Where I'm Headed..

St. Paul, Minnesota

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Whoa. Quite the change, right?   

But I never said change was a bad thing

I honestly cannot wait another minute to call St. Paul my new home. JUST LOOK AT IT! :) 

It's crazy to me how two completely different places, completely different scenes, can have just the same amount of beauty. 

Pretty sure that every time I see this picture, all the hair on my legs grow back. C H I L L S ! Look where I get to spend the next four years of my life... MCNALLY SMITH COLLEGE OF MUSIC. Can't you just hear it calling my name? 

I can.

Where I've Been

St. George, Utah

 

Beautiful, isn't it? This is what I have been lucky enough to call my home for the past eleven years. .

I've kinda been dying to get out of here lately, but in all honesty, it is going to be extremely hard to leave.

It has been SUCH a blessing to be able to drive just a couples miles, and go sit in front of the temple by myself every Sunday. Or just any day of the week..

I'll miss being bored with Chance and Ruby, and going on random drives up and down the blvd until we find something to do..
USUALLY DURANG'S OR MENCHIES :)

AND SO FREAKIN' MUCH MORE.

I have four more months here-

Let's Party It Up. :)

FAMILY

Oh Goodness...Family; You can't live with them, and unfortunately you can't live without them.  You can't hate them without loving them two minutes later.  You can't call them a name without complimenting the after.  And you can't smack them in the face without feeling just a little bit bad after. . . 

Now I may not be an expert on the whole living without them part, but I do have a good, long 17 years of experience of the Living With. . . 
I have lived in Utah with my mother and father, my two sisters and two brothers for my entire life. Well, from the time they were born..That makes seven people, including me. I've been in walking distance (or short driving distance) of five uncles, five aunts, and 14 cousins. OH, and we can't forget about uncle Mike:)
PLUS, I have great aunts and uncles & other distant cousins, not to mention the most amazing Grandma in the entire world! 
So..  7 + 10 + 14 + even more... = a lot. 

So basically, I know a little something about la famille: The ups, and the downs. The positives and the negatives. The things that will be missed, and the things that most definitely will not  be missed. 

Anyway, I've heard that when you are a member of a large family, you have no privacy. But I'm not sure if that's true because I'm not even sure that I know what privacy means..
(Ha Ha, see what I did there?)
And even though I have nothing to hide, I really would love to experience this whole privacy thing. But that's clearly not gonna happen.  
Another thing is, the constant feeling of being on L o c k d o w n. 
Like, curfews suck. 
There's nothing fun to do around here until like eight or nine o clock. 
Or when your parents think they can relate to every problem they think you're having & they totally can't. 

And it seems like, with my family at least, that there is always something negative to be said. I even catch myself doing it, and I don't like it at all. 

"Family Time"...Oh my goodness, really? I don't know how many hours are in a week, but a lot of those hours are spent with family.
Or when they say we need to study, or that we don't spend enough time on school work...We're at school for 7 hours a day for 5 days a week plus homework! AHHH! 

I can't bring friends home because my siblings don't leave them alone. 

Parents say they know what it's like to be a teenager, but that was atleast 25 years ago..They don't know much.

Now for the lovey dovey stuff... <3

Having family everywhere is probably one of the greatest blessings I could ever have. How lucky am I to have hundreds of my Best Friends so close to me, and six of them in my own home.
I always have somewhere to go where I know I am welcome, and loved. 

We laugh together.
Oh boy, we most definitely laugh together...&Those moments will be some of my best memories.

We even Cry together.

Which isn't as fun, but it always bring us closer. And those moments will also be some of my best memories. 
plus so much more. . . 

I've recently learned that the quote, "Friends come and go, but family is forever", is 100 percent true. 

And I hope and pray that I will never, ever forget that..      

 

   
  

 

Self-Esteem

LET ME START OUT BY SAYING, THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH WANTING TO LOOK GOOD. It is totally important to take care of yourself physically. Hit up the gym, cut out the crappy food, good for you! But do not, I repeat Do Not let all the physical stuff make you forget about the mental stuff. Because that's important too. Probably even more important. Seriously.

You know that picture where the girl is looking in the mirror and she sees herself as overweight, and ugly. But then you look at the actual girl and she's beautiful? 
Can you relate to that at all? If you can't, lucky you. If you can, I probably understand better than anyone else what you're going through.

It's called  D I S T O R T I O N. And it sucks. 
And it takes over your life... 

Odds are, you probably look like the beautiful girl in that picture. You're probably perfect on the inside and out. You probably have so many people that care about you. You're probably smart, funny, and talented. You probably have an incredible future ahead of you. And the worst part is, you probably have no idea about any of this. That's not okay.
You're probably too busy thinking about the dirty look you think someone gave you in the hall the other day. You're probably driving yourself crazy over the kid that didn't text you back last week. You're probably beating yourself up because of that piece of chocolate you ate, or because you skipped the gym today.

You probably hate the person you think you are: 
UGLY, FAT, USELESS, HELPLESS, WORTHLESS....

You probably don't realize that because you are constantly thinking these things about yourself, you are slowly making it all true. So STOP before it's too late..

You're being selfish. Stop being selfish before you lose everything. You're gonna lose everything that you DO have: 

BEAUTY

BRAINS

FRIENDS

HAPPINESS

TALENT

OPPORTUNITY

YOUR FUTURE

RESPECT

    YOUR LIFE...  

...And so much more. 

Honestly. I don't lie, especially  not here. 

Please take into consideration what I just said, and accept it. Believe it. Live by it! And if you don't accept it, read it over and over and over and over and over and over again until you do.

Please and thank you.

And hopefully, 

You're welcome. :)

 

SENIORITIS...

It's the end of my senior year and everything is going great. It is by far the best year of my life. I'm involved in my classes, clubs, and cheerleading, and I have the best friends anyone could ever ask for. Between school dances, games, friends and family, every weekend is a party.

I'm living in a nice house with my own bedroom, plasma screen TV, and queen size bed. I am able to do what I want, and I get basically everything I ask for plus so much more.. 

And I just want O U T.

Not a day goes by that I don't think about, and long for the day I move out. I am constantly looking online at McNally Smith, and just Minnesota in general. I've never been more ready to get out of this suburb and move into the big city:) I want to start making my own money and paying my own way through life. I want independence.

.. But WHY? is probably what you're wondering.
I have it so easy here. To some, I may even 
be considered SPOILED ROTTEN. 
Well the truth is, I am spoiled. Because I'm sick.                        
I have an incurable disease that is spreading
quickly through many kids my age.
There is no immunization, no way getting past it
either. . . 
I have senioritis.

Senioritis: (n) A crippling disease that strikes high school seniors. Symptoms include: Laziness, loss of care, shortened attention span, and excessive weariness, etc..

I heard once, from someone who made it out alive, that the only way to beat this sickness is graduation. LAME, right?

It almost seems impossible, like it can't be done. It seems even farther away than it was when I was in Kindergarten. And it just keeps getting further, and further, and further away. 
Ever. Single. Day.


Being a senior is kind of like being 15, or 11, or 19 years old. 
When you're eleven you are in an awkward stage. You're not really a kid, but you're not old enough to be considered...anything, really. So basically, you're nothing and you're weird looking. 

When you're fifteen, anyone 14 and under annoys the everything out of you. And everyone older thinks they're too cool for you. You feel like a moron because your mom still has to drive you places, and you're always asking for rides. You're so close to having a license, but you can't have it yet. All you can do is wait...So basically, when you're fifteen, you're helpless. 

When you're nineteen, you're just pointless. You're not the big 18, or the big 20, you're just stuck in the middle, kinda back to that awkward stage. 

SEE THE SIMILARITIES?..

When you're a senior you're done caring. You don't get ready for school anymore so you're kinda ugly. You're so close to independence but can't have it yet, all you can do is wait.. You're caught in the middle of childhood & adulthood.

You're ugly, helpless, and pointless. Great.    ;)

 

Here's A Little Intro..

Hi, I'm Arielle. (Air-ee-uhl) I am five feet, four inches tall. I WISH I WAS TALLER.  I have medium length, dark brown hair. I WISH IT WAS LONGER. I  love laughing, being happy, and living life to the fullest. 

And that's really all you need to know for now :)

Call this what you want; 

an autobiography

a journal

an ADVICE COLUMN

a documentary

You can even call it LAME..

(but I'd rather you didn't) 

I prefer just calling it a blog. Simple as that.  

 

PREFACE

....But out of all this crap and confusion, I have decided to write a blog. Writing is something I'd like to think I'm good at. It relaxes me and relieves me of stress. These past couple months I have changed alot. Many good things have happened, and even more bad things have happened. But above all, the past few months have 

I N S P I R E D

me. I have learned so much from what I have not written, and I just need to write about it.