There are decisions, and then there are decisions.
We recently made one of those "just-a-few-times-in-a-liftetime" decisions.
It was a tough one. The process took seven months. It involved many sleepless nights and hours of analytical discussion. It took up most of our "mental space." It involved a whole lot of fasting and prayer--followed by more discussion and soul-searching. And research. And phone calls. And hope and disappointment. And it involved many trips to various destinations.
We have spent the last twelve-plus years of our married life working toward this eventual decision, and finally, it was upon us. And it wasn't as straightforward as we thought.
This decision involved Brian's job choice, but in a greater way, it also involved his entire career path. More than once, he called the process his mid-life crisis.
Fortunately, we knew that from an eternal perspective, whatever decision we made would be just fine--but we also saw many significant day-to-day implications--that would span much of the rest of our lives--involved in whatever course we pursued. There were so very many ramifications to consider.
The job search spanned the country:
Oregon
Washington
Colorado
Utah
Idaho
Arizona
Texas
Minnesota
Michigan
Missouri
Mississippi
Indiana
Florida
North Carolina
Virginia
Maryland
Pennsylvania
In a several of those states, we considered multiple possibilities. And, in a tough economy, we felt oh-so fortunate that we did have choices.
In the end, in the final weeks of our agonizing decision-making process, the answer was pretty clear--but it took us a while to recognize it and to accept it as right. (And it also involved a couple more trips!) In the end, we turned away from a place we loved and chose a place we aren't quite so sure about. But we know it's the right job & place for us at this point, and since making the decision a month ago, we've been moving forward ever since.
And we've been sleeping better than ever.
*For security reasons, I'm not going to post where we're headed here. But if you don't already know, leave a comment and I will email you.