Friday, March 09, 2007
hohoho...
paisei everyone.. veri veri veri veri long nv update my blog le... hahaha..
can't help i'm juz too lazy le.. LOL..
hmm.. wat there for mi to update le..
ok.. i'm still alive and kicking.. still happily together with my lovable darling Fang Lu.. being posted to 40 SAR as recce commander.. now having my recce commander course..
guess that all for mi to say for now ba.. still veri lazy to update my blog.. so u guyz who are reading my blog, ya all juz need pop by once a month to check see if got any update anot ba.. hahaha..
11:18 PM
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
hello everyone.. i am back to update my blog le.. tonight got night-out again so came back home.. ~LOL~
its been like a months plus since i update my blog liao.. alot of stuff have happened during those days.. dunno where should i start blogging leh.. hmmmz...
ok lah.. juz a summary ba.. i'm together with my lao po le.. love her so much soooooooo much.. she is my everything in my life.. No one can ever replace her in my heart de..
Here the pix of mi and my dearest lao po
As for my army life.. Mi jus graduated from SISPEC not long ago and currently now posted in to 40 SAR as Recce(Scout) Commander.. gosh.. heard alot of things from ppl and everyone kept saying it veri xiong.. hope i will be able to make it and graduate from it without any injuries ba (or at least not too serious injuries)
currently now our company are in the down period thus nothing much for now.. this week amost everynight we are able to book out thus have lots of time to pei my darling lao po..
yup.. i guess tat all i blog for now ba.. later gonna be booking in again at 2330..
-I LOVE U LAO PO WITH ALL MY HEART & SOUL-
-5201314-
7:43 PM
Sunday, October 15, 2006
finalli another week have pass in sispec le.. 4 weeks alr le..
its realli a veri tough week.. 4 SOC in a week.. gosh.. realli can die arh.. nearly everyone in my bunk are going crazy le (which include mi).. anyway, we manage to survived the week and best part is our OC let us book out on friday.. booked out with a tired & achin body..
SOC test was being postphone till this coming tuesday morning.. hopefully can cleared it once and for all.. passing time is 10mins 29sec and my fastest timing i got during the 4 SOC is 9mins plus.. hopefully on the actual day can maintence the timing or even faster..
6 more days and u'll be back le.. misses u so much.. plz do take care of ur health arh & xiao xin yi dian!! no matter wat happen, i would nv give up on u de.. willing to wait for the day to be with u to arrive.. taking care and pampering u for the rest of my life.. i love u..
5:48 PM
Sunday, October 08, 2006
this week is quite relaxing.. not much physical training but quite alot of theory & test.. anyway, we had our IPPT test le.. managed to achieve a gold for it.. was kinda shocked myself that i could actually manage to get a gold.. gratz to myself.. they said that if that IPPT get gold then dun need to go for future IPPT in the course le.. jus need to participate can le.. ^.^
this coming week gonna be veri hectic.. 4 SOC in a week and 1 of it is the SOC test.. dunno if i will be able to clear it anot.. =/
guess that all i gonna blog about my days in sispec le.. can't blog out things that happen in military..
wondering how have u been over there..
worried..
misses..
lost..
1:50 AM
Sunday, October 01, 2006
its alr been 2 weeks in SISPEC le.. training in there is definitely much more tougher then back in BMTC.. lots of running and lots of physical & mental demanding training.. i guess i still can manage all this training ba.. knee cap aint giving mi any problem YET but my plams and toes had alot of blisters alr.. blister within blister within blister... blister with blood inside.. haha.. but yup, its common lah.. no worries.. hehe..
seems like the meaning "SISPEC = Suffer In Silence Plus Extra Confinement" is quite true.. during these days there are lots of guard duties ESPECIALLY weekend guard duties coming up le.. quite a few ppl had been asked to sign extra also le.. kinda worried that i might kena also.. if kena plz let it be a weekday one.. *pray*
on the 2nd week, i was being appointed to the role of leadership platoon sergent (LPS) where i would need to take charge of all my men in the platoon.. it realli ain't an easy task to take charge of a platoon.. have to always update my men on everything thus have to keep running up and down the stair to take and pass down orders to each ppl.. i like to have welfare so i gave lots of welfare to them but there always a price to pay.. i give them welfare and i'll have to do all the pumping.. haha.. in the company, i think i am the first LPS to get so many pumping ba.. haha.. guess my men are quite happy under my command ba? too welfare le.. haha..
gonna be bookin back in tonight at 2200.. 8 more weeks to go..
she had went back le.. haiz.. gonna be another 20 more days till she's back? arghs.. its seems to be so long.. i miss u so.... dun think so much alright? no matter wat happened, i will always be there for u de.. longing for the day of ur return.. -waiting-
想你想得好孤寂我想你想得好痛心向天大声喊爱你
3:41 PM
Monday, September 18, 2006
hmm.. maybe its not gonna be my last entry ba but it gonna be veri veri veri OUTDATED.. haha..
in about 7hrs time, i would have to report to my new camp le.. may things will be better.. *pray*
不希望看到你发生任何事情。 在我心里,我没什么好担心的,唯一就只有你我放心不下。。要好好的照顾自己的健康!有什么事,一定我告诉我好吗? 只想让你知道,我真的好爱你!
-我爱你-
12:07 AM
Sunday, September 17, 2006
thnx everyone for the birthday presents.. i'm realli sorry for everything.. u all made ur day free on my birthday to celebrate with mi but yet i disappointed everyone of u.. i'm realli sorry.. other then sorry, i realli dunno wat else i can say..
我真的好怕会失去你。。要我不去想,不担心你,我真的做不到! 我的心里只有你。。不希望看到你伤心。不要你把一切都怪到你自己的身上! 我只要你开心,幸福。。
*PS: considering of closing down my blog le.. this may or may not be the last entry i wrote..*
2:01 AM
Friday, September 15, 2006
haha.. i'm realli happy now.. was still worring that my mum would disapprove mi but she didn't.. *surprised!!* infact she even speak good of her.. haha.. first time i ever hear my mum & sis say such things..
feel so great to get the support from my family members.. ^.^
02:07 PM
i dunno y.. but i jus couldn't sleep well.. keep waking up every 30mins..
something was running in my mind.. i dun wan.. wo heng she bu de.. >.<
ok.. how great is this.. my posting out le..
Comd SAF BMTC congratulates you for your successful completion of the BMT.
Your Posting Order is listed below:
1. You are posted to SISPEC.
2. Your vocation is INF LDR.
3. Your are to report to: Pasir Laba Camp SISPEC HQ Or Boon Lay Bus Inter-change Holding Area.
Reporting Date/Time: 18/09/2006 at 0730 - 0815 hrs.
Person to report to: Chief Clerk
10:11 AM
Thursday, September 14, 2006
8 days of blocked leave jus passed like tat.. although it jus 8 days but alot of things happened.. alot of things changed.. alot of saddening stuff.. but nvm lah, kinda used to it le.. haha..
simply enjoy all the times i spent with u.. *although there are still times when thoughts came into my mind >.<* i know u have alot of stuff that is bothering u too, dun wish to add on anymore burden to u le..
my unit posting gonna be out tml @ 10am!! that gonna be wat i will be doing for the rest of my ns life..
haiz..
tis would mean that i gonna have to book in and book out again.. worst part is that might have to be confine again.. freedom gonna be taken away from mi once again..
i'll miss u.. haiz.. u gonna be flying back in 10 days time also.. gonna totally lose contact with u for 2 weeks? I DUN WAN!! >.< how i wish u could always be here with me.. *i know i am silly..*
ain't looking forward to tml at all.. arghs!!!
10:43 PM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
i'm sorry.. i realli couldn't control my emotions.. i tried not to think too much but i can't..
i can't help wondering how are u now.. is everything alright? wanted so much to ask u but i can't.. jus wat position am i to ask all this.. i dun wan to cry but i jus can't control my tears from dropping..
the longing of u by my side jus keep getting stronger & stronger.. i miss u so much..
i didn't meant to keep anything from u.. i jus dun wan u to spoilt ur day by lettin u know wat i'm going thru.. i'm realli sorry.. u may feel the same for mi like the past but thing now have change.. i dunno how can i treat u jus like the past.. how much i wish & wants to treat u the same way back then but somehow i can't.. u are attached.. tis is alr e fact..
-misses-
8:30 PM
didn't slept well during the night.. woke up around 7am and jus couldn't get myself back to sleep again..
i realli dunno wat to do.. kept pacing around the house.. my time jus seems to be passing so slowly.. after so long its onli around 10am.. >.<
i know i shouldn't be thinking of all this and jus wat right do i have to know about wat are they doing.. they are alr a couple le.. wo hao xin ku..
other then blogging i realli dunno wat else i can do.. hoping that perhap time would pass by faster this way but it doesn't seems to help at all.. arghs..
i'm sorry ger.. i said i would tell u everyting but i kept it frm u again.. i know if u ever get 2 noe tis, u definitely won't be able 2 enjoy ur chalet de.. dun wan u 2 be worried 4 me..
-longing for her-
-i need u so badly- will there ever still a chance for mi to call u my dear again?
10:12 AM
Monday, September 11, 2006
haiz.. wat a boring day today..
today is her squash chalet le.. he gonna be there too.. haiz.. i know i shouldn't be thinking so much but guess it normal ba..
dunno y but jus felt that the time jus passes so slowly today.. haha.. i like contradicting myself with wat i post in the morning.. but it jus felt so different.. time jus passes us by so quickly when we are together with the one we love.. y can't it jus be the opposite?
i dun wan wat happened yst to become the past, history or memories!! i wan it to become my present as well as my future..
will that be possible? -need hug badly-
-hao xiang ni-
sorry ger, i told u that i won't think so much de but somehow i couldn't control myself but i'm perfectly alright so yuppie.. ^.^
9:58 PM
promised her that i will sleep after i reach home and i did.. see i so guai.. no blogging.. no staying up late in the night.. and not thinking much? ty dear for everything.. i realli enjoyed each and every single moment we spent together.. love u lots!! if onli time could stop and if onli i could stay by ur side forever..
realli enjoyed every single hours, minutes n seconds yst.. haiz.. but y does time seems to be passing by so fast leh? >.< dear, promise mi tat u'll tell mi watever things tat's bothering u ok? dun ever keep anyting 2 urself.. i'll be veri worried de.. -hugs-
-i miss her so much.. no one could ever replace her from mi in my heart..
u all may find mi veri silly but i dun mind it at all.. i'll wait no matter how hard it is for mi..
9:36 AM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
我好难受。。所有的事一再的在我脑里出现。。好希望这一切都不是事实。。T.T
6:58 AM
Friday, September 08, 2006
the day have finalli arrive..
the day when i feared most..
i knew this day would arrive.. i long predicted this would be the result.. i thought i was prepared to face it.. but i was wrong..
i realli enjoyed all the times we had together.. was realli happy and felt loved when i was with u.. but guess all this has to come to an end..
perhap this is jus my retribution ba.. i hurted someone and now its my turn to feel.. now that i have lost u le.. kept hoping that miracle would happen but guess it would nv happen on me ba.. tears started to flow when the door closes.. wanted to stop it from flowing down but i can't.. its jus kept flowing.. i dunno wat to do.. all i know is to keep walking and walking.. jus dun feel like coming back home..我真得很舍不得。。好希望奇迹会发生。。我的心真的好痛好痛。。
i give u my blessing for u and him.. hope he's ur happiness..
dun need to worry about me.. dun need to think its ur fault.. u have nothing to blame urself, alright? i dun wan u to be sad.. dun wan u to cry.. i jus hope and wish that u will be happy.. as long as u are happy jiu hao le..
i'm alright.. i'll still be smiling.. nothing will happen to mi de..
so as to everyone else.. dun need to get worried for me de..
11:01 PM
1st day of my block leave...
stone-ing..
day-dreaming..
thought running wild..
jus felt that i have alr lost.. perhap that wat it means by so close yet so far ba.. how much i wish to tell u "i love u".. but.. its realli hurting but i realli dunno wat i can do..
-i may not be able to make u smile but definitely dun wish that u are sad/troubled cuz of me.. sorry.. doesn't wan u to get worried for me..-
12:40 AM
Thursday, September 07, 2006
9 weeks of bmtc finalli has come to an end..
everything ended with a passing-out-parade (POP)..
no more a chao recruit..
now i'm a private le..
will get to know my posting on 15th Sept..
so wat lying ahead for my next phrase of NS life?
had been thinking about this during the past few days.. know that there's another person in her heart.. couldn't help thinking but perhap she'll be happier with him? jus wat can i give her? will i be able to give her happiness? how am i able to do so when most of my time are jus tied up to ns life.. arghs.. i dun wan it to be so but jus wat can i do.. T.T
-wat can i give when i'm jus a freaking NSF.. mixed feeling..-
10:26 AM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
jus wat is lying ahead of me?
lost..
confused..
alone..
needing some comfort..
...
5:21 PM