On the Up and Up

Wow.

It is a little different to be sitting here writing again.

I think it is about time.

I have missed you all.

(Even though most of you never reveal yourselves to me)

I needed a break.

I needed to clear my head and refocus on some of the things in my life that are important to just me.

You know how sometimes all of us need to shut off our Facebook accounts and just live in the real world for a bit?

I needed to do that with my blog.

You see... writing is very therapeutic for me.

It is also something that I love to do regardless if my grammar is horrible or my punctuation is in the wrong places.

I still love it.

However over the past year I feel that when I sat down to write here, in this space, it all just came out.

Somedays I was writing specifically to one person.

Somedays it was to a group of people.

More often then not I started to realize I was venting and hurting and processing here.

Then one day... it happened. 

No, you don't need to know what it was however you all need to know it was a wake up call for me.

I realized that I need to be more choosy about what I put out here to you all. 

When this moment happened I didn't realize how many people really read this thing and boy oh boy I do now.

I would also like to say I am sorry if in the process of my moments of selfishness and stupidity I hurt you. 

To those of you who know who you are I didn't ever ever ever mean that to happen.

Anyway.

I'm back.

Things have been so good lately. 

So so so so so so good.

Mellow and peaceful and right in time for the holiday season.

I have missed you all and while I was away for a bit thank you for all of your support and kind words via email, FB, and text.

Makes a girl feel so overly loved.

I'll catch up soon...it's finally snowing and I've got to get my house cleaned and skis out.... FINALLY!

Cheers!

xoxo.

P.S. I've been shooting lately!! Can't wait to show you all! 

Nachos Anyone?

I crack myself up all of the time.

I don't know about you all but when life gets so busy somedays I have a tendency to forget about the good fun little things.

So I have a friend from grade school.

She decided to start a blog called Apartment Envy.

She also takes readers submissions.

In my case it was like a friend/reader but whateves I am cool like that.

Anywho.

Check it.

This was my horrible-bar colored-nacho eating-hole in the wall living room.

It is that no longer! 

I can't wait for you all to see!

Ohhh...and did I mention today is my first day at the new j.o.b?

Fingers Crossed!

xoxox.

Good Feelin'

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Guess who has good news?

Yeeeppp!

This girl! 

The events of my life amaze me daily.

(I am pretty sure I have written this once or twice)

So not kidding.

SOOO a little catch up?

Do you all remember a little while ago around this time and this time when I felt I was pretty much on top of the world?

I have really missed those days. 

To be honest I feel like at that time I made one decision that changed it all. 

To this day I feel like that decision was and will always be a mistake. 

It might be one of my life's biggest regrets of my life and it will also be a wrong that I am determined to rewrite! 

Last week on a spur of a moment whim and by a recommendation from Jordy (GOD bless this man and how wonderful he is to me) I scored a job interview.

Lucky for me it is back and an industry I love and hopefully working for a small teeny tiny shop that will grow and become something wonderful for the SLC.

As to what I am doing for them and who they are?

That is just going to have to wait until I can stop doing my happy dance!

Happy Tuesday Ya'll!

(This is a video I am watching daily... I love love love love love it)

October and the Ocean

Is is fair to say Happy October?!?

Once again I took a break from the blogging world.

Why?

Well honestly I just didn't have much I wanted to say to anyone most of the past month.

Between the Mr. departing, (on very bad terms and feeling extremely hurt over) 

my mom's world being flipped upside down, a car getting stolen out of my driveway, and as of this past week hopefully a new wonderful job...well I just have wanted to be in my own world.

Crazy uh?

The best part of the past month has been the last few days.

This view of the dock, ferry, and the aircraft carrier was taken from INSIDE my 90 year old Papa's living room! 

Can you believe that?

In the past month I really felt the need to head to Seattle to have some time with him and so *bam* here I am. Needless to say I have also gotten some rest, shared a few great conversations, and have been taking in the ocean air! 

Last night Papa, my mom, and I went to Ivar's for dinner and this was our view.

It is really something neat to see the cars loading on and off the ferry and these crazy men fishing! 

Here we are at dinner! Not to bad for 90 uh?

Another great thing here is this is the view from the bedroom.

Literally it is about 300 yards away.

Who has a lighthouse in their backyard?

At the beginning of the summer I kept mentioning to Jordy that I felt I need to be in Seattle. I kept thinking of the ocean and of the pacific northwest. I was having dreams of it up here and having no clue why funny enough I thought it might of been because I was reading "50 Shades" but clearly it wasn't.

You never know the bend in the road life takes you but at the moment it feels good to have gotten out of Utah for a few days. I love those mountains but somedays it feels good to be near water and this was exactly what I needed and who knows maybe I will get to be here a bit more.

Happy October! 

Little Buddy Off to College

The past few weeks have been ccrraaazy.

Seriously.

It seems as though they flew.

One of the big events was sending Bannon of to college. 

(Can you believe he is 21?) 

It seems like only yesterday the kid was at his prom!

Since school has started for him I have gotten so many texts saying how much he is loving Mass. and how he is really enjoying school and learning. 

A few mornings ago I woke up to a text that told me he had sent me an email and that he wanted to know what I thought.

This is what I read.

"Who Am I" 

I stand in front of you today

and you wonder “Who am I”

Well let me give you a glimpse

through my own two eyes.

Just 3 weeks in the past and 21 years

I was born into this world while my dad cried quite near.

Now if ya'll can't do the math

That was on August 27^th

And we sit here today on September 11^th.

Born in the state of Washington

But Arizona raised

The green grass I never saw

And those grasses I never grazed.

1 brother, 3 sisters

An athlete I was sure to become

Though I played all sports

None felt the same as with a hockey stick as my gun.

As I stepped on the ice

I knew it would be my life

Though it was a tough battle

I knew I could fight.

It brought me here to Becker

In the fall of 2012

I'm here to play hockey

But into my education I wish to delve.

My decision for my major I just keep fighting

I know it's between psychology

Or possibly creative writing.

For my future I don't know

I'd love to play hockey

but I'm not gonna stand here and sound so cocky.

I'm slowly but surely leaning towards writing

Even though psychology

is at my heel roughly biting.

The study of the brain to me is quite intriguing

Though I'm sure the study would be quite fatiguing.

At the beginning of the summer

my creative mind started to grow

And the idea of a book started to flow.

My mind began to race as I started to write

it even kept me up night after night.

The story of a man

I dare not wish to be

I won't go into detail

because right now, the story is just for me.

So now as I end my story

I wish you all well

Because with the story of my life

I'm sure I bored you all to Hell.

 Not bad uh?

It was for an assignment for class.

I cried my eyes out.

I couldn't be happier for my little buddy! 

Way to crush it Ban!

xoxo.

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Stuffs.

Sometimes I just love to love things.

This idea on marriage. 

Dr. BFF's humor in this almost made me pee my pants.

Dr. BFF herself and our 5 conversations a day.

I love love love love this couch.

Alicia Keys.

(Blame me being a child of the 90's for this one.)

This blog inspires me so much.

This girl's drive and creativity is heaven.

Do you love to waste time like this?

Thoughts from Pinterest.

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This past week I think the universe is trying to teach me something.

It isn't bad.

Just a teeny hard.

Thank heavens for inspiration, humor, and DIY projects! 

Happy Weekend! 

The "MBMBMBB"

Random question.

How many of you depending on what you are going through in life just start getting rid of things?

It seems to me that this week I have donated or thrown away pretty much half of what I used to own. 

The interesting part?

I'm not done.

I have no idea what has brought this cleaning rampage on but it feels good.

I can't wait to get my house fully organized and spiffy.

On another note things around here have been good.

Last weekend was "TB's" and Max's (he doesn't need a nickname) birthday party (mostly Max's) and other then losing my camera and all photos taken past 5 o'clock not to mention my driver's license up and walking away it was a wonderful time! 

Let me tell you...with this bunch all you need is some food and Jello-shots and life is good! 

I love this last picture of TB.

Oh Mr. Mischievous and yes he really walked around with that bottle in his hand most of the day.

He likes to keep it classy.

As I was writing this post this morning I realized it has been a year since I met these two yahoos.

Honestly I don't know what I would of done this past 12 months without them.

They both (yes even you Max) have brought a sense of peace and joy to my life that no other two people have. 

I hadn't realized it until this morning but I wrote about our meeting here.

Oddly..but not so much... I got teary rereading that post.

Here I sit a year later still feeling that exact same way.

I feel so much that same way that my gratefulness to these two has never once been minimized but magnified tenfold. 

They both have opened their lives to me. 

They have both grown with me and even though Max's shirt in the above photos expresses his love to judge, he hasn't judged me as much as he would like to think I think he has.

Have I mention how much I love his girlfriend?

I might just be using him to get to her;)

The "TB?"

There are no words for our friendship.

It is a gift I never saw receiving. 

I never knew I could find a friend that despite what he have gone through could be just as strong for me when I have needed it.

He is one of my favorite people on the planet and single handedly made my world that much more fun and special.

I hope you both had a wonderful day.

I hope you both know I adore you.

Thanks for the past year and all of the crazy shit we have done.

Are you both ready to make a few more turns and throw back a few more beers this year?

Happy Friendaversary Guys!