Cold Nostalgia

About Me

I'm a person that eats, sleeps, slacks, procrastinate, talks, walks, writes, types, listens to music, watches anime, ipods all the way, doesn't have a watch, snacks, whacks, observes, dreams and
last but not least BITES!! rawr XD

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Monday, June 18, 2012 @ 6/18/2012 02:32:00 AM

Happy Father's Day

A sudden urge to blog has arised.

An outlet to express oneself.

Today seems to be Father's Day back home.

I wonder how are you doing over there.

I wonder if I'll remember as each memory starts to slip by.

I wonder if you know how I am as of now.

So I'll just write you a letter, as a reminder.

Dear Dad,

Many things have happened since we last met.

The journey of life has enlightened me with several good friends that

I'm very happy to have met along the way.

Although they do give me shit from time to time. haha.

Around last year, I had many new experiences.

Life was eventful every other day of the week.

I took time off from uni for a semester to keep an eye on mum.

Things weren't going well for a while and there were a lot of clashes,

new responsibilities and hearing the same things over and over from others.

Not sure if I did any good of a job but I try at times.

When I had to leave in August to resume uni,

I had a hard time adjusting back to the slower more relaxed lifestyle.

It took me a while to get to where I am now mentally.

There is still much more to learn from life as experience tells me.

However now I have a better understanding of a more

varied and wider base of perspective to view things from.

Then I went back in December as mum was back home since October.

Partied some more but consciously slowing down the pace.

A result of getting older I guess.

Just in April, I returned for my graduation.

I know you were looking forward to coming

as mum has mentioned many times.

A simple thing like a picture of a slimmer and healthier you

on such an occasion.

I'm sure you would have been happy as so would I.

Here's a little picture taken after the ceremony.

Around last week in mid June I finally landed a job in the industry.

Despite it being an entry level I hope I do well enough to advance further.

Last week was merely training and observing other peoples work

as my account hasn't been fully set up yet.

As a person, I've always never been that good with expressing emotions towards others.

Especially regarding mushy or things that I hold important.

You've all been a big part of my life and for that I thank you.

All is well with me and I count my blessings for what I have now.

Just the other day I dreamt I bumped into granma and grampa.

She was sitting at the far end of the hall and somehow

I was shaking hands with grandpa.

Suddenly I was tearing and at the time I didn't know why,

after waking up it all made more sense.

Happy Father's Day.

I hope all is well with you. Send my regards to grandma and grandpa.

Love,

Your daughter.

Saturday, September 24, 2011 @ 9/24/2011 05:39:00 AM

Decisions, decisions.

Today I had a deep talk with someone. (R)

I've been so lazy that I procrastinated thinking for probably the past year.

I've come to realise many a things.

Unless stimulated to think, I would prefer not to and lead a simple life of blissful ignorance.
So now what, now that I've been forced to, I've come to a conclusion that I have alot to think about.

I realise now the signs have been blatantly obvious. How could I have not noticed?
I've just been avoiding having to deal with it haven't I.
Like most things in life, I would just love to leave it be and hope for it to settle by itself.

Also the past few months, my focus has been so bad.

Either I have been focusing on the wrong things aka stupid delusions

or the will power to focus on anything has just left me.

It's so bad that I can't even concentrate on writing a blog post or read a freaking novel.

Thus the lack of updates. I've had plenty of time so there's no excuse there.

This lazy streak in me blossomed over the passed one and a half months that I've been here.

It made me this utterly uninspired person with an unexisting personality or depth.

I became, or am still this hollow shell of a person that has yet to realise this most of the time.
This shell remains closed at many a times, when it opens it releases this veracious amount of conspicuous emotions and thoughts I never thought I had because I refused to dwell or think about them.
How is it that everyone else is going through these stages and yet I'm still so nonchalant.
I hear them now abit clearer then before, these words of repetition,

where they replay memories from the past and regurgitate them to my ears.

Yet all I've done is ignored and impatiently dismissed every single word.
Petulance is the word to define this.

Annoyance is an unpleasant mental state that is characterized by such effects as irritation and distraction from one's conscious thinking. It can lead to emotions such as frustration and anger. The property of being easily annoyed is called petulance, and something which annoys is called a nuisance.

Now the time to reflect. See as of now I am already losing interest in writing this down aka also thinking about the important things. The more I do the more tired I feel, plus the fact that it is now 5am isn't really helping either. I've yet to even come to the deeper topics that I need to think about. argh.
One thing you should know is, I hate imposing on others but I love the company of doing things together.
ok now it's getting random. I shall edit this later on...... maybe.

On a lighter note the thing's I've been upto. Attended rach graduation last month, only made it in time for a few pics and a dinner with her fam later onwards. Hope you're enjoying things back home rach :)
Last week attended a few of my uni mates grad.

ah time sure is passing, then we had dinner in Beverly Hills it was free XD

and some drinks at the local RSL.

but oh I should really stop whining about my dwindling social life.

really need to learn some temperament.

p.s im feeling abit better now. Hopefully I will keep up thinking about what I should hahahaa =.="

Wednesday, May 11, 2011 @ 5/11/2011 07:48:00 AM

goodbye, so long, farewell.

Finally collected the car from the workshop today.

Everytime I sit in the car with her, she'll lose her temper,scream and shout,

and then like falling dominos, I do to.

Alas my patience is wearing thin.

Today while washing the car, I was missing you abit.

The last time I washed a car, you were there doing your part.

My recollection may be blurry, it has been a while back.

When we were young. I still remember you told me you had to wax like 3 coats or more.

It really has been so long since I washed a car.

Time like a tunnel of memories, we learn , we forget, we recall.

Just reminiscing. I believe as time passes, things will become a distant memory.

So for now I would like to keep you here in my mind and heart.

Sometimes its the littlest things that will remind me of you.

So subtle yet awakening.

So tomorrow we'll say goodbye, so long and farewell.

No matter what you are still and always will be my ................

Friday, May 6, 2011 @ 5/06/2011 05:50:00 AM

the more I'd like to, the more I can't

last song is a fav <3 the opening part is so quirky and interesting. totally caught my attention.
Last Sunday, went for Switchfoot's concert!!
We had to wait for abit because there was a delay letting us in.
the audience was super sporting! screamed our lungs out!
I was like at the back of 1 or 2 ppl from the stage! XD
Only bad thing was, took the wrong camera BATT!
DX so it was damn frustrating to not be able to take much pics.
Especially since I was so damn close to the stage.
Went with selina! after not having seen her for a year or two. my goodness does time pass by.

As u can see, the blogging mojo has left me for a quite a while now.
There has been several times that I log in, then try to type something.
It ends up empty, or I get distracted and the window is left there open,
after several hours, I just end up closing it.
My medium for self expression ? however I have lost the inspiration to express.
Maybe its just my braincells dying one by one instead of multiplying. who knows.
sorry crapping here haha.

Also 2 weeks ago got into an accident. So the car has been in the repair shop for a while.
I need to handle all the documentation shit beforehand. Sighs what a pain.
I need to go all the way to shah alam(main branch) to get a copy of the insurance policy.
The lack of the car makes jill a dull girl.

Side note :
eating habits have been attrocious as of late. stress eating? I literally gained like 2-3 farking kgs alr. OMG!
need to stop and get my mojo back! just been in a lazy slump lately. haih.

Saturday, April 23, 2011 @ 4/23/2011 07:17:00 AM

One of those days

chillaxing song

addicted!

http://freshnessfactorfivethousand.blogspot.com/2011/04/prettiest-friend.html

what an eventful week.

car accident on weds.

dead drunk on thurs.

wheeeee... NOT!

Monday, April 4, 2011 @ 4/04/2011 02:06:00 AM

Just for Rachie

Today is our beloved Rachel Eng's 22nd Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!
Everyone give her a big ass wet and warm smooch XD
However she's also abit sick today. So hopefully you'll get better in these couple of days.
Have loadsa rests and take ur meds. Antibiotics work! ok.

So how did the two of us meet?
We were both in the same secondary school. However at that time, we only knew each other as mutual acquittances.
Regardless I think we were both going through puberty and an emotional stage of life :P.
Then fate had decided we go to Australia for uni. She enjoyed her time in Uni of Newcastle.
We started chatting online and whatnot through fb.
During the 1st year, I came over to Newcastle to visit a friend, and we ended up hanging out
at the beach with who else but Rachel. I still remember what you wore Rachie.
U wore this handmade jean skirt with leggings and a pink bomber jacket.
At that time, your socialising skills was still abit awkwardish :P but heck I felt your sincerity :D Since then much has changed.
She has grown up to be more open, much more socializable, to be more devoted to god, and happening! Heck even more happening than me :P.
Although sporting is still in question, cause everytime I wanna come over she will give the same excuse, got assignment lah blablabla :P. Rachel I believe you want to change to be a better person and look how far you've come. If ever you feel troubled, you know who to look for ;)
Just relax and enjoy your life babes.
<3 <3 <3

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

sincerely from,
your fake future sister-in-law :D

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Monday, June 18, 2012 @ 6/18/2012 02:32:00 AM Happy Father's Day A sudden urge to blog has arised. An outlet to express oneself. Today seems to be Father's Day back home. I wonder how are you doing over there. I wonder if I'll remember as each memory starts to slip by. I wonder if you know how I am as of now. So I'll just write you a letter, as a reminder. Dear Dad, Many things have happened since we last met. The journey of life has enlightened me with several good friends that I'm very happy to have met along the way. Although they do give me shit from time to time. haha. Around last year, I had many new experiences. Life was eventful every other day of the week. I took time off from uni for a semester to keep an eye on mum. Things weren't going well for a while and there were a lot of clashes, new responsibilities and hearing the same things over and over from others. Not sure if I did any good of a job but I try at times. When I had to leave in August to resume uni, I had a hard time adjusting back to the slower more relaxed lifestyle. It took me a while to get to where I am now mentally. There is still much more to learn from life as experience tells me. However now I have a better understanding of a more varied and wider base of perspective to view things from. Then I went back in December as mum was back home since October. Partied some more but consciously slowing down the pace. A result of getting older I guess. Just in April, I returned for my graduation. I know you were looking forward to coming as mum has mentioned many times. A simple thing like a picture of a slimmer and healthier you on such an occasion. I'm sure you would have been happy as so would I. Here's a little picture taken after the ceremony. Around last week in mid June I finally landed a job in the industry. Despite it being an entry level I hope I do well enough to advance further. Last week was merely training and observing other peoples work as my account hasn't been fully set up yet. As a person, I've always never been that good with expressing emotions towards others. Especially regarding mushy or things that I hold important. You've all been a big part of my life and for that I thank you. All is well with me and I count my blessings for what I have now. Just the other day I dreamt I bumped into granma and grampa. She was sitting at the far end of the hall and somehow I was shaking hands with grandpa. Suddenly I was tearing and at the time I didn't know why, after waking up it all made more sense. Happy Father's Day. I hope all is well with you. Send my regards to grandma and grandpa. Love, Your daughter. back to top?
Saturday, September 24, 2011 @ 9/24/2011 05:39:00 AM Decisions, decisions. Today I had a deep talk with someone. (R) I've been so lazy that I procrastinated thinking for probably the past year. I've come to realise many a things. Unless stimulated to think, I would prefer not to and lead a simple life of blissful ignorance. So now what, now that I've been forced to, I've come to a conclusion that I have alot to think about. I realise now the signs have been blatantly obvious. How could I have not noticed? I've just been avoiding having to deal with it haven't I. Like most things in life, I would just love to leave it be and hope for it to settle by itself. Also the past few months, my focus has been so bad. Either I have been focusing on the wrong things aka stupid delusions or the will power to focus on anything has just left me. It's so bad that I can't even concentrate on writing a blog post or read a freaking novel. Thus the lack of updates. I've had plenty of time so there's no excuse there. This lazy streak in me blossomed over the passed one and a half months that I've been here. It made me this utterly uninspired person with an unexisting personality or depth. I became, or am still this hollow shell of a person that has yet to realise this most of the time. This shell remains closed at many a times, when it opens it releases this veracious amount of conspicuous emotions and thoughts I never thought I had because I refused to dwell or think about them. How is it that everyone else is going through these stages and yet I'm still so nonchalant. I hear them now abit clearer then before, these words of repetition, where they replay memories from the past and regurgitate them to my ears. Yet all I've done is ignored and impatiently dismissed every single word. Petulance is the word to define this. Annoyance is an unpleasant mental state that is characterized by such effects as irritation and distraction from one's conscious thinking. It can lead to emotions such as frustration and anger. The property of being easily annoyed is called petulance, and something which annoys is called a nuisance. Now the time to reflect. See as of now I am already losing interest in writing this down aka also thinking about the important things. The more I do the more tired I feel, plus the fact that it is now 5am isn't really helping either. I've yet to even come to the deeper topics that I need to think about. argh. One thing you should know is, I hate imposing on others but I love the company of doing things together. ok now it's getting random. I shall edit this later on...... maybe. On a lighter note the thing's I've been upto. Attended rach graduation last month, only made it in time for a few pics and a dinner with her fam later onwards. Hope you're enjoying things back home rach :) Last week attended a few of my uni mates grad. ah time sure is passing, then we had dinner in Beverly Hills it was free XD and some drinks at the local RSL. but oh I should really stop whining about my dwindling social life. really need to learn some temperament. p.s im feeling abit better now. Hopefully I will keep up thinking about what I should hahahaa =.=" back to top?
Wednesday, May 11, 2011 @ 5/11/2011 07:48:00 AM goodbye, so long, farewell. Finally collected the car from the workshop today. Everytime I sit in the car with her, she'll lose her temper,scream and shout, and then like falling dominos, I do to. Alas my patience is wearing thin. Today while washing the car, I was missing you abit. The last time I washed a car, you were there doing your part. My recollection may be blurry, it has been a while back. When we were young. I still remember you told me you had to wax like 3 coats or more. It really has been so long since I washed a car. Time like a tunnel of memories, we learn , we forget, we recall. Just reminiscing. I believe as time passes, things will become a distant memory. So for now I would like to keep you here in my mind and heart. Sometimes its the littlest things that will remind me of you. So subtle yet awakening. So tomorrow we'll say goodbye, so long and farewell. No matter what you are still and always will be my ................ back to top?
Friday, May 6, 2011 @ 5/06/2011 05:50:00 AM the more I'd like to, the more I can't last song is a fav <3 the opening part is so quirky and interesting. totally caught my attention. Last Sunday, went for Switchfoot's concert!! We had to wait for abit because there was a delay letting us in. the audience was super sporting! screamed our lungs out! I was like at the back of 1 or 2 ppl from the stage! XD Only bad thing was, took the wrong camera BATT! DX so it was damn frustrating to not be able to take much pics. Especially since I was so damn close to the stage. Went with selina! after not having seen her for a year or two. my goodness does time pass by. As u can see, the blogging mojo has left me for a quite a while now. There has been several times that I log in, then try to type something. It ends up empty, or I get distracted and the window is left there open, after several hours, I just end up closing it. My medium for self expression ? however I have lost the inspiration to express. Maybe its just my braincells dying one by one instead of multiplying. who knows. sorry crapping here haha. Also 2 weeks ago got into an accident. So the car has been in the repair shop for a while. I need to handle all the documentation shit beforehand. Sighs what a pain. I need to go all the way to shah alam(main branch) to get a copy of the insurance policy. The lack of the car makes jill a dull girl. Side note : eating habits have been attrocious as of late. stress eating? I literally gained like 2-3 farking kgs alr. OMG! need to stop and get my mojo back! just been in a lazy slump lately. haih. back to top?
Saturday, April 23, 2011 @ 4/23/2011 07:17:00 AM One of those days chillaxing song addicted! http://freshnessfactorfivethousand.blogspot.com/2011/04/prettiest-friend.html what an eventful week. car accident on weds. dead drunk on thurs. wheeeee... NOT! back to top?
Monday, April 4, 2011 @ 4/04/2011 02:06:00 AM Just for Rachie Today is our beloved Rachel Eng's 22nd Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!! Everyone give her a big ass wet and warm smooch XD However she's also abit sick today. So hopefully you'll get better in these couple of days. Have loadsa rests and take ur meds. Antibiotics work! ok. So how did the two of us meet? We were both in the same secondary school. However at that time, we only knew each other as mutual acquittances. Regardless I think we were both going through puberty and an emotional stage of life :P. Then fate had decided we go to Australia for uni. She enjoyed her time in Uni of Newcastle. We started chatting online and whatnot through fb. During the 1st year, I came over to Newcastle to visit a friend, and we ended up hanging out at the beach with who else but Rachel. I still remember what you wore Rachie. U wore this handmade jean skirt with leggings and a pink bomber jacket. At that time, your socialising skills was still abit awkwardish :P but heck I felt your sincerity :D Since then much has changed. She has grown up to be more open, much more socializable, to be more devoted to god, and happening! Heck even more happening than me :P. Although sporting is still in question, cause everytime I wanna come over she will give the same excuse, got assignment lah blablabla :P. Rachel I believe you want to change to be a better person and look how far you've come. If ever you feel troubled, you know who to look for ;) Just relax and enjoy your life babes. <3 <3 <3 xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo sincerely from, your fake future sister-in-law :D back to top?