The beginning of the end...

 I realized last night as I was putting the kids to bed, (it always happens at the most inopportune times; I promise) that October marks the beginning of the end for my sweet mom who I miss on various levels each and every day.

I looked at the calendar from last year and our last visit from my mom was the 27th of October.  I then realized that it was about this time last year that she was having her tomo therapy and all the other treatments that caused her paratenitis or however you spell that deadly word!

So, I'm mad, I'm sad, I'm lonely, I'm overwhelmed, I could scream, I could cry, I could laugh...I feel a little bit crazy!

I wondered what the anniversary of my mom's death would look like and I guess it will be a long, drawn out process.  O'well, I like drama! I'm sure Travis does too!!!

For the record, I'm hosting a halloween tea party for my kids and their friends, because my mom would want it.  My kids would be devastated without it, so we are going to have one and a party it will be!

Dear mom, I love you and miss you!  That's pretty much all I can say at this point.  We are going to do a lot of celebrating over the next few months and we are going to wish you were here.  Hope you'll join us in spirit and help it all be just a little bit better!

I'm so grateful for the times that we had.  I found this picture of our wedding day this weekend.  It was the happiest day of both of our lives.  I'm so grateful she was here to enjoy the best day ever!!!

10 wonderful years!

 Travis and I celebrated our 10th anniversary on Friday, September 28, 2002.  I'm so grateful for the last ten years with him and the fact that it seems like we've been together forever!  

In church yesterday, we had a combined lesson on marriage and how both husband and wife really need to give 100% to the relationship.  I started to cry as I made a comment that there are times, especially in the last year, where I haven't been able to give 100% and how blessed I am to have Travis to pick me up and do more than his share.  That is what I call a good marriage.  I have a good, happy, peaceful, loving marriage.  I couldn't ask for a better husband or father to my children.  He works hard, he has integrity, he loves and knows how to laugh.  He can be lazy with me and motivate me. Best of both worlds!  I'm the luckiest lady ever!

I'm grateful that our relationship is eternal.  You've got me forever dude!  

Here's to another 10, 20, 30 years of marriage bliss! 

Love you Travis!