What to say

I haven't written in a very long time because I never know what to say. I am not one that is good about talking about herself, it makes me feel selfish or self centered. I don't have any kids to talk about and well, most of the time I wonder if anyone even cares what I have to say.
This end of last year and the beginning of this year was a roller coaster ride to say the least! Christmas was fabulous, one of the best I think I've ever had. On the 31st we went snowmobiling up to our brother in laws cabin, it was so much fun as always. So much snow. I loved the sledding and snow shoeing I got to do. Being with family was just fun. That night Mike and I went and got take out and some movies to watch. I didn't want to go out with friends, I just wanted to be with Mike and cuddle on the couch since he was leaving the next day. It was just how I wanted it to be.
January 1st was a roller coaster ride and I was exhausted by the end of it. Mike packed up and left for Arizona for the next 2 months for an internship he is doing at a clinic down there. He could've stayed in state, but we didn't feel that this was an opportunity he could pass up. He has worked with some really big name athletes and is having a blast with all his patients and learning so much. I am not sure if he will ever want to come home. It was so hard to say goodbye and watch his drive off, luckily I had a very busy day ahead of me.
That evening I threw a baby shower for my friend Tina. We were throwing it way earlier then planned because a lot of our friends were in town for the holiday's. It went well and we all laughed and talked late into the evening. It was so hard to go to bed alone that night and I wanted to burst into tears most of the day. I was exhausted.
I honestly feel that my Heavenly Father has really been there for me and been helping me along the way because of how well I have been doing. It is still difficult and I miss him so much and there are many times that I cry because I just wish he was here or I could have a hug or even a kiss. Just to be in his arms when I've had a bad day. I have so much more respect for the military wives our there. I am used to not seeing him a ton because of school, but at least he came home at night. I know it could be so much worse still and I know how lucky I am. No one has really checked in on me, besides kind of my family, which is a little disappointing. I thought in a sense I was more important to people then that.
This week has been a very difficult week. I have had to deal with a car situation that has been extremely frustrating and have lost all faith and confidence in a company and people. There have also been some struggles at work that were frustrating and who can forget. I know the high emotions are due to the PMS that I had this week, since I started my period on Friday, which was heartbreaking enough.
Though the week has been tough, I know I have so much to be grateful for. I get to talk to Mike every night on my way home from work, we just started skyping, he is so enjoying his internship, which is making this so much easier. I never thought I'd say it, but I am happy to be living at my parents. I have a lot of questions for God right now, especially a lot of frustrations, but I know he is looking out for me while mike is gone and I have been doing better then I'd thought I would be. I am so excited to go see him this coming weekend. Thanks to my awesome parents and the Christmas gift of two plane tickets that we got from them. I can't wait to see him and be in his arms again.

Today's trials are tomorrows testimony's

Today's trials are tomorrows testimony's

So this year has been a very rough start to the year so far. A lot has gone wrong!!!! It all started really on December 28th. However, it just keeps coming. However I heard something a few weeks ago at church and it was the title of this blog. I am trying to be positive, even though I am tired and getting worn down. So here is me trying to be positive and not keep sliding down hill
I am grateful for:
1. my husband, who treats me to well
2. my calling to teach relief society- best calling in the world
3. the fact I even have a job
4. The opportunity to manage, even though it is ridiculously trying most days.
5. My recent 6 cortisone injections that have diminished my neck and shoulder pain by about 1/2
6. My family. nieces and nephews are the best things ever.
7. Grateful for the medication that takes discomfort, pressure and pain away and the one that lets me sleep at night.
8. Case lot sales and coupons that save me money

I a sure there are more, but everything I come up with has a negative to it, so I am just keep thinking of the good things so I can get through my days and today's trials become my testimony tomorrow. I tell that myself a lot these days.

My craziness

My craziness

So I seem to be little OCD, or something like that, about a few things. A clean and organized apartment is one of them. Mike and I live in 550 sq ft apartment and to say the least I am terrified for the day we move out. I have stuck things so tightly in places, that you can imagine how I could be nervous. I have basically spent the day reorganizing my apartment, yet again. I seem to do it every few weeks or months. It started with just my closet and then turned into two other cabinets, our tool boxes,miscellaneous boxes, TV cabinet and I don't know what else. So really its been about a week now since I started with putting all my old journals into one big binder and a few other things and before I knew it, I have basically redone my entire apartment, yet again. Here is what I pulled out of my closet today, which doesn't included our shoes and clothes. This is usually has something to do with the mood I am in and if the apartment is a mess, and I start putting things away, I end up redoing a few things. I do this a lot when I have a lot on my mind and need to focus on something other then what I have been thinking about. I am a little nervous for what happens when we finally have a house, we'll have double the space and stuff. Yikes :) Oh how I can't wait to have a house of my own though!!!! Thanks to mike's Dad and my sister we have a few things at there place, (bed frame, sheets and stuff from our full bed and a cooler). Or else I would be even more cramped then we already are. I am finding room though in some places and you should see the table I built around my couches and lamp. Yeah its kind of awesome and I love it, it makes me happy and feel more organized. What is my deal. Lucky I have a husband that loves me and just smiles and lets me do it and thinks its cute and helpful. All he asks is that I let him know where I moved things. Plus he's getting good a letting me throw things away (he's more of a keeper than I am, I kind of like to throw things away.), Like empty boxes, just so we can have them when we move.

Anniversary, Friends and fun

Friday the 21st was our anniversary. Mike met me when I got off work, we went to my Mom and Dad's and borrowed my dad's motorcycle and drove up to Park City. We stopped at Tanger Outlet and got my Mom's birthday present. We then went to Ruth's Chris, thanks to a wedding gift certificate. We spent about 3 hours sitting out on their deck, eating a FABULOUS dinner and talking. Mike was like a little kid eating his steak. The steaks we got were delicious!!! We got free deseret thanks to it being our anniversary. We talked about a lot of things, the last year, our future, we made some new goals.
Saturday we had our monthly friends party and we went floating down the Provo river. We had so much fun and it was so relaxing. We talked and laughed all the way down. We kept getting caught in the branches which was quite funny at times. We all got a few scratches. Since we were so close, we went and hiked Bridal Veils Falls and took some fun photo's, we then went to dinner at one Mary Anne's favorite Mexican restaurant.
Sunday we had the amazing temple dedication for the Oqurihh Mountain temple. The talks were awesome and President Monson was funny and amazing as usual. The prayer was beautiful.
Thursday Mike surprised me by setting up a little get away without me knowing. Saturday He had talked to his friend Nicole who lives up in Kuna Idaho, 20 minutes out of Boise, with her husband Nathan. Nathan is a head trainer up their on a ranch, they live on it as well. We stayed with them and they taught us so much about horses and everything that goes into it. We asked probably a thousand questions. We had some awesome riding lessons as well. I knew a little bit about riding and mike new very little. It was a extremely fun, relaxing and educational weekend. Hope to visit them again soon.
The best part is, Utah football starts in just 2 days!!! YAY

Lake Powell

We just got back form another great lake powell trip. The wind blew a little bit more this trip so we didn't get as good as water as usual, but it was still fun. We went on another hike. This one tougher then the last, at least this time I had better shoes on:) It was a little scary at times, since the footage wasn't always stable and you were jumping, running or sliding form one spot to the next. This is of course with cliffs straight down. We were trying to get to a spot we thought we could cliff jump that turned out to be over 100 feet so we bypassed it. Every night the kids had either a dance off or a beat Grandpa up night. My nephew Sam learned when asked "who wants to go to lake powell?" he would raise his arm and say "I do!" It was adorable. Even my sister Brittney, who has had MANY health problems lately water skied. She can't see 6 inches in front of her and had to be extremely protective of her sight skied. The first time in her garments and pj's, her husband said the first time her garms would protect her, the rest of the time she wore her swimming suit and scuba goggles, she even crossed the wake even though she didn't know shew as going to because she couldn't see it, she did it a lot of times and all by feel. Way to go Britt. We got the kids up wake boarding, well they would be inbetween my brother in laws legs, but they loved it. We put a NOS system on the boat, which my dad LOVED trying out on all of us, I think I was out of the water in about 5 seconds. It was kind of nice. We did have some jerks for neighbors. It cooled down pretty good at night and I had to get into my sleeping bag way earlier. I got through two books and started a third and even got some studying in.

Mike made it possible to go to lake powell by doing so much work at the apartments since he was odne with his internship and school hasn't started yet. He is really excited for school to start next week and I am a bit jealous wishing I was able to go as well :( I would love to get a second bachelors or a masters, but the question is WHAT? Any suggestions.

Update

Here you go Heidi :) I have a new goal to update this on Sunday afternoons. So much has happened since I have last updated this!!
We were recently in Lake Powell June 28th-July 5th. It was awesome as usual. Water was pretty warm, weather was great, really only had 2 small storms rather then the usual daily. Mike got to learn so much. He learned how to drive the houseboat, the boat, pull a skier, he got a up on my double boot competitive ski and so much more. We hiked, wave runner, swam, ate, read a lot of books, slept and played games. The kids were awesome. Jordan (3 yrs old) tried water skiing. Megan 8, Halie 7, and Issac 4, we couldn't stop from jumping off the top of the house boat, which is about 20 feet, or from water skiing. Bella 1 yr and Sam 18 mths didn't want to stay out of the boat or wave runners. We tie-died tee shirts and made a huge fire for smores, and watched the neighbors shoot off fireworks. My dad was a little crazy and ended up gettting a ticket, oops, but lucked out and only got it for 1 situation rather then the 4 it could've been. We got to sit at the end of the dock on the 4th of July and watch the fireworks shooting off from Page, Arizona
July 11th, we got to go to Mapleton and spend the day with some good friends before they leave for Podiatry school. We took his CJ out and went 4 wheeling up Spanish for canyon and went to a small reservoir, walked around the lake, had lunch, shot some guns, pushed a tree over and just played around and talked for a while. We went back, went hot tubing, ordered a pizza and watched 310 to Yuma (clean version). It was a great day, which unfortunately had to end. We will miss them but wish them the best.
For the 24th, we went swimming with the family and then met some friends for some fireworks at Liberty park. We had the best spot, we got to see them shoot off fireworks as well as watch them go off. Saturday we helped our home teacher move and then went out to Antelope Island and were going to go for a 10 mile mountain bike ride. It didn't exactly happen that way. We had a 74 year old guy,named John, join up with us at about mile 3 and things went down from there. The road was really sandy in some areas and so we had to walk parts. John then got a flat in his tire, we couldn't find the whole so just re in flatted it up, just in case he was running low to start. We he wasn't. We couldn't find the whole to even patch it, and he didn't have a spare and we didn't have one. So we road/slashed walked the next 7 miles. About mile 6 mike grabbed his keys and followed his directions to get his car and meet us where the trail ended and the service road began. Well he had know idea which way anything was. Mike road an extra 5-10 miles, still couldn't find his car, but some really nice people drove him around trying to find it, but never could. He was still looking for it, when we got to the trail head and called him. They came and picked us up and finally found John's car. We then got a ride to our car and left. What was supposed to be about 1 1/2 turned into 4 hours. I only put some sunscreen on and didn't take any with us, needless to say, my arms and shoulders and quite burnt. I have been so careful not to get burnt, I even got a TAN in :ake Powell, yes I am serious, I had tan lines, real tan lines, not even one burn line.
We have done lots of other fun things too. Picnics up the canyon, bees games, motorcycle rides and a few other things. We are trying to have more fun lately rather then allowing managing the apartments taking over our lives which it has been the last while. We weren't having enough fun and starting to resent it. Hopefully with our new plan, we can keep managing and still do the things we want. We are young and newly married and don't have kids yet. We should be out having fun, going away for the weekends whenever we want rather then just working here. Wish us luck. See you next Sunday!!! Hope you have a good week.

Update

So I am lying her thinking how much I have not wanted to update this. I can't even begin to tell you how happy I am that March is over, yes I know it's Easter and its half way through April. March was probably one of the worst and best months ever.
Our car got broken into and after all was said and done, they got away with about $1500 in cash. We only had a $200 deductible on cash and gift cards are considered cash. So that totally sucks, but we are counting our blessings since it could have been so much worse.
Drama, drama, drama. That is what work has been. One of our PA's is no longer there and girls are hard to work with. I now know why I had all guy Friends growing up, I had all sisters and enough drama. A few other really sucky things happened, but I am not dwelling on them any more.
Here is the amazingness of our last month. One friday afternoon, I walk out of work and my amazing husband Mike is standing by the car and says that the bags our packed and he is taking me to Lava Hot Springs for the weekend. Most of it was bliss, but the last 12 hours not so much.
The next weekend my boss couldn't use some ski tickets so we got to go skiing at Deer Valley Resort for FREE, that was hilarious, because neither Mike nor I had been skiing in 10 years. I didn't have a hard time remembering anything, but he was hilarious all day. I have never seen him so nervous or feel so vulnerable. Slightly adorable, and lots of laughs and falls(him, I didn't fall once).
The next weekend we were given a pass that expired on April 4th for a free night at the U of U Marriott resort. So we went up, went hot tubing, slept in, had an amazingly huge free super yummy FREE buffet breakfast, enjoyed the first session of conference.
This weekend, I had Friday off, YEAH and amazing. However of course Mike had a school thing that morning, he usually doesn't have class, so i stayed in bed till 8:30 got up worked on the apartments, and then we went shooting with some friends that afternoon. I did a lousy job, but it was fun anyways.
Sorry no pictures we suck at remembering our camera, so we bought a disposable in Lava and just finished using it up and its at Costco getting developed, what a weird thing. Don't know the last time I had to have something developed. So much st res the last month in a half with so many different things going on in so many parts of my life, but I have been blessed with things as well to help me relax at least one day a week and have some fun and get away from it all, unfortunately you have to come back to reality. Life so good and hard and make you unhappy at times with all that goes on, so wish I knew how to turn off my brain at times or at least slow it down. Sleep through the night would be nice. Luckily, somehow the good Lord decided to bless me with an amazing husband to help relax me, keep me calm and help me through it all.

PS. Easter was great. We had Mikes Mom over for dinner and then went and played catch till it got dark. Good Day. Hope you all enjoyed your amazing day.