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            <title><![CDATA[differences.]]></title>
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            <dc:creator><![CDATA[jay p.]]></dc:creator>
            <pubDate>Wed, 23 Jul 2025 13:47:25 GMT</pubDate>
            <atom:updated>2025-07-23T13:47:49.345Z</atom:updated>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>crazy how life can</p><p>really change.</p><p>why i went from tryna</p><p>hit licks to</p><p>praying</p><p>or bussin swerves</p><p>to relaying</p><p>messages</p><p>on how to stay in</p><p>yo own lane.</p><p>to propagate goodness</p><p>say fuck all the fame</p><p>using our platforms</p><p>to explain</p><p>how we got here</p><p>where we goin,</p><p>even in fear</p><p>one can find solace.</p><p>fuck having a motive</p><p>my motif is notice</p><p>then speak on what</p><p>i know</p><p>shit</p><p>there’s a reason</p><p>i don’t say much</p><p>think i hit</p><p>jus for the beings</p><p>above to nudge</p><p>“don’t quote it”</p><p>“don’t give it yo focus”</p><p>cause in a moment</p><p>everything known</p><p>could be lost.</p><p>now your mind is unknowing</p><p>scared and holding</p><p>onto things</p><p>that no longer mold in</p><p>a reality unfolding.</p><img src="https://medium.com/_/stat?event=post.clientViewed&referrerSource=full_rss&postId=c3d9326b41ed" width="1" height="1" alt="">]]></content:encoded>
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            <title><![CDATA[is it me?]]></title>
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            <dc:creator><![CDATA[jay p.]]></dc:creator>
            <pubDate>Sat, 05 Jul 2025 14:55:32 GMT</pubDate>
            <atom:updated>2025-07-05T14:55:32.851Z</atom:updated>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>i don’t really try anymore.</p><p>tears that ain’t been</p><p>cried from the sores.</p><p>wounds make me</p><p>alive,</p><p>but there’s more</p><p>tryna transform</p><p>transmute pain to pleasure.</p><p>conquer whatever.</p><p>honorably,</p><p>never.</p><p>would rather</p><p>ruffle sum feathers</p><p>piss on they endeavors.</p><p>no respect when you</p><p>weathered.</p><p>no one helped you</p><p>except for</p><p>the one,</p><p>who sat thru</p><p>the lectures</p><p>lived thru adventures.</p><p>seen first hand</p><p>this life filled</p><p>with sinners, but</p><p>still walked with</p><p>you on the mission.</p><p>stood within you</p><p>while you fixing</p><p>things without you</p><p>what about you..?</p><img src="https://medium.com/_/stat?event=post.clientViewed&referrerSource=full_rss&postId=11f5e20e1a7d" width="1" height="1" alt="">]]></content:encoded>
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            <title><![CDATA[I • PHONE]]></title>
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            <dc:creator><![CDATA[jay p.]]></dc:creator>
            <pubDate>Tue, 01 Jul 2025 13:10:02 GMT</pubDate>
            <atom:updated>2025-07-01T13:10:02.268Z</atom:updated>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>say she treat me</p><p>the same</p><p>yea,</p><p>same as the rest</p><p>same ole test</p><p>believe it</p><p>lay it</p><p>to rest.</p><p>pray for the best</p><p>release</p><p>different beast</p><p>don’t care if you cheat,</p><p>jus keep it real with me.</p><p>feel everything</p><p>so i know,</p><p>even when i can’t see.</p><p>blinded by scars</p><p>binded to stars</p><p>shining,</p><p>cause it’s</p><p>the only job of</p><p>ours.</p><p>i’m back. :)</p><img src="https://medium.com/_/stat?event=post.clientViewed&referrerSource=full_rss&postId=7b390ff40802" width="1" height="1" alt="">]]></content:encoded>
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            <title><![CDATA[passion.]]></title>
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            <dc:creator><![CDATA[jay p.]]></dc:creator>
            <pubDate>Wed, 29 Jan 2025 22:38:48 GMT</pubDate>
            <atom:updated>2025-01-29T22:38:48.103Z</atom:updated>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>transpose</p><p>transpire</p><p>an acquired taste</p><p>required</p><p>to relish in the</p><p>sweet nectar</p><p>yo essence</p><p>provided</p><p>slip em inside</p><p>digits to help</p><p>me navigate</p><p>to describe</p><p>warm</p><p>tight</p><p>until our eyes</p><p>meet</p><p>same message</p><p>inscribed</p><p>release..</p><p>allow me to provide</p><p>pleasure</p><p>in all its kinds</p><p>from my mouth</p><p>to my hands</p><p>to my serpent</p><p>which you’ve tamed</p><p>to dance</p><p>may you understand</p><p>my plans</p><p>inviting your soul</p><p>to harmonize w</p><p>mine</p><p>with every stroke</p><p>from the front</p><p>then behind</p><p>ain’t no fuckin baby</p><p>it’s only love</p><p>on this line</p><p>love on my mind</p><p>a feeling o</p><p>so sublime</p><p>you coming jus</p><p>for show</p><p>but i wanna see</p><p>the moment</p><p>your mind explodes</p><p>nothing but primal</p><p>desire provoked</p><p>so we may ravage</p><p>the other</p><p>moaning o</p><p>each one bringing</p><p>you close</p><p>to the moment</p><p>you float</p><p>high off ecstasy</p><p>and energy</p><p>united as one</p><p>finally whole</p><p>this beautiful fight</p><p>at its end</p><p>until the yearning</p><p>returns..</p><p>so it begins..</p><img src="https://medium.com/_/stat?event=post.clientViewed&referrerSource=full_rss&postId=786e108197e9" width="1" height="1" alt="">]]></content:encoded>
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            <title><![CDATA[alchemy.]]></title>
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            <pubDate>Sun, 03 Nov 2024 05:52:24 GMT</pubDate>
            <atom:updated>2024-11-03T05:52:24.729Z</atom:updated>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>different escape</p><p>different place</p><p>in my life</p><p>don’t struggle w strife</p><p>gotta hate myself</p><p>to fully love light</p><p>to finally be light</p><p>no longer a fight</p><p>it’s a dance</p><p>and i stride</p><p>hittin my notes</p><p>even when i</p><p>feel i lost hope</p><p>feelings arise</p><p>now i can</p><p>float</p><p>as i remember times</p><p>when i couldn’t laugh</p><p>til i toked</p><p>missed opportunities</p><p>known to choke</p><p>well my chakra was blocked</p><p>i wasn’t yet woke</p><p>hip to the grip</p><p>of a choke</p><p>🖤🤍</p><img src="https://medium.com/_/stat?event=post.clientViewed&referrerSource=full_rss&postId=86d3a71c89f7" width="1" height="1" alt="">]]></content:encoded>
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            <title><![CDATA[tokens]]></title>
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            <dc:creator><![CDATA[jay p.]]></dc:creator>
            <pubDate>Mon, 29 Jul 2024 14:31:30 GMT</pubDate>
            <atom:updated>2024-07-29T14:31:30.541Z</atom:updated>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>speaking for those unspoken.</p><p>unaccounted for</p><p>used as tokens.</p><p>currency to keep growing</p><p>the money tree,</p><p>but don’t actually touch none of it.</p><p>crazy how the cycle of enslavement</p><p>has changed.</p><p>now we give ourselves away for fame</p><p>and a name always attached.</p><p>maybe it hasn&#39;t changed</p><p>guess chemicals rearranged our brains</p><p>to think it’s that.</p><p>peep @thep.files for more.</p><p>stay love, stay light. ❤</p><img src="https://medium.com/_/stat?event=post.clientViewed&referrerSource=full_rss&postId=e7063b1cb1f4" width="1" height="1" alt="">]]></content:encoded>
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            <title><![CDATA[thank you..]]></title>
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            <pubDate>Tue, 09 Jul 2024 17:16:04 GMT</pubDate>
            <atom:updated>2024-07-09T17:16:04.981Z</atom:updated>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>trust in me</p><p>oh, i trust in you</p><p>i’ve seen the change</p><p>i’ve seen hurt too</p><p>i’ve seen the flames</p><p>pain tried to work you</p><p>yet somehow i broke</p><p>through.</p><p>spoke full of who i’m becoming</p><p>life i’m creating</p><p>now that i’m on it</p><p>on top of the moment</p><p>on top of aloneness</p><p>on top of a mountain of atonement.</p><p>i know i’m not broken</p><p>allowing humility to read back</p><p>my omens</p><p>the prayers so soft spoken</p><p>cause yelling is a disconnect</p><p>but my heart still in motion</p><p>set apart, yes i’m chosen.</p><p>now i embark on</p><p>paths less solid</p><p>still being woven</p><p>with every step</p><p>i keep on floating.</p><p>catch me on insta: @thep.files</p><p>love and light to all.</p><img src="https://medium.com/_/stat?event=post.clientViewed&referrerSource=full_rss&postId=969cf878f103" width="1" height="1" alt="">]]></content:encoded>
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            <title><![CDATA[The Story of DANIEL]]></title>
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            <dc:creator><![CDATA[jay p.]]></dc:creator>
            <pubDate>Sat, 08 Jun 2024 19:10:06 GMT</pubDate>
            <atom:updated>2024-06-08T19:10:06.423Z</atom:updated>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>As we experience the ending of an era I believe it’s about time fresh ideas for expansion are brought forth, new stories written, oldies remastered, and legends created. The vast majority of individuals have heard the biblical story of Daniel and the lion’s den. Well this isn’t that story, similarly to Daniel in biblical text though, DANIEL doesn’t just find himself in the lion’s den, but embraces the leo spirit of courage and power to remind the listeners’ change is upon us. Now let us venture into the masterfully created world of DANIEL THADDEUS.</p><p>Beginning with timeless piece, “<em>Daniel EP</em>”, we follow the story of young DAN as he learns to grasp differences in an ever changing world. One for young DAN that feels like it’s moving forth without him. This is due to trauma holding him back from his own development. With the use of distorted production and DAN’S unique spellbinding flow young DAN takes us on the journey of being a lost kid in a world shrouded by darkness. Blinding young DAN from his truest potential. Shadows of old love, blatant ignorance, and a new neighborhood foe shed light on the concept that without change within oneself, an individual will always be thrown back onto the hamster wheel with no direction. While the cyclical nature of things seemed to have halted young DAN, with time comes growth.</p><p>This growth is what brought young DAN into his <em>Awkward Age</em>. With excellent production from DAN’s right hand man RipFrancis, DAN opens himself up to the reality of being young in an old world. Yet without fear we see DAN display age has no bind to a being of limitless potential. Starting strong in his faith with help from his good friend and bandmate Dos, DAN exemplifies that with God there is no fear, there is no worry. Anything can be accomplished and there’s no reason to be “Shaky” in anything one pursues because anything is possible when you have the spark within you. With the use of Rip’s disgusting flips and cuts we see remnants of the distortion young DAN was once troubled by. Yet, using motivating and uplifting bars and melodies DAN shows that the distortion is becoming clear. Not in the sense that life is no longer distorted, but rather how adaptation with acceptance can help make one’s vision clear even in a distorted environment. When listening to to the commentary that highlights topics motivating like minded individuals to “STOP COMPLAINING” we also get a deeper understanding of how DAN accepts the world and the universe, and which then showed DAN that life is only as hard as you make it. How even though you may be lost you can find the light, and that light will fill your “VEINS” with divinity. DAN found his light.</p><p>With this light and DAN’S ever expansion we see the resurgence of ManMan. DAN’S inner child, from the lost time before DAN’S troubled adolescence. MANMAN curated the unparalleled beat tape, <em>MANMAN Lv.1. </em>This tape is unrivaled in its approach to reach within oneself to get outside of the box. This tape not only shows off MANMAN’S natural ability on the board, but also it provides a nice daydream(y) buffer. One could argue a buffer for the eager arrival of new creations from DAN or the buffer that some experience when they are rushed into adulthood, while still having vivid memories of childhood experiences. The clouds that transition the heart of the child in the body of an “adult”.</p><p>This transition is nothing, but another stepping stone for DAN and MANMAN, because before we knew it we graciously received <em>MANMAN VOL 1. </em>A joint tape that brought together the childlike wonder of MANMAN with his ability to make the production fun like an interesting game one would play as a child. While also highlighting DAN’S rebirthed confidence and fearlessness. We see the power their oneness possess throughout the entirety of the tape, but the first two singles, “Throughitall” and “LifeiZGoOd” truly culminate the idea that when you find you’re light in the dark abyss of not understanding self you become a vessel for power beyond basic human comprehension. you become GOD.</p><p>This Godlike ability carried its weight through the second Vol of MANMAN where DAN effortlessly dishes out free spirited bars that showcase the balance DAN has achieved within his life. MANMAN once again does an excellent job at using his experiences to produce a truly distinct sound using samples and loops that are reflective of this once lost time. Doing this shows off DAN’s emphatic creativity such as on “aBlack”, and the lyrical representation of a river that can be experienced with “NapTime!”. With all this art on display we could only imagine what the storm of DAN’S mind has in store.</p><p>exp3ct the unExpect3d.</p><p>To be Continued…</p><p><strong>Check out DAN:</strong></p><p>Insta: @mrjayholiman</p><p>Twitter :@daniel14742383</p><p>SoundCloud: <a href="https://on.soundcloud.com/Feca6L5d7YmrxSRV6">https://on.soundcloud.com/Feca6L5d7YmrxSRV6</a></p><p><em>Awkward Age : </em><a href="https://on.soundcloud.com/peg66ZAK6ghUgkfx6">https://on.soundcloud.com/peg66ZAK6ghUgkfx6</a></p><p><strong>Check out RipFrancis:</strong></p><p>Insta: @ripfrancis_</p><p>Check out DOS: @yungddos</p><img src="https://medium.com/_/stat?event=post.clientViewed&referrerSource=full_rss&postId=c084e76218e4" width="1" height="1" alt="">]]></content:encoded>
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            <title><![CDATA[rooted.]]></title>
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            <dc:creator><![CDATA[jay p.]]></dc:creator>
            <pubDate>Sat, 18 May 2024 03:16:18 GMT</pubDate>
            <atom:updated>2024-05-18T03:16:18.886Z</atom:updated>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>i don&#39;t see family often.</p><p>mixed emotions when i see</p><p>how things have changed</p><p>since they seen me.</p><p>what used to be.</p><p>usually an uproar</p><p>when i appear,</p><p>now only small talk</p><p>fills the air.</p><p>fills my ear</p><p>with reminders</p><p>he’s no longer here.</p><p>time ended with fear</p><p>of not knowing</p><p>feeling queer in this</p><p>closet of skin</p><p>try to rekindle</p><p>a flame with no oxygen.</p><p>light dwindled,</p><p>its obvious</p><p>yo boy ahead of his time</p><p>ahead of his mind.</p><p>heart struggling to</p><p>keep up,</p><p>always behind</p><p>the veil of truth.</p><p>innocence lost in his youth</p><p>lived so many lives</p><p>don&#39;t know what else to do.</p><img src="https://medium.com/_/stat?event=post.clientViewed&referrerSource=full_rss&postId=76b42f43bbd5" width="1" height="1" alt="">]]></content:encoded>
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            <title><![CDATA[peace, please…]]></title>
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            <dc:creator><![CDATA[jay p.]]></dc:creator>
            <pubDate>Sat, 11 May 2024 02:09:05 GMT</pubDate>
            <atom:updated>2024-05-11T02:09:05.632Z</atom:updated>
            <content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>like losing focus</p><p>life losing motion</p><p>light losing hope</p><p>can I have a toke?</p><p>darkness hear my plea,</p><p>so it atones.</p><p>choking me up.</p><p>hacking and spitting</p><p>shaking my bones.</p><p>for the sweet release</p><p>of knowing</p><p>right after, everything is</p><p>back to Boeing.</p><p>crashing down on</p><p>my dome piece.</p><p>cracking sounds</p><p>as I slow heave.</p><p>backing me down</p><p>oh, they so mean.</p><p>nasty and ugly</p><p>but make shit</p><p>not so muggy</p><p>even shadows can</p><p>make dreams come true,</p><p>isn&#39;t that funny..</p><p>check out my insta: @thep.files</p><img src="https://medium.com/_/stat?event=post.clientViewed&referrerSource=full_rss&postId=e4885d635e83" width="1" height="1" alt="">]]></content:encoded>
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