February 2nd already today but it's been a very long time since I have blogged, so sorry for the relapse. Life has been busy for sure but I have not felt up to sharing the last few months. Spring and Fall were mostly awesome. We spent time in Florida as well as tme way up north in a little place called Tomahawk Wisconsin. We were invited to go with out daughter and son in law and it was very nice in September. We had a nice yard so it was almost like being at a park just hanging out there. We had a dock on the Wisconson river and a little pontoon boat that was ours to use for the week. I may post more photos soon.
October of this year I wasn't feeling very well but it seemed to get better before the trip we had planned earlier to visit my sister and brother in law in Michigan, sadly some of the systems came back and I was finding myself short of breath and overexausted from walking much or simply climbing a few steps. The guest room was in the basement and I stopped between steps to try and catch my breath and my heart seemed to be beating hard . It was scary. Others also noticed I wasnt doing well although I tried not to show it, We left a few days earlier for home so I could go to the dr there. By the time we got home I just went into the ER where a scan showed I had a pulmanary embolism. No wonder I was getting tired easier this last Fall with a blood clot in my lung! I was taken to the closest city from here by ambulance because they were more equpped to deal with it, I was placed on oxegyn which I was just able to get off of completley about 3 weeks ago though I still must for precaution be on blood thinners. With all the blood tests and CT scans I also recieved a diagnosis of ovarian cance which really through me for a loop! It was the one thing I believed I would never hear in my entire life time so it was like the rug being pulled out from under my feet and feeling out of balance! I have done well with the treatments I have 2 more chemos left and the dr told me from the tests and scans yesterday that the tumr marker drastically reduced so the treatment is working like it is suppose to! The hardest part was feeling in the dark but God just gave me a rainbow of hope and the doctore I have has prayed with me and my husband after each visit! It was hard when people would ask questions because I wasn't sure myself where I was at, just praying the immunity shot I have to have after each chemo will be less painful this time. It pulls white blood cells from the bones to help protect you if you get sick since chemo puts you more at risk. The dr said that many of his patients complain about that more than the chemo because your bones and joints can hurt so bad. He suggested we try waiting just a couple days longer after treatment it may leson the effect of pain and my white blood cells seem high enough, I'm praying it will be better.
I WOULDN'T WISH THIS ON ANYBODY AND HONESTLY I DONT UNDERSTAND IT ALL BUT..
I am learning however that loved! There have been calls and notes , prayers and gifts that I have recieved, some from people at my church I barely know. And I am learning to ask for help and to recieve help which is a little hard for me. I am a fixer and I can do it by myself person too much of the time. I have seen the body of Christ and His great love in action and I want to be as others have been to me through this.
This prayer blanket was created by a little girl from church, pastors daughter. She is about 11 years old and a bright and bubbly little girl. Everyone loves her. She is a blessing! She even prayed for me and said she prayed when she was making it. Chidren are such a blessing! Its a small version and I can take it with me to chemo. My sister also sent a beautiful teal color prayer shawl that has been prayed over.
Just resting here today. It is a the second day after treatment. It makes me feel tired!
