I was given the diagnosis of breast cancer 2 weeks ago today. It has taken me a little time to finally sit down and blog about it.I feel like I am doing really well but the main reason I have not done it is because right now I do not feel sick-my life is just as it was before I knew. I guess I want to just continue with everything as long as I can. My surgery is not until next week and I know that once that happens-everything will be different. It just feels so weird to know that there is still cancer in my body right now and yet I feel so good. Next week, after my bilateral mastectomy I will begin to see an oncologist and start my treatment-whatever that will be. I know that I will feel sick then but hopefully the cancer will be gone by then.
It was a hard couple of days right after my diagnosis as you can imagine. Kevin and I were hardly getting any sleep. It was hard for me to understand because I went to the temple 2 weeks before I had my biopsy and I felt so good there and had no worries about my surgery or what the results would be. I was shocked when my surgeon told me my results. However, as time has passed I realize that I do not need to worry. I am going to do everything necessary to beat this and before you know it I will be having a party to celebrate that it is all overwith and that I am cancer free. I can feel the strength that the Lord has given to me because of the prayers and fasting and well wishes of my family and friends. I am so blessed to be loved by so many and will forever be changed because of it. Thank you everyone!
As the days have slowly passed by I am reminded of all the things that I am grateful for. Here are some of the reasons why I am glad that I have cancer right now. That sounds weird because of course I do not want this but it really was the perfect time for this to happen.
-My kids are young so they have no idea what is going on/
-We have great insurance because Dylan has diabetes so we have to pay a $2000 deductible and then everything is covered 100% till the end of Dec. That includes ALL the surgery and chemo!! Awesome.
-Kevin is done with school and he is the boss in his own office so he can set his own hours and close when I need him. Plus we get to see him every day for lunch.
-We are back in NV so we are way close to family here is Carson and Reno and much closer to the rest of our family in southern NV.
-Breast cancer has a 98% survivable rate and there are so many options for treatment.
-We signed up for a really good life insurance policy 3 months ago. I do not think that Kevin will need to cash that policy in any time soon, but I am glad we have already donethe physicals and health questionnaires because I was really heathy then and now it would either be really expensive for me to sign up or they would just deny me.
-I’ve been wanting to do something different with my hair so now I might get the chance to try something new. (if I have chemo)
I will try my best to keep everyone updated on what is going on with my. I truly feel blessed to have so many wonderful people in my life and to have the knowledge of the gospel. I know that I do not need to fear but look forward to the future. A friend shared a quote with me that I love. “Fear not. Be of good cheer. Your future is as bright as your faith.” President Thomas S. Monson