When you are angry, you vent your anger of us, then where should I vent my disappointment and anger? I had a very terrible day. I feel like hiding myself and burst my tears.
I can't find any security. Money perhaps is my only motivation now. If you don't appreciate things around you, slowly you will lose everyone around you.
I try to make myself happy. Trying so hard.
Saturday, February 14, 2015
Saturday, December 27, 2014
My last semester
Write something about myself after hectic months. First time using phone to write blog. I guess most of the students are fighting and striving for finals. I am too but to be frank I didn't focus so much and not striving for excellence.
After Asia Pacific Leaders Summit, I am relieved, at the same time, I am too free. You know my ex members asked me, "Will you miss UUM after this semester?". I reacted quick "No. If there is one thing that I will miss, it will be the lifestyle here. I can sleep and wake up anytime". I know after working I need to be much more discipline, which is something that I am seriously lacking off.
Recently, I am having insomnia. After a call from a friend, who didn't contact for a year, I think a lot about my future and career development. I am really excited to start working really. I feel it is enough to spend three and a half year in UUM. It is the time to back to reality and start earning money. At the same time, I am anxious. I am lost on working for money or passion. Am I selecting a suitable career path for myself. I am 23 years old, few days later I will be 24 years old. It is a scary number. It indicates I have spent 1/4 of my lifespan. How scary it is.
Few nights to figure out what I really want to do in my life, worrying about internship, afraid to be an adult? Come on! Not you never experience before! There is a two weeks time for me before internship starts. I seriously need to think on my career development.
Ok. Bye.
After Asia Pacific Leaders Summit, I am relieved, at the same time, I am too free. You know my ex members asked me, "Will you miss UUM after this semester?". I reacted quick "No. If there is one thing that I will miss, it will be the lifestyle here. I can sleep and wake up anytime". I know after working I need to be much more discipline, which is something that I am seriously lacking off.
Recently, I am having insomnia. After a call from a friend, who didn't contact for a year, I think a lot about my future and career development. I am really excited to start working really. I feel it is enough to spend three and a half year in UUM. It is the time to back to reality and start earning money. At the same time, I am anxious. I am lost on working for money or passion. Am I selecting a suitable career path for myself. I am 23 years old, few days later I will be 24 years old. It is a scary number. It indicates I have spent 1/4 of my lifespan. How scary it is.
Few nights to figure out what I really want to do in my life, worrying about internship, afraid to be an adult? Come on! Not you never experience before! There is a two weeks time for me before internship starts. I seriously need to think on my career development.
Ok. Bye.
Friday, November 14, 2014
Fruitful and Challenging month :)
Almost forgot I still have a place which is my blog.
Time flies. 3 and a half year in University, I guess I never take thing seriously? No, is I take things easily. This time I think is a bit hard for me to take it easy, instead I take it quite serious. It is very true when you are fully committed you have totally no time to doubt and worry. You will just plan and execute it.
It is too big scale for me with only 3 people in a team running for such a big scale event. Ya lah we have supports from other department but still working virtually is way too challenging.
I seldom shout out I am stress but this time I truly feel it. The external stress, The person who paid for this event. The audiences and my performers. I hope to give each and everyone of them a good experience no matter you are delegates, performers or congress committees. Simple as that.
Expectation still high and still perfectionist! But guess what, I noticed I didn't really rant for few months already. Self-motivation is very high and becoming more action-oriented :)
yay!!!!
Time flies. 3 and a half year in University, I guess I never take thing seriously? No, is I take things easily. This time I think is a bit hard for me to take it easy, instead I take it quite serious. It is very true when you are fully committed you have totally no time to doubt and worry. You will just plan and execute it.
It is too big scale for me with only 3 people in a team running for such a big scale event. Ya lah we have supports from other department but still working virtually is way too challenging.
I seldom shout out I am stress but this time I truly feel it. The external stress, The person who paid for this event. The audiences and my performers. I hope to give each and everyone of them a good experience no matter you are delegates, performers or congress committees. Simple as that.
Expectation still high and still perfectionist! But guess what, I noticed I didn't really rant for few months already. Self-motivation is very high and becoming more action-oriented :)
yay!!!!
Friday, July 4, 2014
Last about you.
I always tell myself I am the one who decide my happiness.
I am the one who not letting myself to be so negative.
Yes, I am the one.
Who are you to enter my life to let me see hopes there is still people who I can put trust on.
The courage and gut that I've taken....is too much.
4 days, enough.
He wouldn't know.
Enough to act like an idiot and
A very strong wind just slapped on my face while I'm writing this in front of my house's main door. Look up on the sky, looking for the stars that could possibly let me smile.
I know I could't smile now.
Even if I did, the smile is with bitterness which only I can feel it.
Typing the last blog that will make myself like the most stupid person in the world.
IT'S JUST NOT THE RIGHT TIMING.
IT'S NOT THE END OF THE WORLD.
I WILL BE FINE.
Thursday, July 3, 2014
就这样吧
有时候我不得不承认世界很讽刺。
当你下定决心慢慢的相信别人，对我而言需要很大的勇气。
三天了，装着若无其事。
现在眼泪却不知觉的掉了下来。
得知的第一天，嘴巴笑着说“很好啊，是好事来的”
怎么了？心理有说不出的感觉。
继续装着若无其事的聊，进了厕所，眼泪不知觉流了下来。
我从来没有想过这竟然是我的反应。
当我决定做人不要乱下定论，要给自己了解别人的机会，我跨了很大的一步。
或许这样，我绊到脚，跌倒了。
尽管心里多么的难过，却一直告诉自己“下次不要那么认真了，你输了，输给你自己”
心里有好多好多的感受，可是不是所有的事说出来就可以解决。
有些事永远只是秘密。
有些话永远不能说出口。
我希望时间可以冲淡一切。
我不需要戏剧化的生活了，让我平平淡淡的过好吗。
Friday, June 13, 2014
My summer break?
While browsing through few websites I really hope during this summer break I can really have a me-time by visiting to the place I wish to go.
Few places which never fail me so far which I hope I can really go again:
1) Library in Straits Quay
Listening to the singer, drinking long island or beer. Have a walk with breezing wind. The moment put aside everything.
2) Sepang Gold Coast Beach
Walk and run on the sand. Have a picnic with my favorite and simple food. Shop before going to beach, buy sushi and some chips and soft drinks. Sitting on the sand, enjoying the view, listening to the waves.
3) One City
A slightly modernized place but not too crowded. On top, there is a bar with KL night view. A place to really chill.
4) Cafe 1986
The most sincere and heart-warming meal that I had. You can feel the food is really different. Worth waiting.
Few things that I wish to do during summer break, hopefully :P
1) Working? Of course!
2) Malacca. A place for food hunting.
3) Book a condominium with close friends inside and cook for them, watch movies for whole night without doing anything.
4) Have a great dinner with my family.
5) Lastly, a peaceful birthday. It has been years for not celebrating it happily. Every birthday is a nightmare for me. I really wish this year everything can go smoothly.
It should be an enjoyable summer break! =)
Few places which never fail me so far which I hope I can really go again:
1) Library in Straits Quay
Listening to the singer, drinking long island or beer. Have a walk with breezing wind. The moment put aside everything.
2) Sepang Gold Coast Beach
Walk and run on the sand. Have a picnic with my favorite and simple food. Shop before going to beach, buy sushi and some chips and soft drinks. Sitting on the sand, enjoying the view, listening to the waves.
3) One City
A slightly modernized place but not too crowded. On top, there is a bar with KL night view. A place to really chill.
4) Cafe 1986
The most sincere and heart-warming meal that I had. You can feel the food is really different. Worth waiting.
Few things that I wish to do during summer break, hopefully :P
1) Working? Of course!
2) Malacca. A place for food hunting.
3) Book a condominium with close friends inside and cook for them, watch movies for whole night without doing anything.
4) Have a great dinner with my family.
5) Lastly, a peaceful birthday. It has been years for not celebrating it happily. Every birthday is a nightmare for me. I really wish this year everything can go smoothly.
It should be an enjoyable summer break! =)
来自星星的你
你看了吗？
还没有。不打算看。那么不切实际的戏我没有兴趣。、
非常熟悉的对吧。对，是从我口中说出来的。那天碰到了我的学妹，叫她过一些戏给我看。谁知道竟然有这部戏。就手痒，按进去看了＝＝
其实，很好看，不错看啦。可能现实里没有这样的情节所以总觉得偶尔的虚幻是没关系的。不讲外星人，其实它呈现出最终爱情的精髓，那就是真心相爱。虽然很多人都说这是不可能的可是其实我心里还抱着希望，相信它的存在。是不是很天真？哈哈
看完这部戏，告诉自己 ：
还没有。不打算看。那么不切实际的戏我没有兴趣。、
非常熟悉的对吧。对，是从我口中说出来的。那天碰到了我的学妹，叫她过一些戏给我看。谁知道竟然有这部戏。就手痒，按进去看了＝＝
其实，很好看，不错看啦。可能现实里没有这样的情节所以总觉得偶尔的虚幻是没关系的。不讲外星人，其实它呈现出最终爱情的精髓，那就是真心相爱。虽然很多人都说这是不可能的可是其实我心里还抱着希望，相信它的存在。是不是很天真？哈哈
看完这部戏，告诉自己 ：
天啊张嘉恩，你还是那个充满憧憬的女生，还是那么爱发白日梦。我相信爱可以净化一切。恋爱去吧张同学。。。前提是，没有人要你。哈哈。老天爷，您会眷顾我的对吧。嘻嘻。来自星星的你，谢谢你！
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