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10/2/24

Wed, 02 Oct 2024 14:36:44 GMT

i don't have a title in me today ny'all.

i'm tired and i'm tired of being tired but i feel like nothing helps? even fucking adhd stimulants only do so much... cpap never really helped beyond the first like, week i used it. i've made the switch back to vyvanse as of this morning but i guess i was expecting smth more Robust than what i'm getting, haha... even if i am on a lower dose of it, i thought going from adderall xr back to vyvanse would be more of an Oomph, i guess. idk.

my brain is always foggy nowadays it feels like. foggy and body tired. and yet, i work 32-40 hours a week busting my ass. i can function at work but i'm barely functioning outside of work right now. i feel like my days off are just blips and then i'm back at work without (most times) having done anything meaningful on my days off bc i don't have the energy.

i guess in better news i did a lil more on my website. and started playing Mouthwashing (cw for gore/body horror among other things). i think i'm most of the way through it but currently Stuck. what a FANTASTIC game though. vibes are completely rancid (positive). definitely going on my game recs page when i finish it.

i am very stressed about money rn but not enough to shill my ko-fi, really. we're making rent for sure but nesting partner is getting less and less hours and i keep trying to get him to apply to the same place i work or like, anywhere else but he hasn't yet...

i think the shifting in daylight is starting to affect me, haha... though my birthday is next month also and i tend to get Like This around my bday too bc getting older lowkey midkey terrifies me... 31 isn't as big a number as 30 (metaphorically speaking) so that'll help i think but.

i think a silas needs to schedule a therapy appointment...

well that's all for now. have a good day, ny'all.

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once again, OUGH (9/26/24)

Thu, 26 Sep 2024 17:16:53 GMT

work continues to be beating my ass, this flu/covid season is KILLER. for those who don't know, i'm a retail pharmacy tech who works in a grocery store pharmacy. we're seeing a billion paxlovid (med for covid) and like NO tamiflu (med for flu). which is Worrisome, esp this far away from the holidays. i know it's bc school is back in session but. oh god we're gonna get hit HARD this winter aren't we.

it's just been insanely fucking busy and stressful and i end up with very little energy when i come home to do things other than just vegetate. which sucks!!! plus my foot is acting up now and i don't really have the time/money to see a doctor about it lol.

in better news, i had a really nice story from work that made me tear up a lil: older lady needed help finding something otc, and i go out to help her, and she tells me that as she was coming into the store, she ran into a guy and his young son (total strangers), and she asks how old the lil kid was (lil kid excitedly told her he was 4), and then she goes “oh today’s my birthday! guess how old i am : )” and i guess they talk for a bit or whatever and then the guy (again, total stranger) finds her in the store again and he had bought roses to give to her for her birthday!!! 🥺 it was just such a sweet and random gesture, i could tell it really made her day

in worse news, gf has mono somehow despite none of her partners having it??? i kissed her a lot at the wrestling show last weekend so i'm a little nervous about possibly ending up with it as well but. here's hoping i don't. :x me n bf (we r both dating her) are going over to her house in like an hour to cook for her and bring her some groceries and stuff to help her feel better.

uhhhh what else. seeing friday pilots club in concert next month. also going to a wedding in like a week and NO CLUE what i'm wearing lol uh. gotta figure that out. it's been rough for me mentally the past few weeks, ngl. i guess on a lighter note, i'm going to re-start vyvanse here soon, had to switch to adderall xr due to the generic vyvanse being on backorder but Guess What's Also On Backorder Now ! and i can't go to another pharmacy to try and find it bc i have [redacted employer] insurance so i can only fill at [redacted employer] pharmacies... and we all use the same wholesaler so SHRUG.

well that's all for now. i'm gonna go get ready to take care of my sicky gf.

have a good day, ny'all!

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ough (9/21/24)

Sat, 21 Sep 2024 15:11:40 GMT

work has been beating my ASS this week holy god. we've done 30+ vaccines (yesterday close to 50) every week day and it's just. BUSY as all hell. everyone is sick, we're going through paxlovid like candy (but strangely enough not really tamiflu, just paxlovid)... covid numbers r high again i think. i am worried.

also, i received my eggbug patch in the mail. still really bummed about cohost. i know it had its issues but man i was really hoping it could maybe... work on them. i just thought there was time, y'know? at least i have eggbug patch and plush to remember.

i did some work on my website (not as much as i'd like due to the previously mentioned Ass Beating Via Work) and i'm rly happy with it. ;w; made a find it page on my website based on this post on cohost! all of the pages are up + furbys are hidden, however please note the prize isn't finished yet LOL.

i have the weekend off thankfully, so i'm gonna try to do more website stuff. however, i AM doing some tabletop rpg today (lancer for the first time!!) and going to a pro wrestling show later today, and THEN tomorrow i'm playing stardew valley with my partner niko. ;w; but between that? Website Time.

that's all for now, see ya!

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music ask prompts! (9/17/24)

Tue, 17 Sep 2024 13:43:31 GMT

stolen from softwareangel !!! :3

1:A song you like with a color in the title
2:A song you like with a number in the title
3:A song that reminds you of summertime
4:A song that reminds you of someone you would rather forget about
5:A song that needs to be played LOUD
6:A song that makes you want to dance
7:A song to drive to
8:A song about drugs or alcohol
9:A song that makes you happy
10:A song that makes you sad
11:A song that you never get tired of
12:A song from your preteen years
13:One of your favorite 80’s songs
14:A song that you would love played at your wedding
15:A song that is a cover by another artist
16:One of your favorite classical songs
17:A song that would sing a duet with on karaoke
18:A song from the year that you were born
19:A song that makes you think about life
20:A song that has many meanings to you
21:A favorite song with a person’s name in the title
22:A song that moves you forward
23:A song that you think everybody should listen to
24:A song by a band you wish were still together
25:A song by an artist no longer living
26:A song that makes you want to fall in love
27:A song that breaks your heart
28:A song by an artist with a voice that you love
29:A song that you remember from your childhood
30:A song that reminds you of yourself

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chostin makes me feel good (9/15/24)

Sun, 15 Sep 2024 19:31:34 GMT

so i see that you can make Communities here on dreamwidth; i wonder if anynyan would be interested in a cohost community? i know a lot of other people are trying various ways to keep people from cohost together (including myself and cohost users squidcrusher and soul-seeker!). idk if i'd want to run it but i'd definitely be interested in one, at least i think, depending on how communities work on here LOL.

any thots? i know i only have a few people on here so far but--

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websiteposting (9/15/24)

Sun, 15 Sep 2024 19:24:28 GMT

hewwo it's silas again.

this still feels like a Big Important Thing to just. post my random thoughts into but i'm gonna Make Myself Do It haha.

so today i want to talk about: my website!! i've had it since march of 2022 and it's honestly undergone a LOT of change since then; here's a screenshot of what it used to look like!

WOW look at that compared to NOW. you can definitely see the seeds there, but it's soooo nice to see how it's bloomed, honestly! like i Did use a template but i've honestly almost edited it beyond all recognition... almost haha.

i think i will talk about the two Big updates that are coming to my site sooner rather than later!

1. the one that involves dreamwidth itself! using a solution from here, courtesy of softwareangel, i'm going to replace my blog on-site with an rss feed of my dreamwidth blog ! (though, like eniko, i did use a different rss service than the one goblinheart/sadgrl mentions...). this will hopefully make it easier to blog and just. say shit instead of feeling like i have to say Important Things Only.

2. the other, bigger thing: using this tutorial, i'm going to replace my current sidebar with a css/html/js version, that makes it a LOT easier to just, update it so (once i do the initial update to update every page LOL), i don't HAVE to update every page in order to update or change my sidebar! though i will be losing my music player on the sidebar bc i could Not convince it to work with the js :/ oh well, i still have that on prophet's page. i also am changing the table set up since again i couldn't convince it to work with the js, but i do like what i've come up with as a replacement!

i already have both things worked out on junk pages, it's just a matter of pulling the trigger. i think i'm gonna do dreamwidth blog today and then maybe the big sidebar update next week, if i have time/energy? We'll See.

well, that's all for now! i'm gonna go implement the dreamwidth rss feed on my website. i hope everynyan has a good day!!!

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hello world! o/

Sat, 14 Sep 2024 20:49:19 GMT

art by Doutarina @ twitter

hey everynyan, it's me, silas! posting on dreamwidth now, wao! since cohost is going kaput at the end of the month, i figured that i'd supplement my online time with this (though honestly what i Should be doing is spending Less Time Online, but...). you probably don't know me as i'm not a prolific creator in any sense of the term, but every once in a while i rip out a banger or two. but i digress lol.

anyway, i use he/it pronouns, am 30 years old (31 in november!), and am a queer nonbinary polyam trans man. the creature above is my furbsona (not a typo), prophet! dubbed "kinda alright" by wayneradiotv, circa 2020. you can learn more about them here! in meatspace, i'm a retail pharmacy technician and have been for about 7 years now. i have three partners: lazer, niko, and lucy! and i love them all so much and so many.

some of my interests are listed on my interests tags things but some things i like are: furbys, pro wrestling, horror genre, midwest/southern gothic, ttrpgs, tarot, possums, arknights, video games, music, nbc hannibal, and Of Course, Yeti: A Love Story. links to find more of a silas are listed on my profile, or they will be shortly.

i've been on the internet for like 20 years and i've never touched a site like lj/dw before somehow, so i have a lot to get used to haha. posting here feels like a Lot of pressure but i'm going to try and just treat it like A Blog, one that i can post what i want and updates on my life and cool links and shit. i'm also probably going to try to crosspost to my website via an rss feed via this method to replace my current blogging method, which is, every once in a blue moon loading up my blog page and typing on it, which isn't really conductive to Posting a lot.

since i've already tagged this with 'cohost', i guess i should talk about cohost, huh? i'm not gonna lie, i know it had a Plethora of issues, but man i'm gonna miss that little website. i met a ton of cool people there and it was a no pressure place (at least for me), of Posting, which i enjoyed. i liveblogged my colonoscopy prep on there LOL. between the announcement of cohost going under and losing a patient at work recently, i've been in a bit of a funk, i'm not gonna lie. depression, normally kept pretty well in check, rearing its ugly head. i'm just... Sad. it's been a part of my life for two years and by the end of the year it'll just be... gone. and i know there's backups and the highway and webrings in process and such and it will be good to keep up with said cool people i've met on cohost, but it's not the same as Just Being On Cohost, y'know?

i guess that's all for now. i'm gonna go get some water and chill. thanks for having me, cohost. it's been a pleasure.

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