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P/S: Just in case anyone wants to read my new blog to kill some time ... here's the link *click* :P

Don't kill me :P

Guys, just a heads up, in case you guys don't remember ... I've moved over to another blog ... am not going to type my link here ... for some really lame reason, but if you read my blog frequently, you'd know where I moved to ... See you guys there :P

One of the best!

Kev finally came back to Penang for this weekend, it was practically a last minute thing. A couple of days ago I asked him when he'd come back to Penang, and he asked me why. I told him I wanted to watch movie in the cinema cause it's been a while since I went to the cinema and watch a movie. So he was like "Sure!", and mentioned that he'd be back soon ... I didn't know the "soon" is like this weekend, he was Whatsapp-ing me and said "I'm gonna be back tonight", and I didn't even buy ticket for the movie yet. He told me he wanted to watch "The Devil Inside". Let me tell you, it was CRAZY SCARY KAY!!! OMG!! But I sat there throughout the movie with my scarf ... in front of my eyes, just in case you know ... the music ... and the ... why did I bother to explain the movie, it's creepy and I don't wanna remember any part of it.

So anyways, horror movie aside, today is the day that I FINALLY get to try out Sushi Tei, a new Japanese restaurant in Gurney Plaza. Kev actually felt like having spaghetti, I suggested to him "Pastamania", but he don't like it .. somehow I manage to coax him into trying Sushi Tei XD

Let me tell you, THIS is even better than Sakae Sushi and Sushi King put together!!! I regretted not trying this earlier!!! Damn!

I was trying to take a picture of the menu and someone decides to photobomb me.

Trying to be all artsy fartsy

This is seriously GOOOD!!!! OMG the next time I'm there, I'll order platesssssss of it!

Sadly, raw salmon is not my type of food. I tried one piece and I nearly died chewing it.

The view from the restaurant ^^

The restaurant's interior, which is kinda impressive, I would say.

This is what I order, it's not Teriyaki chicken, but close :P

This is gyoza, correct me if I'm wrong, but this is nice too!!

It's nice to discover good Japanese food, it's about time Sushi Tei landed in Penang, cause I'm sick of Sushi King and Sakae Sushi.

I'm super proud of myself cause this post is filled with picturessssssss ... I finally make full use of my iPhone 4S cammy, haha! :P

I got a crush on you~

It's been a tiring, nevertheless, amazing day!!

Honestly, I felt like crap when I reached office early in the morning.

I have my "I'm-tired-don't-effing-come-near-me" face on this morning. You guys know why right? I've been repeating this like a broken record, but let's just skip that part.

So I was tired and just slow in doing my work. I came to work, took about 2 calls, and then went to the washroom. I realised that there are people watching me as I walked to the washroom, but I just don't have to mood to even bother to look at them and smile cause I'm super tired. Then I remember that I had to return something over to a friend from another team, cause that friend asked me to try something with my iPhone 4S. I tried it out yesterday and I walked over to him and told him that it works with iPhone 4S and all, and just chatted for a bit. So when I was done talking to that friend, I wanted to walk back to my cubicle. The moment I turn, I got a shock, cause JT was standing right behind me waiting to scare the crap out of me. Then I was screaming "JT! Omg! Early morning scare people d!!" then he just laugh and walked to the washroom, haha!

I went back to my cubicle after that, preparing to take another call, then I saw him walk pass my cubicle, so I said "Early morning scare me!!", then he said "Wake you up mah" ... to which I reply with "Yea it REALLY wake me up, thanks for that, Haha!".

This is really ... crappy .. in a good way lah, I'm not talking about JT scaring me part. I think that sentence that I just typed, don't make sense at all, Haha! What I really meant was, it was good that I have a *sort of* crush on JT (I guess) and it somehow motivates me to go to work every morning, even though I'm super tired from working 6 days a week. I had to work last Sunday and honestly speaking, I was thinking of taking MC on Monday, but I thought to myself, I only have about a week left in this team, I'm just going to grab any chance I get to see JT.

I didn't chat much with JT on IM over the past few days, I think its cause I didn't do anything wrong, so he didn't come searching for me asking for explaination ... -.-

Anyways, he IM-ed me this morning, asking me "Are you okay?" ... I was like ... "Huh? Did I do anything wrong again?". Apparently he thought I was the one coughing non-stop. I was like noooo~ don't say I cough lah, it is seriously hard to recover from coughing. Then he said that he's sick as well. I made a wild guess and ask him if he's having flu. And yes, yours truly is a genius, JT is really having flu. So I was like "If you need some meds, let me know, I have Clarinase ... don't worry I won't poison you, haha!" ... then he said "I paiseh wanna take meds from you lah" then he gave me a shy emoticon, haha!

I am sad to leave the team. Okay lah, more like I'm sad to leave the team cause of JT :P

I guess what I learn over the years is that, nothing is constant. The only constant in life is changes. I'm so glad to have met all this people. These people are seriously awesome. Honestly I don't know how many of them are true friends and all. All I know is, I am being true to them, and at the end of the day, that's all that matters.

There are times when things got out of hands, and did not go as planned, but this is what life is about. You can't plan you want to get married (well technically you can lah, you will need a GF/BF beforehand) or when you wanna get sick, when you wanna die or something like that. If you've been part of my life journey, you would have known that, practically every single thing in my life went wrong.

My parents divorced when I was young, nevertheless we're still a happy family. I had to move around a few times due to that, but it made me independent, strong and are able to adapt to changes. I went to Perth, Australia to further my studies but quickly realised that I don't like what I'm studying, and came back to Penang to continue my studies, of course it wasn't that fun to be studying one semester in a foreign place and realising that this is NOT for me, but I came home and went to KDU and met a bunch of awesome friends that stuck by me through thick and thin.

I believe that all these people are brought into my life for a reason. Every one of them plays a different role in my life, some are there to accompany me when I'm alone, some are there for me when I need help, some just take me for who I am, some just listens to me even though I've been repeating the same thing for hours and hours, some even listen to me crying over the phone, some are there to cheer me up and some are just there so I can have a crush on them, Haha! :P

Anyways, I think I have a date tonight, if you'd excuse me, I'd like to take a nap before going on a date, haha!

Love you guys, I'll be back soon! *gulp* I hope.

Oh, crap ...

I'm SOOOOOOOO sorry guys. I said I'll "be back soon" in my last post. I totally screwed that up.

I just got back from work and showered. It's like 10:05pm now and I have to reach office before 6am tomorrow, as my shift started at 6am.

God, help me -.-

I should have just slept in the office lah. Ish.

I'm gonna take MC one of these days cause they didn't bother to change the roaster yet. According to the stupid roaster, for this week. I'm suppose to work from Sunday (which is today) till this coming Saturday. wtf is that? 7 fucking days?

Sorry for ranting here :P

I'm alright, I'm not exactly pissed or anything, cause I've already thrown the letter at his face so I'm fine now, Haha!

I'm going to try and blog more happy thoughts instead of ranting about my work, haha!

The only reason I go to work is to see JT, HAHAHAHHA! Man, I sound like a stalker, ROFL! Well today is different, cause it's OT, but THANK GOD the email team manager came into the office. I felt better whenever he's around cause he's funny, caring and super niceeeee.

My team mates are a bunch of nice people, just that the boss is an asshole lah, HAHA!

Anyways, guys, I'm gonna retire for the night. Hope everyone will have an awesome week ahead! Cause I know I will ;)

Awesome day is awesome

Seriously there are times when I wonder what's so interesting about my life that people visit my blog everyday to read about it, haha!

I bet some of you barely knows me, but most of my readers are my close friends in real life.

I know I've been complaining that I felt so tired recently, and yes, I still am. Nevertheless I still find good things in every shitty day that I've gone through.

I did something "impromptu-ly", yesterday. I made a call to De Villa Spa at The Heritage Club to book for a full body massage session and drove there right after work, bringing Thur Thur along. It was awesome cause my whole body was aching badly, especially my shoulder.

I think I've told you guys that there's a dinner with my colleagues at QB Mall cause there's this ex-team mate came back here to visit everyone. So right after the massage session I rushed to Queensbay Mall, but it was awesome that Thur did the driving, cause it's 6pm, Friday ... the traffic is crazy.

They're having the dinner at Nando's so I met up with all of them at Nando's and all of them are asking me "How's the massage session?" and all, then JT was like "come massage for me" (barely with any smile or expression on his face) ...then I said "nooooo, don't want".

It was a not bad dinner and of course with colleagues, the conversation will always be work related stuff. Then out of the sudden I received a message on Whatsapp, I had to stare at it for 2 seconds before realising that I'm not dreaming, haha! Joe messaged me on Whatsapp asking me if I"m at Nandos, Haha! She said she's behind me, then I stood up and look for her. It was nice to see her, cause I haven't seen her for quite some time now. She looks stunning in her new hairstyle ;)

Then it was Richard's birthday yesterday, I wrote on his Facebook wall to wish him. Seriously, I was thinking of writing on his wall for a couple of weeks now, but I was too busy to do that till I realised its his birthday, I have to do something!! Damn, I miss him and everybody else in Perth. The good news is, he's gonna be in Penang in July!! Can't wait to catch up with him ^^ If anybody thinks I have bad intention behind this, no I'm not. When I was in Perth, Richard is the person that I see almost everyday. Even if I don't talk about him that much, doesn't mean I don't miss him once in a while. He's an awesome guy :) He's one of those few perfect guys that I know. Great singer, awesome dancer, play instruments, kind, smart, caring ... where can you find people like that anymore? :P


Alrightey people I'm gonna continue blogging again when I'm back from Queensbay -.- my dad ... wants me to take him to Queensbay.

Be back soon.

My "Justin Timberlake"

It's been an awesome couple of days :D

I think I need to write it down before I forget everything *shy*

Let me start with yesterday, you know what? I was suppose to blog about this, last night but I was too tired to even stay awake at 8:50pm. Anyways, it was a great day at work yesterday :P My L2 .. Okay, let's give him a nick name ... I'll call him Justin Timberlake (I got my reasons but it wasn't because he's as good looking as Justin or anything like that) ... let's shorten it to JT, easier for me to type.

Anyways, he came over to my cube yesterday after lunch, looking all happy (still with his expressionless face, but I know that he's happy) and asked me "You okay?" or "Everything okay?" or something like that ... then I pointed at my monitor, and said "Errr, just now there was a case lor, did you read the email that I forward to you d ar?" ... He was like "Err, I went to lunch and forgot about it" .... -____- So he was like, "How bout you open the document and I'll just read it from here?" ... I opened the documents and stood up from my seat and let him sit (he was struggling with my chair cause the wheel is a bit faulty, I find it funny that he's struggling with my chair XD) while I stand on the side of my cubicle watching him reading the document :P Okay lah, I'm not a stalker la, I'm not really watching him ... more like staring on my own monitor while he reads the document.

So he was discussing the case with me and said, okay then .. you sent out this part and this part for the customer. Then he ask me "Is there any other things?" ... I told him about another case where the customer don't have the complete cover warranty (that warranty is for when customer accidentally damage the system), the bezel of the laptop is cracked and the customer wants it to be replaced (bezel is like the plastic frame around the LCD screen lah). So he was like "Did the customer treat you nice/good?" .... I was like yea, he was kinda nice ... then JT approve the replacement of that parts for the customer, haha! I find it cute that he asks this kinda question whenever I ask him if I can replace this or that for the customer (cause in some cases I need approval from L2).

Then another thing that happened yesterday was ... something to do with my hair lah ... my fringe is getting long, so yesterday I was handling a few cases at one time and I was getting frustrated at the cases and the fact that my fringe is covering my view. So I pull my fringe back and pin it up.

Something like this, but of course I don't look as pretty as her lah :P

I was walking back to my cubicle from cafeteria or washroom .. I don't quite remember .. but he was walking out from his cubicle heading towards my direction. I tried not to make eye contact and just staring at the floor while walking back to my cube, and he was like "You look different with this hair" ... to which I reply with "Yep, I know ... my forehead is big maaa" ... then he gave me that wtf/huh? look.

Today is awesome as well :P

Just now in the afternoon, after the whole department went for this networking event (during this event I kinda saw him looking around but I'm not sure if its towards my direction as my eyesight is not that good :P), we just hung out a while ... everybody was standing around my cubicle talking and gossiping and stuff. Then they were like talking about tomorrow's dinner with one of our ex-team mates. They were asking me if I'm going, and JT said "Huh? You know that girl meh?" ... I think I said "Er sort of" ... then one of my friend start talking to me about something else so my attention diverted. Then he was telling another one of our team mates "Maple just asked me to f*ck off!" ... I was puzzled over the whole thing cause I can't remember what I said ... He was like "You just ask me to f*ck off, so I f*ck off now lah" and proceed to act like he's walking away, so I said "Noooo, I did not say f*ck off, I don't use bad words in front of adults" ROFL! Then he said "Everybody are kids here except for Alex", haha! He was referring to Papa Alex, my adorable ex-manager.

I actually finish work at 3pm just now, but I continue to stay in the office just to talk and gossip with my team mates lah, I was standing at the email team's cubicle talking to one of them when JT came over and stand next to me *shy + faint* and said "Hi Miss Trouble, you're still here" (I was actually wearing this t-shirt that says "Little Miss Trouble" which I bought from Target) ... then I reply him with "Yes, Mr. King *his name*" ... then he said "You don't call me Mr. King, cause it sounds like King is my name" ... So I said "Okay lorrr, King *his name*".

I need to go and faint :P

Actually you know what? I dreamt of JT and a guy from another department which I rarely talk to but he helped me a lot during my 12noon to 9pm shift, when I'm alone handling the calls and don't have anyone to ask for help from. He's good looking, at least according to me lah :P I asked Thur thur to go peek him and he say that guy is okay okay only, JT is better.

Then there's this other guy which I've only talk to once, during lunch, about a week ago. He seems interesting, he worked in a few companies and he's been working in Melbourne for the past 4 years. He's very friendly though, everytime he sees me, he'd be like "Hi Maple!" or "Bye, Maple!" in a really happy, upbeat tone. There's just something about the way he calls my name, it's different from other people, maybe cause he's been abroad for so many years, he's got that accent XD

I'd have to say, I feel like I'm 15 again. I don't know what's my chance, as you all know, I'm not even that attractive to begin with, hehe!

Alrightey people, I need to retire for the day, and get some much needed rest.

Love you guys :)

Hope that I can update my blog soon ^^

With Love,

I have to admit, I'm not the most creative or artistic person around, but I made this a long time ago. 23rd April 2009, to be exact, haha! How'd I know the exact date? Well, cause I opened a software called PICASA and it pulls up all the pictures from its database.

This was actually made into a postcard. I was thinking of printing another one out, but ... oh well. I'm really proud to have made that, and it came out looking like an actual postcard that you bought from store.

I'll explain to you guys why I finally opened PICASA after ages of not touching it ... SOON, haha!

I'm SUPER tired now, I'll be back shortly (in a couple of days *fingers crossed*) and erm ... yea ... hopefully bloggin will resume as normal once I've resigned.

I miss everybody. Take care till next time :)

Felt like smashing my head on a wall :D

I was going to update my blog last night ... Guess what? I knocked out at 7:55pm last night. That was how tired I felt. I have to go to work again today, fml, seriously.

Yes people I know complaining doesn't help the situation :P I'm just sharing the stories of my life. I know I do complain sometimes (Seriously dude, "sometimes"? Like all the time, man! *Roll eyes*)

Yesterday was a hell of a day, I took calls non-stop and only went to restroom twice. Lunch was 30 minutes only, cause I don't even have the time to read all the freakin mails in my Outlook, so I don't know that lunch was 30 minutes till my L2 called me and say "You're entitled for a 30 minutes lunch break today" ... which was pretty harsh, but .. anyways, we finish work at 1pm, cause apparently there was a "Fun Friday" activity which involves watching movie with the whole team including my arsehole boss.

We watched Ghost Rider, which was NOT my type of movie, but hey, who am I to complain when the ticket is free, HAHA! It was a hectic day that I really felt like going to the beach and scream or to just find a wall and knock myself dead/unconscious. I'm really stressed out to that point.

Anyways, I gotta go get ready for work *sigh*

I guess the best part of this week is that my Mum gave me a new Longchamp handbag cause she already has one, AND to top it off, I got myself a COACH handbag which I've been eye-ing for a while now. I went to Gurney 2 days ago and they were having a Valentine's Day sale, and everything in the store has 15% discount ... I'm a sucker for discount, haha!

I got myself a new perfume as well!! It's Vera Wang Flower Princess!!! It smell so good I wanna hug myself :P It's the FIRST perfume that I bought with my OWN money!!! It ain't cheap considering it's Vera Wang, it's about 250 bucks for the smallest bottle, which is 50ml.

Pictures of all my purchases will be up soon ... I hope :P

Before I start rambling on and on again, I better go. I hope everyone else have a better weekend than I do :) Love you guys!

Rambling on and on, and on ...

Opps, sorry guys, I was saying that I'm gonna "Mariah Carey" (MC) on Wednesday, and as it turns out, I went to work on Wednesday, but the good news is, I'm on MC today :P

I gotta tell you, I have the awesomest friends in the whole wide world. Seriously, I'm not even kidding. So 2 days ago it was Valentine's Day, right? I bet everyone is thinking "Maple will be at home, emo and all that", well, you're WRONG! :P Haha! I actually went to gym with my best buddy Thur thur, and before he goes off to celebrate Valentine's day with his girlfriend, he went to Baskin Robbins and collect a pint of ice cream and gave them to me as Valentine's Day present XD That's SOOOO nice of him! He's scared that I'm forever alone, haha! Nah, that was actually the best Valentine's Day present I've ever received!! Thanks again Thur thur!

THANK GOD no guys gave me any flowers on Valentine's day, I mean other than the dude that gave me khek hwa 2 days before Vday -.- I'm not even trying to brag or complain, I'm just tired of guys coming to me and brag that they are good boys, they are smart, they know everything. Oh c'mon, good guys and smart guys don't go around telling girls that, okay? There are two cases in the past few weeks and I'm trying to be nice here, dude. When guys I'm not interested asks me to be their gf, in my brain its like "wtf! NO!" but in reality, I still have to write some nice words to reject them. Dude, I know it takes a lot of guts to confess to someone, but PLEASE, OPEN YOUR EYES and just take hints!! If a girl likes you, they would want to be around you all the time, and reply to your IM like immediately, not like 3 hours later, or 3 days later, like me. It doesn't matter how busy I am, if I'm interested in you, it would only take like maximum 5 minutes for me to reply you.

*Damn, I think I went out of topic here :shy:*

So yea, I went on MC today cause I'm super tired from working 6 days a week that I need to take a rest. I finally have the time to clean up my messy room, wipe off the dust, throw off all the receipts that I've collected for ages on my desk.

Oh, before I forget, I'm gonna move to the new blog after I resigned from my work. It's gonna mark a new beginning for me :P I know people are gonna curse me and all for moving blog AGAIN, but I'm definitely gonna put links of my 2 old blogs on my new blogs as well. It's part of who I am anyways, and I'm proud of it no matter what. So yea, the new blog is mplchn.blogspot.com

My last day of work would be 6th or 7th of March, so I'll move blog by then :)

It's been a happening week I'd say. Its been hectic and out of this world. It's funny how when you change your perception on things or situation, your life make a 360 degrees turn. I'm sure everyone had gone through bad days, but just put on a smile on your face, even if it doesn't brighten up your day, I'm sure it will brighten up other people's day when they see your smile :)

I'm gonna start searching for a job, and when I found one, I'm gonna tell them I need one month's time to do my own thing before starting work, and I'm gonna travel somewhere ... alone :) I know it sounds emo and all, but it really isn't. I've always wanted to do that. I'm gonna go somewhere I love and just get lost in it :P

Did you guys miss me? :P

GUYSSS! I'm BACK!!

In case I forgot to mention. I went to Cameron Highlands with my colleagues/team mates. I'm just gonna do a summary about my week.

• Remember I mentioned about a guy that I met in training. He whatsapp me one night and I was chatting with him, and he suddenly say "You're so busy, how to date you and become your bf." #No1FMLMomentofTheWeek. Then nvm, I was "haha"-ing all the way coz I don't know what to reply him. After a while, I'm too lazy to reply him and said "I'm going to sleep now" ... he reply? "Luvyou Gud9". I don't know what's wrong with that fucker, I'm not his gf. period.

• So yea, I went to Cameron Highland with a bunch of my team mates and I realised one of the guy was acting all weird. I walk this direction, he will face me/follow me. I walk one round, he will do the same. Like a freakin' stalker. Then all of us went to night market and this guy went missing in action for quite some time. We went back to the rented apartment and I was busy texting my friends, he came into the room I was in and gave me a bouquet of roses that is orange in colour ... before you guys go "Aww" I'm not done yet. Yes my favourite colour is orange, but the bouquet not only have roses, it has khek hwa also (chrysanthemum -.-) in purple, white and yellow colour, I don't know if he wanna "pai ang kong" (pray deity) or pray for the dead, but he gave me roses with chrysanthemum. My reaction? Smile and say "Thank you, that's nice of you" *end of my reaction* After that I went and took my shower, I came out and sat with my friend, he proceed to walk around the area that I'm seating at, and I pretend to be busy with my phone. I don't know where he got the guts, but he sent me a message asking me to be his girlfriend. Seriously, dude? Your girlfriend? *reverse face palm* AND because this guy was the one that fetch me to the meet up location, I'd have to follow him when I'm back to Cameron, but I don't want to be in the same car alone with this person. So I called in my bodyguard Thur thur, to some and save/fetch me. I felt so much better when I saw him, I was like "THANK GOD YOU'RE HERE!!" I told him all the stories and he proceed to just laugh -.- He saw the bouquet of flowers, he laugh as well -.- I specifically gave Thur Thur the instruction to throw the roses + chrysanthemum away, cause I don't want to see it EVER! He brought it home to throw and his mum was like "Wah, you buy roses for gf ar? Eh Khek hwa cannot give gf one kay?" .. See, even his mum also know. #No2FMLMomentoftheWeek.

I told my my mum, Port port and Thur thur about the story, all three of them almost died from laughing -.- I'm not even kidding. 

I have a whole bunch things to say, but I'm too tired from the trip. I'll explain in more details when I MC from work on Wednesday or something :P

Love you guys, I hope everyone is well, safe and healthy! 

Awesome, awesome week!

Did I mention that its been a hell of a week?

Well, yes, it is ... there's good and bad things that happened, and yet, nothing manage to upset me :P

I think I've said that I'm resigning, right?

Yep, two days ago, I've decided to shoot my manager a "resignation email". I know that's probably not the right way to resign, but I've been mentally and physically tortured that I just don't give a crap anymore.

So, yesterday, my manager was like "Please give me a hard copy of your resignation letter, and let me know when you're free, I need to have a one on one meeting with you". So I was like "Oh, okay".

He didn't manage to have one on one meeting with me yesterday cause I was busy answering the stupid calls that came in.

Anyways, that was beside the story.

I think you guys are no stranger to my L2, as I've mentioned about him in another few post before. So, I was asking for his help on some cases, and after he's done helping me, through IM, and here's the conversation (its not 100% accurate as I don't remember all the details, but it goes something like this ...)

L2: I heard about your little stunt last night. (He was actually talking about me sending that resignation email when I was on the late shift the day before that.)
Me: Haha!
L2: So you've found another job?
Me: Nope
L2: And you quit just like that?
Me: Yep :)
L2: Was the job too stressful? Don't like the job? Shift? Cust hard to handle?
Me: Not really, I really don't mind the customer scolding, its just that I had to work like 6 or 7 days a week. This schedule is taking its toll on me.
L2: Should I even bother asking you to stay? 
Me: Haha! I did thought of staying for a year or till I find another job, but I really can't stand the schedule.
L2: I actually have a lot of advise for you ...
Me: Huh? Advise?
L2: Yea ... career advise
Me: Oh, okay, I love listening to other people's advise.
L2: Serious? I thought usually people don't like to be nagged.
Me: Well, I'd usually ask for advise from friends, but most of them are one year younger or older than me, so their reply to my problems would be "Do whatever you feel like doing".
L2: Lol! You've ask the wrong person then
Me: Okay lah, give me some advise when you're free lah ^^

So yea, that day, my lunch break was at 3pm, cause my shift was 12pm to 9pm. It was Thaipusam, so Cafeteria in the company was closed. I did bring my own lunch and went to the deserted Cafeteria to have lunch with one of my friends. We sat there, I took my lunch, and my friend's talking to me.

Suddenly, I got a call ... from my L2. He was like "Where are you?" ... I asked "You finish work d?" and I told him I'm at the cafeteria having lunch with my friend ... so he said "Okay, then we talk later lah". I took like 30 mins to have lunch, then go back to my cube. I still see my L2 there, which was weird, cause usually he'd go off for the day around 3.30pm or 4pm. So I IM-ed him and said "Eh I thought you finish work d?" ... to which he replied "waiting for you ma ...".

After that we went to a meeting room, and he gave me some advise lah, which was a pretty good advise and made me think a lot about the resignation thinggy.

Then today, I had to go for the one on one meeting with my manager for the resignation. So I IM-ed my L2 and told him "boss wants to have one on one meeting with me after I log this case -__-" .... then he replied "So have you decided?" ... I told him that I don't know cause what he told me yesterday made me think a lot.

In the end, when I was at the meeting with my manager, he was being really sarcastic and all, so I was like, ah fuck it lah ... see his asshole face, I also don't want to stay in his department. Ever since he took over, 6 people resigned, HAHAHA! Which was pretty epic lah, and a big failure as a manager, I would say.

So when I came out from the meeting, my L2 walked over to my place and ask "So how's it?" ... that time I was on call, so I told him I'd tell him later. Then after I'm done with that call, he came back again and I told him, there's no turning back, cause that arsehole is being really sarcastic, to which my L2 said "you don't wanna retrieve the letter? No regrets har?" ... I nodded to that, haha!

My resignation was the news of the week within the department itself, and I'm happy that my ex-manager (I'm talking about the manager that hires me, not the current scumbag arsehole manager), my L2, and most of my team mates understands me and are being really supportive over it. The current manager is a scumbag anyways, haha! No one really likes him, HAHA! Don't know when he'll realise that.

Anyways~ That would be the story for the day ... I'm not quite done with the stories, but I'm tired of typing d, my story too long d :P

There's another story about the guy that said to me that he wants to date me and stuff like that. He even ask me if I wanna go Hatyai with him. WTF?! I barely know him, and he was like insisting that I go with him. He can go suck his own balls and die. Anyways, that will be the story for another day! Stay tuned for that :P

Gotta go rest now ^^

Take care, everyone!

FML, seriously!

It's been a hell of a day at work.

I'm too lazy to complain here, but I got another thing I wanna complain.

I met this guy in training, and today he was talking to me at work, and suddenly he whatsapp me after work.

Cut the story short, he said "you're always so busy, how to date you and become your bf"

I was thinking, wtf?!!?!??! But I replied "hahaha!' ... sarcastically and apparently he don't get it ... anyways, after talking to him for a while, I gave him some lame reason saying that I gotta go sleep, and he replied "Ok luvyou gud9" ... I went wtf ... I replied him "nite.bye" ... then go off d.

WTF IS WRONG WITH THIS GUY?!?!??!!?

I'M NOT HIS FREAKIN GF!!!!

I'm gonna go to bed and fix this situation and my resignation situation tomorrow.


Wish me luck!

I'll tell you guys the whole story tomorrow, omg, fml!!

I'm sorry, dad ...

Dear dad,

I felt like I need to tell you that I'm going to resign from my job. Maybe you'd think "Here goes my useless daughter again" cause this ain't the first time I gave up on something. I went to Perth, Australia and studied for one semester and then I wrote you an e-mail telling you that I got really depress and that I needed to come home and study.

That was the first time.

I felt bad that you have a daughter like me. You are the smartest person I know, and yet you have a daughter that can't even finish up her Degree in Australia or stay on a job.

I really don't want to disappoint you. I've tried to like this job, but I just can't.

Dad, thanks for being really supportive when I said I wanted to come back from Australia. I hope you can be supportive this time as well. This job ain't what you think it is, and being in this company isn't as glamorous as it sounds.

I've thought about my decisions for months, and after today, I realised that I can't stay in this job or this company. I just don't know how. Everytime I pick myself back up, there'll be people that put me down again.

I hope this will be the last time I disappoint you. I'm sorry I can't be a perfect daughter.

Love you, dad.


Maybe all of you might think that I'm over-thinking on this, but I really felt like I've let my dad down in so many ways.

I'm resigning tomorrow

Sometimes I wonder if I'm useless as a person.

*Don't worry guys, I'm just having a bad day from work, but I am still alright, I just need somewhere to let it all out*

I worked at this job for about 4 months, yes I learnt a lot from it, but there are times when I'm being verbally abused. It isn't my fault that you made the stupidest decision in your life to purchase XXXX computer. That brand of computer is seriously crap, made with low quality material. It died, blue screen, and failed on you, and when I'm trying to help, you just find it easier to verbally abuse me.

Thanks, man! 2.5K just to sit there and get verbally abuse by someone, 6 days a week, and when its public holiday, you're still at work, when everyone is sleeping, you are still the one at work, picking up the calls.

Nobody appreciates the fact that you work on weekends and public holiday. They think we're some kind of animal.

I've NEVER EVER supported XXXX brand computer before. Usually when my friends asks me to recommend good brands, I'd say ACER, ASUS, or maybe TOSHIBA, but never XXXX. So Mr. Customer, if you choose XXXX you're the one that's an idiot. Have you ever wonder why they need so much technical support person to give phone support? No? It's because their product sucks!

This job made me wonder if I'm a useless person. I thought to myself "Why can't I just tolerate the abuse?" ... "Why can't I just work 6 days a week, and on Public Holiday, or night shift and bear with it?". I know a few of my friends that worked as technical support in some other company, they worked night shift, yes, but the whole department does the night shift.

Me? I work alone. I'm still new, and there are lots of things that I don't know, and yet I was put on a shift ALONE. Yes, my friends work sometimes during Public Holiday and on weekends, but they work like 3 or 4 days a week, and have the rest of the week off. Me? I work 6 days a week, full day, and I'd only get one day off. So technically, one month I have 4 days off. That's even worst than being a supermarket promoter.


Maybe you guys might judge me. You might think that I'm being weak and useless and all, but try working as a technical support in this shitty company, and you'll know what I'm talking about. You can say whatever you want about it, it wouldn't be as worse as what the customer said.

I was trying to help this customer to reinstall Windows, and he came across some error. I don't know why it happened, so I told him I'd give him a call back in 30 mins cause I need time to research on the matter. Right after I hung up the call, there are few more call waits, I took all the calls and after that I finally have time to do my research.

One hour past and the customer called back, while I was doing my research and got fucking angry, and said that he's disappointed with the level of service. Well, am I here to just pick up ONLY his call? I don't need to pick up other customer's call, is it? He proceed to ask for my badge ID, and my managers name, and said that he wants to report me. Well, that's TOTALLY fine with me. Report me, I'm gonna resign tomorrow anyways.

I'm going to prepare my resignation letter after I'm done writing this blog post. I really had enough of this company's customer. I was just trying to help and all I got was "Give me your badge ID", yea bugger, I can give you whatever you want. Go complain about me, I don't give a crap about your complain.

I hate the fact that the call made me broke down in tears. You know what time I took my lunch? 6.30pm. I was busy picking up calls and get verbally abused by, that I don't even have time for lunch. I called my best friend in tears, haha! I just called him and just started crying, haha! I couldn't even speak. I manage to calm down after 5 minutes into the call and told him what happened.

I really don't mind being scold if I'm the one at fault, or if I'm being stupid, but this is just ... its just frickin ridiculous.

Yes, that was my pathetic day. I'm going to go write my resignation letter now. I'll talk to you guys soon.

Do do do~~

Morning, people!!

I'm in a super good mood now cause I'm up to no good, HAHAHA!

So happy that I'm gonna be doing something crazy soon.

I'm going to start work at 12pm later, in about an hour or two, I'm gonna sit there and plan out stuff, kekekeke! There are lots of places I can't wait to go to :D

I'm gonna have to save up in the next two months, and splurgeee ... okay maybe not splurge ALL, but still ... with the traveling plan and all, I'm gonna need quite a lot of money and maybe I can get my dad to sponsor me a lil :P

Kay, guys I'm gonna have my brunch and prepare to go to work. I'll talk to you guys soon ^^

Awesome day! And I mean it!!

 

 Yes, me and my awesome editing capability, HAHAHA! 

1. I was pampered by my lil sis, cause out of nowhere she decides that she wanted to do manicure for me.

2. Yes, I'm showing off my new bracelet again :P

3. My awesome manicure~

4. Yep, I made my lil sis drive me to Straits Quay for the stand up comedy show :P but for the record, I did drove her home just now, so we're even, haha!

5. We had something in Pappa Rich cause I was a lil' hungry, didn't manage to take dinner before we head out. 

6. My younger sis with her macaroons, she's one lucky girl, cause her boyfriend ordered that for her!

7. My face no need explanation :P

8. The show's at penangpac, which is pretty awesome. The stand up comedy show is called "Three and a half Man", it was freakin funny okay, I couldn't stop laughing throughout the 1 hour and 30 minutes show. It was either its seriously funny or I just probably laugh .. at anything, but still, it was a good show :D

 

Me with errr, I don't remember all their names, cause most of them have Chinese names, the last guy, who's wearing a red t-shirt, I remember his name, he's Douglas Lim, I saw his drama series on Astro before, Haha! 

I'm so thankful to be there, spending time with my lil sis while having a good laugh. I manage to bump into my best friend with his bro as well. What a day :) 

I guess "The Secret" was right, you just need to order from the "catalog" and the world will deliver. Just last week, I thought to myself, I'm gonna spend some time with my lil sis, and guess what? My lil sis texted me and ask me if I wanted to go to this stand up comedy show :) I don't even need to ask, kekekeke! 

I'm gonna be just fine~~

Nights everyone, I need to go to bed now cause it's like 12.35am. I have to go work at 12pm tomorrow.

Take care~

Love ya' lil sis!

My lil sis was being so nice to me today, she offered to give me manicure *^^* Few days ago, she texted me asking me if I want to go for this show by Douglas Lim on Saturday, which is today, cause she has extra tickets, and I immediately said yes!

I don't know if someone asks her to be nice to me or she's just being nice out of her own will. Regardless, thanks lil' sis! I'm a happy girl today! I got new free manicure, and later I'll get to eat macaroons :P and also watch comedic show thinggy with my lil sis, kekekekekeke!

Big ass plan for a small ass me!

I have a BIG plan in my mind, and it's putting a HUGE smile on my face ;)

I know I've said this a million times in my previous post, but I've now made up my mind. Life is too short to be complaining about my job always. I'm gonna resign from my job in about a month or two. I'm gonna start looking for job now.

After resigning from this job, I'm gonna give myself about a month's holiday. Go KL for a few days, crash at my BFF's place, and just go shopping!! I told him about my plan and he's kind enough to offer me his queen sized bed, haha! He said he's gonna sleep at the couch *aww~~*

THEN my big ass plan is to go somewhere where nobody knows me, and just enjoy my holiday there for a few weeks. Wear clothes that I don't normally wear here in Penang (Haha! I know it sounds weird, but I wanna wear something that's SOOOO not me, I wanna look like a rainbow :P) Honestly I just wanna wear sheer tops, and maybe something sleeveless without people looking at me and judging me cause I'm fat -.- Yea, I'm weird like that :P

Sheer blouse looks something like this! I actually bought a sheer top yesterday at Cotton On, it's in peachy pink colour, but the style is a bit different than this. I'm gonna wear it some time ... soon :D

I'm SOOOOO excited for all my plans, although it may seem like a silly plan for some of you, but it sure brightens up my Saturday :) 

I woke up this morning, open the window to my room and let the natural sunlight shine in, and I felt really good about myself. I took my shower, then start cleaning my room. My room is *quite* dust-free now :D So happy! I know I have to work tomorrow, which is a Sunday, mind you, but I'm still not PMS-ing about it cause I know I will be free from this shitty job soon!! ^^

I'm gonna go Sungai Petani to try out the French Kisses Patisseries's macaroon soon! And also visit my friends who's studying in Sungai Petani as well. I felt like this job took over my life, that I don't even have time for my own friends and to travel.

 

I'm gonna make sure all my plans happen!! Gonna plan properly, get tickets where necessary ;) SO EXCITED!!!! 

Alright then, I gotta go prepare to go gym with an emo friend of mine. 

Relationship levels: Asians

HAHAHA!

Later tonight, I'm gonna spend some time with my lil sis, I bet she doesn't want to spend time with me one, but I don't care :P I still love her regardless of her treating me like a loser :P Well, not really a loser la, but you get what I mean right? HAHA!

Love ya, peeps! :D

My week in pictures!

1. Taken in Neway Karaoke today by Thur thur. Yes people I skipped work today cause I'm tired and fed up with my job. I have to work 6 days next week, and this Sunday, I have to work. Fuck this work, seriously.

2. One of my bestest girl friend in the whole wide world.

3. My INTI college mates. Love them to death!!

4. Was trying out some colourful shorts at Cotton On, too bad it looks weird on me -.- I love the colour of the shorts though, the colour is a bit peachy pink.

 

5. My new Braun Buffel card holder, or known as my NEW wallet. No more big ass wallet from now on. I wanna be one of those girls that don't have to bring a big ass bottomless pit handbag, whenever I go out. 

6. My new 2MYR bracelet from Cotton On. Love love LOVE it!!

I need a break.

I cannot complain about this, cause if someone reads this, I'm gonna get fined 5 bucks -.- Not that I cannot afford it, but I just don't want to get fined.

Moving on to another topic. My department's manager took me and 4 other new hires for my department out for lunch today. Two of my awesome L2s joined the lunch as well, yes, including my favourite L2 in the world :P

He didn't drive though, another L2 drove, but we all went together in a same car, hehe! My manager, L2s, 4 other new hires and me, went to Japin @ Queensbay Mall for lunch.

I've been to Japin a couple of times, but usually I order something teriyaki, I rarely go to a Japanese restaurant and order anything else other than something something Teriyaki. My L2 was really nice, he was like "Oh do you eat spicy food?". I was like yea ... and he said "This is nice" ... he was pointing towards a katsu udon or something like that. It's spicy soup noodles, with fried chicken.

I actually ordered that, haha! It was not bad though, something new, from my usual teriyaki this and that. I'm kinda proud of myself for ordering/trying something new, Haha!

My L2 is a really nice guy, though he has a very scary outlook. He's usually more lenient towards me, rarely refuse my cases, kekeke! He actually chat with me a lot today over IM. He's asking if I'm okay today ... cause apparently I look really stressed out or something. Then I told him that's my "on the call" look, but he said that he saw me coming back from cafeteria with that look as well, Haha! Well, actually when I was walking back to my cubicle from the cafe, I was thinking "I'm back to hell, fml!" that is why I have that stressful look on my face -.-

I'm gonna throw my resignation letter soon ... I think. Don't get me wrong, I love everybody in my department, and they are some really REALLY nice people (especially my favourite L2 *shy*)
but this job ... well, to be precise, the working shifts SUCKS, BIG TIME!

I have to work on weekends, FULL DAY, and sometimes I have to stay awake whole night for the night shift. All I wanted was a normal working shift. I don't mind working harder.

My usual day would be, going to work crazy early in the morning, go to gym after work, come back home, say hi to my dad and lil sis, shower, and then it's bedtime, and repeat that for another 6 days. I don't even have time for myself, to clean my room or to just read a book. I'm always stuck inside "HELL".

Seriously, I don't mean to complain about my job, but the working hours sucks. Just today, my manager asked me to work extra 2 hours, WTF?! I was suppose to finish work at 4pm, I was so eager to go to gym, and to go home and see my parents and my lil sis, and there he was, asking me to work for another extra 2 hours. The OT is like what? Extra 30 bucks? I'd rather give him the 30 bucks and have him work till 6pm.

Okay, anyways don't wanna complain further, or Blogger might block me from blogging... forever

*sigh* I want to rest, seriously.

The t-shirt

I feel like blogging and yet, I don't want to blog without a picture for my post -.-

My whole body is aching from the gym =X

I'm gonna blog properly when I have the mood, I'm just super tired cause I'm not getting enough sleep for the past few days. I went for a small gathering with my INTI classmates at Ching's house last night, and it was awesome, her home reminds me of my days in INTI, I usually crash at her place cause we do assignments together, haha!

We gambled and drank wine -.- I lose like 5 bucks wtf! The wine is not bad, but it made me sleepy and I had to drive home after that. Quite awesome actually -.-

Okays guys, I gotta go shower and sleep nao ;)

 

I LOVE this shirt, I'm gonna DIY one myself when I'm free :D

I think if I have the time, I would blog more, but me body tiredz nao, I'll probably talk to you guys tomorrow :P

A Little list for myself :)

1. I need to buy more colourful clothes!! I gotta go Cotton On and stock up on one of those colorful jeans :P
2. It's okay to be afraid of things that I've never come across or done before.
3. Be adventurous, and travel to places I've never been. 
4. I'm thankful for Steve, SS, Ching, Thur, Ben, Fubbie, Ah Bird, Port port. *BIG group hugs!* I love you guys so much! You guys ROCK!!!
5. I'm starting "The Happiness Project"!! Well actually I've bought a book titled "The Happiness Project" by Gretchen Rubin, haven't really read it yet, but I'm gonna start on it, and I'll let you guys know how it went ^^
6. I'm going to stop worrying about things that don't need me to worry about, and stop stressing myself out. My job is ALWAYS going to be like this. There are like 10 calls waiting for me to pick up, but so what? Life is too short to be worried about the call wait, like seriously. IF that brand of computer suck so much, then just stop buying it, don't bother calling in and scold the person that is trying to help. EVERYBODY knows that brand of computer sucks.
7. I love my mum and dad. They've been taking care of me so much over the past week as I'm sick and down with fever. There are times when I wish I can do something for them.
8. I care too much of what other people thinks about me, okay, more like how my colleagues think of me. I shouldn't really give a crap about it. They will never be apart of my world. They are just acquaintance. I go to work, I talk to them, mingle around, I finish work, then its my world.
9. MAPLE, STOP EMO ABOUT YOUR WORK, YOU WILL GET TO THROW THE RESIGNATION LETTER EVENTUALLY, SOON!!!! SO CHEER THE EFF UP!!!
10. Learn to do something about things that I'm not happy about, rather than complaining about it.
11. ALWAYS be ready to take up a challenge!

This is gonna be a continuous list. If I find anything else to add, I will bring this post up here again :) 

30th January 2012

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed today (well technically I only have one side to get out of -.-) Anyways, I did try and cheer myself up throughout the day. I went shopping with my mum, and pamper myself by going for pedicure and manicure.

Once you're down, it's a lil hard to get up, but I know I can be my cheerful self again :)

I don't even know why I've been so negative recently. I'm negative about my job, my relationship with the people around me, and practically about my life in general.

Thanks to those that stood by me. Thank you to everyone that motivates me and are always there to help me get up whenever I'm down.

I'm alright, I will be fine *^^*

Sooner or later

... all these medicines are going to kill me instead of the sickness itself. Everything tastes bitter after taking the meds. I had to run to the fridge and look for some sweets. Damn -.-

Angry buns -___-

-.- Angry bird craze just got ridiculous

 

My BFF took me out for lunch, and because I'm sick, we went to i-Canton at Queensbay Mall (the only place that I know of, that has porridge). Honestly I couldn't be bothered with the rest of the stuff in the menu, cause I'm sick, I just look at the porridge part of the menu.

He was like "Hey! Look at this!" ... and I went "wtf!"

Well it's called the "Angry Buns" in the menu. I pass him my phone and have him take the above picture -__- it is apparently a Lotus Paste bun, and no I didn't order that.

It was nice having "normal" food when you're sick. I only had two "Pau" (Buns) and a bowl of oat yesterday (not all at once, one Pau for breakfast, another for lunch, and a bowl of oat for dinner -.-). I was too sick to eat. The only reason I had something in my stomach is cause I need to take medicines.

I ordered porridge at i-Canton and also my favourite dessert "Fu Chuk Yee Mai". I'd have to say, it's the best lunch ever, haha! 

I don't know what I'll have tonight though :( I can't randomly eat stuff, my fever did went off a lil' bit. Hopefully I'll recover soon.

Btw, I found this cute website *www.noobcook.com* while I was searching for recipe to cook Fu Chuk (Yea, I know right, fu chuk also need recipe, fml) I found so many things that I probably can try and cook, but I have no one to cook for :( so sad.

fml

I went and visit the doctor this morning. The doctor checked, and said that I have high fever. She gave me tons of medicines, I took those meds and went to sleep just now, but when I woke up, my head still feels warm and heavy.

The only thing that helps now are ice packs. I haven't got so sick in a long time.

I will be alright soon ...

I was going to write about the gathering that I had with my high school friends last night, but I felt like I had nothing to say other than I've been treated like an outcast.

I don't know if I'm being really sensitive recently, but I felt like people hates me.

分手以後

聽說兩個人的生活﹐
需要相信﹐禮讓﹐接受來維持。

錯過了其中一樣﹐
感情就會變質﹐
而分手。

這﹐是騙人的。

到最後﹐我還是分手了。

感情淡了﹐
她說不愛了﹐
放手了﹐
親愛的﹐
妳真的傷我好深。


幾年後﹐
我再次見到妳﹐
如果妳一個人﹐
我會不會向妳打招呼﹐
然後對妳說﹐
這幾年﹐我過得很好。

如果﹐妳的身邊是另一個他﹐
我會不會淚流不止﹐
然後轉過身﹐
不願目睹這殘忍的畫面﹖

我的心裡很多問號﹐
很多想象。


其實妳知道嗎﹖
我試過從朋友那裡探聽妳的消息﹐
暗地裡希望妳過得不比我好﹐
希望妳還是單身﹐
更加希望﹐
其實妳只是對我開一個玩笑。


其實﹐妳﹐
過得比我好。


愛情就是這樣﹐
在分手後﹐
你總是希望電話在夜裡會發亮﹐
螢幕上浮現她的名字。
妳總是希望﹐每一次的家裡門鈴響﹐
會是他給妳一個驚喜。
妳/你更會希望他的接下來每一個女友或男友﹐
都不比妳/你好。


最後﹐還是一場空。


This beautiful article (or writings? or whatever you call it as) is written by my friend 飛機場 :) Don't ask me why he wanna name himself "Airport", I usually call him "Port port" or "Ah Port". You can find him here *click* at the Cari Forum, he calls himself 惡夢豬, which is a very cute and weird name, haha! I love how he can describe what I'm feeling, right to the very detail. 

I'm down with fever today so I can't write much. I'll write everything in point form, and then I'll have my lunch then medicine and I'll go sleep for a bit

• Mum came home at 4.30am just to escort me to work this morning, cause my shift is at 5am. She followed me from home till my work place cause she thinks its dangerous for me to drive alone early in the morning. My mum is a lil' crazy, yet awesome.
• Today's calls sucks. 
• I'm having a bad headache now.
• There's a gathering tonight, high school friends gathering, but I'm sick now, and the place they want to have dinner at is at Batu Ferringghi. If I'm still sick tonight and I have to drive myself there, I don't think I will attend the gathering.

All is well

I went to the gym after bashing my ex on the last blog post. Needless to say, I felt better after running the crap outta the treadmill. Gym session really made me a less emo person.

Oh well, not like my ex reads my post. If she did, she would have sworn to not talk to me for life, but that's alright, cause we've not talked for ages.

Come to think of it, if I were to force her to stay in a relationship with me, she wouldn't be happy as well. If she's not happy, then I'm not happy. So I guess it's for the best that we broke up.

I really have to try and stay away from bashing my ex in my blog post. It is something that has to be done regardless if I'm still sad about things or not.

I'm gonna go to bed now, gotta wake up at 3am tomorrow, fml. 5am shift.

Love you guys, and I hope everyone had awesome time with their family during CNY :)

Never let someone be your priority

 

 "... while you remain their option."

WARNING: I don't know how, but it ends up being an ex bashing post. fml. I think I'm still experiencing PMS. Don't bother reading if you're not interested.

I don't wanna go back to work :( Honestly I can't feel the CNY 氣氛 this year. Everybody took two days off (1st and 2nd day of CNY) and then went back to work on the 3rd day. Where's the CNY spirit?!?!?! Take the whole week off lahhhhh!!!

Okay lah, I'm guilty of just taking 3 days off. If I had known earlier that I had to work on Saturday night, I would have take another day off. Damn it! 

I don't usually feel sad during CNY, but this year, I am. It's just so frustrating to feel this way during CNY. It's a brand new year and I'm supposed to be pumped up and ready to take on the brand new year and make the best of it.

I wish I could leave the past behind. It's not that I'm not trying, I'm taking baby steps, but if you know me well, I always try to run before I can even walk properly. There are times when I'm sick of taking baby steps, I just run, and fell. 

It is sad to think that I've always been everyone's "option", even when it comes to some of my own friends that I've known for years (not all of them, but most of them). They call me in the middle of the night when they broke up with their girlfriend or boyfriend, but where are they when I was going through tough times? I remember being alone with no one to talk to.

Even my own ex, who broke up with me, didn't want to answer my call, haha! I guess I'm really that bad of a person, huh? I don't deserved to be treated nicely by anyone, haha!

I totally understand my ex, she was with the same person for about 3 to 4 years, she'd gotten sick and tired of me. She wanted to go out and explore her options. I'm sure she has lots of option out there. I was her second, and she was my first, but somehow, I was so ready to spend the rest of my life with her even though I know that there are people who might be way better.  

I need to get over it. I need to put up a PROs and CONs table. So I can convince myself to get over it. Like seriously. Getting over her doesn't mean that I have to be in another relationship just to prove that I'm over her. 

People say that I'm picky. I'm not. I just want to be sure that my brain is not playing a trick on me. I'm not being choosy, I just don't want to hurt other people. I don't want it to be a rebound relationship.

I guess one that that I'm most proud of is when I first got together with my, now ex, she posted on her blog (which her first ex reads) that I'm not her rebound and that she really loves me. The funny thing is, she don't go and announce her relationship status right after she broke up with me. She was with a guy, 2 weeks after she broke up with me (even though she said that she's tired of being in a relationship), her friends was clueless. 

I think now she's in ANOTHER relationship. I think it is underground as well. I know she don't think that it is necessary to explain to anyone about her relationship status, but deep inside, I think she is afraid of being judged.

I'd have to give her credits for going after me again after she broke up with the guy. All I wanted was for her to fight for me, but she gave up half way. I guess I wasn't worth the fight after all. I've gone through hell and back for her, and all I wanted her to do, was to fight for me, and she couldn't even do it. 

I'm probably like her PlayStation1, something that she haven't play with for a long time, and when the mum finally gave it away to the cousin, she thinks that she needs it, and proceed to get another one from eBay. I feel for the PS1.

Argh, I'm bashing my ex again. I need to stop.

Talk to you guys later when I've cool down.

Ah, crap!

Today is kinda a great day. I got invited by Tiffy to go over to her house in Butterworth, so I went there at about 3 something, we sat and talked and she even taught me how to play mahjong, which is pretty awesome, cause I have zero knowledge about mahjong. I mean I played before, but I was pretty blur about the rules till today.

Then Tiffy's dad invited me to have dinner with them and the rest of their extended family at a restaurant. So I tagged along, and they've booked like 4 tables to accommodate everyone, that is how big their family is.

I didn't expect to get angpao at all, I was just there chit chat with Tiffy, but everyone is so nice, some of her cousins that are married even gave me angpao.

I just got home actually, haha! I mean I took my shower already, of course, before I actually sat here and blog about it. When I was driving home just now, I turned on the radio and there are some emo love songs. Somehow it made me think of the day my ex drove all the way from Butterworth to Penang Island just to surprise me with a bouquet of roses. Bear in mind that she's allergic to roses and she wasn't suppose to wander off to Penang Island at night, it was about 9 or 10pm. I wonder what's on her mind on that night.

*sigh*

I miss her. She can be such a pain in the a** at times, and yet I still think that's cute, Haha! She always take my word so seriously. I remember once I said on my blog or Facebook (I don't even remember which one), I said she's a hypocrite cause I was mad at her or something, I can't quite recall what happened, but she took my comment to her heart, and actually got really upset and shoot me back.

She does get affected by the things I said, but she always just kept quiet about it or keep things to herself. As she gets older, I find that she like to kept things to herself cause she felt that even when she talk to other people about it, it doesn't really help much. I don't know if she's changed, cause I haven't talked to her in months, and  I've heard rumours that she's once again in a relationship, apparently with a guy.

Honestly I don't wanna know. I'd prefer to be kept in the dark regarding her relationship status, cause it still hurts whenever people talk about her having a new partner.

Ah, shit! I've practically talk about my ex like, 70% of this blog post. shit -.-

Anyways, I'm sleepy now, I'll update tomorrow :) Happy Chinese New Year again ^^

Eff this shit!

I'd have to tell you. I'm the biggest Google Chrome browser fan and I've been using it ever since my friend introduced it to me like a year or two ago. I even introduced this browser to the people around me, particularly my ex, who's now using Chrome (I should know cause she refused to let me use Google Chrome on her laptop when I was in Melbie, instead she asked me to use Firefox to browse internet *Scumbag ex* :P)

Anyways, recently Chrome had turned into a nightmare for me. I love opening tabs, like A LOT of them at the same time. Guess what Chrome did to me?

Yes, the infamous "Not responding" starts to appear, my computer starts to lag. Error this and that, Plug-in error, butt error, heck I don't even remember what error it came up with.

 Just look at this shit. Chrome is using 405,156K memory in my laptop!!! Actually it's MORE than that, have a look at all those that I've highlighted, I can't do math to save my life, so count away, peeps! I only have 2GB of RAM in my laptop. I thought it'd be enough to do some light internet browsing, well, I was wrong -.-

So finally, I had enough, and Google to find a better browser. Honestly, every browser on the list, I've tried. From IE (Internet Explorer, which suck balls), to Firefox, Opera, Safari, and last but not least Chrome.

Almost everybody love Chrome, but they are also having the same problem as me. I gave it a thought and think, well, the second best browser would be Firefox, cause I hated IE so much that I want to murder its whole family :D

Finally, I came back to Firefox, and I downloaded the latest version of the browser, and it seemed to be running smoothly. I'm currently using Firefox to update my blog, and there are multiple tabs running on the background and everything seemed to be looking fine. 

Chrome, I really REALLY love you, but please fix this shit, pretty please.

Thank you.

Sincerely,
Your fan.

Every drunk step I take leads me to her door

"...If she sees how much I'm hurting, she'll take me back for sure"

Hmm, should I go visit Tiffie today? Actually it wasn't about the ang pao, I just wanted to visit her cause it's been a while since I last saw her -.- I actually received a HUGE ang pao from my dad yesterday. I went like "OMG!" when I saw the amount. That was how crazy it is.

I felt a lil sick at the moment ... Maybe I should go get some Panadol and stop all these crazy sickness before it ruined my CNY. 

My CNY usually consist of me hanging out at my ex's home (back when we're still together), and we'd go watch a movie or two at the cinema, and also visiting some of her childhood friends. This is like the first year I'm sitting in front of my own computer and actually updating my blog and staring at my Facebook. 

I never notice how much people spam messages about CNY on Facebook. Like seriously. Everybody would go "Happy Chinese New Year!!!" Along with all those nice wishes.  

As luck would have it, I forgot to silent my phone last night and TONS of messages got through and woke me up for a few minutes. Luckily I was able to silent off the phone and fall back asleep.

It's the first CNY that I'm not celebrating with my ex. It felt weird, like a part of me is missing. Oh well, you can't have everything. My ex helped me celebrate my birthday for the first time last year, even though we're together for almost 4 years, it was the first time ever she took the initiative to actually celebrate my birthday with me. This year, would officially be the year I'd celebrate CNY without her. It sucks, but it's life. 

She's probably the cruelest teacher in my life. When one of my BFF broke up with the girlfriend (now ex), he actually made sure that she's alright, and sit down with her and talk about it, and when they finally come to an agreement, they broke up ... peacefully. No arguing involved. What my ex did? We broke up and she refused to talk or discuss with me about anything. So there's actually no closure. I never got all the answers.

But hey, without my life cruelest teacher, I wouldn't be who I am today. I hated her, but I still love her with all my heart. Weird, right? I'm never gonna find the balance between hating her and loving her. It always comes together hand-in-hand. 

Sorry guys, I never meant to sound so emo during the first day of CNY :)

I hope everyone get lotsa ang paos and may the year of Dragon brings your luck, health, wealth and happiness!! ^^