mememeemme

what i remember at least ... warning : lots of paragraphs ahead .

new rentry
strawpage (minecraft theme)
strawpage 1 (halo theme)
strawpage 2 (old)
github

HI SO ,,, welcome to my pep talk heh ..
my tone of speaking tends to switch up alot so dont mind that !!! i mean sometimes i do it subconsiously ??? idk , i also do it depending on the person im talking with too ig , nothing personal but i tend to try to replicate their tones , key word try . ( I ALSO DO IT SOMETIMES IF IM COSPLAYING AS A CHARACTER IN GAME . )

i get mood swings sometimes too i guess , one minute ill be all energetic and happy , the next ill be quiet and half assed replies LMAO
the mood swings can be completely random or triggered idk tho ,,,

i guess im sort of an omnivert ??? either that or im just a really awkward extrovert vro 😭
not really the best in communication dont ask me why or how , i dont know either 🙏

i use ton tags majority of the time

oh yeah i also dont uhh understand hints sometimess mb sorry 😭😭 you have to be straightforward sometimes with me im sorry 😭🙏🙏

sometimes i go semi or non - verbal , with no warning whatsoever , it mainly happens when im feeling out of place or tired or anxious , especially with a group of people no matter the size .
i dont know how to tell you but i absolutely suck at handling conversations , IM SORRY IM JUST AN AWKARD PEROSN ☹️ how to converse , someone drop me a tutorial please , thanks 🙏
NO BECAUSE SERIOUSLY . i will say random phrases , or bring random shit up just to try to continue talking with someone .
if i start doing that w you , please please please take lead of the conversation and talk with me , or just listen to me yap about what ever im fixating on
btw i tend to pick up phrases that is said repeatedly from any source ( ex ; friends ) and repeat specific phrases ALOT like ; ' oh ' , ' damn ' , ' aww ' , ' help ' etc . im sorry when i do that , its just i have no idea what else to say 😭
i love talking with people trust i just lack social skills

i do and will say slurs, i only say them around people that im close with and know that they dont mind and say them too. if your uncomfortable with me saying slurs, please let me know and ill avoid saying them around you!

oh yeah i use emojis and emoticons alot if it wasnt obvious

IM SORRY IF I EVER HAPPEN TO FORGET WHO YOU ARE ,, im just very forgetful :(( !!

i also get attached very easily and quickly for anyones liking , very sorry for that btw

when in game and im with someone and were both cosplaying as characters from any fandom , and i kiss or hug them in game , please know that were NOT shipping the characters AT ALL i hardly ever do ships because i prefer familial relationships over romantic ngl , but if your still unsure , feel free to ask

im neither a dream or wilbur supporter . dont get the wrong idea . but dsmp was apart of my childhood and i like to go back to it from time to time , so if you ever see me draw or im cosplaying as either of them in games , then its their roleplay characters , not the person themselves . if i know dsmp is in your dni list of fandoms , dw i wont bring it up around you .

if your ranting / venting to me , i apologize if i seem like im not paying attention or that i really couldnt careless , i promise i do , i just lack the comforting words

btw gang i have a very short attention span , my deepest apologize if i ever seem like im paying more attention to another person then you !! 😞 🙏

i like to think myself to be a reasonable and understanding person , but then again i might say things that may seem ' off ' or ' stupid ' to you in some way or another . usually happens when i dont think twice about what i say . sorry .

i mentioned before that im a somewhat sensitive person , im not so sure about that point anymore as i was before but ill still count it as i tend to overthink alot : shrug :

if i ever do anything that irriates or makes you uncomfortable please please please please let me know !!

im a chill person and dont really care who im interacting with unless their pretty weird .

i really like drawing ( both traditional and digital ) and playing games ( mostly with friends tho )
i love horror games , i like gore too ig
if your ever up for a game of minecraft or roblox horror games , hmu 🙏

my fixations change really easily , and most of the time my fixations are recurring ones that i had as a kid and hits me like a truck :brokenheart:
i think i fixate mostly on my childhood interests due to emotional attachment or smth idk tbh

pkay bye