I wouldn't consider myself a total chicken or anything, but I'm also no daredevil. I like my life a lot. There are just some things that make me super nervous and anxious when I think about the "what ifs" attached to so many of them, so I'm not a risk taker. (..and I'm not just talking about relationships-thank you).
I can't be the only person out there who cringes at the thought of doing some things that others would consider very basic in life. For example: I HATE flying. I can hear you now..."Tiffanie hates flying?!
WHHATTT? She's on an airplane all the time." I know, right?! It's ridiculous. I know - but seriously, I HATE flying, especially take off. But that is just one example.
Well, I have no idea how or why-but lately I have been doing some crazy things that are TOTALLY out of my comfort zone. I haven't had a goal or bucket list or anything to make myself do this stuff...it's just sort of happened...although I should probably acknowledge it hasn't been just randomness on my own. It seems like every social activity lately has revolved around me making a choice to either be lame, afraid and left out, or to be brave, take a risk and enjoy the ride. I've definitely been grateful for one of my long-time bestest friends, Brad, who is always somehow involved and his hilarious ability to somehow get me to do this stuff. He always knows just perfectly how far to push me in it all, and yet not make me mad in the process. Good times.

(He was building this car wall as we were getting ready to leave for Idaho. This "stay on your side" picture totally makes me laugh.)
So here are some of my crazy activities from the past week or so and why it's a big deal for me:
#1 *Lava Hot Springs, Idaho- I jumped from Platforms 2 and 3, (plunging from 32 feet) with Brad and Devin. Why?! I'm insane.
THE BIG DEAL: I'm totally afraid of heights.
(I have a video of us, but I have no idea how to put it on here. I keep trying and it won't work. Sorry. I've never added a video to a
blogpost before)
#2 I held a dog on my lap for a 2 hour car ride back to Salt Lake City.
THE BIG DEAL: I'M AFRAID OF DOGS and don't particularly like animals. Now before you call PETA, let me explain. I have a friend named Devin. He also is my home teacher. He has a dog (Boston Terrier) named Bauer and he likes to bring Bauer on lots of activities. I like Bauer. I really do! My brother, Jonathan, and his wife, Cassie have a Boston Terrier (Alfie) so I have positive feelings toward that particular breed, but I REALLY don't like touching animals...especially dogs. It sounds mean and heartless and cruel, i know, but something about their hair and slobber and blah. I had a dog my entire childhood. I loved her. She doesn't count-because she was my dog. Does that make sense? I am especially terrified of big dogs. I'm a small person, so if a dog fills my entire lap-it's just simply too big. I was actually bit on my back by a dog when I was about 9 yrs old at a baseball park. I think that's where a lot of the fear probably stems from--psychologically. About a month ago, Brad witnessed me being playfully attacked by a very hyper golden retriever at his sister's house. I admit it was probably one of the funniest things he (and the whole
neighborhood had ever seen), but I, personally, wasn't laughing at the time.

#3 Picking up two
hitchhikers on our way back to
SLC from Lava Hot Springs, ID
(Amelia &
"Mumbles").
THE BIG DEAL: I DON'T TRUST PEOPLE AND I DEFINITELY DON'T PICK UP STRANGERS!!
Mumbles' real name is "
Baraka Noel,"...so it ends up that Devin, Brad and I were actually in the presence of a "famous" musician-or something. If you actually click on the link, I am not responsible for the lyrical content of his
myspace page. They were totally granola. It was awesome--They started "on tour" in St. Paul, MN and were bumming rides from people to get back home to San Fransisco (of course). Amelia and Mumbles had decided to get married a couple days before at a rest stop (They looked at each other, said I love you and decided they were married)....Ha! if it were only so simple, right?!...and then they decided they would go to Yellowstone for their "honeymoon." Originally they had made some arrangements with a guy on
craigslist for a ride. It didn't work out. Mumbles wrote a haiku about it- "Would you like me to share it with you?" (WE ALL SAID YES TOO)...
ok here it is:
"To the Craigslist driver who almost murdered my wife on the day of our wedding................."Yep. That was it.
Alrighty then. They were totally nice. It was a beyond unique experience and I got to be the one to sit in the backseat with them. (which was totally fine-just totally out of my comfort zone). See the picture of me with Bauer...you can also see part of Mumbles' arm.
#4 Night hike to the top of Mt.
Timpanogos.
THE BIG DEAL: I'm too old to pull an all
nighter anymore and remember how I'm afraid of heights?!
I did it. Well kinda. A group of 20 of us started the hike at about 12:30am. We hiked all through the night (with all of the headlamps along the trail, it looked like a candlelight vigil. It was very cool) and we reached the top at about 5:30am. I didn't join the group who scrambled straight up the last mile to the summit. I stayed completely content and satisfied there at the saddle of the mountain to watch the sunrise. It was AWESOME! I'm glad I did it, but I was also very happy to get down. The whole 15 miles took about 10 hours.




#5 I gladly and without hesitation nibbled yummy bites of food, shared utensils and ate straight off the plates of 5 of my lovely lady friends last night. It was magical!
THE BIG DEAL: I am a
germophobe like you wouldn't believe when it comes to people touching my food or sharing drinks, etc. If I'm not kissing you, then I should not be exchanging any form of spit with you. End of story. (and kissing actually grosses me out on many levels as well...but you kinda work to get over it-ya know...well... or so I'm told when you actually like the guy-but THAT'S another story)
ok...back to the miracle meal:
These lovely lady friends of mine came up with the title "
Manbattical" for our evening. It was just us girls. We went to an amazing restaurant called
"Sea Salt." I actually FELT like I was in Italy again, right here in
SLC. The only rule for the night---eat whatever you want. It was AMAZING! I think I especially enjoyed the fact that there was no talk about guys, no man-bashing, no man-hating, no relationship complaints, no whining, just 100% a night out to celebrate being wonderful women.


It was fantastic! And after we all had ALREADY ordered desserts (the best
gelatos EVER) and the waitress brought out this chocolate
yumminess "just
cuz"... we may or may not have squealed in delight! (or maybe that was just me squealing).
Going out of my comfort zone lately has definitely had its benefits...Who knows what's next for me...maybe that whole kissing thing again.... *shudder* (baby steps)