Tonight I got reminded of something which I thought I’ve gotten over, but clearly I’m wrong because everything just hits me out of the blue again. Haven’t felt this defeated in a long time. This feeling really suck so bad.

So anyway… Very often, I mean most of the time, I get over most things (there’s exceptions) pretty easily and quickly because I encourage myself and tell myself it’s okay. People might think I’m okay or strong, but sometimes it’ll be nice if someone asked. I may have grew stronger over the years through the ups and downs in life but even the strongest person need a listening ear or shoulder sometimes?

Just saying.

21 and I’ve got nothing figured out. Another year before I graduate and I have no idea what the hell to do with my life. Am I the only one feeling this way? I want to wake up one day and just magically feel like I’ve got everything in control/planned out. How do people do it. Or do I just let life slowly unfold itself?