过的很好 …

春节来临 天气总是如此的炎热
走在艳阳高照的街道 期待着阵阵的春风
无奈 春风就是等不到 那样的天气还真让人窒息

最近一个月工作上还非常轻松 也有了多一点的时间
朋友们接连邀约 却被我好不留情的拒绝
对不起嘛  难得有空档 春节来临 有许多事情要准备
而且我有时候也需要一个人独处 反省嘛
这些日子没什么变化
变化大的竟然是我的小小肚腩 它好像膨胀 速度出奇的快 好伤心咯！
脸上痘痘是没几颗 不过总是觉得岁月不留人 真的老了
男生要用护肤品？是不再新鲜的话题了。不过我没有多余的钱花在它们身上 呼呼~ 
多喝水 早休息 ~ 就可以了 (谁不懂?不过很难咯~还难过赚钱买护肤品 哈哈)

二月份隆重宣布是我的假期月
不错嘛  半年工作以后 又有一个月的假期 
三月份就要开工 
好好充电咯
其实我很想旅行 可是没钱~ 

新年让我发个大财啦！Please 

January this year has passed a little bit too fast. In the speed of light, it’s February now. A festive month for all Chinese. Yay! Same like when I was a child, I am always excited and anticipating for the Chinese New Year season, when it’s also the longest festive holiday we enjoy in a year. 2013, a year of Snake of course. We welcome the snake and sending the Dragon off (I’m a Dragon man!).

This year 1st of January, I didn’t write myself a reminiscence of the year 2012 and didn’t even draft my resolution for year 2013. So I would like to spend this moment for doing so… Haha

Dragon year was as challenging and interesting as few years ago. I had my thesis completed and it was granted a distinction grade after two semesters of burning midnight oil. Then I graduated finally, with a First class Bachelor honor in hand. Basically, it was a year about completing my study and starting a new page of my life in career. The main difference comparing to year 2010 and 2011 is that I didn’t fly in year 2012. I was supposed to, but eventually burnt off the air ticket to Bangkok, for the sake of starting the new journey.Second half of the year 2012, I went through a number of job interviews and got a few offer in hand. However, I didn’t make it to the company which I dream of joining. And I thought it was a consolation at least I got into another big company. So I started off my career in August. Sadly, the journey was totally a disappointment since the first day of induction week. All I can say is, the program is not well organized and we were treated like a real fresh dude that know-nothing-at-all. Well, I am not sure about others, and though I was fresh but that doesn’t mean I know nothing at all. The only good thing of the job is attractive salary, and I definitely do not want to be a man who think money is everything (I know money is important. But important does not mean everything.) After six months of service in the company, I finally resigned. 31st Jan, was my last day attached to the company. And you start wondering : Wah this fellow resigned just after 6 months of working. Omg. Has he gotten new job? Doesn’t he needs income to survive? 

Well, of course, I need income. And for that reason, I got another job offer before I resigned. And I really thank God for loving me so much because I finally got my dream workplace after failed the first intake in May. By having this second chance, I realized and believed God has keep everything best for me. And for everything that happened, it happened with a good solid reason. And then I start questioning myself, did I look any difference back in May and now? Yes, indeed. 6 months of working in my previous company has taught me a lot valuable soft skills and indirectly shaped me into a better, flexible dude. I think I am shaper and better now. And the new company I am joining, definitely requires me to be more energetic, shaper and stronger. It is a extreme large pool of challenge. I dare not say I am totally better now, but at least, I learned to smile, keep calm and quiet when there is a conflict. 

You must be curious of the new company I am joining soon in March. But wait, the salary is actually lower this time. But more attractive employee benefits scheme. 

So I will take my February off for holiday and continue my career journey in March. Again, I join them with the same title, Management trainee. 🙂 Company leh? What company lar? Good Food, Good Life. 

Oh ya, some people tell me, “it doesn’t matter where you work, elsewhere is same. The shit is always there, the difference is only its size, color and smell. You need to handle it wherever you go. So be mature!”

And I wanna say: You are right. And don’t get me wrong. I left my previous company for a better reason. I left not because I am immature and can’t handle those shit. The main reason of me leaving the company is because the company that soon I will be joining is my dream workplace. I want to be part of it since the first day I looking for job. So please understand my resignation is mainly due to the attractive workplace that I wanna engage with. Well, I don’t know if I would end up giving up later on, BUT, at least I try, I taste it. Anyway, I think I have no way back, I will head on no matter what kind of shit I meet this time. So don’t worry, just have trust in me. 🙂 

Ok! Done with my career topic. Chinese New Year is coming, 7 days to go! May this Snake year, bring health, happiness, unity and prosperity to my family. 🙂 May all my friends and all who I care, enjoy the festive week and may all your wish come true! 

恭喜发财！