Tuesday, April 22, 2008

Framed in the Passing of Time

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Four months????. . . . . I am sure it is telling that I have not done any posts for a long time... but what does it tell?? That I have nothing to share? No daily events that are even worth mentioning?? A catastrophic life altering sudden depression??I don't know??? A boring existence?? Or just no words to express what has been happening in my world.. ???Maybe alot of each of these. But really after all this time, I really do have a billion things I could write about. All of them positive and interesting and very exciting. But I never seem to have the words on a daily basis to share. Just sometimes. Or more realistically speaking, the time is passing so quickly there never seems to be enough of it to indulge.

For today, ok....So I am just waiting for my Hydrangea plant to bud new life. Really! I go out everyday and look at it. It just looks like Mr. Q went into my plants and stuck an old stick in the ground. Dang!!!!I knew it. I have just had this feeling that it will not thrive where it is though, I really already know it. Info to draw on:I have a friend who told me her plants had flowers and were very bushy last year just after she planted them. And, she said her landscaper told her to get a specific variety of Hydrangeas that do well in here. Most of the plants that are at the garden stores are not of that variety. Soooooo, I suspect that mine will not flourish
.. #1 Where it is in my yard and ..#2 It may not like it here in this climate anyway...so this is like year 10 of living here in this state, and I have still never had the Hydrangea plant I want..!!! I really need Martha. I really don't want to rename this blog -Hydrangea H*ell! yuh know?


I did get out early though while the ground was still soft after the thaw, but before the clay hardens... to pull out all the orchard- grass- shoots in my flower-less beds. And that was great. However; I decided to wait a week to do the area under my picket fence. That was a huge mistake!! By the next week the dirt was too hard to get any grass shoots pulled out easily. So it was harder and more frustrating. I am planning to plant Nasturtium all along the perimeter of the fence around my yard. Just under the pickets. I did it last year late in the season, and it was really pretty. But some of the seeds on the south side of my house did not get as large as on the west side. I am hoping this year they will really do well all over. I just need to remember next year to work fast while the dirt is soft, in prepping the soil. I don't do tons of big permanent things in my yard, because I hope someday to start fresh, but it is fun to try new things and experiment while I can....like a rough draft. Another nice way to pass some time here and there.



Favorite indulgence this week: King Size Reeses Cups (it's about time!) and Swedish Fish!!

Biggest Mountains: Gettting back into running after hybernating, & Ace serves.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Happy Birthday Grandma!!!

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................................................. We miss you tons!!! Lang Ziel Heil a fin!!!!!!! Hurrah!!

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

Black Cookies

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Just because I am a 40 year old, with four kids and a pretty busy life- running car pools, cleaning toilets regularly.. doing loads of laundry and alot of homework - doesn't mean I can't do something totally cool!!! Like going to see an up and coming Vocal ARtist play at Sundance FF. Which is what I did yesterday!! It was so fun!! A friend of mine, found some music by a girl named Jessie Baylin online and has become a big fan of her music - so we went and saw her play!! The performance was great and I really loved her too!! Her band was amazing and I can't believe her voice, it is so greaat!! SHe was so cute and nice and after they were done, she came to talk to us because she noticed my friend mouthing alot of the lyrics during the show. WE even got a hug and she hung out talking for a while. Anyway, she was so nice, and so talented I just wanted to plug her music.


She has an album coming out soon, but has one song on itunes , but most of her music is on :




Check it out!!!
Finally, the best part of the day was telling my kids about the cool thing I did while they were at school that day!!!! And we had fun listening to Jessie Baylin music around the house last night!!

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Cupcakes - " so mini" yummys

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I was reminded this week about the small indulgences in life, like cupcakes. I had breakfast with some friends this week at great restaurant in our area - Finn's. I had heard such good things about the food and just that it was a fun place to eat and hang out. All true.
But I was especially looking forward to trying a cupcake from there. We all were. So after a fabulous plate of eggs benidict which was I am sure heaping with calories....(what was I thinking???)I realized we were all looking around to ask the waitress about the CUPCAKES...

However, it was not to be. Apparently they are a specialty offered only in the spring. Needless to say, my taste buds turned sticky from disappointment. I tried desperately to hide my dispare, from my friends. After all -- wasn't I off sugar??? Yes, but sharing cupcakes with your girlfriends is code for - I don't know. . . . just you know--" BFF". It is just a thing we do right? And it is so fun. After getting initiated into yummy cupcakes by going to Magnolia Bakery in NYC with some of these same friends, I can't help but continue to share in this ritual - whenever it comes up!! And with great anticipation everytime.

Which brings me to my main point. So one of my friends, sent me the link for the cupcakes that evaded us - for breakfast. And I have heard they are fabulous. So although I have yet to try one, I am anxious to.
With this in mind, I now know there are now two great places to discover cupcakes around here. One is the mini's, of course, recommended at Finn's - they just aren't carrying them right now.
But they have a website . . . for more info, go to http://www.mini-cupcakes.com/ and the other is So Cupcake which I hear will be open soon somewhere near 39th on Highland Drive. I have had several of these!! They are beautiful, divine and absolutely yummy - especially the red velvet . And I also love the blueberry....I am sure I will be in line often.
Perfect for girlfriend time like, right after breakfast and workouts!! hee hee




Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Happy Birthday -Mademoiselle please stop growing up!!

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Happy Birthday Mademoiselle S!!!!Image
today . . . . December 11
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Happy Birthday Mr. Q
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Happy Birthday to my two cold weather babies!!!! I still remember how fun it was to have a little red bow and Christmas outfits for Madam S when she was born. I can't believe she is now 15 years old. And I can't believe how beautiful she is - especially on the inside. Really!! I love being with her. I still miss her when she goes to school. Last week she was sick and I let her stay home. It was so fun to hang out with her alone that morning. She makes me laugh tons ( always has these funny random facts) and I love that she doesn't take herself too seriously, she can embrace her goofy side as well as be perfectly poised - she is both soft and girly as well as strong and athletic. A perfect blend!!

I will always know how long I have lived where we are now, by the birthdays of these two. We moved here when I was exactly 8 months pregs with Mr. Q. We drove in and went straight to the hospital - I started going into labor from the long drive. Luckily he waited one more month to come, so I had time to settle into our new life. What a gorgeous baby he was!!!Madam S was just turning 5 and we started the long hard task of getting her into a good preschool. And here, it is quite an art and education for those who know!!! I was quickly told by a new neighbor to put my brand new baby on the waiting list at the preschool - wow!!! Now he is big and so grownup-- but I still feel like he is my baby boy and hugging him is the best - he gives good hugs.

Also, these two are my faux twins. I have two set of faux twins. That means that they look alike, act similar, born around the same time of year but are years apart in age---and a funny split of equal characteristics of the notorious B and me. Mr. Q and Madam S are the dark, intimidating ones - always content and happy, full to the brim of German stubbornness but quiet, solid, loyal and loving souls ----who love goofy fun, laughter and a dash of mischief. Then we have the lighter versions Mr. C and little Miss T. sunny and spirited these other faux twins are very magnetic and energetic, with so much empathy and sensitivity to those around them. Quick to remember the lines of movies, songs or just something they heard in the air....quick witted and always happy!! who also want to be laughing or just causing a little titch of trouble!!

Anyway,
Mr. Q turned 10 last week and Madam S turned 15. Growing up so fast. But becoming everything I had hoped they could. Good people. I love them and admire them. I am amazed that I have been so blessed.
The only thing that kind of jinks, is that they have to share their birthdays with a lot of the holiday festivities. The cost of the presents seems so much more expensive - just purely because we have so much more to buy for Christmas. But I hope we have made their days special anyway.

I guess as long as they don't have to do their chores for the day---they are happy enough.

Other plants in my life HO HO HO!!

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Of course.... during the winter, I can't do much for my Hydrangea plant, but hope it doesn't die from the weather. I know that Hydrangeas can do just fine in the cold weather, but it depends on how sheltered the location is. I didn't really think about that when I put it in. I may be moving it in the spring anyway.... so I just hope it is ok where it is until then. I put a pile of leaves around the base and that should give it a little bit of insulation.


I do have some other plants in my life, one of which has always been my most favorite. That is my Boston Fern. Seriously, I love this plant. It is a little old fashioned ---but so beautiful!!! I have had two of these in my life. The first one lasted about 8 years and I left it with my neighbor in California when we moved to Utah. Then for a few years, I could not find the right kind. Alot of ferns I would see here, where I live - would say they were a boston, but they never looked right. The palms did not arch the way I liked and the leaves looked curly. Then one day, I saw one at a random grocery store!!! And so I have had it for about 5 years now.


It is very tolerant of neglect, which is why it has done so well. It does not need too much water and always looks great.


More recently I aquired some great cyprus topiaries, which have quickly become new favorites!!! They were left over from a neighborhood gift boutique I did just after Thanksgiving. I love how clean and geometric they look. I am excited about them ... we shall see if I can keep them looking healthy!!
Finally, the TREE !!! We put up our Christmas tree!! And I can't ever kill it - yes it's fake!! The best kind!!


Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Hmmmmmm == a change of seasons!!

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If it wasn't for my friends... I would be in bed all week commiserating about turning the big 40!!! Seriously, I really thought the Notorious B, was being a lit - tle dramatic when he turned forty a few months ago.
Then it happened to me. Suddenly the character in my face turned into saggy - wrinkly and yuck. I am sure it is all in my head - but geez!!! It feels really weird!!! Anyway, a giant thank you to all of my fabulous friends and to my family for seriously drenching me me with love and fun and celebration!!!!! Thanks for all the (40)balloons to brighten my day and the tennis workout, lunch date, gifts and party!!!!!! Wow!! I am so lucky!!!
So, before all that - this week. It seriously felt like just as my plant was going into dormancy and so was I... you would never know that I ran a half marathon just about 60 days ago.... I haven't run in about two weeks!!! I don't know what it is, but I can't run in the cold dark mornings. The change of season --- I just can't. And I can't run on a treadmill either. So I am trying to play tennis a few times a week. At least that is fun --but the early mornings getting into a cold car are the worst. I must have an automatic internal device that shuts down just about this time of year. And then re-starts again in the Spring. Or maybe that is just one of those things I need to put on my life list, of what I want to overcome before I die. Being cold.

Lets see... I haven't put anything on here in a while. Not that there is tons in my life to discuss. AT first I thought I could just rattle off all my daily thoughts, but then I was worried about crazy people reading everything and then coming after me. Then I thought maybe my life is just boring.... well it kind of is. But it is really just chaotic and I couldn't figure out how to have time to put stuff on. Especially when it would take 20 min. for the new video clip option to work.

So I am keeping this as kind of a personal thought blog as it correlates to my plant, and I think I will start a private blog of our family that will be invite only.

Now it sounds like I am just complaining. Well I am, just feeling that way today I guess.

I am however wanting to list some of my favorite things that I cannot live without today.. so here is my ode to the drug store and Walmart.


Thank you for :

Loreal Voluminous waterproof mascara...
Shave Secret for people like me who have to shave their legs twice a day and have sensitive skin
Biore - pore unclogging scrub w/ Sal Acid -- for unclogging my huge pores and for smelling so good --
Clear Eyes -Eye drops
Johnson's *soft lotion- 24 Hour Moisturizer (pink)
Garnier Smooting Milk -strong
Swedish fish...
and of course, Diet Coke - milk duds and Midol...

I wish I could get advertising money for all those plugs!!!

Good Movies to watch

Although I do not usually recommend others to see R movies that I may go to once in a while, I really liked American Gangster. But it was pretty raw.

Also, we loved watching the old Dr. Jekyll and Mr Hyde with Ingrid Bergman -- for our Family Halloween movie this year. It was pretty good.

I did not get a chance to go to This is the Place Heritage Park this year, but I heard from my kids that it was great.

Halloween was a blast this year!!!

Well, I just want to plug the Notorious B's new sports blog. Unfortunately it will reveal all that I have tried to suppress in him over the years, socially. Now he has been unleashed. He is very opinionated and is revelling in having a voice with no wife- like editing. He is a great sports writer though - he just says whatever. So beware. Topics may not be suitable to kids. However, he won't be swearing.

http://www.sports-slop.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Keep the Light

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Deep in their roots,

all flowers keep the

light.

- Theodore Roethke


Here it is.... my Hydrangea making a comeback. The summer nearly killed it. Along with my seeming inability to keep it constantly happy. I haven't moved it yet, because so far I have remembered to keep up the supplemental watering's, and it needs ton's when it is hot outside.

I have to say I have turned out to be an "inconsistent gardener" if the water is on auto and is working, I am fine, but hand watering has been a bummer.


I am unusually giddy, however about the new life my plant has presented. I really thought it was completely dead at one point. All the branches were brittle and brown. I almost crumbled the hole plant in my hand. I left the stem and just hoped that the roots were OK. I have no idea why I left it, I hoped.... but it was such a baseless idea to leave it. I can't believe it really had so much life still left.


Anyway, after a bout a week I saw little buds and new leaves started coming back. Now it is tall and peeking several new leaves out the branches. Excited to have a second chance, I am more serious about it's future.


I cannot guarantee that some trip or overly busy week, or neglect won't try to creep in and sabotage my efforts at having a green thumb over my favorite plant, but I will do my best. Anyone know any landscape babysitters??

Friday, September 21, 2007

This is not My Flower . . . .

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I think I am my Hydrangea Plant..... when I am doing well it is doing well.... I notice that when I am taking care of me and those around me the way I should be, it looks great. However; I have not been super consistent with making absolutely sure it was watered properely, and with the hot summer...it was often wilted by the time I went out to check. So my flower has had a summer full of ups and downs. Ashamed, I neglected to post too much about it's struggles..... but I will be posting the result of it's resiliency . After almost all of the leaves dried up and shriveled away, it started all new buds and has grown new life. Yea!! I almost gave up!!! And as a friend reminded me, I think I need to add some new soil to it's roots. I hope it will blossom next spring, and I can't wait to see what color the soil brings out!!

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I am not a photographer!!! But I do love pictures and especially these, from this summer and from the start of the school year. I never know how a picture will turn out, because I barely know how to use my camera, but I am always amazed what you get to capture and then the moment is is gone.Image
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Monday, September 10, 2007

The Big Day

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I know the notoriuos B has been dreading today for a while. But we think he is better at forty than he ever was. The kids had fun making the birthday door and taped a giant banner on his car. We were hoping he would drive around all day with it on the car, but didn't happen. I think he should be proud of being forty. He has alot to be grateful for.

I also understand though . It really feels like we are still in Jr High (& we often act like it too)!!!

Here's hoping that someday we will feel and act our age!!!!

Happy Birthday to You!

Happy Birthday to You!

Happy Birthday dear Mr. B.... Happy Birthday to you!!!

Monday, September 3, 2007

Clouds - photos by ME!!

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I think I really re-discovered summer this year and all it's wonders... but I still can't believe it's over. When I was little, I thought summer was so long. And since I spent so much of it away from home with my dad and his family, or traveling with my mom and her husband with his kids etc.., I never thought summer was about being home at all. It was about traveling and seeing things. Although I am sure we were home a lot, it seemed like we were mostly in a camper or a boat, or at some distant aunt or uncles house. This is probably why I love to travel so much.

The journey was the magic....I could just stare out the windows and dream about peoples lives as we sped through town after town. Or look to the sky or road for infinite repeating patterns of yellow stripes or clouds whisking by .... putting me into a trance.
One of my favorite places was in the camper bed above the cab of my step dad's truck. But with so many kids older than me, I never got first choice., Sometimes I was allowed to squish in with all the big kids along the top looking out the long rectangle window. I loved this and pretended I was flying. But I also spent a lot of time hanging my feet out the back of my dad's station wagon or at the front of our boat ...singing "I'm a rhinestone cowboy" or anything from Saturdays warrior and Sound of Music that my sister and step siblings could recall , at the top of our lungs. Somehow we always had our heads out the windows or were hanging off the edge of a truck or boat or car...
These are the moments that I really remember enjoying ... and sometimes, when I blocked out the noise and stared up, it was just all about the clouds!!! I really love clouds. Probably only something a few people know about me. But not all clouds. Just the fluffy ones that have the dark blue skies framing them. The sun must be just so as to almost darken the earth with shadows- but at the same time, highlight every details of the clouds. I don't know what it is about the contrast of the clouds against the blue sky that I love so much,......but I do know that whenever I am somewhere in the world enjoying the view..... the clouds make the difference in experience. I enjoy the mountains, the ocean, the river, the swimming pool, the car ride, the airplane ride etc.... so much more when I see my clouds.
At this time in my life I don't really consider myself someone who travels tons, especially since I married and settled down. But I do love to travel. And I think I traveled more than usual this summer so it brought back a lot of fun memories of adventures I have had traveling. And it also helped me find some things out about myself that I had forgotten.
For instance, at the beginning of the summer I took my two son's to Washington DC and New York. This was a big deal. Especially since I usually rely on my husband so much when we travel, to be the guide and the driver etc...
This trip was just me. I was a little nervous just going off alone and I think my boys wondered if I could even read a map. I felt like great timing to take them, Mr. C had just finished the year studying about the president's and the US Government. He also learned about the Revolutionary and Civil wars, etc.... Well, I knew I could read a map, but, they didn't,I think they think I can only make lunches, clean and read books, so it was fun to actually show them that I could do hard things like.... take them safely on a plane far away, and then rent a car and drive them around in a strange city and find my way without the aid of Dad.
It was fun when it clicked and they realized that I really did know something about the world and that I really did have a life of travel before I got married. They must have been surprised at my sudden knowledge of trivial facts!!! However, I had a hard time convincing them that the NY subway was safe..and we walked around the first half of the day in the pouring rain before they finally trusted me. After that they really thought I was cool and it felt good....It was fun to actually show them places I had been before and help them experience a different type of life tempo and culture... WE saw so much....these are the things my boys liked...


Suburban Virginia teeball - yes they have sports in all states

Robert Hansen the spy's house

toll roads

Udvar Hazy Aerospace Hanger

The Mall Museums -wow!!

Spy Museum

Real Art-all the presidents and all the famous paintings!!

Union Station

Congress in Session - private tour of the Capitol - watched Ted Kennedy give his speech on the Immigration reform bill - saw Trent Lot and John McCain

Arlington Cemetery

Mannasses Battle Field

Amtrak to NY at 4:30 a.m.
Rowing teams on the rivers at dawn

Penn Station

NY Bagels

NY Pizza

NY Hot Dogs
Subway Entertainment

Natural History Museum

Canal Street

Staten Island Ferry/Statue of Liberty
Walked the Brooklyn Bridge

NY Stock Exchange

Ground Zero

Empire State Building

Times Square

Magnolia Bakery and Sarah Jessica's house (hee hee)

Little Italy


and more than I can list!!To just name a few things we did... then when we got home it was the second week of summer. A lot of the travels this summer were short trips after that, like to the Arches National Park in Utah and to the mountains for camping,etc.... or some of the kids had sports or dance camps etc.. and then finally just before we had to get home for the boys to start football...we went to Mexico and SoCAl, that was the best.

I guess I just didn't get enough though, and thought we would add one last trip on at the last minute after school started. So over labor day weekend my extended family invited us to Southern Utah for the weekend. And of course I thought it would be a great last chance to fit in a mini vacation before winter sideswipes us. But with the boys engulfed in football i just took the girls. We had a lot of adventure on our hikes. We had a rattle snake cross our trail, we saw a crazy squirrel, saw waterfalls and lizards and deer with big ears. At one point we wanted to ride the horses, but we decided that we would wait and go back another time to Zions when Dad and the boys could do that. Again, it was fun to hike and drive and explore a new and exciting place, go shopping and eat at fun places. We love southern Utah!! But most of all it was beautiful.


And the clouds were absolutely the best I ever remember seeing....

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

Letting Go

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Procrastinating is what I do best. I am pretty sure it is because I have a hard time letting go of things as they are...... when you take action to do things, life changes. Right now I have not wanted my life to change. I have had such a great summer with my kids, and writing about it made it seem so final and so I was holding on to it and procrastinating the inevitable.


Summer is over... and I my youngest child was released to the world of first grade yesterday. I love this picture of her with wings.....she is changing into such a big girl and has transformed into such an eager and independant little fairy. She flits from thing to thing as if she has no fear and seems so confident in her young wings.


And now, my days will be forever changed....I feel like I just lost an important part of my job or purpose.... no one here to need me every second. All of my kids, off to school all day. Many of my friends have said that I must be excited..to have more free time. I'm sure that's not what I feel .... anxious is more like it. Letting go means I have to change.


Now I need to go dig out my wings, dust them off, fluff them up and find some new ways to use my new daily freedoms.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Ocean Treasures

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The Ocean misses me already!!!!! Every time I have gone into my laundry room this week, I still see a few traces of sand that have eluded me. They are calling out my name...... "M a d y !! " . And then I hear the wind calling ...." come back , you only had one week to enjoy me!!That is not enough time! You did not read enough and you did not hear the waves enough!! come back!!!!"


Well that sounded more like the words of the Para- normal Romance novel I picked up in San Diego, just before we went into Baja for our week at a beach house in La Mision, Mexico... but in a way it is true. I could spend a month there and be happy.

And it is not just me ...... we all enjoyed our time at the beach... my kids had a blast. One morning we got up very early and went hunting for crabs and starfish in the rocks!!! The kids found several crabs, no starfish, lots of sand dollars and some great volcano shells. They made necklaces out of the shells and are still wearing them!! (Thanks MW!!)


I love how the most simple things mean the most.


For my youngest, Princess T. Everything was still so new and exciting!!! For her, the Dolphin and Seal sightings were just as important as Sea Shells. As it should be.

But nothing could beat the baby Colt we saw everyday on the beach. Princess T . Named it "Sarah" and the mom she named "Milosa".

The other kids would spend forever in the waves, on boogie boards and a raft and then just lay in the sand, coating and soaking themselves with the warm sand to dry off. It was an addicting cycle.

All the while "mom" just sitting and reading, or sleeping in a beach chair all day long. It was funny how my husband kind of became like the "mom" he was in and out of the house all day attending to the kids and me... while I just layed out basking in the sun and doing nothing. And he was actually enjoying himself!!

Most of all we enjoyed the company of good friends, had good food and laughed a lot.

A vacation sure to never be forgotten.

And I am sure I will be reflecting on it alot, as I am now home to stay for a while....... I have been away alot this summer.
And thanks to some vigilant neighbors..... my Hydrangea plant is doing well. I may have to move it though...it may be getting too much sun!!!!


Tuesday, July 3, 2007

Tempermental

I have not yet had time to really focus on my hydrangea plant over the past week. I have been out of town so my husband, the notorius B, has been keeping an eye on it. He took the job very seriously and I really appreciate his diligence. It looks great!!!! He quickly noticed how after only one day of not watering it, it starts to wilt. He said it was "tempermental". I am sure when he first set out to keep an eye on it, he thought he wouldn't have to do anything much. It's funny how we realize what we don't know about things, until we start to focus on them. He has started to realize that I am alot like my plant. Sorry Hunny!!

Washington D.C. . . . details coming soon!!

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