Yay for a New Blog!!!!

Heyyo. Good good news! Well, atleast I'm feeling good good about it.
The new blog is long time up and running.
The design and attractiveness of the blog perhaps could still use some work.
but hey, it's a blog. and it's happily running.
check it out? 

britttneymc.blogspot.com

& don't forget the extra 't' in Brittney if you're typing it in!

oh, hello again.

It's a constant debate over starting a new blog, or let this one keep running.
This one with nearly 5 years of my history, this one containing more of me than anything else. This one to which I've grown very attached.

Although, I think I've finally opted for a new start, a literal one, completely new.
It will more than likely be keeping the same name, and for old time's sake this one will be switched back to the previous title, because that's how most of it's life was lived, as Simple Serendipity.

Hopefully these changes will be in the near future. Because I have far too much to say, and I'm getting too anxious and excited about blogging again. (:

I have the worst case of senioritis. I don't function well without sleep, and it's far past my bedtime.

If you're out there, reading, anticipate changes, and my return to this little blogosphere.
Love, Brit.

It seems like so long ago that this was my little escape, the place where I didn't have to hold my heart back from overflowing.
Social media shifted, my heart grew a little too fond of my journal, life got busier than ever, and somehow this blog got set aside completely.

That's why I'm not sure how I found myself here again tonight.
Perhaps because I have to tell it all to someone, but ironic as it sounds, this seemingly forgotten blog seems to be the only thing that will keep all my secrets.

Really though, I think the thing that brought me here is you. In a weird sense we bonded through this little blog. In that space of time when high school took over and swept our lives in opposite directions, we were hardly acquaintances, and it was the girl who wrote this blog that you truly fell for. Of course I don't know completely, but what else did you have to hold on to? The girl at school was merely a face to accompany the words. You knew what was going on under the smiles, the ramblings on this blog, and you still seemed to care.
Luckily life wasn't going to settle for letting us part our ways, and we became good friends once again. I don't know why my heart was so stubbornly set to simply friends, and I'm not sure how you were so patient for so long. You hoped and waited for that little spark to one day rekindle, and I honestly thought it never would.
When people asked about you, I didn't hesitate to tell them you are without a doubt the most amazing kid I know, even if we didn't always talk, in my mind you were always one of my absolute best friends.
I'm not sure quite what it took for reality to hit me.
Sitting in that junior high English class a girl realized she was amidst one of the greatest humans she'd ever met, and those sparkling blue eyes definitely caught hers. It wasn't until years later that she realized those feelings never melted away, and there had been something there all along.
"A guy as great as him deserves someone who will feel the same way towards him Brit, he's finally moved on." and that best friend was right. He had completely moved on.

It took her heart a little too long to figure things out, and unfortunately the realization came at the most inconvenient time. Because sometimes you have to choose best friends over boys, and try to accept that your chance slipped away into a mere daydream.

Is it wrong to let fate take over and hope for the best?
Because it's eating away at me that it took my heart so long to catch up with yours, and now it's too late.

A Proper Farewell to 2013.

 I guess if for nothing else, I came back to at least do a years write up. It was a good year. A learning and growing year definitely. I'll save the lengthy reminiscent post for later considering I'm still recovering from the flu, which I rung in the new year with yesterday, and sleep is much needed right now. 

so for now, a quick review on 2013's goals will have to do.

1. Create- maybe not as much as I'd have liked, but I did create. a few more sketches and an art class again if nothing else. & of course many posters for student council.

2. Write- another definite success. Although it may not seem apparent from tracking this little blog, I finished off a journal and am almost a quarter of the way through a second. The writing may not be as pretty but it's raw, and for now, it's what I love.

3. Love- I definitely loved. so many different people in so many different ways. I realized just how much I loved my brother as I said goodbye to him for two years. I grew to love the Class of 2013. I caught at least a glimpse of love when an unexpected boy walked into my life for the end of junior year and the following summer. I loved my friends and classmates as we started our senior year together. and maybe most importantly, I've grown to love my family, and extended family especially, more than ever in my life this holiday season.

4. Grow- between struggling through the end of calculus and chemistry, running for President, saying goodbye to so many good friends as they left on missions, attending freedom academy, starting up my senior year as President, and being on cross country. I have grown.

5. Simplify- it wasn't something I did intentionally.. more like it was just a piece of life that clicked into place. I took a less demanding schedule and quit my job, I wanted to enjoy life again, before work is no longer optional. I spent more quality time with people, and also with my family. I had more time for me, whether that meant cleaning my room, reading books, or playing the piano. I realized that fashion and make-up are fun, but it's definitely alright to settle for simplicity. my wifi broke for a few months meaning no twitter, facebook, insta, any of that.. and it was completely refreshing.
I learned that a simple life is the happiest one.

6. Live- really, I just let life take me away, whichever path it was deciding. I did my best in everything, committed myself to the Lord, and let him be in charge. and I truly lived. I think it was a year of growing up, but I'm sure compared to this upcoming one that sentence will mean hardly anything. It was an easier year, or maybe I should say simpler, but still one of growth and learning. It was tons of fun, and so many memories were made, without a doubt, it was a good year.

Goodbye 2013, & Welcome 2014. 

...perhaps the most anticipated year of my entire life. 

summer love.

summer twenty-thirteen was a beautiful one.
it was runs with people who were real, unmasked personalities. endless smiles. the strongest team bonding.
weeks spent in new places- camps, bonding with so many new people, and so many new friends;
but also familiar places and people: it was my last year of girls camp, & the annual family Lake Powell trip.
it was almost 100% stress free. days filled with anything, or absolutely nothing.
it was farewells every sunday- maybe the best kind of goodbye's. young men and women, dotting the world, spreading such an incredible true gospel.
and of course, it was nights with him. endless talking. happiness, & so much laughter.
cheeks that ached from smiling. lying under the stars. fireworks. rain. love. kisses...
it was a glimpse of real love.

and it's killing me that it's all over.

10 months.

it's the same home & town I was brought home to when I was first born. 

they're the best friends I've had since elementary. (or some a little later.) 

all the faces are familiar, the hallways, & the streets. 

I can honestly tell you, I absolutely love it all. 

every person, memory, adventure, story, it's become who I am. 

I really do love the life I live. I'm soaking it all in, seizing the day.. but still, it's comfortable. 

& maybe too comfortable. 

I'm ready for that change. to explore and find myself all over again. 

I'm ready for new faces, a new home, & to fall in love with something new. 

ready for new challenges, new tears, & new adventures. 

thinking about it makes me too excited, 

& to over-anticipate the future would create a waste of the present.  

so for now, I'll create my own new adventure, and embrace this familiar life. 

the future is exciting.

to be young is a beautiful thing. 

but to grow older is also. 

& now it's October.

I always manage to end up back here at this little blog.
I realize it's ugly & maybe that's why I haven't been posting.
then waste far too much time trying to make it look acceptable, & then post for about two days before abandoning it once again.

Despite my absence, life has been beautiful as ever.
It's been a different kind of living lately, a new kind; loving some aspects was a given, but others took some adjusting. I can honestly say for the first time since probably the third grade, I have made it a month & a half into the school year without any love interests.
Perhaps it has something to do with sending a missionary off or finally having experienced an actual relationship; my heart's been satisfied, and left content. Knowing the cause made goodbye easier, and some days my heart aches more than others, but waiting would be unreasonable, and time helps smooth things over. My heart has finally learned contentment, something that for a heart like mine, I may have thought impossible. But it's refreshing to not have any desire for a relationship.
It's easier, happier, & quite honestly, I think it's healthier too. When chatting with my mom about it, she said, "Brit, maybe it's just because you're growing up & figuring life out."
If you asked me any day over the summer, or any point during Junior year, I'd have told you I never wanted to grow up. I was going to find Neverland no matter what it took. and live in that year forever.

Especially the summer, because it was such a good one. but time inevitably continued on. Junior Year ended, some of my best friends graduated, and then left on missions or moved out. I cried often coming back to school because everything felt empty without them. but once again, time pressed forward, & I had to adjust. The best friends from 9th & 10th grade, that may have unintentionally been put on hold came back, and I realized it was going to be okay.

Being President, has been anything but easy, & I couldn't even tell you what it is that keeps me busy. It's simply the weight of everything on your shoulders, so many people depending on you for so many things and you can't let them down. It's making me a better person, friendlier, more responsible and organized, and I'm growing from it.

Luckily I opted for a less demanding schedule this year, classes with less homework, and not having a job. But the homework I do have, sporting events, and running cross country has kept me on my toes.

I'm getting too anxious for graduation, and college excites me beyond belief. For now, missionary letters and running with my team are what keeps me going until the weekend comes, which have been way too much fun. Football season is great, and I'm learning to not hate Fall.
The church is true, & really my testimony and the gospel are what give me strength and keep me the happiest. General Conference this weekend and nothing makes me happier.
& I suppose that's a good stopping point for this lengthy update.

Change.

I did this for me, because I wanted short hair.
and cause sometimes you just need change. refresh & restart.

a final summers day happy list:

sore legs. it means you worked hard, right?

sliding rock for one last fieldtrip friday. 

a final frenchtoast party. 

fresh berries and being in the sun. 

having thee greatest team in the world. 

feeling successful after spending all day at the school. 

maybe finally being excited for school to start. 

finding already completed posters to hang. 

finally eating 6 hours later. 

dinner with kyndal and shelby. 

real chats about real life. 

stopping by the gymn, my favorite place in this world. 

those adorable girls. my other team. and best friends. 

the seminary bash and new friends.

the weirdest night ever of night games. 

people going from acquaintances to best friends. 

going to sleep happy. (: 

under that summer sun.

picking berries after a nice hard run. 

the sun was beating down hard. 

& in that moment i could only be grateful. 

as i soaked up some of the last rays of summer sun. 

and i knew i wasn't ready for it to be over. 

ready or not.

monday will come, and i will be standing on that stage.
with a speech to those nervous, young, excited sophomores.
saying how excited i am for this school year.

because it's inevitable. whether i like to or not, i am going back to school.
and i'm going to have to find it in me somewhere to be excited.