i hope everything is fine and u will get better soon. i hope u know that u r always on my mind. please...

directionless

Dont u feel directionless once u've done something? kinda what i am feeling now. even after done with the exams, report to correct and hand in. =\ amazing.

Lately i've seen many terrible driving on the roads. mine included. haha. amazing that they are still alive. lol.

Few more days or weeks, will be home to rot. wont be seeing the usual guys anymore. no more weird jokes. just pure boredom.

i'll occupy myself with my games and growing my belly to the size of a hippo. lol. guess there's nth much to do... =\

4 days, 7 weeks

4 days coming fast, 7 weeks even faster.

11 days

11 days to go. and about 1 and a half months. btw... why must we use gas engines, carburetor is annoying. and 7 years.

apologies

thanks for saying all that to me the other day and all that in the post. truly touched and i'll remember it for the rest of my life. i hope you know that. really appreciate it. hope you know its nth about what u did to me. its just something random. sorry. i'll delete it immediately.

i am sorry. its just a song i heard out of the blue. i know its a very sensitive issue to you especially because of me. i hope you will understand that its not you. i just a lil down, more than usual, tired of doing all of this and afraid that i couldnt achieve what i want. and having people stepping on you when u r down is not helping with this.

afraid is the better word, i am afraid u r mad at me. i dont blame u. its my fault for being selfish and inconsiderate. i should know better than that. i'll have to learn to be much more considerate. hope you will forgive me... and i know i say sorry a lot but i do mean it every time. never hesitating to say it. =)

sorry to hear all that. hope u will get past all that and more. maybe i could help u with it.

thank you for all that. i'll nvr forget what u said to me. you're the first to say all of this to me. for that, i am really grateful. thanks. =) i'll talk to u tomorrow. i'll be back on my feet and on my best behavior. =). oh ya. thanks and good luck to u too. u know i'll nvr fail to say that to you all the time. even though sometimes i didnt said it out loud.

AJ Rafael - We Could Happen

I like the songs beat... =)
I'll hold the door
please come in and just sit here for a while
this is my way of telling you
I need you in my life
It's so cold without your touch
I've been dreaming way too much
can we just turn this into reality

[Chorus]
Cuz I've been thinking 'bout you lately
maybe you can save me
from this crazy world we live in
I know we could happen cuz you know
that I've been feeling you

Storms they will come but I know
that the sun will shine again
he's my friend and he says
that we belong together
and I'll sing a song to break the ice
just a smile from you would suffice
it's not me being nice, girl this is real tonight

[Chorus]
Cuz I've been thinking 'bout you lately
maybe you can save me
from this crazy world we live in
I know we could happen cuz you know
that I've been feeling you

I know you want me

There's no other, there's no other love
that I'd rather have, no
There ain't no one, there ain't no one else
I want you for myself

[Chorus]
Cuz I've been thinking 'bout you lately
maybe you can save me
from this crazy world we live in
I know we could happen cuz you know
that I've been feeling you

I know you want me

Cuz I've been thinking 'bout you lately
maybe you can save me
from this crazy world we live in
I know we could happen cuz you know
that I've been feeling you

I know you want me, too
I know you want me, too

stuffs

lately soo much things going on. i wonder if i could survive this. deadline getting closer and its piling on more than i could finish. i know i can do it... just that been doubting myself much lately. slowly reverting back to my bad habits. need to keep it all together. and i need to keep my temper in check. with so much happening, i find myself getting less sleep, headaches, and a very bad temper. i wish all of this could end now.

there's things that are running constantly in my mind. gotta decide when to tell the folks bout what i wanna do. headache... and my fyp isnt helping much. coz its making me lazier....... hahahahaha

on a side note, i still couldnt find my leather shoes. need it for my presentation and stuff. swt.... looks like i'll need to get a new one. a new slippers(just incase my current one breaks aoas), bag and shirt. (bag is optional)

lately the news is flooded with news on the nuke reactor in japan. so sorry for the what happened to the japs. great group of people. hopefully they'll pull it thru. the japs always do. i wonder if the gov will still go ahead with their plans to do the nuke plants. its not that it is a bad thing. its just that i dont think it is necessary. aren't there many other alternatives which are better? real,clean renewable energy sources like hydro, wind and solar?

in my personal opinion, i think that it would be best to keep the nuke option as last resort and use alternative options which are more beneficial in the long run. we have lots of rain and sunshine all year round. maybe we could do something with that? well its just my opinion. hopefully they wont just go ahead with it without thinking bout other options.

btw, i am going crazy, temperamental, and possibly dangerous. time to get my ass into a mental institution. free food! hahahaha wait.. prison serves free food too. hmmmmm tough choice. mental institution... atleast u wont get ass raped, but u will be treated like a nut job(well, u r in a mental institution). hahaha temper need to be kept in check. can i screw a check valve into my head? hahaha.

it feels nice to be able to write down whats in my mind. helps me clear up some space. now, back to work. =)