I've had some people question me & my decisions quite a bit. I think we all do. Nobody can make everybody happy.
Lately I've had more question me it seems. I won't go into detail because it's just not necessary.
What's important to note that when we got married, we knew Mark was very sick. We also knew times would be tough.
What we didn't do was stop living. If anything we lived more.
Just because Mark was struggling with health issues, we weren't going to just sit around & wait for him to die or sit around & just let me take care of him.
My uncle gave us the best advice at our wedding: Dream Big
And dream big we did.
A year after Mark's transplant we bought a house together. We had been renting a house right across the street from the hospital as Mark was so sick & it was much easier then.
But we always wanted our own house & one year after his surgery we moved into it.
We also wanted a baby & we did everything to bring a baby home. Who cared if Mark was sick? The truth is no one knows when our time is done. I myself could get sick or hit by a car & die tomorrow. Does that mean I need to stop dreaming & stop living?
Nope. If anything we need to live more.
I can't even put into words how much Hannah means to us & how much she's changed our lives. I've seen more smiles with Mark in the last 3 years than I've ever seen.
We're living an amazing, dream-fulfilled life.
We're also realistic. I can tell you Mark & I have had some very hard conversations. Conversations with lots of tears and hugs. Conversations most people never have or think about having. They are private so I won't share. But we have no regrets. If something happened to either of us, we've said what we've needed to say and done what we needed to do. Not that it won't be hard but I know we're both at peace.
We've also lived life together. And we have an amazing daughter together. She's the best thing that's ever happened to us.
She was sent to rescue both of us.
We cherish every single day. We live for today, not tomorrow. We're never thinking "That can wait". We're thinking "Let's do it now"
Because we never know when doing it now won't be an option
So yes, Mark is sick. Yes, we struggle. Yes, we have a daughter together. Yes, we dream big.
Yes, we live.
Tomorrow is not promised. Our days are numbered. Dream big. Live big.
Don't live like you're dying--live like you're living.
And give your spouses & children hugs & kisses & tell them you love them every single day.
