Recalling the PAST-Enjoying the PRESENT-Predicting the FUTURE

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Where are you now?

To my favorite teacher
Told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush
Who I thought I really loved
To the guys I’ve missed
And the girls we’ve kissed
Where are you now?

To my ex-best friends
Don’t know how we grew apart
To my favorite bands
And sing alongs in my car
To the face I see in my memory
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
‘Cause I’m thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn’t for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved
Didn’t show it enough
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
‘Cause I’m thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn’t for you
I would never be who I am

I know we’ll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that’s just how it goes
People change but I know
I won’t forget you

To the ones who came
Who were there from the start
To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
To the few who’d swear
I’d never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
‘Cause I’m thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn’t for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn’t for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn’t for you
I’d be nothing
Where are you now?

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Monday, September 28th, 2009

When I saw my boys, those involved in LFC09, who got into their maximum level of excitement, I recalled back my past, during my secondary school years, I got so excited and had this kind of ‘camp-fever’ every time after any camps organised by KYCS.  The excitement would last for weeks and if that camp gave a big impact to my life patterns, I would be back to ‘normal’ for at least 2-3 months after the camp.  I had the worst ‘fever’ during my first participation in national camp (National Exchange Programme 1998), I nearly got into madness because of the ‘hyper-excitement syndrome’ but somehow I managed to control myself.  Unbelievable yet so true.  Anyway, my boys (Ambrose, Barry, Nigel, Al Giovanni and Spencer) have made me realised that the spirit of youth comes alive when they are given the chance to do what they are interested in and the most important thing is to make them belonged as one family.  I was brought up in that atmosphere where everyone treated each other as if they have known for so many years, and to prove that my experience is true, I treated them like what I used to be treated by my seniors in KYCS.  Miss those days…it’s gone now.  New generation, new style…

Tuesday, September 29th, 2009

I am so obsessed with my work especially when it comes to organising events for youths.  Giving my best to bring out the awesome outcome to all is my main aim for every event held, for the glory of God and to make Christ known among the youths today as they need to be empowered as children of God through Christ.  I wondered sometimes, is it because of this natural conscience of mine, God made me as His instrument to lead the young people into the right path, and at the same time, making them aware of the good values to be practiced in their daily lives?  God knows what future I am shaping for myself and I bet He has plans for me too, God’s willing.

Wednesday, September 30th, 2009

What would happen if natural disasters, all of the sudden hit the Borneo Island?

My random thoughts regarding the recent natural disasters that hit Padang, Indonesia; Samoa, Tonga and Manila, Philippines has made me realised that God is hinting, hinting and keeps on hinting that then time is near.  But sadly, none of us is aware of the ‘hint’.  We keep on running, running for wealth, fame and glory without ever thinking that God is actually reminding us that He would judge those who are on His side and those who are against Him.  Some of us are taking things for granted on what is happening right now.  Have we forgotten that we were once punished and now that we are so comfortable, we tend to forget God? Believe and repent, for the Kingdom of God is at hand…

Thursday, October 1st, 2009

It’s the month to honor Mother Mary, Rosary month.  It is the time of reflection for us to look at the simple life of our Mother Mary, taking Her as our role model in our lives.  Pray the Rosary and you’ll be blessed.

Friday, October 2nd, 2009

Fr. Albert Jacobse’s homily during the Mass for Public Examination candidates gave me a big impact when he said something about lacking of commitment among youths in the Church especially during Sunday Masses.  He expressed his disappointment to the youths that the church was full during this Mass, but less seen during Sunday Masses.  I was wondering, why is it so hard for youths today to commit themselves even for an hour to meet the Lord or to serve Him during Sunday Masses, but when it comes to special mass for exam candidates, the church pews were almost filled up as if God appears only on that day but not on Sunday.  I have yet to go deeper into the thoughts of young people in the Church’s community, what they really want and what are their expectations so that they would get maximum involvement in every activities held under the Church or Parish or even in the Diocese.

Hope to understand them better…

I bet most of us now would have the intention to visit 4D counters soon to buy special numbers in conjunction with today’s special and unique day, September 9th, 2009.  Some would think that this day would bring luck to them, hence they might be planing to buy 4D numbers, twisting and shuffling the number, 0999, 0909, 9990, 9009 or what ever the figures may be, the numbers might bring fortune and some might not.

Besides having a day wondering on what number to decide, some would be having special occasion, name it-wedding, engagement, birthday celebration etc-just for the sake of the date itself, so that it could be easy to be remembered and engraved in each other’s memories. See, I just got an SMS from a friend of mine telling me that number ‘9’ according to the Chinese superstitions simply bringing the context of FOREVER. So, to those having their marriage today, you know what to do rite?

Let me get this straight, 090909, for me it is just a number, nothing so great about it, whether it is supersititious, fortune or otherwise something which is so real in live. What matters most is to have faith in whatever we believe in, and to be strong in whatever circumstances that may come. Always remember that everything we do, we must not forget that the One above is watching you and always showers his blessings to us all. Do not get carried by the superstitious beliefs regarding today’s date. What you need to do on this day is to pray that God would protect us from all danger and keep us safe in His hands.

Oh ya, instead of making this day so superstitious, why not create some memories out of this date, not for the sake of its uniqueness but do it for the sake of cherishing the moments of life. Drop your memories in my comment box and I am very sure, I’ll get various kinds of stories from you guys!

Happy 090909 and Happy World Day of Interconnectedness to all!

Life Goes On As It Is…

Life goes on and it doesn’t wait for us because it has a mission to fulfil, I am just the instrument to generate the mission.

Wow, how the hell did I come out with such theory?  Well, it is just my personal theory and it has nothing to do with academicians or some experienced counselors.  What ever the theories are, what matters most for me is that life should be cherished for the rest of our lives because we never know what would happen to us in the future.

Humans like you and I cannot run away from mistakes and faults.  Sometimes we do not realise, when we make mistakes, we are actually hurting someone, and of course, feelings is the main issue.

Do you remember when was the last time you hurt someone?

I myself had this issue in which I have regretted it till now and it’s going to be forever be regretted.  It was a thing which is out of a sudden, I can say that I was being driven by my unstable emotional state which brought me into this influential factor that made me lose what I call as my best-friend-forever.  I never thought of the consequences my friend had to face in near future. Instead, I cared only for myself and neglected the-innocent-one, leaving the- innocent-one, satisfying myself without thinking of what that person has done to me. Though we quarelled quite often, but I guess the tension and the immature crisis have made us grow into a person who knows how to take care of each other.

This innocent human being had once made me an icon and model for the future success and I was proud being who I was and being a model of good character. But after the aftermath, I don’t thing I am the model for a good character anymore. I will remain as a long-life nuisance and I will never be a person who deserve to be respected and saluted by that innocent.

I could feel the pain and the agony of ‘the innocent’ through the blog of which I myself felt I deserved to be killed and buried alive for what ever things I’ve done to ‘the innocent’. Whatever it is, we are still contacting each other but not as often as it was few months back.

7 months has passed, and still I couldn’t get rid of the dark moment, created on my own accord.

At one time, I felt so down, thinking of what I did and the instant decision has made ‘the innocent’ left a scar, a scar that will remain uncured for the rest of the life. At once, I tried to give a shot of explaining what had happened but I guess it would be useless to raise it up because my explanation might be a poison for the life.

What I expect from you, my friend is that never ever hurt someone, even if you are being forced to because you’ll never know how hard it is to cure the pain and gaining the friendship back as it was would be a useless effort.

Whatever it is, if ‘the innocent’ happen to read this post, one message from you:

“ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS FROM YOU WOULD BE USELESS BECAUSE YOU HAVE ALREADY HATED ME, BUT I WOULD LIKE YOU TO KNOW THAT EVEN NOW WE HAVE PARTED, AND NOT AS CLOSE AS WE WERE FEW MONTHS AGO, I STILL CHERISH YOUR FRIENDSHIP AND I WILL NEVER EVER FORGET YOU FROM MY PRAYERS AND MY HEART BECAUSE YOU ARE ALREADY MY BEST FRIEND FOREVER…”

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You know, I was wondering why people thought I am crazy of being patriotic and questioned me on my high level of patriotism. To be honest, I am a patriotic and my level of patriotism is extraordinary. SATISFIED? I am saddened by the irrelevant questions bombarded to me but I am who I am. I am a Malaysian so is it wrong for me to be patriotic and proud of my own country?

My personal concept of being patriotic is to love and proud of what is good about the country. I admit politics and negative racial sentiments have made Malaysia a jinx above all the jinx, well, WHO CARES ABOUT THESE TWO ISSUES?

Come to think of it, if you don’t bother much about the two issues, you’ll find yourself LUCKY living in Malaysia. If you think your are at the edge of crisis in your own country, I am very sure you wouldn’t want to think of staying in Malaysia.Try on these two methods, you give me your feedbacks.

Look at countries facing racial conflicts and tensions, compare them with our country, we are so much better than those. AND since we remember them, always put them into our prayers, our prayers are needed, because we believe PRAYER is the most powerful instrument that lead us into the world of peace.

Unity in Diversity

Unity in Diversity

What I love Malaysia the most is that I get to befriend with people of different races, different backgrounds and different religions and YES, I am serious, I love being a Malaysian because of this, I am proud being a Malaysian because of this powerful bonding that makes me and the rest of wonderful people bonded not only as friends but as a Malaysian family. I have friends everywhere and I can say most of my friends are consisted of different entities. All in ONE, and again, I am proud to say that, I love Malaysia because of the variety, and the differences have made us so special.

Hoisting the both country and state flags as part of my reflection towards my patriotism I have since small

Hoisting the both country and state flags as part of my reflection towards my patriotism I have since small

Remember, being PATRIOTIC is not only about loving the country and fighting for the country, that is only part of being patriotic, what’s most important and the biggest part of being PATRIOTIC is appreciating what is called ‘Unity in Diversity’-celebrating who we are, celebrating our differences and that differences have made us so SPECIAL because we unite for our differences, and the differences we realised will soon be banished from our mindset because we are bonded as ONE, ONE NATION, ONE COUNTRY, ONE SPIRIT, 1MALAYSIA!

We are ONE NATION, We are ONE COUNTRY, We are ONE MISSION, We are 1MALAYSIA!

August 8th, 2009 (Saturday)

I woke so damn early today because I need to catch up with the most humorous convocation briefing ever. The lady has it all, she knows how to make the program more cheerful rather than a dull one. It was a program which was worth attending it and at the same time had a good laugh with all the funny gestures and actions done by the past graduates when they were in their convocation years.

She started the humorous moment by showing various photos of graduands whom they pictured it as ‘the most identified mistakes that should not occur during the ceremony’. After the photo-showing session, procedures on how to wear the academic robe followed thereafter, another orchestra of laughters burst the Dewan Tunku Canselor.

The moment when all eyes were focused on the stage as the speaker was entertaining the graduands with her humorous quotes

The moment when all eyes were focused on the stage as the speaker was entertaining the graduands with her humorous quotes

At this moment, the laughter became louder and louder after sequences of funny lines and gestures took over the whole program. I was laughing out loud ’till I couldn’t bear with the jokes she made.

It was rather a memorable one for me, as I left the DTC, I felt like I do not wanna leave the place till the day of my own convocation because everything was good and beautiful. The whole program was the whole starting of a good start for my day. Seriously, never in my life I had so much fun, and I never felt so happy like this. What ever it is, I enjoyed myself to the fullest especially when friends are around because they are the source of my joy, they are my comfort and they are my wonderful buddies.

On this day, July 29th, 2009 (wah, such a lucky number I suppose-2972009…hmmm…lucky meh? Hahaha, whatever), I am officially devoting myself to WordPress, my new blog host, thanks to the KAYVC blog page where everything from there has inspired and attracted me so much in terms of its layout that looks a bit similar to a webpage. I don’t know where to start and what to start for my blog, in fact this is my second blog after the first one set up on blogspot.com (that was a year ago).

Anyway, I hope this blog would be a stepping stone for me to voice out what I have to say about anything regardless of any issues whether it is local issues or global issues, freedom of speech la konon. Hahaha.

I hate it so much when it comes to composing an inaugural speech for anything, be it in official and formal functions and even for this soft launching of this new and revived blog page. Hah, whatever it is, one phrase that says it all-Hello WordPress! & Adios blogspot.com!

P.S: Damn it, now I have to start from scratch and make things new…haiyoh!

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