I'm always baffled when I look around and see what is in my life right now and I don't feel like I should have 3 kids. I don't feel responsible enough or old enough. I always had this image in my brain of what a woman looked like and what she was supposed to act like once she had 3 kids. AND pretty sure I don't feel like "that woman" I feel so unequipped and not able to handle it all! I think the hardest part has been #1: all 3 kids under the age of 5 = all I hear is whinning ALL day long. #2: A baby who is very attached to her Mom and needs my attention a vast majority of the time! I don't mean to sound like I'm venting and being pessimistic. I'm just telling you what it looks like behind our walls at this point and time in our lives FROM my perspective. Life hasn't been easy, but I haven't made it any easier on myself.
Porter: He is a smart boy who is growing up too quickly. We aren't quite to the stage of consistent "Why this and why that" questions, but I can feel it coming closely around the corner. He has been starting to ask lots of questions about things when he doesn't understand completely. I his mother am trying to get prepared for his stage of life coming up soon. He is getting bigger and smarter and is becoming more of a person than a little kid. If you know what I mean. He wants to play big kid games, he wants to show more independence, he is in is fathers shadow anytime his dad is home. He wants to be just like his dad! He has a competitive nature about him. Always wants to be the first to take his vitamin, to get in the bath, to finish his food, to get in and out of the car, but his sister Kinley has learned that great saying "Ladies first" and Porter has learned that it is important to be a gentleman happily and he will do it(sometimes). :) He still loves trains and has really gotten into cars lately. He loves to play on the tablet and is becoming a typical boy who enjoys gaming. He is in his second year of preschool and so far seems to be really enjoying it. So far in the past 4 months of school I've noticed a tremendous difference in his skills of being able to write his name on all of his projects! I'm very proud of him! He is a big helper to me around the house and with his sisters. Mostly a help with Kaydence and an amazing friend to Kinley these days. The two are quite literally inseperable. And he Lost his first tooth The last week of November 2012. Then about 2 weeks before Christmas he lost another!
Kinley: My 3 year old! We absolutely LOVE this little girl! She is so fun to have around! Her smile and laugh are super contagious. She loves to giggle and laugh and will fake laugh if she has to just so she can laugh! It's cute! She loves princesses right now. Her favorite have been Aurora, Snow White and just recently she is starting to like Rapunzel. she loves to go around twirling and singing the songs that all the princesses do. What 3 year old girl doesn't? It's fun to say what does Ariel say and she will start to sing "Ahhh" and what does Snow White say " Some day HER prince will come!" So adorable. She gets mad at you if you say someday MY prince will come! Since we have had Kaydence she has learned to be ok with Mom and Dad leaving her with a babysitter. She likes to sing the song from Daniel Tigers Neighborhood "Grown ups come back!" She loves treats and is constantly wagering whatever she can to get some treats. I find I bribe her lots, but it's what works. We've been working with her on not being afraid of shinny floors. Anytime we would go to a store or into the gym at the church she would see the reflection of the lights on the floor and completely freak out. She was so worried she was going to slip and fall on the shiny parts of the floor. AND we would end up holding her anytime we were at one of these places with shiny floors. Not anymore though. She is now brave and confidently tells us every time.. "Look I'm walking! I safe!"
Kaydence: She has been such a joy to us all! She has been a very different baby for us(or should I say for ME) It seems the things that worked for Porter and Kinley just don't work for her and I feel like I'm learning ALL over again how to be a Mom. Except this time it's with 2 older siblings attached. If she would learn to soothe herself and calm herself down when she is ready to go to sleep...She would by far be my easiest/ happiest baby! Since she was 2 weeks old she has been such a smiley baby! And at 2 weeks old it wasn't just coincidence she was smiling. She truly has been smiling for real since 2 weeks old! She just got her first two teeth this week(Jan 14th-Jan 21st)! They are the front bottom 2. We like to joke that she stole them from Porter because Porter lost those very 2 teeth recently! We will miss that gummy baby smile! But I'm excited for those cute baby teeth! always so fun! She for sure is going to be one of my most curious babies! She is very quick to learn new things! Patrick has said she is going to be the one who knows and understands in her brain how to do something before she can physically do it herself! SOO TRUE! She wants to get things and figure them out. She gets so frustrated with any type of rattle toy that has little things inside that she cannot touch! She wants to get them so bad and she will just start to fuss and get so mad at the toy. We've learned to give her those toys not very often. I know when she can move around I'm in trouble. She is already such a roller! She can get around our front room like a pro! from the fireplace to the tile!
Kaydence had gotten a cough when she was about 1 1/2 months old and it progressively got worse over the time of 6 weeks. The weekend after Thanksgiving it got so bad that we finally took her into the E.R. They checked her for pneumonia, for RSV, for croup, etc.. They gave her breathing treatments and so on and we ended up getting sent up to pediactrics and staying 3 days. We went into the ER on Saturday morning and admitted her to PEDS that afternoon. They said they wanted to run a test for cystic fibrosis, but wouldn't be able to do that until monday. So we had to stay til monday to do the test. I was a nervous wreck in that tiny hospital room those 72 hours we were there! She had to be put on Oxygen, because her SAT levels were too low and she wasn't getting enough oxygen. And anytime that monitor would beep telling us those levels were getting lower... my heart would flutter. The worst part of the whole thing was #1 being away from Porter and Kinley! ( when I got home from the hospital I could tell they were having a hard time from me being away and not having any consistency and even just not being able to understand what was going on) #2 The unknown of it all. Sitting in that room watching my baby get put through so much to try and get her better and WAITING for test results WONDERING what could be wrong with her. I really had to put a lot of trust in the Lord and have faith that it was all going to be alright! Monday came around and my baby was happy as long as they weren't suctioning her nose out! And they ran tests, and we got the results back that the only thing wrong was that she had the influenza type 3 virus. So just the flu. ALL of that for the flu! They sent us home with oxygen. They wanted her to stay on the oxygen for a while. She was on it only at night for 2 days. I had to wake up every hour the first night to check on her and make sure her breathing was fine and that the oxygen was working. But after that we took care of her and about a week later she was better! A special part of all this was that we were in the hospital over the weekend and so that meant no church for us. BUT Patrick and I were able to go to a 20 minute sacrament meeting held at the hospital. Our testimonies were so strengthened by being able to go and partake of the sacrament that day. Not to mention how nice and quiet it was without the kids! haha that was nice!
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This year we enjoyed doing our own thing for Christmas! It was our first ever doing it on our own in our own home. We were a little worried how it would feel and if we'd get totally bored by noon on Christmas day, but it actually turned out to be SOO nice! We still felt the wonderful magic and spirit of Christmas and enjoyed relaxing in our own home and being together just us! Christmas Eve we took around our neighbor gifts and caroled to a few families! We really saw what Christmas was about when we went to an elderly couple that lives by us and found out that they weren't having any of their kids come to see them and so we could tell that our visit meant a lot to them! Also this year we started a new tradition. We made sure that the kids picked out and bought a special gift for each person in the family. The first gift opened on Christmas morning was Porters gift TO Mom! He was so excited to give his gift to me that he had completely ignored his very own presents and thought of Mom first! That is the true meaning of Christmas! Both kids were extremely excited to give gifts to one another! Though I think my favorite gift was Kinley's gift to her Dad, a blinged out pink heart key chain. She went to the store saying I want to buy dad a pink ring...well we couldn't find any his size, but we did find the pink key ring. She was so excited to give that to him, plus she got him an extension cord that she thought was a jump rope. We are still letting her believe it's a jump rope! She KNEW Dad would love both of those gifts! And my very favorite part...Dad has the pink key chain hooked to his keys! What an amazing Dad! We will for sure be keeping this tradition going. Anyways... The kids were put in bed at 830 that night and they were up til at least 1030 squealing with joy at any sound they heard outside! They were soooo excited that Santa was coming! We got a new camera this year for christmas so hopefully blogging will be better from here on out! but no promises are being made!





























