D DAY

On November 8th 2012 at 8:00 AM I left behind the person I was to readily accept the person I was destined to be…A MOTHER. I was so blessed. The entire experience was really pretty great! Unfortunately we had to do a Cesarean delivery because both lil babes were facing the wrong way. At first I was sad but It definitely has its perks. As we were driving to the hospital at 5:30am I said to Stephen how grateful I was that we were able to avoid the chaos of Labor. No water breaking or rushing or stress… we just woke up and had a nice drive downtown and got checked in started my IV and got prepped for surgery. My dad was the first one there he was so excited! My mom and Stephens mom were also there as well as his brother Rob. I was amazingly calm about it all. Stephen gave me the most beautiful blessing the night before and I was really just anxious for it to be over and to meet these sweet people! Everything went perfectly. I was in zero pain, they put in the spinal block and got me set up and before I knew it Stephen was telling me he saw feet! I didn’t even think they had cut me open yet! I could feel them moving around but I never felt any pain. Charlotte head was still inside and the doc was holding her by her feet pulling her out when she peed everywhere. Bearett flipped and came head first…..also peeing:) HAHA Next I knew it was over and my babies were here and yelling and getting cleaned up so they could be in my arms! I couldn’t believe how easy it was. They wheeled us off to recovery where Stephen immediately started taking pictures and I finally got to hold my little sweets. Once again, my dad was the first to sneak his way back to see us and meet the babies! After I started wiggling my toes they moved us upstairs and we got to spend the entire day with our babies in the room with us just loving on them and staring at them. I am forever thankful for that day. Later, Charlee passed her blood sugar test and was able to have a bath. Brother on the other hand, was having a harder time. He wasn’t eating as well as she was so he ended up having to go to the NICU for a couple days. He worked so hard to get back upstairs with all of us! It was so hard to have them split up. And between feeding her, leaving her in the nursery to go feed him then leaving him to spend time with her…..mom and dad were exhausted physically and emotionally. I’m so glad all that is over and they are just doing so great now! Nothing makes me happier than seeing them together and happy and home.

This is Charlotte Ann Murray(Ann is after my middle name) and she was 6lbs 7ozs and 19.5" long.

And here is Bearett Wayne Murray (Wayne is after Stephens middle name) 6 lbs 19.25" long. I cant even begin to describe the transformation we have felt over the last few days of our new lives as parents. I have never loved my husband like I do now. I have never loved myself like I do now or been happier with my life. It is the most incredible thing to experience, I cant believe this is my life now and I get to spend it with these two precious babies. Nothing has ever or will ever bring me more Joy than the sight of their faces, their need for my love and care. I knew I would love them but this….THIS is so much more than just love. When I met my Stephen I couldn’t believe how lucky I was to find true love! To know without a doubt that I was meant to be with him forever and to know that he would always love me as much or even more than I love him! In the fairy tales at least, that is always where true love lies. But there exists an even greater love than the kind shared between soul mates. That love is the truest of love, and it is not found but it is MADE. When two hearts come together in love and become (in our case) four hearts. That is when you know true love. And they all live HAPPILY EVER AFTER.

I'm a ticking baby time bomb...

Well, here we are folks. My last week of pregnancy. WOW. How do I plan to spend it? I have a few appointments for my final attempts at enjoying “me time” for I know this will no longer exist:) I have a mani/pedi, Facial, getting my hair done and a dentist appointment. Lets hope these babies really plan on staying put for another week! I’m obviously anxious for the arrival of our babes, but Im starting to allow myself some fears as well. I really cant say I will miss pregnancy at all, but the thought of not having them with me always is scary. What if they have trouble and have to have breathing/feeding tubes? What if they get sick? What if they have to come home on oxygen or a heart monitor? What if something happens to them? What if something goes wrong with the C section and I have to be in the hospital longer? What if we don’t have everything we need? Obviously you cant leave me home alone all day with my thoughts because it stresses me out:) I have tried really hard to not think about Labor and Delivery. Because so much is unknown and I’m having a C section anyway. But what if I do end up getting to deliver them and I’m not prepared enough for it? Deep breath. I know, I know….everything will be fine stop worrying and just relax. Well see mother nature is sure smart, preparing you for motherhood by not letting you sleep through the night. Even for fatherhood, Stephen is having insomnia too! Poor guy. But please.. we get it…. just let us enjoy our last week of sleep for the rest of our lives! Then I wouldn’t have all this time to think and worry and read things I shouldn’t. My doctor actually told me not to read anything or listen to any opinions about labor and delivery! Haha I could also go on an on about all the wonderful things I cant wait for… Like hearing them cry and seeing Stephen hold them and probably cry too:) Or just sitting and staring at them. Dressing them in all their cute little outfits and shoes. Being the one to comfort them. I’m actually looking forward to the game of deciphering their cry codes. Learning each and every thing about them. How they are different and how they are similar. Seeing who looks like who. Oh my goodness its just going to be so much fun. Ready or not. Happy Halloween everyone!

September Love...

There is a reason this is my very favorite month! Ok more that one reason. Lets start from the top? 1 Amazing weather 2 Stephen fell in love with Sidnee 3 Stephen married Sidnee 4 Football:) Only Boise State games 5 Fall Fashion 6 Nearing the end of this pregnancy 7 People are back in school and back in a routine so places are less crowded ...I could keep going but I will stop there. I have always loved september, even when I was the one going back to school. Now that I get to celebrate our Anniversary on the 5th it makes it just so much better! Happy Anniversary to my Love!

We hit 3 years. When we got married I wanted to wait 5 years till we started our family and Stephen wanted to wait 1-2... we ended up at 3 so both of us are pretty happy, Stephen feels he is "catching up" with everyone since he is 28. Our celebration this year was definitely more mild then the other two. Our first year we went to San Francisco and last year we went to Disneyland Hawaii and the bsu game in Vegas. I guess that was our going out with a bang:) This year we started out with breakfast (my favorite meal) and then had to attend a funeral:( followed by a nap, and then we went to wahooz (stephens favorite) to play games and mini golf. Stephen won the first round and then I'm pretty sure he took pity on me and let me win the second...or he just really started playing badly. I beat him by like 6 points! We had to get a snap shot of the lizard saying hi to the babies...

28 weeks, 29 now. Anyway, we finished the evening with a nice dinner and got to bed nice and early. We came up with lots of other ideas of what to do but goodness, we are getting pretty limited on what this pregnant body can do. Oh well. All that matters is that I'm married to the man of my dreams and all he wanted to do was be with me all day. I'm so grateful for him everyday. I can already see changes in him, becoming and thinking like a father. It is so special to me. I cant imagine the love I have for him being quadrupled and stuffed into the tiniest little packages that will do nothing but cry and poop and eat...and I will love them more than I can understand. Its crazy to think about. People ask me if I'm scared for delivery. My answer is simple...I dont think about it. I try to focus on how amazing the after part is going to be. When these little miracles will be looking up at me. That will make it all worth it. That will be my "thank you" for all I have and will go through. And its more than enough:) Yes I know its going to suck and its going to be more pain than Ive ever known but then it will also be the greatest joy I have ever known. And besides...its one day! One day we cannot wait for!

TWINNER UPDATE

On September 1st Stephen woke up and said, "hey our babies could come next month" WOAH. He is absolutely right, halloween will be 36 weeks and all along we have been shooting for the last week in october or the first week of november. It just really sounds close when you say it like that! These babies are doing really really well. The doc is pleased with how well and quickly they are growing, he estimated at our last appointment that they are around 2.4 lbs each! And I was 28 weeks. Apparently that is odd, but good, that they weigh the same. We had a little glitch...I failed my glucose test:( By 3 stupid points! OH MY AWFUL having to redo that test! They make you come to the hospital at 8AM FASTING and draw your blood right when you get there. Then they have you drink 3x the normal amount of that horrible glucose drink (and this time it was not cold, making it much harder to choke down) then they draw your blood again at 9, 10 and finally 11AM. Then you are allowed to eat. FOUR pokes. ONE arm. ONE terrified of needles mama to be. Gosh I'm glad that is over. As we were walking out I told Stephen that I felt like Hercules when Haytes drained him of all his strength for 24 hours. Haha! Can you tell I was a little out of it? Anyway...everything is fine now. I'm glad we made sure the babies are okay. And I'm happy to announce I passed the second test with flying colors. Also at our last appointment baby girl (who will come first) was bum first. She moved a ton but she kept that bottom down. We aren’t worrying just yet but if she doesn’t get with the program we may have to really consider scheduling a C section. Whatever is best for the babies but I hope it doesn’t come to that. We also got a pretty sweet shot of her darling face

Boy was squirming and we couldnt see him very well. Surprising, usually its the other way around! She also yawned several times. Cutest thing ever. It is so cool that we get to see them every visit and these last two appointments we got a DVD of the ultrasound. Modern technology is such a beautiful thing. I'm so excited for the next couple weekends! This weekend my wonderful friends and family are throwing me a baby shower! And next weekend is the Idaho open house for Mallory's wedding. Meaning I will get to see lots of family again:) So much to look forward to AND its Fall. What could be better?

As of Late...

WHAT a summer we have had. I’m so glad we were able to have so much fun and spend so much time together, and to spend so much time with each of our families. We were horrible about taking pictures but I have stolen a few from FB. I have already filled you in on our wonderful Babymoon that we spend in Puerta Vallarta Mexico! After that we were able to spend a few days in Portland. While Stephen worked hard doing a roof for his Aunt, I got to enjoy shopping and relax:) We were home just long enough to celebrate the 4th and go to the Doc to see our sweet baby GIRL and BOY! Its always a great day when we get to see babies. I still have no pictures for you, Sorry. Next I went to Utah with my mom to hang out with my sisters and help with wedding plans. After getting home from that we had a bridal shower for Mallory and then headed for Red fish Lake for a family reunion. Mal was also sweet enough to take a few maternity pictures of me trying to stick out my belly really far to look more pregnant:) I definitely don’t need to do that anymore!

We had a great time, but camping pregnant is not so great. But holy moly did my Aunt Shelly and uncle Carl make some amazing meals!

Even though we stayed in the Lodge and my parents 5th wheel….I was still so ready to be home! But only for 2 weeks then we were off again to North San Juan where we spent a week for Stephens family reunion. Again, camping=not great but hanging out by the lake and chillaxin every day was not so bad:) And going to the yuba river which is the coolest thing about this place!

I also enjoyed watching my Handsome Hubby and all his water skiing tricks and talents.

He is so cute. BUT I can tell what is not so cute… me sitting out in the heat all day which led to extreme cankles:( It was not pretty. Aunt Marva was so scared when she thought I had fallen and sprained both ankles. Yeah. Ugh and 10 hours in a car 6 months pregnant? Never again. Haha but still worth the trip! One last Hoorah then I was banned from traveling for the duration of the pregnancy! I never thought I would be happy about that. Anyway, probably the most anticipated event of this summer… MY SISTERS WEDDING! Most of you know this had been a LONG TIME COMIN!

We were so happy to be in the Salt Lake City temple that day with family and friends to watch this blessed union. I had to see it with my own eyes to believe it:) I’m just kidding Mal. It was a long day starting at 5AM for us (I’m pretty sure the bride didn’t even sleep, yet still managed to look flawless) we had to be in our seats by 630 for the 7AM sealing! Yeah. What was she thinking. BUT it was beautiful and like I said we were just happy to be there. Even though I never got a nap and it was the longest day I can ever remember… I’m glad it was everything she ever wanted. It was a lot of work and it all came together so nicely. Congrats to my Big sis! Whew. So now we are home and trying to finally get baby stuff all ready to go. My wonderful Mother and Sisters in law threw me a baby shower on Monday and it was great! Im so grateful for all the love and support from our family, and for all the gifts and cute outfits:) I am also lucky enough to have a second baby shower thrown by my wonderful friends on the 15th and hopefully I (or somebody) will be much better about photographs. Our cribs had to be ordered and we are still waiting for them to arrive, and I am still working on painting a dresser for their room. Not any old dresser, this pioneer piece of furniture was purchased when my oldest sister Ainslee (who turned 30 this week) was born and my mom used it for all of us kids growing up. It has been well loved! And this week it went from brown wood color to BLUE and distressed and glazed. This is what I am going for….

Not all the decor, just the color and glaze on the dresser. I will post a pic once the handles are purchased and put on. Or probably when the nursery is finished. We have a nice big Lazy boy recliner (Thanks mom & dad!) it is the extra big one that reclines all the way so you can lay flat, and is amazingly comfortable. It will be my best friend in a few months I’m sure of it. Now I just need to help my mom finish all the darling bedding and find some cute frames, lamp and little décor pieces and we are set! Its all coming together! I cant believe I only have 2 months left. Really goes by fast when you are counting down to 36 instead of 40! I hope all of you are doing well, Thanks for reading!

Babymoon

What a wonderful month June has turned out to be. The 2nd was my official last day working at Sassy Nails. Bittersweet! I will miss my co-workers and my clients, and I'm sure I will soon miss the social interaction it brought me everyday, but for now I am enjoying the break. I cant believe how quickly it has gone! I'm already 18 weeks and the doc says I can call it my half way marker. I'm confident I will make it to at least 36 weeks, he told me my body was made for baby bearing. Thank you? We decided to scramble and make the most of our precious pre-children moments that will soon be gone. We started looking at places to visit when Stephens mom and dad offered us a free place to stay in Puerto Vallarta Mexico. How can you pass that up? You don't:) So in a matter of 2 weeks we bought plane tickets and got ready to go. When you have time sensitive matter growing inside you, you cant really put things off! We had a wonderful time. Our days consisted of sleeping in, eating, pool time, eating, nap time, pool time, eating, walking around, watching the NBA finals, eating, more resting, more walking, and eating. It is so much fun to plop yourself in the middle of an unknown city and get out and explore! See new things! And in mexico, you definitely see new things. Our condo was at the top of a hill, so to go anywhere we walked down 81 old brick steps to the center of the city. Those first few days, after not much working out for the past 4 months, I almost died. This pregnant girl was sucking wind walking up those suckers! It was embarrassing. Stephen had me doing my yoga breathing and taking lots of breaks. But after a few days of going up and down those a few times a day I was taking those stairs like a champ! It felt good to get out and move around, wore me out like crazy especially with the heat but it still felt good. Pool time we often spent in the shade reading, that sun takes it right out of you! Very relaxing. I think I won the wife of the year award when we watched all 5 games of the NBA finals on our babymoon. I actually liked watching them. As long as we had a movie to switch back and forth with:)The only time it rained was at night, which was kind of nice actually. It cooled everything off. One night there was the most insane thunder storm! I literally thought the earth was going to split in half. I had never heard thunder like that, ever! And the lightning, I don't thing there was ever a break. It looked like daylight. It started around 1 AM and Stephen and I just sat and watched and listened. The amount of rain was incredible. Very cool storm. And I'm glad they were at night so we could enjoy the sunshine every day:) Here are a few images to help you visualize our 2 weeks. While eating dinner these guys just came trotting down the street, we found it hilarious. They almost got ran over by taxi's. While walking down the boardwalk, very pretty sunsets. There were only a few nights we were still out when the sun went down, sunsets were around 9PM so I was usually getting ready for bed or watching a movie. I wasn't ever scared in mexico, but I didnt love walking around after dark. This river flowed into the ocean, all the locals swam in it. There was even a passed out drunk guy on the bank (at least I hope he was passed out and not dead) The bump. I think my babies like mexico. The Panoramic shot we got while eating at the roof top restaurant El Panorama! It was recommended to us by my baby doctor. These are the stairs I was telling you about! It was gorgeous but a long way to the bottom. I'm so grateful to my in laws for giving us this awesome trip! We are so blessed. These babies are so blessed. I am looking forward to the rest of the summer! And really really cant wait till Monday to find out what the other gender is! Its torture only knowing one! Keep you posted:)

The Joys of Pregnancy

Oh my heavens funny story for you. Sundays are rough, being at church 3 hours. I literally get sick if I dont eat every 2 hours. But being in sharing time with my primary class its not exactly easy to snack on a protein bar. So this last sunday, fast sunday, I decided I needed to go have a snack. So I quietly slipped out of primary and didn't know where to go...the car? Crap Stephen had the keys. Oh maybe the mothers room! Great idea. So I go in and there are two ladies from a different ward and 2 babies nursing (no cover mind you), and 2 toddlers running around. And it smells like a million dirty diapers. Let me just have a snack real quick. So I stand in the corner minding my own business and one of the ladies goes, "so are you pregnant?" haha. No. I just decided to come in the mothers room on fast sunday to eat real quick. Granted I dont look pregnant yet so I guess I cant blame them. It was pretty funny though. And the kids asked me if they could have some of my snack. Sorry kid, that runny nose is not making me want to give you a bite. I learned a valuable lesson, to stay far away from that mothers room until absolutely necessary. At least I got a laugh, just finding joy in this journey!

My son.

At our 15 week appointment we got a little shocker, our lil boy decided to give us a nice shot of his gender! We were definitely surprised to find out so early! He is baby B so he is on top, baby A is still a mystery. She (as I like to call her) was so low and so wiggly that he couldn't get a clear picture of her. But since we are hoping for one of each we are going with the assumption that its a girl! BUT I will not be disappointed either way. I was just thrilled when he said they are both perfect, with strong heartbeats and growing like they should and moving like crazy! I literally thought doc was shaking the wand on my belly! I cant wait to feel them move, but my goodness both times we've watched them they have been bouncing off the walls! Maybe I CAN wait:) 8 limbs going 8 directions? Oh boy. With them being SO low it is really uncomfortable to wear anything and I'm barely showing yet. Luckily its sweet summer time and dresses and skirts are my best friends. I have been doing a lot of reading with my new found free time (thank you very much retirement) and they say that sleep is more crucial to baby's growth than eating. Both are obviously important but I found it interesting. So goodbye alarm clock (most days) you babies can sleep as long as you'd like. I promise I will still eat every 2 hours. A boy, a son HOORAY! I'm so excited! I dont think I even really know how excited I am. But Ainslee and Tiffany and Sherry had boys in the last year so baby boy will have lots of friends:) And one of my greatest life long friends Dani Lee just found out they are expecting and she is only a couple months behind me! We are thrilled for them! All these built in playmates. These babies are so lucky. I'm even luckier to be their Mama. A son, can you believe it?? Stephen and I already have such high hopes for this son. But I can wait to know HIS hopes. I cant wait to help him discover his likes and dislikes, to see if he loves dinosaurs like his cousin Hinder or sports like cousins JJ and Trey or art like cousin Cameron or singing like cousin Jax or transfromers like cousins Benson and Tanner or whatever the triplet boys love. I cant wait to watch him want to be just like his dad. Whatever he is, he is MINE. My son. Now come on little daughter, dont be shy! haha I'm probably jinxing myself. Although, 2 boys would probably be easier. We will take whatever we get! We just love them so much!

A tender loving Father to be

You sweet readers are going to get awfully sick of my posts I have a feeling:) Luckily you get to choose to read this mushy love stuff! Let this be your warning. I just have to share the tender things this sweet husband of mine says. You all remember the quote I posted on facebook when he said, "if you wake up in the middle of the night and I'm not next to you, it means I'm in the kitchen staring at the ultrasound pictures on the fridge" Today he has been at the station for two days and he hates being away from us, so he always tells me to "tell my babies I love them!" or "thank you for taking such good care of my babies" Today he text me and says " I just want them to hurry up and get here already! I have never met them, but I already miss them like crazy!!!" Is it even possible? Yes because I feel the exact same way. I'm in no hurry however, grow babies grow! But I cant wait to meet them and to stare at them for hours on end and to watch them smile and learn and laugh. I cant even wait to hear them cry. Now thats weird, who wants a crying baby? Me. I do. I want to study it and learn each different cry. I cant wait to know who they are and to see their personalities and if they get their daddy's curly hair. We already love them more than I thought I ever could, and it only gets better from here folks! Cant wait cant wait cant wait..........I dont know how many more times I can say it.

A Summer promise to my Home...

My poor neglected Home. We moved in January of 2011 and immediately had decor and furniture in all the main rooms, bedrooms living room, kitchen..... But when spring came and we got to really see our yard for the first time I was sure frightened. I have done a pretty good job of keeping the inside looking nice and bringing a feeling of peace when we are home. Stephen has done what he can to make the outside presentable (which it is not by the way) by mowing and spraying weed killer. That is it my friends. I think once he sprayed off the back patio last year. Yes I'm embarrassed to admit all that but what do you do. THIS year however, since summer will not be my busiest time of year I will get to spoil that yucky lil yard of mine. Of course I will hire someone to do the heavy lifting and most of the landscaping work that needs done, but yesterday I got out the hose with our new attachment for power washing and went to town! I sprayed the whole house. I wasnt even afraid to spray down the EIGHT wasp nests I encountered. Stephen is good about getting the lawn mowed weekly but thats about all he can do with how busy he is with roofing. I'm glad I have time to help out now. It feels so great to be getting my energy back. I still have days where the migraines are bad or I feel nauseous, the main thing right now is low blood pressure. But I'm watching it and making sure to eat and drink enough so that it wont dip too low. But with my days numbered working at the salon there are so many things and projects I am looking forward to completing. The hard part is prioritizing! Things for home things for baby things for my sisters wedding things for me... and to still get enough rest each day and drink 4-6 liters of water and eat every two hours. I'm just preparing for motherhood, and all the chaos that will come with my sweet lil twinners. I can wait for all that, I'm looking forward to having TIME to do things that I enjoy and that uplift me. I'm so grateful for a Hubby that works so dang hard that I can stop working this week and focus on taking care and getting ready for the babies. My first real summer in 5 years. Lets not let it go to waste!

They told us to MULTIPLY and replenish...

My babies. What a beautiful moment when the doctor said "and here's your other baby..." I will admit we had a feeling, I thought at the time maybe just a hope, that there were two. Stephens mom called it from the beginning. So when the ultrasound came up and I saw one baby, I was so happy! But a tiny bit sad it was just one. So when we got to see the other baby, I felt so thankful. It felt right. It felt like they should both be there. We streamed tears of the purest joy trying to listen to the doc rattle off stats while never taking our eyes off those two sweet wiggly little bodies. I could have watched them all day! Now that I've had time to digest and really think about what it will mean to have two babies at the same time, it hits me differently every day. Like Sunday I watched mothers chase toddlers, and take out a crying baby. And I thought about how in the world I will manage two by myself when Stephen is at the station! I ran several options in my head from staying home (obviously not an option) to having my mom come help me. Then I just realized that I will be fine. I'm going to figure it out. The lord wouldn't give me these sweet children in a package deal if he thought I couldn't handle it. I may look white trash sometimes and they won't always behave when I need them to but I will do the best I can and at the end of the day I have faith it will be enough. I am so blessed to have such great examples of mothers, especially mothers of multiples, right in our family. This will make the 5th set of multiple births for Stephens side. I know I know, crazy. We figured out its in my mother in laws cookies. Saturday she was making cookies and she cracked an egg that had a double yoke!!! Hahaha. I know that I will be well prepared! Today I am 12 and a half weeks. It feels like such a milestone! I'm happy to report the nausea has subsided for the most part, I can put my ginger away. But it left a hole that was quickly filled by migraine headaches. Uhg! Tylonol doesn't touch it. I have been seeing the chiropractor 3 times a week and that seems to help most. And sleeping from 8p-8a. I'm so glad these twins are first. Also I am so lucky to be able to quit my job soon and stay home. 2 more weeks to be exact! I knew the chemicals of a nail salon weren't great but doctors orders just make it so much more official. It makes me feel better about leaving knowing that its whats best for the 3 of us. Stephen is so supportive. I love when he comes home from the station, after being away from us for 2 days, and he tells me all the things he thought about. Like what he might say when he goes to bless the babies or what he thinks the nursery should look like or how they came to choose us for their family or how we should get them the "Thing 1 and Thing 2" costumes since they will most likely come around Halloween. He is such a sweet dad already. Last night my mom took me out for my first baby shopping. I was so overwhelmed. That doesn't even describe it. There are far too many options! I was happy to learn that most stores give a twin discount! If you buy two of the same thing the second item is 25% off. Every little bit helps:) I'm looking forward to spending lots of time in thrift stores like kid to kid, kids again, other mothers... I think there are 3 or 4 close by that have some great stuff. One great piece of advice I got was not to rush out and buy two of everything. Let them learn to share and figure out what they like. Some twins have to be touching when they sleep, others do better apart. Some babies like bouncers some like swings...it all just depends. I'm excited to figure it all out. Each kid comes with and different set of instructions I think and its mom and dads job to master the hand book! I know that I have no idea what I'm in for but I think thats a blessing in some ways. Save the stress for when they get here and I'm figuring it out rather than worry that I wont figure it out. I know I will. I'm grateful to have such an amazing guy by my side! And such supportive mothers and family members close by. I trust my divinely inspired and created body to be able to carry these babies and raise them. I trust I will be blessed with mothers intuition and most importantly I trust that I am doing exactly what I should be doing exactly when I'm supposed to do it. I'm so lucky to be where I am today and I'm so grateful for this incredibly spiritual, emotional and physically exhausting experience. Ready or not, here we go! Find Joy in the Journey right? Oh and keep calm and carry on.

Things that make me happy.

I could list superficial things in the world that make me happy--
chocolate covered almonds, shoes, a six pack.....

Really, all the things that make me happy can be lead back to one thing....

A GOOD, HONEST MAN.

And boy is he good. He is resilient. He is all that I need.

This week was especially tough, who knows why. Thursday night was my breaking point. I have a sweet husband to make me feel so much better. I probably lean on him too much sometimes.

Friday, I'm at work. Doin my thing. Babe texts and wants to go to lunch. I'm sadly booked and dont get to go. Next thing I know my sweet man walks through the door with this...



And the man says to me
"I brought you this just because its Friday, which means NOTHING
And because I love you, which means EVERYTHING."

All other things vanish and all I see is the man I get to be with FOREVER!

THAT means everything to me. I am the luckiest girl in the world.

Lovin on sibs

Last weekend was a quick one. We both worked Saturday then drove to Rexburg for baby Vyla's blessing. Such a darling little face.

We also celebrated our two and a half year anniversary and my sisters bday.

It is always a wonderful feeling to be with all my siblings and my parents. It makes me think about the day when we will all be able to be in the temple together as an eternal family! How amazing that will be! Here are a few pictures from the weekend, all impromptu and super fun. I love these people.




FAMILIES ARE FOREVER.

March has been such a great month already. Some things we are looking forward to...

-THE HUNGER GAMES, we sadly and literally watch the movie trailer ever other night.

-THE TRIPLETS FIRST BIRTHDAY!! They are coming to visit along with all the Murray grandchildren for a birthday week/Easter extravaganza!

-CONFERENCE

-SIDNEE'S 23RD BDAY

-MALLORY'S ENDOWMENT SESSION

-STEPHEN'S 28TH BDAY

And a whole bunch of little things in between. We are grateful for spring, and for the opportunities we have been given. We have so much to look forward to and so much more to look forward to everyday. Spring Love is in the air. As Stephen has been saying for the last week every day....

"Its a great day to be in Love"

I love him.

Sping ahead

I cannot tell you how trilled I am that this joyous day finally came, I love the late light! Fall back is my enemy. It has been the best day ever. Last night we hung out with some great friends, playing great games. This morning we got to sleep in, have a wonderful breakfast of spinach omelets (courtesy of the worlds best husband), attend church at 11, gave away the monstrosity of a play set in our backyard to a very deserving family. He left a note on our door thanking us again and saying how much his 5 year old daughter is going to love it. Made our day. And I cant tell you how much I love that eye sore being GONE! Then we made BOMB guacamole,then head over to my favorite in-laws for dinner. I ate fish. I, Sidnee Murray, having a strict no seafood no weird stuff diet ate fish STEELHEAD even and I didn't even hate it. Had myself a whole helping. I'm a big kid now. I've tried fishy stuff before like shrimp, crab, lobster, Alaskan halibut, salmon... but I always almost threw it up. Couldn't even stand the smell. If hubbs ate fish, he was cutt off from kisses the rest of the night. I finally told myself I want to eat salmon because its healthy, mind over matter. As simple as that. Stephen was staring at me the whole time I ate it judging each expression anxiously. It was hilarious. I'm feeling pretty proud of myself:) So naturally I called to tell my parents and they were shocked, momma bear even said it brought a tear to her eye? Haha. Anyway, we finished the night off with pina coladas (courtesy of the worlds best Mother in Law) and the game monopoly deal which is completely our new favorite game. Ended with a clean, quiet house and snuggles.

Sound Like a perfect Sunday to me. Hope you all had a great spring ahead day as well!