Seriously. Why are all the bad things happening to me one after another? Some kind of sick joke.
Now my iPhone has to die on me. And it’s only one week old.
Misery loves me.
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Rant/Angst
:'(
I cannot emphasize how unfair the world is. Such a fucked up place.
Life is a big fat sick joke and it’s not even funny. I don’t believe in putting in effort and working hard anymore. Getting tired of this life, feel as if all hope is lost. Don’t worry, I’m not suicidal. Just that almost everything has gone wrong.
Hard work didn’t pay off, once again
Life sucks when you are not a bad student, when you studied hard and put in effort but you still get horrendous results in the end. And I’m not even having high expectations this time round.
I want to give up. I think I have the rights to. Everyone has been telling me to hang on, I say how about it’s time to let go?
And to those of you out there who has better results than me, I know you want to make me feel better but please don’t say results don’t matter it’s the process that is important and all that bullshit because this is a academically driven society. Who are you kidding when you say results ain’t important. Yeah right, like real.
I should stop because ultimately I think no one understands completely because you didn’t experience what I went through kthxbye.
>:(
So angry at myself….
The entire holidays I’ve been busy with school/hall stuffs and my own shit, I haven’t been staying at home at all. I think I was only home for a day for the past 1 month, I am not kidding. I think even the simplest thing like staying at home and eating the meals mummy cooked will make her happy but I haven’t done that in a while…
And what’s worse is… I’m not good at whatever I’m busy with, not even close. All my life I’ve been studying and basically that’s all I know and my results turned out to be horrible. Not helping because it’s not like I’ve some other talent or good skills to be proud of. No talent, results like shit, everything like shit. Sigh what have I been doing my whole life.
I’ve realised all these while I was so occupied or out basking in happiness with friends or Gabriel, I might have neglected quite a few things…. Suddenly the simple desire to stay happy seems so selfish. Is it okay to stay happy while people around you isn’t/isn’t as happy as you are? Is it okay to stay happy while people around you are fretting over something? Is it okay to stay happy but in the end you’ll neglect certain thing/someone? Gah.
On a side note, baby nephew Leighton is going to be born in a week’s time, can’t wait to meet him! Can’t wait for CNY too!
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