It's been really a long time since I last updated my blog.
Thought I won't be updating this again.
But, there's too much anger and sadness inside of me.
First time I've ever feel the world is so unfair.
Give and take, I always see that as the way the world works.
Is he an exception?
It took away all of his and give no shit other than sad and pain in return.
He is a good kid, better than most of the people that I've met.
Obedient, considerate, understanding, smart, active, outgoing, optimistic, live passionately, do everything with his best, though he knows he is different from others.
Never give up even though people laugh at him, looking down on him.
Suffering from Juene Syndrome since he was a kid, hospital has been his second home.
Just when the doctor said he is doing well, here comes another.
It's Retinal Dystrophy they said.
It can't be cured this they said.
How should he react this time? What can he do?
Once again, he's left with fear and sadness.
Doctor advised him to study something that is not as stressful as engineering, so he switched to economics.
As days go by, his vision is getting worse, yet there's so many things in the world that he wants to achieve, wants to do.
He's worried that he'll be the burden of the family.
He's afraid that one day, he'll be left with only darkness.
He's afraid that he can't see the faces that he loves anymore.
He's afraid that when he wakes up in the morning, he can't see the sun shines anymore.
He's afraid that he can't see the colours of the beautiful world with his eyes anymore.
What had he done that makes him suffered like this?
Juene Syndrome had left shadows in his childhood, and now another Retinal Dystrophy to ruin his future?
Why do you want to take away all that he has and leave him in this shit?
He's only 20, how do you expect him to live with this?
He doesn't deserve this at all, it's fucking unfair.
Tell me, when he is having so much fear in him, how do you expect him to be optimistic towards his own future?
Too many how and why and there's no answer to it.
Wanted to help, but can't.
Hate to feel so helpless. Fuck.
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