When Dan and I started talking about our future, we talked about kids. I had always dreamed of having several years of just me and my husband. I realized that getting married "later" in life would seriously cut into that time. Plus, I had been in a very selfish phase of life, being able to focus on me and my personal growth. I wasn't quite ready to give it up. Dan expressed that he was ready for kids as soon as I was, but he completely understood that I wanted to wait and have a "newlywed" phase. We agreed that we would think about having kids right after he graduated law school. I felt good about our plan, Dan was supportive, and we were on our way to knowing when we were going to start our family.
After we got engaged, I was spending more and more time being excited about our future. I was falling more in love with Dan. I realized that maybe I could break my two year rule and think about having a baby before he graduated. When I told Dan, he was so incredibly happy! I figured we'd thinking about it after a year or so. I felt like that would give us plenty of time.
A few months after we got married, I was reading an acquaintance's blog. She and her husband got married right before us and got pregnant right away. As I was judging her reading her blog, I suddenly got an incredibly peaceful feeling. I felt like it was not entirely out of the question to think about starting our family. I could hardly believe what was going through my mind! But the more I thought about it, the more calm I felt. When I told Dan that night, he could hardly contain his excitement.
Fast forward to December. I got sick but didn't know if it was morning sickness or the flu. I knew I was pregnant and we were very excited, but very nervous about being sick. After contacting a few people, I decided it was the flu. I remember being sick and praying that if I had to have morning sickness , I needed it to hold off until after all my December concerts were over. All I can say is that prayers are answered! The morning after my last concert my morning sickness started (and has lasted through week 17.... hallelujah it is over!)
We were able to schedule our 1st appointment right before Christmas. I wanted to have the ultrasound picture to tell our families. We ended up telling my family about a week and a half before Christmas because we were all together. The day we went to get our ultrasound was very fun. I was slightly nervous and still thought we were crazy! We got to see the little bean on the screen and see its heart fluttering.
Happily, the baby measured about a week ahead of what I thought it was and I got to skip over a week of pregnancy in the blink of an eye! It was so cute to see Dan's face when he saw the heart beat. We were very excited to tell my family that all was well with the baby and to tell Dan's family. I was so excited, I went out and bought a little tiny stocking to hang up at our house!
It has been an incredible experience so far. I am currently 19 weeks and ready to find out what this kid is. I am most excited to start buying clothes and decor for the baby's room. Dan is the cutest when he kisses my belly. We are excited to see what this next adventure in life brings us.
