I'm complaining.

I'm having one of those days where everything is getting to me. I keep thinking about where I wish I was with my life and being unsatisfied. Sadly, I even regret getting a degree in college. I've been looking for a new job for a while. Even before I was let go from the last one. I have had a couple of interviews but I still don't have the qualifications others do to get the job. Having this degree, I think, has actually made me overqualified for common jobs I would  be happy to take. Apparently being a pre-med student hurts me too. One person actually told me they wouldn't hire me because I wasn't going to be a "lifer" at their company. How idiotic...

I have been having to deal with the mistake of ever getting married too. My ex is the dumbest person alive. I can't believe how selfish he is and how much he doesn't care about his own son. He actually thought leaving pain pills and a loaded gun on the counter of his home with his son there was a brilliant idea. Oliver is too freaking smart to not figure it out especially if he watches someone else mess with it first. I can only hope he has good enough role models around him to not be like that when he is older.

Thanks to the financial burden of going through a divorce and the bills I got left with...I still leave in my parents' home. I'm thankful I have parents nice enough to let us live here, but I never expected to live here this long. I imagined Oliver and I moving out this year, but now that doesn't seem like reality anymore. I'm so unhappy here.

If someone was to ask me five years ago where I was going to be today I would have thought married, with two kids living in a home of our own, working towards medical school/ PA school and with a half decent job in the medical field. And here I am a single mom of one, jobless, living at home with my parents, and taking one class a semester. No, I haven't forgot that I have an amazing kid who is smart and healthy. I have the best boyfriend who is always there and loves me very much. I wish things had turned out better....now all I can hope is that it will get better...

Birthdays and stuff..

This year is already not friendly. I was pretty busy to start off. Zack's birthday was the 8th of January and we celebrated the following weekend. I got us a hotel room so we could relax and not have to worry about everyone else. We went to dinner at Squatters and then to Club Habits. It was fun!

Oliver's birthday was on the 18th of January. We celebrated at Kangaroo Zoo with his friends and family. He had way too much fun!

I lost my job the following Monday for no reason. Yep, no reason. My boss didn't give me one and a couple days later  when I talked to my manager he didn't know why. They even told unemployment that. I feel used and abused. Nuf said.

For Valentine's Day Zack and I went to Rodizio Grill and the movie Safe Haven. Zack gave me a gorgeous promise ring and a box of chocolates. I gave him a big bag of candy/food and a gift card for dinner one night. It was nice to have one good Valentine's Day in my life. Something always goes wrong every year and this year nothing bad happened.

Playing Catch Up...

Wow, I have really gotten behind in blogging....my bad! Here is pretty much the last 3 months in a nut shell....

Zack finally decided we could be girlfriend and boyfriend. Funny short story...text message @ 2:30am "I told my friends you're my gf is that ok?" Yep....lol

October was fun and of course, my favorite. We went to Novali's b-day party where Oliver got to feed the trout fish and pick out a pumpkin. He picked the smallest one he could find...

 Lindsay, Shirley, Lauren and I ran The Night of the Running Dead. We were 80's neon zombies. It wasn't the best race, but it was a better course than the past races. It was one of my faster times and the worse place I've ever placed. Not sure if I will do this again....

 For Halloween Oliver dressed up as the Sorcerer Mickey Mouse from Fantasia. I made the costume myself, I thought it turned out well. The Hirst/"Sesame Street" family came with us. It was so much fun!

Zack planned my birthday this year because I hate my birthday therefore I refused to plan anything. He did a great job though. He took me to SLC to Red Iguana for dinner with all our friends and then The Hotel/Club Elevate after. It was the worst snow storm of the century, but almost everyone made it.

  

 My handsome boyfriend. :)


I ran in the Santa Run this year too. Everyone dresses up in Santa suits and runs a 5k. It was fun, but I was out of shape. We stayed to watch the parade and got the best picture ever. :)

 My dad took the whole family down to SLC for my mom's b-day. We went to dinner at Spaghetti factory and went on a carriage ride to look at all the lights.

                                                                      Best looking kid :)

Christmas was awesome. Oliver got more than he wanted and so did I. Zack got me an Owl Key (off of my pinterest page) and an infinity ring with "now and forever" carved on the inside (also from Pinterest) and then plus some. He went all out. Hoping to have a wonderful New Year and wishing everyone else one as well....

Dirty Dash

 Sept. 22nd was The Dirty Dash. It was awesome! We were The Price is Dirty! which consisted of Price is Right contestants. We have 13 of us: Me, Jenny, Trevor, Mike, William, Jakki, Shelby, Makinley, Bridger, Janilee, Abby, Brooke and Mackenzie. And can't leave out Zack, our photographer. lol It was fun and can't wait for next year. Maybe we can recruit more people to come. :D


These were before the race...

And this is after!

Jenny and I in the mud pit finish.

Why do things have to be so complicated?

I mean, honestly, why do people have to make things to freaking complicated for others and themselves? This is something that has been going on in my head for awhile and decided I needed a little venting here whether anyone reads this or not. OK so first why do the people who are closest to us, like our friends, have to be complicated? If you are mad just say so. If your friend means anything to you you should. Doesn't have to be a fight but just a heads up kind of thing. Second, why do you guys have to be complicated? They say girls are confusing! Ha! Right...sorry but guys are kind of dumb when it comes to girls. I mean GEEZ! Guys! Think! I read a article in Cosmo magazine about how guys want to have their careers, buy their house, whatever before they commit to anything serious with a girl. OK to a point I get this, but on the other hand why is it so hard to admit you like the girl and want her in your life? Not every girl wants to run to the alter or pop out babies when you say anything. And another thing, when a girl says something to hint about something that might make her mad just don't do it. Save everyone the headache.

To all my girls having a rough 2 weeks....

Roy Days!

Thanks Linz for the picture! :)

August 4th was Roy Days. It is always a busy day for me. I went and ran in the 5K again this year. I took 3rd place in my age group and 11th place overall. I was stoked! I won a soccer pack filled with socks, shinguard sleeves, shirt, shorts, hat and tape. I also won $300 Larry H. Miller package that included Jazz tickets, 10 free movie passes and 2 meal deals. It was sweet!!!

I then ran home to get my 1929 Ford Roadster for the car show. I didn't win anything but I got a free t-shirt and goodies.

That night was the Jones' 3rd annual Luau. The food was AMAZING! I ate way too much. Oliver had fun playing with the mist/hose and the other kids. Zack came home early enough from Vegas and was able to come over. He stayed and walked over to the fireworks with us. Oliver finally decided he likes fireworks. It was so fun!

It was seriously such an AMAZING day!

Super Busy Weekend!

Wow! What a fun and busy weekend! It was Oliver's weekend with Andy so I dropped him off on Friday evening and meet Ashley for dinner at Wing Nutz (YUMMY!). It was so great to see her. We don't get together often since she lives in Orem. Then I had to race down to Bountiful to pick up my racing packet. I woke up at 5:30am so I could get down to Bountiful for my 10K that started at 7:30am. It was Race for Grief (Infant and pregnancy loss) and I ran in loving memory of Miracle Dan Jones (Lindsay and Tyler's angel). Lindsay had asked me forever ago and I couldn't pass up the opportunity. Everyone at the race had shirts made or a name written on their shirt. I wore a Miracle Dan button, bracelet and wrote on my shirt. I ran it in 58 minutes and got 10th place out of 20. I was pretty impressed with my time being my first REAL 10K. My knee hated me afterwards but I'm going to have to learn to just deal with the after pain. I also received two blisters on the bottom of my toes from my shoe getting soaked from a puddle I didn't see. Bad luck. Ha!

Our friends - Jenna and Jorge

Fortunately I got to go home, shower, eat and take a nap before I headed up to Park City with Zack. Derek, who we both went to school with, got married. It was at the Red Pine Lodge which we had to ride a gondola up to. It was super fun! They had a photo booth, dancing and dinner. Wedding was on the bridge over a small river. It was amazing. I'm glad I got to go as Zack's date. ;)

OK funny story....keep going....

Zack and I

Derek (the groom) and I

OK so Zack left to go to the restroom and Derek asked me to dance. As soon as the dance was over. Zack came back. A little bit later Zack goes to the restroom again and I'm talking to Jorge (red shirt) and before I know it Derek stole my camera out of my purse and is trying to take a picture of us. Then hands it to Jorge to take a picture (3 pictures up) then tells Jorge to take one more and gives me a surprise kiss on the cheek! I was a lucky girl....two kisses by two wonderful guys in one night. ;) It was funny though. Good times....